To My Cocoon Must I Return *****

To mine cocoon, I must return
Curled, up like, a foetus
Within me misery, liveth;
Carrying, this ache within
Stifling me...
Find cannot, an anodyne, to mine anima
It's killing me!
Outside my world's grey
The floodgates have opened, suffocating
Drowning, me...
A gale's blowing outside, the leaves from my trees
Dancing, in the wind...
Just like me, turbulence ragging, within me
From he I've walked, no other choice left, to me
The silence's, a killer fragmenting, I'll be
So hard, to think of much, else
He's embedded within me...       
In my mind, I cry why!
Why did you make me walk, away!
You were, the Stellar in my skies,
Scintillating, down on me...
Filling my heart, with wonder, in how life
Should be lived...
For, living really I was not, merely existing
Carrying, this ache...
Echoing, through me a life half lived...
Like that caterpillar, escaping her chrysalis,
Metamorphosing, into a beautiful, butterfly
Then going on to multiply
Sinching her wings and die!...
I knew not any other, way than fly from, tree 
to tree searching nectar, & go on breathing
But I guess, I've become bothersome
Curbing my wings, so flutter I could not, to thee
Whatever I do, not enough for you...
Why should I apologise, unaware of any misdeed!
I've committed, no crime apart from, wanting you
Is it a crime-loving you?
Little by little my souls dying, without you
Missing your eyes, gazing at me
That lilt in your voice,
The way you've touched me, my heart
Confounded I'll be if I know, why!
You've touched my soul!
And like that butterfly, forlornly
Touching, ground stepped, upon and dying
A life extinguished...