A Higher Plateau ====

It's rather invigorating
Yah!
One feels light, of mind high in spirit 
On top of my world standing
Way beyond imagination...
Casting my eyes far and wide
It's magnificence, spellbound leaving you
As if God cast a spell, on your little world
A world struggling to survive, the beastliness
Of those surrounding you...
Facing you, falsity in their masks   
Ripping your heart, till the last drop of blood
Sips through...
A heart they have not, noughts new!
Their miserable lives, so false towards you...
This is when I need my Purbecks of Dorset
Lifting my spirits a hundrefold, its true
On the very top of my world standing
Mesmerising view!
Words you have not.
Running through the emotion
Filling your heart,
Help you cannot, a silent tear spilling   
Emotionally in awe the beauty surrounding you
Far and wide casting your eyes
Beyond the horizon far...
Swaying in the wind grasses, a golden ocean
Undulating in the breeze...
Facing that mountain, up and down hills
Before exhaustion, spilling out of you.
The exertion your limbs, refusing to pull through
Your mind crying out
To the maximum forcing bleeding you
So hard to breathe, pausing admiring the view
In your mouth, your hearts jumping out of you     
Shaking legs the exertion dragging, you
One more step breaking through
Another breath, catching up with the rest of you
Reaching your goal, scanning far and wide the view
Collapsing on your knees, on top of your world
Your pulsating heart fighting, for oxygen
Slowing down for a moment or two...
One heart beating excessively, like a drum   
Boom, boom...
Ones mind the endorphins, lifting you
The ecstasy, the adrenalin pumping through
Gazing about you
Lifting your mood your spirits
To a higher plateau!!

Whispers In The Wind

In the vastness of our world
Why must one feel so alone, so lonely
But if I whisper long and slow
Will you hear me, my love
Will you hear, the whispers in the wind
That whistling sound...
Going round and round, that ghostly sound
It's me calling you, come to me don't you see!
But you my love, do not hear me
You do not answer me!
There's a fire, burning in my heart
Waiting, waiting for you to quench it
Yet I know, I know my love, you share this need
This obsession, driving me insane
Cannot eat or sleep, my love
You're beneath my skin...
In the distance I see you,
You're so young and beautiful, my love...
In the darkness of my nights, I yearn for you
But my head tells me, do not be foolish
But my heart, my heart's fragmenting
Shall I whisper, much louder, my love
I have not the strength, to whisper much louder
It makes no difference...
Ahh! On the horizon far I see you
Is it a mirage, or an illusion
Missing a beat my heart, this vision of you
You're so young and beautiful!
That, proud gait in your walk, your eyes
The way you stand, looking at me...
Please! Look not at me, that way
What chance have I, my love
If you look at me, that way
Your mesmerising eyes affects me
Bewitching me!!
My heart cry's for me, my love
How can I, let you go...
You must want me not, my love
It's not right wanting me, please!
I know, I've whispered in the winds,
Didn't think you heard me, my love
You're sending shivers, down my spine
Butterflies fluttering, in my blood
It's beyond me!
The sight of you, playing delicious havoc
With me, my love...
Begging, please let me go...
The intensity of this love's right beyond me
But it's not right to keep you, my love
Cling not to me, please!
I must let you go...
Although the fire, in my blood
Will keep burning for you
My love!!

Running Riot +++++

Running Riot

My brain's running riot,
It's hard controlling, my thoughts
echoing through me...
The imagery, fighting one's mind
Under control, keeping one's feelings, intact
Should I write, my thoughts my way
Into conflict, my words getting me
They that understand not me, my mind
Half measures won't do...
But my uncontrollable mind, control cannot
The visions within me...
Good bad, ugly or indifferent
The consequences I must live with...
Dear lord!
I've flipped, what I've said and do
Acting first, thinking not in, anyway
It's inconsequential, once voiced, relief!
Things that I've aspired, not slow in coming, forward
My friends, I drive insane,
With, my imagery my wants refrain, cannot from voicing... 
Uncontrollable, thoughts desires
One's mind, a brain, control cannot
Like a child, wanting this toy, no other will do
Setting one's mind, from the start,
Uncompromisingly...
I'll always try seeing, things as they are
Like a tunnel vision, not
Bumbling through life, indifferently
Argue cannot, or reason in any, way
The ambivalence, of being me
Leaving me dumbfounded, the consequence
of my acts...
Should I have acted, in any such way,
maybe not, no way!
Going from A to Z in my every day of my days
One day knocking at our door, imminently thegrim ripper, you'll have no say!
We think not what's to come our way, it's irrelevant.
But when my hearts full of love
For the one, that I love, should I love not!!
There won't be, un-contradictory thoughts nor irrational ways...
I've always been an impetuous being,
Spontaneous act first think later, my way
Spontaneity rules my life
Permissible or not has always been my way
But in the acts through my life, whatever I do or say
Love has always resided, in my heart...
Even those that see things, not my way
Love those that love me not...
Even as I loved with every, once I had, in me!
Not easy letting go, those that one, loves
The conspiracy, the fatality of a false, love
This obsessive love wanted, not in any way
The best about me, or maybe not
Little by little, love takes root, in my heart
Those in my life, day in day out
I'll always fight for those that, I love
Half measures, there won't be with my love
Unconditionally...   
There are no preconditions, with my love
Ask not why I love! I love just because
I love...
Come whatever may!! 

Your Phrases ++++++

Your Phrases

Darling, you're not responsible, for me
falling for you...
Just your eyes, the windows to your soul
Just your eyes darling, are guilty
For the way, I feel for you...
Yet you say you've done nought,
encouraging, me my feelings...
Always, so careful keeping that lid upon,
my feelings or your feelings...
Yet I knew not, I felt this way, for you 
Until you, admonishing me protestingly
Why, did I not realised, or know
Didn't see the danger, of falling for you.
But your eyes, a temptation to me!
Deeply into my soul, penetratingly
Darling! Just a look from you is enough
Making me, falling apart fragmenting
Your phrases your words, incandescently, 

burning embers looking, into your eyes. So far, far away you'll be!... 
In my dreams!!
Yah!
Confoundedly, I do dream of you
Your gaze, penetrating right through, me 
And in my minds, mind...Wow!
Your eyes challenging, what's happening to me.
Yet, I looked not at all for this...
Turbulence within me, my mind
Relax cannot sleep, an impossibility
Turmoil, within me!
But like a chameleon, your changing
Drastically, changing your colours, before me 
I miss when you're not there, reaching for me 
Misery residing in me, when you I cannot see, you
A straight answer, you never give me...
Over time, you've changed, no more good, nights
Evoking, freely from you...
No more gazing into your eyes, kissing you
When all I want, is holding you...
Feel your heart, beating against mine, and feel
Feel you touching, your mind with mine 
Uncontrolably, convulsions running, through me 
Into a frenzy, we've loved through the night
Thinking, not wanting nought...
Your phrases, euphorically
Always, be with me   

I Shall Exist +++++++++

I shall Exist...

Many Moons have gone by
As I sit, beneath the blue, blue sky   
In this silent world locked. as I watch the skies
Trapped within this bottle,
Watching life going by, whilst I exist, just 
Something wrong, there must be with me
leaving me in a quandary...
Making me feel!! 
Why! Did you make me feel!
Should have left me in that, bottle, that was my world
Feelings dead, within me...
Why must you, pull that cork, setting me free!
Free, from the dead feelings, inside of me!
Now spilling out these feelings...
What have you done?
Feeling good was optional to me! 
About my world going, no words from you
Just needed someone thought, I found one in you
You brought out feelings, I knew not existed
Was having fun, I must say silly me!
Pulling out sticks, ignoring me
A heart I possess and feeling too
Silly fool, my heart cries for me
Those that know me not, why
take umbrage, at what I do and say
Even at my sale by date, they still try
To catch my eye, catch me unaware's
By now! I should have known not to care
If the windows, of my world, cast a glance and stare 
looking, deeply into my soul, getting not anywhere
But you, my friend, gave me more than I've asked for...
Although, was having fun like never before!
You filled me my mind, with visions
Possible I thought not, foolish me!
Ignorance is not a must, my eyes wide open you see
Missing a beat my heart's, somersaulting...
Where does this leave me! a heart in sorrow
In my ambiguity, this foolishness
The slapper, you brought out in me
To this point, I know not how we came to be
Must have had this need in me
To cast my arms and fly, amongst the birds in the skies 
That Condor undulating, those thermal winds, of life...
Experiencing, a life you said was there for me
Life's for, living life's too short...
That life I've lived such a short, while
I knew madness, would be, but a hoot I gave, not
Enjoying too much, what can I say!
Now, must crawl back into my bottle, where I
should have been...
Like a genie, finishing my days, in desultory...
Your teasing, I'll miss such a lot
Et Tu!
I do exist!!             

   

A Merman!! ++++++

A Merman!

Sprawled on my rock, for all to see
His eyes were deep and dark, as my oceans
Viscous, dark pools, I see in he
Lying, on my rock, how dare he!!
Disturbing my mind!
Deep dark eyes, gazing at me...
Oh dear lord, his hair as dark as the night
His skin, silky glistening lustrously,
staring at me...
Look not at mt thus!! I admonish he
His face chiselled, his nose lifting a little
His lips red like ripe cherries...
Biting his lip unconsciously, as if he's not sure
Ambiguity not present in he...
His arms strong, his shoulders wide
chiselled, his torso...
He mesmerised me!
So sure of himself, no ambiguity about he...
His face had that little, Je ne sais quoi
Perfection, I'll say gorgeous!!
How can one be as gorgeous as he!
Think I could not, I didn't want to think
In trouble, I'll always be best, if I think not, an oddity
Look at me not thus!
Emerging myself I'll be, How can you!!
His eyes viscous, deep dark pools
Then changeable, darkest bluest I've ever seen
Blue as the night sky, deepest oceans fathom deep like
a chameleon, changing before me!...
Enthralled, was I by he!!
That smile, amazingly he seemed to be
bewitching, me!!
Am, taken into cool, aquamarine waters,
mesmerising, me his fluidity...
His move's like a ballet, spinning En-Pointe
Magnificently it seemed to me...
His move's like a Dolphin's, the purity, the elegance
His laughter, penetrating bewitching, me...
Like a Siren's song, penetrating reaching, a crescendo
A madness surging through me...
In the eyes of my mind, I still see he
Mocking, gazing at me.
As he slighters into the sea ...
A Merman!! Did I see! was I dreaming!
An illusion, lying by the water's edge lapping, over me...
A summer cool breeze, whispering, dreamily 
My imagination I dare say, barking mad!!
As I leave, glancing back, at the turquoise clear

waters, there's no sign of he...         
Embedded in my memory...
He'll always be!

Bright Like A Diamond +++++

Bright Like A Diamond

The sun's shining through my window
It's calling to me...
Bright, so bright as a diamond
I can hardly see!
So hard trying, lifting this gossamer,
from my mind...
Impeding me from visualising,
that golden, sphere glistening brightly
Light, before darkness set's in
Now, deeming hiding from me!
A cat and mouse game eluding, me...
Now you see, then you go away, from me...
Behind that cloud, hiding, obliterating, the light
from my eyes, I cannot disguise, you...
My head won't let me,
Calling, smiling at me, tempting me
The room's spinning on me, as if drunk I'd be
Yet he's looking at me winking, calling me
But my legs, won't hold me, such a bane you see
The room spinning on me!
But get up, I must crawl if I must be
The effort's such leaving, me weak collapsing
On my bed lying, the sun's talking to me
Get up you must be!
Hello. Mr sunshine, won't you help me,
from the way am feeling, today
It's way beyond me...
So nice greeting me!
My ass, I cannot move, from my bed this

emptiness;
Wait!! Wait, Mr sunshine for me
Truly, am trying can't you see...
Lifting my head from my pillow,

without draining me...

As if am, all at sea!

Bobbing on the waves, nauseously 

Lying down, best option, for me 

Until this feeling disperses, from me  

It's a beautiful day, gazing through my window 

Cumulous clouds, gliding dispersingly 

White, rippling waters, the sea across from me... 

The sun's not waiting, moving away from me   

A weakness feeling, shitless  you see

But of course, you do not see!! 

But get up I must, make an effort, won't you help,

Mr sunshine, still peeping at me, calling me 

Get your butt, from that bed come and dance with me...       

I'll try truly I will, Mr sunshine
If this gossamer disperses, from my mind
Impeding me from visualising
Your scintillating rays, rising my hands to the skies...
Worshipping, that golden sphere
Like an aura crowning me
Like a diamond...
Mesmerising me!!

The indignity of life

The Indignity Of Life

Good Morning My World
This morning tears are falling, from my skies
As if He is carrying, a heavy load, Your God!
The skies, so grey, the colour I abhor
Leaving, my spirits dragging, abhorrently in the mire!
The indignity of life, that in places is so, cheap
No one cares, for the neighbour, the man the child
That carries the brunt, for the horrors of our world,
Gone mad!
Hungry for power over all, destroying our world
The devastating happenings in the Far East, the Palestinians,
the Israelites, the Syrians, needing their heads knocked, together
Witnessing the devastation, around those, forsaken worlds
The sufferings of all those, innocents...
Their tears are like tears falling, from the heavens
Without a hope, of a tomorrow, dragging their souls
Without a care, destroying their world
Their little haven!!
Bombing all around, where once peace, abounded
Now!! A wasteland, destroyed by those knobheads
In the name of their naffing, religion!!
Those hypocrites, that dare to use their god's name in vain
It's immoral, it's an abomination, it's disgraceful
It's a ghastly state of affairs, a sight for sore eyes!
Just to satisfy, those bastards, madmen in power
And when all is said and done, in the name of religion!
For crying out loud...
Who needs a religion, anyhow! If that's all they can do!!
Murdering, the weak minded, the innocents in the name of their god!!
It's heartbreaking, witnessing the destruction all around
Our world fighting for supremacy! 
I a room, they should be put and knock, their heads together
Until sense, they can see!
Meanwhile, tears are falling from our skies, our heavens
From every little orifice, of our world
Because, those greedy, stupid buggers, are killing our world!
Without refrain, from those that can hold together,
Without the spilling of blood!
The cessation of the abomination of the innocents
That, are, first and foremost in line, of those murdering, hyenas
Those pitiless individuals, from saving our world from this misery!!
An ocean, their tears would fill, would fill an ocean or two...
Our oceans are rising, probably their tears...
Overflowing oceans, rivers of blood filling our world
Since times immemorial!!
This lunatic, this Putin another one to watch for, greedy for power!!
But what do I know!!
Am just an observer, without a say, have been all along
Still sitting tight waiting, for the shit to hit the fan
Those that are, fighting for supremacy, overall and sundry
But, It's our children that'll spill their, blood paying the final sacrifice
In the fight for supremacy...
And us mothers, broken-hearted preying for this madness, to cease
Our children we had not, to be sacrificed to those lunatics...
They should be locked up and the keys, thrown away!
Witnessing, our tearful world, children weeping, uncontrollably
And us mothers, unable to defend our children
From the ugliness of our world, as the madness takes hold...
Of the feral ways, of those that once were, human beings
Now, baying for blood like feral hyenas
Viciously, ripping your heart away, they have no soul!
Killing machines...Infamy!
Indoctrinated by those, the letting of blood
That should have been sanctified...
But life has always been so cheap, so long it's not their blood being spilt...
Why can't the world, just live and let live!
Far easier for the peoples of our world, wouldn't you say
Instead of fighting for supremacy!!
Overall and sundry!!
Have a good day those that can,
But forget not those, that cannot!!

To My Cocoon Must I Return *****

To mine cocoon, I must return
Curled, up like, a foetus
Within me misery, liveth;
Carrying, this ache within
Stifling me...
Find cannot, an anodyne, to mine anima
It's killing me!
Outside my world's grey
The floodgates have opened, suffocating
Drowning, me...
A gale's blowing outside, the leaves from my trees
Dancing, in the wind...
Just like me, turbulence ragging, within me
From he I've walked, no other choice left, to me
The silence's, a killer fragmenting, I'll be
So hard, to think of much, else
He's embedded within me...       
In my mind, I cry why!
Why did you make me walk, away!
You were, the Stellar in my skies,
Scintillating, down on me...
Filling my heart, with wonder, in how life
Should be lived...
For, living really I was not, merely existing
Carrying, this ache...
Echoing, through me a life half lived...
Like that caterpillar, escaping her chrysalis,
Metamorphosing, into a beautiful, butterfly
Then going on to multiply
Sinching her wings and die!...
I knew not any other, way than fly from, tree 
to tree searching nectar, & go on breathing
But I guess, I've become bothersome
Curbing my wings, so flutter I could not, to thee
Whatever I do, not enough for you...
Why should I apologise, unaware of any misdeed!
I've committed, no crime apart from, wanting you
Is it a crime-loving you?
Little by little my souls dying, without you
Missing your eyes, gazing at me
That lilt in your voice,
The way you've touched me, my heart
Confounded I'll be if I know, why!
You've touched my soul!
And like that butterfly, forlornly
Touching, ground stepped, upon and dying
A life extinguished...       

Dunes Of My Mind ******

Dunes Of My Mind

Gazing at you, the light in your eyes
The way you're looking, at me
I stand stupefied...
Why?
What, does he see in me!!
Depths of his eyes,
Fathoms, the deepest of oceans
Immersing in...
He came to me, resist could not
The light in his eyes, in darkness
Before, dawn rushed in...
Echoing, through me, my senses
I stand, mesmerised...
Cannot resist, to touch to feel
In his ambiguity, in the way that he
touches, my mind...
Irrevocably, sending shivers down
my spine...
Burning wild my, blood
Closing my eyes sensual, imaginings
On fire, burning wild 
His touches incandescently
As I, dance indolently, before he
Lazily, smiling, gazing at me,
By the shore, oceans pounding, wild
Spewing white waters, over me
In my imagination, I see
Golden sand's, stretching before, me
Blue skies, like his eyes, so blue!
At the dunes, I run through
There's nought but sky, above me
The condors, swaying flying
Riding, those thermal, winds!...
How I wish I could fly, rising my arms, to the skies
Taking off like a kite, flying in the breeze
Undulating, dancing indolently!!...
Then a butterfly, in the vision of mine eyes
Joynes me and dances, eloquently
Undulating, wild & wilder!
Metamorphosing, before mine eyes, He
That I've created in my mind,
That elusive creature...
I've moulded with mine hands, just so 
His eyes, his nose the curve of his mouth
A little curviness, when he smiles...
His hair, dishevelled, curling around, his eyes
His body, standing high in his stance,
As I've, created him...
His arms, reaching out to me
His legs slightly apart, standing his ground
His arms, akimbo looking into the distance
His head erected, in his proud stance...O my!!
In the dunes of my mind, I've created perfection
His hair, red curling a little on his, shoulders
Flustered I cried, what have I done, with the boy!
I've created, his likeness not beautiful
Not like his heart, he knows how to feel.
His eyes, smiling softly into mine
I kissed his eyes, his mouth
The rest I've left up to him...
His imagination knew no, bounds
Setting my senses dangerously, high
Undulating, dancing on theDunes of my mind !!
 
                 
       

To Begin The Biginning *****

To Begin The Beginning

At the first light, of dawn
The door opened, as he walked in
Bracing myself, from the morning,
cool breeze...Ahh!!
Closing my eyes, inhaling the scent of, he!
Just, couldn't believe, he was standing
right, there in my face!
Looking, so magnificent so knowing,
dangerous...
We stood, facing one another,
for what seemed, an eternity...
And I, smiling shyly stood before, he
uncertain, of what to do!
So I just followed, his lead...
I held my hand, to touch the contours
of that much-desired face...
To touch to feel, to want!!
He just stood, looking at me, with that devil,
may care look...
With this insolent look, daring me,
doing, absolutely nought!!
To explore, daring me, so with uncertain hands
I explored every inch of him!!
Was mesmerised, by this god, man, like
Standing before me, a devilish look, in his eyes
Hypnotising me!!
Awakening, I felt, as from a deep, sleep
Wanting to touch, wanting what, I knew not!!
But he knew, how to play me, intrinsically
The waves, the sensations cruising through, me
O'Lord I prayed, let it not stop...
Musn't stop, yet I held back!
For I knew, had I not I'd be lost forever...
Forever lost!
This awakening, had me feeling, frightened
Yet wanting to repeat, the experience...
Ecstatically...
Like dopamine imploding my mind, my senses
The sensations, he put me through, wild!!
Yet it left me wanting, what wasn't, sure...
Uncertainty, in my mind there must be more!   
There must be more of that I, was sure had to be!
To repeat the experience, terrified me
For I knew, I wouldn't, be holding back
I had this wanting, this need in me!!
Innocent as I was...
Wanting to feel the sensations, echoing through me
Holding me back, left me wanting more,
Through the process, going not as if, punishing me
Go away, you're just tormenting me!
Holding me close, sensing my uncertainty
The knowing, look in his eyes
Seeing frustration in me...
Just looking out for you, said he smiling
Worry, not my love, it'll keep!!

Forget Me Not ******

Forget me not, my love
For I cannot open mine eyes
See you I cannot, no more!!
Where have you gone, my love
In my, very extremities, all our yesterdays
Love would stay and laughter would play our way
Forget me not, my love!
Looking into your eyes, I saw stars
Scintillating, in the very depths of you
Your eyes blue, like my seas, my skies
And my oceans overflowing, right up to my eyes
Forget, me not my love!
Fields of blue, we walked through
Just like a sea, swaying in the breeze...
In a dreamland, always we'd be
You'd kiss my mouth, my heart, you'd kiss
And in the recesses, of my mind...
I still see, the light of love, in your eyes
A handful of those tiny, little blue flowers
You'd pick for me, remember.
Placing on mine, hands murmuring,
Forget me not, my love!!
As the years passed, echoing through my mind
I can see still, excitement in, your eyes
In the memories, my tired eyes!
In the recesses of me my mind...
I've touched your mind, your heart
Forget me not my love!
Reaching, into the depths of you
My roots growing onto your heart
And yours, taking hold of mine, heart
Forget me not my love!! 
Yet you see my love, I see not, you!
In the passing of time, blurry my eyes became
But in my minds eyes, I can see you
In all our yesterdays, there was love to play
Beneath the stars!
Forget me not, my love
The moon in her element shone her light,
upon us...
Just enough to see, stars dancing in your eyes
Through the night weeping, reaching out to you
When your touch, feel I cannot
Forget you I cannot, my love!
That seed deeply buried, erupting in my heart
All my life, I've waited for you...
Yet all alone, I find myself recollecting times, past
When in the darkness, of mine nights
You'd make me cry, at the touch
Burning my mind, my blood, embers high
Forget me not, my love...
Once young was I! I had dreams
That you and I would last for, all times
Yet I can see, not my love, in my mind's mind
A little rheumy tired, my eyes see you, cannot
Forget me not my love!!
Where have you gone?
You've gone away from me!
Feel I cannot your touch, upon my visage
Your kiss upon my lips, taking thirsty, sips
The laughter, kissing your, mouth your eyes
Making love!!
Forgetting, you not, I tried my, love
Forget, me not my love!! 

Salve!! *****

Salve!

Caro Mio...
So, you've returned!
As I stretched, looking at you,
Reaching,  becoming, awake.
Standing before me, the look in his eyes.
As if he hasn't seen me!
Visually, straining straight, to you my eyes
Drinking the essence of you, my convoluted mind
Hallucinating maybe, this gossamer, before my eyes
Cassius! Caro Mio, smilingly, gazing at he 
Come and lie here by me...
Standing there, like a god!
Expecting to throw, myself at he
Difficult, it wouldn't be!
Look at me! Not that way...
For am not as, young as I used to be
In your stance, your eyes caressing, me.
Darling, I've something for you...
Lie here close by me;
And I'll administer to you
Caro! Your eyes darling, your eyes
Will be the death of me!!
A little fragile, feeling today,
Been going out of my, mind
As you chase, the rabble, away...
Can't bear, that chariot of yours
I like it not, as your speeding away
A cloud of dust, following you...
Who's to say, what'll happen, to you!
I like it not, darling, Ti-Amo...
Yah! Haven'tmyself!
Or is it this vision of you, making me feel,
Less than real...
Playing, havoc my mind my, senses
Every which way, I look your standing there
Burning all my defences...
The incandescence of your eyes
Your, aura's all around me,
Am struggling, darling, wanting not going, there
For, I know I'll be lost, once this feeling
Disperses, from me!
Like a demi-God, gazing at me.
Penetratingly!...
My heart so full of you, my eyes
Drowning, in the essence of, you have been, blind!
In a labyrinth, finding myself, knowing not what to do.
Be a darling and lie here, with me!
And I'll treat you, like the god you, should be
Shut your eyes, open your mouth, just enough
And I'll feed, you these cherries, they're as succulent.
As your lips...
Those grapes, you'll love delivered, one at the time,
Followed, by a kiss...
Just that little game, we play, remember!
Laying, there indolently
Making, love with mine, eyes...
With a sip, of this, nectar from, the gods,
Intoxicatingly... 
Hurry not, darling hurry not! 
For we've all the time, in the world
Dipping another cherry, between your lips
Followed, by a kiss, divine!
Rupturing, my mind...
Under my touch, I can feel the fibrillation of your heart.
Such sublime a feeling, to my minds, mind...
Flowing, through our veins, our blood
Burning embers, in our minds... 
For, I too have been, sipping this nectar from, the gods... 
Darling open your lips, following a grape, with a kiss.
This feeling within me, the sublimity divine
Like opium, filling my mind.
This gossamer, impeding me from, visualising you
Am lost, without you.
For all times!!

In From The Storm *****

In From The Storm


The storm came in unexpectedly
Howling wind's,
Screaming like a banshee...
As if the earth
This primitive earth had fallen, from her axis
The urgent, knocking at the door
Rather surprised, anyone would be out, there
In the eye of the storm...
Opening the door, I was faced with he, standing
before me...
With the strobing, flash lightning, behind he 
Amplifying, the contours of his body, his face
Soaked through, was he!
Seeking shelter, from the storm, in between
The darkness and the lightning...
I asked him in...
Curiously, I stood before, him handing him, a towel
Thank's, said he rather crossly...
For allowing himself, to lose his way, saying
I could see not, losing my, way
The power of the winds so strong, lashing rain
The lightning electrifying, I knew not where I'd be 
I saw your, blinking blue lantern,
So coming in from the storm!
Hellishly out there!
A word in edgeways, I could get not
Its ok, you're welcome said I, smiling
A stranger, coming in from the storm!!
Using the towel, I handed drying, himself
By the window standing, was he
The lantern, lighting his face...
I could see, him in semi-darkness
How beautiful, he was...
I would not release his stare, for he was
staring at me
His red hair, longish rather wild,
Curling about his eyes...
Making him, that much more desirable
His grey-blue, eyes staring!
Wanted, so much to touch his face, thus
Just a caress on his cheek...
The storm affected, him much more than, he'd let on
By the window standing at half, light     
He looked like a sculpture, like David in the
Roman, era...
A real Renaissance of a man!!
A living human sculpture,
He belongs to me!
Inhaling the scent of, he a distance of a few feet
Heightening my senses...
I'd love to run my fingers, through his red hair
Feel his face, against my cheek
Kiss, his eyes his lips, curved just so
He's the man I've created, in my mind 
The one I've sketched, a real Matisse:
Every line, every sinew, in his body!!
I've asked him to sit down,
Not that, I wanted him to 
I'd rather admire, his torso so beautiful
Leaving, me in turmoil
This vision, before my eyes
Smouldering, that look, sending shivers through
my spine,
Indeed not, in the extremities   
Undulating, on to touch, to caress
Softly, touch his cheek, thus...
I could feel, the waterfalls behind, my eyes
My actions believe, I could not
And by the light of the blue, lantern
Slowly, I kissed his lips
Placing my hands, on his visage looking
into his eyes...
Believe I could not, he came in from the storm
With bated breath, uttering unashamedly
My words, let me, hold you!!                 
Before, the rain,
Before, the storm came in... 

By Candle Light *****

By Candle Light


Beneath the sky at night
Candlelight shining, in your eyes
Just dinner for two, you and I!
The moon, by the poolside
Casting shadows, upon my mind
In the velvety, darkness, of my skies
Dancing scintillating, little stars
Glistening as bright as, your eyes,
Intensely gazing, staring at me!
Across the table, I reached to touch
Your lips with mine...
That amusing, look from you, making me smile
Drinking the very essence of you, was I!
I was lost, at all times...
It took every once of me!
Not to touch, your mind with, mine...
Playing games, with mine eyes, I realised
The moons, reflection by the poolside
Her gravity pulling at the strings, my heart
And the cicadas, singing infernally
In a chorus, a symphony, mesmerising me
As I drank, the essence of you,
Intoxicatingly!
Before me, naughtiness danced, indolently
Raising our glasses, celebrating
A crystal clear sound...
Ahh, the look of you!
Control cannot the uncontrollable
It took every once of me, to quieten
My fibrillating heart, it's a possibility a
Hunger within me!!
Possibly playing games, with my heart
My mind so full, of you!
Bursting, my heart at the sight, of you
Every morsel, I've eaten, constricting my breath

For food, I need not, but this hunger!
Playing footsie across from, you!
Mine eyes, drinking the essence, of you.
Ambling, through the moonlit, night
Hand in hand!
I kissed, that first time, your eyes your, lips
Ahh! It took every once, of me darling
To quieten the beast within me...
My primitive, heart
I could feel your's, beating against mine,
Percussion my blood!
Such a long, time darling, to be at one
Yet I know, I know I mustn't get, carried,
with the flow...
But it's hard so hard darling!
All I want is, making love to you
Underneath, the moonlit night
With the cicadas singing, infernally constricting
my heart!
With you and I dancing, indolently by the light of the moon     
Control cannot this need, kissing you, goodnight
But this goes beyond you, or me running, to hold me tight...
Your need is stronger than mine,
I can see in your eyes!!
As we loved, beneath a blanket of stars,
Twinkling, in the night...
Upon my skin, playing, piano pianissimo
Whispering, softly!
Regressing, insistently to a forte, fortissimo
I was lost, lost in the momentum, of time
Like a primitive, being,
That very first, time...

Monsieur le quack *****

Hi My Friends

This morn went to see Monsieur le quack!
At the hospital, a Mr Lyons!! Ggrrrr
Except he was no quack, but a wonderful doc
A real consultant!
A lovely Indian man, with a beautiful wrack
Wow! What a man!!
Cool down you're, little hussy,
You're not supposed, to fancy your Doc!
My conscience telling me...
A girl can look, can she not, whilst he was placing,
electrodes on little me!
As soon as I sat waiting, giving me a hot bottle to hold
Keeping my hands warm...
Then he comes for me!
Wow! My eyes jumping from their sockets
What a vision!!
Sitting down, placing electrodes, on my hands and fingers
It seemed he couldn't get the right reading
No results coming his way...
He kept saying relax, won't you...
But how could a girl relax, with such vision before my eyes,
An impossibility...
I just shut my eyes, breathing easy and slow
Quieting, my mind somehow!
So he sends for some hot water, keeping my hands warm
Then he tried again, no show...
Asking him, am I alive, or am I just Frankenstein
He poked and prodded, needles stuck on me
I was drawn on and measured, then more needs stuck on
It seemed, my nervous system, is somewhat compromised
Then he sends for a bucket of hot water, to place my feet
As he placed his electrodes, on my arms legs and feet...
He was very good, explaining the procedure
I felt like Frankenstein, my nerves pulsating
It was weird, seeing my fingers dancing in their own accord
Our bodies are quite noisy, it seems
As he plugged me on, kind of tingling, electrodes           
I, think there's a problem in the offing...
Don't like what on my mind!!
He warned me to, worry not...
And I shall try not to worry until I have reason to
But in my minds mind!! I see my sister...
I'll just have to wait, for the results, till then am cool!
Then back to the neurologist, once again
Mind boggles!!

Glorius Day *****

Glorius Day

Trekking across, country, far and wide went I
A backpack, on my back camera, by my side...
Trekking boots and sticks giving me wings to fly!
Up and down, country, across valleys, crags galore
My heart beating twenty to the dozen
Jumping, from my mouth, once more
Stopping and starring, lifting my spirits, high
By the vision, facing me,
the beauty before, my eyes I, stand mesmerised
On my mind, he'll be since we started
And what a full, I'll  be if I see he
Must go on, we'll always end up by the sea
Might as well be in paradise, not a soul to be seen
Except, in my minds, mind I see thee
Looking at me gloriously...
They'll be no hope for me if I lay, my eyes on he
Arrived at the beach, around noonday
Throwing my pack, removing my trekking boots
Ahh, fresh air, my feet can breathe!
And I disrobe but leaving, that something
Covering my modesty...
Running into the cool water, making me yelp
Cold, sipping right through my bones
Unexpectedly, a great big wave,
As a  none swimmer,
Knocking me from my pins,
Waves over me, scratches, on my thighs
Went down hard, trying not to panic...
At the retreating waves, crawling up from the sea
Was rather soaked, more than I expected to be
Like a drenched rat, coughing and spluttering
Dripping hair, what a sight to see!
And the old boy, his dratted camera
Recording my every, movement...
Never mind, that I nearly drowned!
Like, a she-beast not a pretty sight,
Emerging, from the depths, wild hair, gesturing
I could have murdered he!!   
Homeward bound, clambering over boulders
after boulders...
Fallen from the cliffs above...
Quite, easy stepping, over those great big, rocks
Truly, I felt I was on no man's lands
Over, millennium, men crossing the same path,
before me...
Climbing, the same cliff face,
I swore I'd never do again!
Good lord!
You should, have seen me...
Backpack trekking sticks, to help me
Climbing, a rock face...
My heart in my mouth, hard to breathe...
Taking a moment or two, catching my breath 
Hurrah I did it, yet again!
Felt like a commander, in the secret service
Or simply Connie's madness, I dare say 
But it felt, I was dying, gasping for breath
Eventually, on the way home, my legs taking me 
By the way! That siren wasn't me 
Just a mermaid, emerging from the sea
And you do know, what sirens do, don't you!
Driving seafaring, peoples barking mad
With their singing!                 

The Illusion *****

The Illusion

Let the illusion disperse not
For am holding on thee...
This insanity, taking hold of me!!
O'Lord set me free, from this forsaken world
Destroying me, my sanity... 
When my heart's so full of he!!
Peace of mind, I have not embedded in my,

memory, is He!...
He cares, not if I live or die!!...
In my mind's mind, am calling for, he
He answers not me...
O' imbecility, what you do to me!
Taking the one so close to me...
Favouring not me!!
In my dreams, I call out his name
This ache within me...
Into a chasm, of mine own making, falling!!
Grasping for sanity!
Into this chasm, am falling refrain, can not,
Tears from flowing freely...
Without, any help from me!!
Quietly, silently dispersing through me
In emptiness, leaving me...
A vessel, floating into nothingness
A ghostly gossamer, invisibly...
O'Lord set me free...
From those, that understand not me!
This illusion, this misery!
Let the illusion, disperse not, why must he!
This illusive illusion, transcending through me
I see not thee!
What you've done to me!!
My mind fragmenting, ambiguously
Looking right through me, seeing not me...
Even when am right there
Before thee!!   

Ulysses His Name!! *****

Ulysses his name...

Right, off his trolley, was he!
Befriending, this bird named
Holly...
Easily they talked, pretty much
Through the evening, late night
Calling, her a bird, of the night
Always, staying up late, writing...
Pretty soon he got tired, of her
Excessive, writing...
Even though, she warned him
That an awful, lot did she, write.
And so, time passed fast, really fast
Before, you knew a year was up.
And writing, she didn't stop
She told him, such a lot...
He too shared, his thoughts his, probs
But tired, quickly he got...
She just, wouldn't shut up!
Everything under, the sun jabbering
If only he could, turn her off,
Bliss!
They shared, their work whilst
She favourable commented on his
Whilst bugger, all came her way...
He favoured her not at all.
Much preferring,
Common blond, bombshells!!...
That's not what she, was about
Just a friend, to talk,
Share, their thoughts, their work...
By her work, impressed he was, not
Too long, her poems, too many words
An imagination had, she!
Her, words can be, devilish hot naughty,
Not that she experienced, such a lot
Something, missing in her life,
Curiosity killed, the cat...
Curious was, she in how others, lived,
How life was, supposed to be...
Married young, one love through her, life
But ignorant, she was not...
Very open was she was she looking for something,
wondering!
Just, someone to share, thoughts
But was, she was after he!
Just, finding out how others, lived
She really did like he!
Tiresome her, curiosity became
Her words, she filtered not...
Question, after question,
Taking advantage, not of he,
Uncommunicative, he became
Things changed, irrevocably
She does miss him!
I guess goodbye, she must say
Or, silly he may think, she'll be!!...
Once, someone question, me about, he
She thought my, woes, transpired from he
I knew, not what she was, about
Saying, my troubles have nought with, he!
Just family...
Wonder, why she thought, thus
He hardly said a word, to me...
Unless she herself is involved, with, he!!
Very unpleasant was she move on, telling me
She liked, he!...
You're, very welcome to him,
He's nought to do with me!
Wonder, why he has nought, to say,
But she misses he!

The Lighthouse *****

The Lighthouse

The lighthouse, standing
On the edges, of the shore...
Warning, seafaring vessels, of dangerous rocks
Waiting, to rip their world, apart,
daring to come to close!!...
A very lonely place, a lighthouse will be!
Especially, for the lonely man, that stays
Holed up, night, after night
In that forsaken place!
Howling wind's all around, like a banshee
Ominous clouds, dark foreboding
Exuding fear into his soul.
Swelling seas, pounding infernally
Turbulently, smashing, against its walls
Without refrain!
Angry, seas furiously reaching, climbing high
And higher, pounding that lonesome, lighthouse
Angrily...
Seagulls, dancing in the winds,
those thermals riding...
Screeching, like infernal, tormented souls!
Then the skies, opening their floodgates
Like tears, from a constricted, heart unable
to take any more...
Broken hearted young man, dreaming of a time
Before the lighthouse...
When life was sweet, he had a dream.
A dream of love,
A dream of hope, being in love!
His dreams came, crashing all around, him
Like thunder, on his lighthouse...
Thumping those walls,
Crying out, in exasperation,
In anguish...
Hugging himself in sorrow
He wept, his heartbreaking
Curled thus, like a foetus
His dream so very, short
Immense sorrow...
As, if there was not, a tomorrow
Of, uttering, those, words again, I love you!!
Words, phrases the look, of love... 
The tenderness, of that kiss,
would be no more...
But that young man walked, tall
Walked proudly, looking those in the eye
Wiser, and a beautiful soul...
LOve may come again!
Who knows!!
 

My Island... *****

My Island...


There you are, my lovely
I'll never do things, by halves
Look through, photos if so inclined...
Might I write, a poem!
We'll see!
Am writing a book, an autobiography
Really am trying...
Except, my brain, won't let me.
Has left me, drained, spent
Emotionally, physically and psychological
Wish I could snap out, and just get on
About me my life, where, I've sprouted from
Where my roots lie...
My Madeira, my home, the spring,
where I was born...
My little paradise, on heaven, or earth...
Roots run deeply, within me!...
My island's very beautiful,
It's where the flowers grow...
It's called the pearl, of the Atlantic
Don't you know!! 
They, call it the Isle, of flowers
That much, it's true...
With, green coasts, tumbling down, to the seas
Coming across, awesome, scenery's
Foraging exploring, every little nook, and crannies
The waterfalls, the levadas, the beautiful flowering trees
The steepest mountain, crevices, precipices
Making your hair stand on end!
The Oleander, Hibiscus Poinsettia and Datura
To name a few...
The Bougainvillea, over every river
And every wall, that you see...
The colours, the diversity of colour, mesmerisingly
The agapanthus, Estrelicias, better know
As birds of paradise...
A symphony, of colours, the hydrangeas by the roadside
Pleasing my eyes, Orchids and Anthuriums,
In every garden, you see a profusion, of colour
Attacking my senses, standing in awe!
With the scent, of the Eucalyptus
Intermingling, with the Pine and Acacia trees
The scent's in the air the scent, welcoming me
To a place, where I used to be, me!...
Echoing, through me a time, of innocence,
With Rose coloured glasses, enamoured I'd be
A dopamine, to my mind, registering
Echoing, within me, life was beautiful...
That life missing, without a care in that, world
Our little paradise, almost abandoned, I see
Happiness left the buildings, where once,
Light danced, in our eyes!
The music, song and dance and laugher, echoing
Now sadness exuding, from every orifice,
Every wall, shadows hiding, within...
But moving on...
Stretching, far and wide, a panoramic view
Enriching one's eyes, turbulence within, me
Abandoning, my defences my, senses
In turmoil, falling waterfalls!
From the very, depths of me...
Majestic, mountains reaching, for the skies
Like a gossamer veil, peeking through, the clouds     
Like a bride, on her wedding day...
The sun, like an aura crowning, her...
Have you ever been above, the clouds!
Not on, a plane,
But standing, on the highest peaks...
Stretching before you, a sea of clouds
The fluffiest clouds, you'd ever seen
Cotton wool clouds, cumulous clouds...
And the sun, glistening like a diamond way, above...
No better, sight to see,
Soaring above, as if beyond eternity.
Like a bird, you soar, dancing indolently
Taking one's breath, away,
Swaying, into infinity...
A magnificent panorama, before your eyes
Gods work in all his, magnificence...
   

Punishing Me! *****

Darling!!
Why did you!
Make me walk, away?
So cold, darling, so cold!
Not a word, a caress from, you
Placidly, walking into the night,
Making me!
Trembling, my whole, being...
In the darkness, of my nights
Awaiting your touch, a word uttered...
Punishing me!!
A choice I had not, I was breaking up
Fragmenting, inside of me!
Hot and cold blowing
My, love you wanted not,
Out in the cold, leaving me,
When I so wanted, you to want me, too
In my, heart, am crying, silly fool, am I!...
Pride, I had not, looking into your, eyes
Drowning into a sea, of hopelessness...
What happened, my lovely...
What went wrong?
You were, the balm, quieting my soul!
Feelings, you've brought from within, me
I knew, not existed...
I liked feeling thus, bringing me, alive
From the existence, I was living...
Dead feelings, exhuming,
Into exultation...
That only in my, dreams existed
Now into yourself, you've gone
Leaving me to grapple, with
At the edges of hell, living...
Why did you, darling!
Why did you,
Make me walk away, from you
I wanted not too!!...
You were, killing me!
Dragging my soul, into hopelessness
Caring not! missing you!!
I can see you not, in my mind,s eyes
I cannot feel you!
Struggling to go on, without you...
You've killed the magic, the feeling
My mind's full of you...
Fragmenting, within me
I ask myself, why?
Why, do you affect, me so
I guess, roots just roots, taking hold, of me
Impossible, uprooting...
Within me, am fragmenting!

Like A Lament *****

Like A Lament

The moonlight kisses him, so beautiful
Shedding, light upon his eyes
Waiting, by the riverside, beneath the bridge
Won't be surprised, gazing upon his skies
Glistening, starlight in his eyes
Seeing beyond, his universe, trying...
Walking by the moonlight, seeing feeling
The delights, of such a night
And the moon, beaming at half light
Just enough to see, He standing in silhouette
Shadows trembled, in the darkness of the night
foreboding...
He stood by, the old ruins and, stared 
A velvety darkness, engulfing him
All around him whisperings
Like a lament!
Amongst the ruins, red dust, a trapped soul
Whisperings, between the trees,
A soul lost so, lost the old, temple
The gateways, trapped, irrevocably
Forever in a dream!!   
All alone sitting only thought, in his mind 
Writing, his words, his phrases
His ambiguous words, his verses of poetry!
Yesterday's words, of yesteryear
Solitude engulfing him...
Shadows all around
Surrounding him, darkness on his, mind
Between shadows and the light
Residing, within...
Whispering, to them, O' restless shadows
Be at peace, won't you!
For am not about to disturb you, your world
But to write my words, my words in solitude
Words phrases verses, recited lyrically
By the poet, residing within me... 
   

Life After Love *****

Life After Love!

An indolent sigh
Escaping the lid, off my mind
As I wake up, stretching,
Bringing, feeling into my arms
My eyes, I open wide, then close again
Scintillating, little diamonds,
Brought on by the sun...
Thinking of you,
In the depths of my mind
That obsessive, obsession, scaling high
That mountain I must climb...
Closing my eyes,
I cannot see you in my, mind!
Your smiling features, reaching,
Your eyes...
Struggling, to visualise...
Behind, the eyes of my mind, a gossamer
Escaping, not the mire, of my thoughts
Rampaging within...
From, this desultory, world am in
Deeply buried within, feelings
In a limbo, living...
A limbo, I've created, of my own
Exhuming, yesterday's feelings
Buried, deep within me...
Where, once light, shone in mine, eyes
At all times, wanting to live.
In, the darkness of mine, nights,
See I cannot your eyes...
Understanding not, the visions before, me
You cannot disguise, looking into your eyes
The emptiness, that I see
Deep within you!
Bumbling through life, without you!
I see not you!
Recognising, not this life, this existence
Where once, I danced indolently
Exotically, in a fury and abundance...
The romance, that once was inherently
My yesterday's,
When there was love, to play!
But, you know, you've reawakened, me!
Casting aside those feelings,
Into oblivion...
Now rampaging, between the darkness
Intermingling, with the light
A being that knows not, if there's
Life after love!!

In Your Eyes *****

In, Your Eyes
I can see it's time to depart
I can see, that faraway look that, tells me
It won't be, long...
And the truth is in your eyes, I must lose you
My heart cries, at the thought of losing you
Whether I gain or lose, it's written in the stars
That one day, you'll walk away, from me!
Musn't say, that I love, no way no how
But from the hilltops, I want to shout
My mountain high, the top of my world
From across the river, that's as angry, as you are
But, I'll say, I love you, never no more
But that's the nemesis in me, that devil in disguise
Or is it the poet, that cannot abide
The laughter within me, the love!
I love you more than, life
But, there again, I think you know.
Musn't say I love, no way no how!
After winning, I must lose you
That obsessive, obsession on my part
The sorrow, within nothing less than, infernal
As if a poison dart, has wounded my, heart
Killing me!
With the quest of, a poet's phrases of love
That has tasted, love real or, otherwise
From a lover to that stranger, I've become.
In your eyes, I can see the fire
Still burning within, you
Sparking minds, as our bodies, touch
Ambiguity, not anywhere as you, walk away
Leaving me!
In the storming night, the thunder
Above that mountain high.
The waterfall nearby, and I cried
I cried, fragmenting breaking, my heart
You're, much more than my lover,
You've grown roots, embedded deep in, my heart
But, I'll say I love you never, no more
Am the one that needs, wants you
Whether, am a mystery, known or unknown
It's only me!!
The unknown woman, that must walk, away
Taking a different journey, a different path
Being the woman, that was born, to lose you
But, I'll say I love you, never no more
My lips can taste the scent, of you
My mind heart, my senses
Has no defences...
When it comes down, to you
And I'll say, I love you never, no more
Je T'aime!!

I Tasted LOve!! *****

I Tasted Love

Like a dopamine in my blood
Burning my mind...
In my very extremities
Soaring high in the delirium, of love
Grasping nothingness...
Burning me, my mind as I soar higher
Like that Phoenix, riding those thermal winds
In the ecstasy, in the momentum of love!!
I took all you had to give, abandonly...
Just a touch, is enough suffice to say,
As I cry, euphorically, in the recesses of my mind.
Running through me my blood
Like an opium...
Incandescently.
In the scheme of life
I tasted love!!

Que Bela Lua! *****

Que Bela Lua!!

Outside my window, the moon...
I see the moon and the moon, sees me
God bless the moon and God, bless thee!
The moon's a celestial body
Floating in space...
As a child, I always wondered
How it stayed, up there...
So out of reach,
Now I know, gravity holds it there
She has many faces...
My favourite the crescent and the full moon
Just the other night
A most beautiful glistening shiny moon
Outside my window...
Que Bella Lua!! I exclaimed...
What a beautiful moon!!
Mesmerising me!
Standing by the window, wondering...
Realising not, someone's watching me
I lifted my hand and smiled
In long strides, he walks away
Glancing back at me, so clear the vision was
That I swear, he was right there, beside me
I glanced to my right, of course, no one's there
But I could feel his breath, on me...
Fanciful or what!!
I swear he was there by me
Regretfully, I sigh wishing it were true...
The most beautiful eyes, so blue!!
Hysteria taking hold of me!!
His red hair, long, by the burning sun 
Beaming the moon, glistening
Come back, my love, am awaiting you!
Won't you come, to me!
Following, his trail to no avail
Searching high and low!
Why run from me!
Don't you know, you and I are, meant to be!
By the light of the moon, in her full bloom
I saw you...
I knew hope there, was not for me
I see your face, in every man I see!
No one else will do, for me
The moon never lies
She brought you close, so close to me
Whenever, she's in mine, vicinity
At the moon, I howl
I howl she-wolf like...
Howling in ecstasy... 
   

The Flower You Picked *****

The Flower Picker


That flower, you plucked
From my morning, bed dew
Aiii, says I!
As I stretched, becoming awake
Feeling for that space, where it grew
There's a little wound there,
Don't you know!
How could you, hurt me so!
Following my gaze, touching the space,
looking up, with wonder, in my eyes
Trying to see, who picked that Lilly
Too late, in a gossamer passing, me
In a misty, morning dew...
Wondering, searching,
For whom I didn't know!
I searched day and night,
Searching high and low...
For that phantom, flower picker
That's wounded me so...
I could smell the scent, of the Lilly,
you picked...
So I just followed, my nose
Following you up the street...
And there stood, you
Behind that hazy mist, surrounding you
I reached out to touch,
Smilingly, you shook your head, no!
Such a mystical, look in your eye's
That told me, you're not one of us! 
Rooted to the spot. stood I,
Wondering...
Longing, yearning to touch to feel
To caress, that face
Your magnificent face...
So out of my reach!!     

Made Of Glass... *******

Made of Glass

They see not me,
But looking through me
Am not there you see!!
Never been never will be
As I look through my glass, I see not me
But a fragmentation of me, nor what I'll be 
But broken, broken me
But as I look, into my eyes
The retroflexion, that I see
No!! It can't be me!!
But some stranger looking, back at me
With my fingers, I trace, my mirrored glass
It's not me, that I touch, 
What have they done with me!
The image that I see, cannot be me
Life's passed me by, the delusion before me
In the illusion that I see, leaving me, 
An image, that I recognise not
What I was, what I'll be!
Sadly starring at me, this image, can't be me!!
The laughing eye's that once held, such promise...
The mouth the lips, that once held to, kiss
Kissing me!
This reflexion, I see in my mirrored glass
Tears spilling, from me...
Excepting not the image, that I see
Like not, the changes in me
Is it an illusion, what I see, is that me!   
Et Tu!   
Where have you gone?
Says I, looking into my, mirrored glass
Deserting me!
My yesterday's taken away from me 
Refusing, to grow up! Growing up, I'll not
Go away let me be.
Leaving me with the illusion
That gazing, into my mirrored glass
I see imperfections, not as I used to be.
But the twinkle in my eyes, at times
Imperfections, doe's not see
This soul, residing within me,
That love's to laugh, sing and dance
at every change...
And kiss given half, a change
Best not to, chance and glance,

Into, your mirrored glass...
The mirrors to your eyes, Y!
You'll never know what you'll see!
Seeing, my soul within me!!