Stars In Your Eyes

Stars In Your Eyes

By Connie James

Go not into the other side of midnight
Must not close your eyes
Raging against the darkness of the dying light
In the eyes of my mind
Go not beyond midnight hour if there are
stars in your eyes.
Struggling against the darkness of all times...
Wise men know not if, night, is right
In the depths of their darkest minds...
Forked words exist not on their lips
Or in the lightness of their minds
Waving their last goodbyes brave men.
Frailty means not
If their deeds were mindful at all times
Go not into the other side of midnight
If there are stars in your eyes,
As they danced holding you close
On those golden fields with stars in their eyes.
Raging against the darkness of the dying light
Dispersing from their eyes...
Watching the rising of the sun feral man
Sang and danced into the light so bright
Grieving they learned not of the lateness
Of the stars dispersing from their eyes
Hanging on by a thread, men gravely
Blinded euphorically.
Blasing embers before their eyes
Dancing euphorically, fire in their blood.  
Go not beyond the midnight hour
If there are stars in your eyes
Raging against the darkness of their night
When the light in the shade of their minds
Imminently dying from their eyes
Go not into the other side of midnight
If there are stars in your eyes...

Like A Lament

             Like A Lament

            By Connie James



The Moonlight kisses him beautiful!
Beaming her light upon his eyes
Waiting below the bridge, the riverside
Starlight glistening in his eyes
Won't be surprised, gazing to his skies
Beyond his universe, he tried seeing, feeling
Treading softly in the moonlight ;
The delights of such a night
In the Moon in her half-light
While the shadow's trembled, forebodingly
In the inkiness darkness of the night
In the old ruins stood he starring all around
Velvety darkness engulfing him
Whisperings all around   
Like a lament!
A soul trapped
Amongst the ruins red the dust
Whispering between the trees
Ghouls in the old temples lost,
the gateways;
Trapped irrevocably in a dream 
All alone sitting just one thought,
in his mind...
To write his words his phrases
His ambiguous verses of poetry
Yesterday's words phrases, of yesteryear
Solitude engulfing him
Shadows all around;
In his mind darkness surrounding him
Whispering to those shadows...
O' restless shadows, be at peace won't you
For am not about to disturb you,
Your world!
But to write my words, my verses in solitude
Recited lyrically by the poet
Residing within me!! 
 

To Begin The Beginning

To Begin The Beginning

By Connie James.

At the dawning of dawn
The door opened as he walked in
Had to brace, myself against the morn's cool breeze 
Ahhh!
I closed my eyes inhaling the scent of him
Just couldn't believe he was standing before me
So magnificent so knowing so dangerous.
We stood facing the other, for what seemed an eternity
I stood smiling shyly, uncertain of what to do!
So I followed his lead...
I held my hand to touch the contours of his face
His much-desired face
To reach to feel, kiss to touch!
He stood there looking at me
With that devil may care, look
Insolently daring to touch me
With his eyes...
Daring me to explore...
So with uncertain hands, I explored
Every inch of him... 
Was mesmerised by this godlike man
Standing before me;
This mesmerising look, in his eyes
Hypnotising me! 
I felt myself awakening as from a deep sleep
Wanting to touch feel,
Wishing what I knew not...
But he knew how to play me, so sweet 
Waves of sensations cruising through me
Oh Lord I prayed let it not stop
It must not stop...
Yet I held back, for I knew
Had I not I'd be lost forever, forever lost
This awakening left me feeling so weak
Forever in my mind wanting to repeat
The sensations putting me through, wildest of wild...
Imploding my brain could not think.
Yet left me wanting what I wasn't sure.
My mind screaming, there must be more
There had to be more!
Of that, I was sure...
To repeat the experience terrified me
For I knew I wouldn't hold back
Innocent as I was
I had this wanting in me the sensations
Curiously wanting to repeat
Holding me back.
Left me wanting, more much more
Through the process not repeating
as if punishment me.
Go away, won't you!!
You're just tormenting me! 
Holding me close sensing my uncertainty
Seeing frustration, knowingly...
Just looking out for you, smiling said he
Worry not, it'll keep
It'll keep... 

You Belong To Me

You Belong To Me

By Connie James

In mine melancholy
I shall write my phrases
My verses of love...
Feeling your loss in my life
I compare thee to andromeda
The loveliest star to mine eyes
Out of reach to me beyond my firmament
To reach to touch the stars in your eyes
Glistening in my darkest of skies...
But you are as distant as the Sun the Moon
The planets all aligned before me
Might as well be Uranus Pluto and Jupiter too
And Neptune in his element
Watching you...
Confounded I'll be if I'll ever see you
Amongst those stars...
Missing you!
As I write my saddest phrases in my mind
It was written in the stars,
You belong to me!
But lost you'll ever be if
reach I cannot those stars 
Scintillating upon my skies
Like fairy lights dancing blinking,
in the distance...
My light love my god you were
O' my darling!
What chance had I!
Wherever you are wherever you'll be
In my heart embers will always be burning 
Extinguish will never be!
Opening my window, letting the night in
In my hands holding this flickering candle
Exuding the faintest of light
To just about see! 
As I write upon my mind in melancholy
My saddest verses killing me
In silhouette, I see you in my darkest hours
Searching you in the eyes of my mind
Blind will I ever be, if
Before the rising, of the Sun
Unfurling before my eyes like a bud
But then, will I see starlight glistening
Ascending your eyes
In the distance!

Reality Sucks

It's not a world of make-believe
Not a world full of giving full of love
Those that have expectations not
From their dreary day to day living;
Indeed it's a selfish world for those
That care or worry not...
For those that have nought
Nothing in their world...
One can say I love you still
Even though they agree not
Spewing falsehoods...
But if you love me
You'll have to love the whole of me!
Half measures won't do
In cuckoo land, I live not 
The world we live in
Cruel so cruel has become
Has always been so...
Don't you know!
Even though change we cannot
Things as we'd like to see...
The peoples of our world, live in love
And harmony...
In peace!
Fearing fear not...
For when our minds speak cannot
Without fear of retribution
Distrusting thy friend, brother
Our world's full of fear;
Those that have not
Peace of mind...
Peace in their world from their
day to day's living
Tribulations;
Their day's being lived in fear!
Misery!
The words I write welcomed not by all
That's true!
But my words come from the heart
And as soon as I start, simply cannot let go
I've never expected you too
Agree with me or not!
But it would be a sad world if my words were
Misconstrued...
I do not speak my words without thinking
They just flow!!
My nemesis cannot justify
The punishment, those peoples in our world
The have noughts
Indeed not!!   

In The Eyes Of My Mind 2

In the eyes of my mind,
I dream of you...
My thoughts my imagining, are of you
In the eyes of my mind
I see you gazing at me, as I'm writing my phrases
Verses of love... 
My thoughts of you of telling you
These words are mine and mine alone
I've never divulged even to you
Didn't think you'd care to hear, my words
I composed just for you!
In my lunar skies
The Moon in her full bloom
Casting her light sublime
Glistening little diamonds
In the velvety darkness of my skies;
Then a shooting star falling across
My darkening firmament
A star dying,
"Tout Seul"
You can wish on a falling star
Can't say what I've wished
It won't come true if I tell you!
In between the shadows the alleyways
Shadows amongst shadows you can see
In your face, they'll be;
Music sweet music all around you
The laughter soft laughter filling the air
Intoxicating sounds
Lifting my spirits high
A thousandfold...
I should have told you
As I waited by the falls in dew
Intoxicating scented flowers
My senses scaling high...
The Jasmine so heady, inhaling
Lulling my senses a drugged mind
These words I've longed to utter
I loved you...
In such a way without barriers
or frontiers, impossible you'd say
Obsessively.
In my ambiguity, I've touched you
In my obsessive obsession...
My eyes beheld you, all of you
I've felt your every sinew!
In between the distances travelling so far
I've kissed your heart...
With a passion, I loved you
An uncomprehending passion,
I'd thought possible not...
Spelling my words
"I love you."
Your lips I've hungered for
But of course, I think you knew
In the silences in the recesses of my mind
I love you.
All I possess it takes every ounce of me,
holding back.
Pride, I have none when it comes down to you
I see the longing in your eyes
The yearnings of yesterday's 
Loving you made me feel real
My words poetically will be
From she the poet that loves
Je T'aime...

Set Me Free

Set Me Free

Please set me free
For am that rootless woman
Abandoned, never free!
I can scent earthiness on you
It's fragrance unmistakable
Or the scent of a woman being called
From the streets...
This obsessive obsession, of he's
Beyond his nose, he cannot see!
In his ambiguity, I sense he's
Hiding from me!
Searching, you!
In the streets the alleyways
In the darkness of my nights
Tapping on your windowpane.
In my wanderings searching you
That lonely star, that's you...
Even the Moon in her half-light
Lighten could not my path;
Through the shadows, I've walked
With you always on my mind!
Your phrases verses of poetry an agony!
Embedded deeply within me;
Each phrase communing with me
This uncontrollable mind of mine, cease cannot 
From feeling...
Ahh, it's beautiful!
He makes me think with my body!!
In my very extremities.
The light in his eyes confounding me
Such confusion it's killing me!
Ahh, misery, I want, he!
The light in your eyes blue I see
Across my skies goe's I
Searching that lonely star that was I!
Wishing on that star dying
Skimming across my firmament
Whispering your name, did I!
In my obtusity, my ambiguity
From the very depths of me,
I could see not, He 
These lonely streets walking alone
In the early morning dew,
with the scent of loving
a flower I gave you...
Scented divine, opium to my mind... 
A night of passion...   
Rubbing the sleep from my eyes reaching you,
To touch to kiss your mind, with mine...
Your eyes, much else besides;
And on the rising of that brightest of orbs
ascending my skies
Extending my hands to the skies 
Glistening little diamonds, in your eyes
But I'm the one that must stay!!
Walk these empty roads in the streets of my mind
In the labyrinths of all times...
Beyond, in the distance gesturing in a frenzy
Speaking your words of love
For all and sundry...
On top of your world shouting for all to hear
It's beyond me to understand, he
Hot and cold blows, he 
He's killing me!
Distant bells are pealing across the way
Bewitchingly...
And in between the shadows, I kissed you
Those rose petals scattered by you
Pleasing my eyes!
I've crossed lands valleys savannas,
searching for you...
In no man's lands, I've loved you...
Casting my eyes scanning through;
And by the river where I bathe
You came to me, asking why was I vacillating;
Scenting you in the vicinity   
My senses overflowing
In the streets the alleyways,
Unmistakable sight, standing there, before me
That look in your eyes...
The bird song's in the air, eloquently
Your words filling my mind
Phrases I want to hear
Only you!
Your words, I cannot refrain from asking
Or obliterate from my mind
My phrases verses
From the poet who loves...       

I Love You!!

I love you!!
Said she, in her minds mind
From her eyes exuding silent tears
Constricting her breathing
Into a sob breaking!!
The Stellar in her skies was he
How can one go beyond loving
Morn noon and night...
Musn't let him see her misery!
Her teacher becoming, he
Her ignorance was such,
Beggers believe...
Just another way of living...
I love you!
Confounded was she
Her worlds upside down
Inside out...
Blindfolded she was not
All the way willingly.
What a crock! useless feeling
I love you!
Said she in her minds mind!
While breaking down fragmenting
Her heart...
How does one go beyond loving!
One's life ignorance's
A life half lived in the eyes of her mind
What's the point of living this life
This emptiness!
I know not!
Bringing fire to her blood did, he
Burning embers, her mind
Once again, she could feel!
Now must she once again refrain
From loving!
How does one go beyond, life after love
Extinguishing from one's eyes
I guess an impossibility!
In the eyes of her mind ...
I love you!
Ringing through her confounded mind
What's the point!!
Of it all! 

When Day's Through

At a day's end time to unwind
With a glass of champers but vino would do
With the one, you set your heart on
The visions before your eyes...
When dinners through the way he looks at you
And you look into his eyes...
I Love You!
Mesmerised drinking the essence of, he
The love, look in his eyes
Telling me why
Wait I cannot, kissing you!! 
The music starts and plays
The moonlight waltz...
I saw the love in his eyes
As he takes hold as we danced and dance
Round the room...
We had eyes for, no other
Just feeling the music...
Seeping through our minds bodies undulating
As we swayed round and round
On a gossamer cloud, we floated
Just letting the music penetrate through
The world at our feet we danced through the night
Inebriated by the music, love;
Finally, stepping onto a cold street
With the stars glistening in our skies
Twinkling little diamonds
And with the Moon at half-light
Sheading her light sublime
Through the darkness of our night
Just enough to see his smiling eyes
As we linked arms walking home
Loving awaiting us...
My darling!!
I
Love
You...
 

In My Minds Eyes 3

In my mind's mind, I speak to you
My thoughts my imaginings are with you
In my mind's eye, I see you writing
Your phrases, verses of poetry,
My thoughts, not far from you 
Wanting to tell you
That those words are mine alone
But I've never divulged even to you!
Didn't think you'd care to hear these words 
That I composed just for you.
The stars at night in my lunar sky, 
In full bloom
Glistening little diamonds
In the darkness of my firmament.
Until a shooting star falls across my, 
darkening sky...
And I wished on that shooting star...
You can wish on a falling star...
Musn't tell you what I wished, it wouldn't 
Come true, if I told you...
In between the shadows the alleyways
Shadows you see, even those you can not see
Amongst the shadows, they'll be...
The music the sweet music it's all around you...
That beat filing your mind, glorious sounds   
I so love the music in my heart
The laughter emerging from across the road 
Glorious sounds, lifting my spirits
surrounding me...
I should have told you,
As I've waited by the falls in dew,
The scent of the flowers as the evening drew
So intoxicating the scent, scaling high
So heady of Jasmine.
I love you!
I've so longed to utter these words, 
I've loved you in a way you'd think
Possible not...
I've touched you with a vengeance kissed you 
In my ambiguity;
My obsessive obsession!!
My eyes beheld you, I've felt your every sinew...
Whispering over you my hands
As if tomorrow there wouldn't come,
In between distances we've travelled
Far and beyond
I've kissed you with a passion, 
I've loved you, with an uncomprehending 
passion... 
Obsessively.
As I write my words spelling 
I  L o v e  Y o u! 
Your lips, I hunger secretly...
It takes every ounce of me my pride
In my obsessiveness, 
My love always will be with you.
It's been a long road in your eye's I can see
The longing...
Your poetic phrases verses, making me 
Euphorically...
The poet in me within you...

Sayonara

He came to me as in, a mirage
From far distant lands...
Suddenly he was standing before me
Flowing in the breeze his hair
Manna for my eyes he'll be
Adoring he!
I can see him in the extremities of my mind
Visions in my mind burning intrinsically
So full of, he!
In far distant Japanese seas I see, he 
Konnichiwa my lovely as I come by;
Looking into his eyes
Drinking the essence of, he!
His hair the colour of the burning sun
His eyes O' dear lord are killing me!
The colour of my skies
And the cornflower fields, in the distance
I compare, he to my God...
How I adore, he... 
Running my fingers through his hair
The top of his nose kissing, he 
So appealing I find, he
His lips ripe as cherries drinking the essence of, he
My mind intoxicating...
Removing his shirt his body as toned as he'd be
I can feel every sinew in his body...
Smiling knowing the effect he has on me
Such a beautiful toned body!
Ahh, he knew!
He knew the effect he has on me
In taters my mind inside out always be
Help I cannot the effect he has
He brings the worst in me;
Walk-in his shadow I'll never be
But right there beside's He
Atsui desu, say's I   
For I was burning embers my mind
As I kissed, He!
Right on deck, a weakness came over me
A gossamer over my mind
Focussing an impossibility reason, I could not
All emotions running through me
Delirium rupturing my mind
Lost in time euphorically 
I was lost and always will be
The effect, he has on me
O-Yasumi Nasai!
Sayonara... 

O'Lord

O'Lord
I've sinned against thee
In wanting, he!
Help I cannot...
Ingrained he'll be in the regions of my mind
In the very core of me!
With each touch
Echoing through me, the times,
I've surrendered...
Why must he be any different
Why must, he?
In his stance the way he moves
The way he's looking at me! 
Incandescent his words whispered on to me
Setting my blood on fire
The very extremities of me...
Embers burning my blood, my minds
So full of, he!
Focus cannot it's an impossibility
Just the thought of, he
It's enough to drive me barmy...
With the need for, he
In a quandary, leaving me...
When he looks at me with his hands
I see I feel, violins I touch, he...
His touch whispering over me 
With his hands, he looks at me assiduously
Whispering over me that touch,
Sending shivers through me
Stand, I cannot it's too much
I can feel his need, gazing into his eyes
My hands running through his hair
My mind running away with me
Scaling high on the Richter scale,
my mind!
Making love this morn,
a gossamer came over me
As he whispers, shall we!
Prompting I needed not,
My needs are as high, as his
I loved every inch of, he!
Funny as he touches,
in a continuous wave 
Convulsing my body,
Shock waves running through me
As if time, was running out for me!
Holding me close closer
His hands fluttering over me,
like a butterfly
Tentatively!...
Riding on an ocean wave,
swaying we would be;
Why must He!
Have this effect on me!
How I love, He... 
To envisage I want not,
Nor arrest this feeling within me
The after effect's still lingering within me 
Into Infinitum carrying me
Grasping at nothingness to anchor me
My body surrendering,
My mind erupting, the sweetest of surrenders
O'Lord once again my, mind
Becoming me...

Apollo My World

What must I do to keep you!!
My world my life my love
After years of dormancy
Bringing the animal out in me
From my forced hibernation exuding
This wild being devouring me!
My bad boy was he,
and I, his naughty girl I'd be,
Dear lord insatiably were we
Morn noon and night, touch kiss me
And I'd kiss he, taking his breath away!   
My mind belonged not to me!
There was nought much ado about, he
Strait for the jugular went, he
Dumfounded the things he did
Experienced no, no siree
A masters class at loving was he
Bringing the animal out in me!
And in unison I moved with, he
No thoughts.
Just feelings permeating through me
I'd be in his own world;
My world, meaningless to me!
Imperative it was that I'd love, he
And indeed with my mind, I loved him
My body belonged to, he!
But was I enough!
As he brought out this wantonness,
this need in me;
Silently becoming for days
Saying nought just watching me!
My every, move his eyes following
Hunger in his eyes I can see
I could not fathom, he...
Then coming back, with kiss touch me!
Twice he needed not, ask for I was hungry as he
And all over again I'd dance to his tune
His music hypnotising me
As I undulated, inadvertently for all to see
my naughty boy was he...
A great maestro was he, at conducting me!
Gazing into his eyes, I loved, he
He knew how to play inexperienced, me
Until he had me screaming for more,
Insatiably was he!
And I loved him all over again assiduously
I love you Ischia, he'd say to me
And Ischia loved him too
With her mind her, body belonged not to, she
She could not abide, his silences
Bugger all saying for days...
Feeling low was she all-day weeping
What's the matter with you!
Remonstrating annoyingly...
There was no getting to him,
I love you!
Speak to me...
But in a world of his own, he'd be
A silent world!
Just watching unnerving me...
Psychologically breaking me...
He, my lover, my god my religion
Mixed into one...
The possibility that my religion he'd be
For I adored, he!
But I being me, I'd have none of it...
In uncertain terms, saying enough's enough 
I've had it, cannot stand the silences,
It's killing me!
I love you!
But locked in a world of his own, he seemed to me
In, not letting me!
Impossible, the more I tried getting to, he 
The more stubborn he became,
I could get nothing out of, he
Then saying, I love you Ischia!
And she loved, him
But Ischia so tired of being just his,
to command...
She needed much more interaction from, he
Mentally he seemed fatigued
having nothing to give
Except for his body, touch me kiss me!
A hunger for love had he...
And I loved him with all of me...






      






































      
    

Lightness within

From stardust, we came to be
Fluctuating on the eternal winds
In the knowledge unfolding embracing us
That our beating hearts transcending from stardust
In the scheme of life
the soup of life!
Such as the rising sun, it's rays unfolding
Mesmerising our eyes!!
Standing witnessing unfurl, the best show on earth
Before our eyes exploding, stardust!   
Like a flower in bud unfurling before my eyes
Pumping, like a heart
Scattering in the vision of my eyes
Brilliant little diamonds
A shower of crystal bright golden diamonds
A river of gold, Magna viscous
Beneath our feet flowing burning red rivers
Worshipping the rising sun one kneels mesmerised   
Shut eyes, hands outstretched to the skies
Ascending my firmament...
The giver of life of love and all else in between
It's an aphrodisiac
Feelings exulting through our bodies, minds
As we sit dreaming of love, that unique being
Incandescently, whispering words of love insistently...
Closing our eyes
Kisses being dropped our eyes, lips
Our hearts flipping... 
Under their hands soft so softly, urgently!
Our minds our bodies burning embers our blood
Intoxicatingly...
Holding tight to our dreams
Minds are funny things!
Hallucinating this mass of matter
Cruising from sigh to sigh this madness
In the minds, eyes...
Extenuating weak our minds, hearts!
Our blood in our veins fibrillating, at the sight of, he...
And when the day's through at the going down of the sun
All over again mesmerised by its beauty...
Every colour across our skies, vibrant golds reds
And every other colour in between!
Worshipping yet again
That golden orb in my skies
Slipping beyond the horizon far...
Leaving us as in death in darkness, within
The Moon in her element rising before us beaming
Sheading her magic amongst us, a mesmerisation     
Once again into enchantment...
Across my skies following my eyes,
Like a madness her gravity, the pull upon my defences...
Recording her every movement, every angle
From East to West...
Her faces her many, many faces
Playing havoc with my senses 
Its effect upon me casting a madness, obsessively 
Moonshine my restless mind my soul, incapable of thinking
Mesmerising me my eyes into an enchantment...
Closing my eyes wishing, that he'd come to me, his words
Incandescently, giving me shivers...
And like a banshee howling in her enchantment
Taking my senses, with no defences! 
Like a magnet the pull is such
Intoxicating, pinging at the strings of my heart...
Echoing through the extremities of my mind
The laughter ringing in my ears your, twinkling eyes
The darkest of blues, velvety evenings,
when I want you, so bad beneath a starry sky
Until stand, I cannot any longer
Kissing your lips, your eyes...
This universe the stars
Scintillating like little diamonds in the darkness
Accentuating their brilliance, in its velvety blackness
Counting countless, countless stars blinking in the distance
The mysteriousness the wonder
As I look into his eyes, for a moment
Kissing his mind in wonderment!!   
Want him at every moment, the waiting cannot abide
At this universe, I stare comprehend I do not
It's extenuating beauty...
There goes another star, shooting across my firmament
A diminishing star, dying puff! 
Another soul skimming across my velvety darkness
As I lie dreaming, in between the dark and the light
Assiduous, hands whispering fleetingly
Into another dimension taking me!
My senses, of a love a drugged mind, the ecstasy
The endorphins;
The adrenalin cruising through me   
Beyond infinity taking me
Grasping for the Sun the Moon the Stars
The euphoria as he takes me
I cry in the delirium of love
Love in the dark, lightness within...   

What can you see

Look into my eyes!
Look into my eyes, and see
That life's realities have, nought for me
For am a being lost within me!
No one hears no one sees
The desolation, what's it like to be me!
For in the wilderness will I always be?
Separated on my own, seems to me 
Look into my eyes, look into my eyes
What can you see!
Can you see this tormented soul
Residing within me!
Struggling fighting just to be me.
The eyes of my world see not me, as I see
A soul at war within me!
Do I ask too much from those, in my vicinity
Am I too demanding!
Or am I this confounded being
That no one understands me!
Or should I just grow up and see
This elusive illusion I have of me;
My aloneness may be inherent, within me
A mind confounded, no one sees
Into the mire of life crawling!
But there's this ache within me
Those pretending they know me;
Look into my eyes what can you see
This soul residing within me
This empty shell this cavity
Crying outreaching to thee;
Fragmenting before me
That soul that once used to be
Happy!!
Can you not see can, you understand!
That am trying just to be me!
That image of me!
A clue they have not what's it like to be me!
That stranger looking back at me!
From the depths of me, rivulets flowing
Drowning me;
My tears sheading annoyingly,
Can I not just be me!
What can you see what you can see?
May it be the destruction of me!
Transcending through me an emptiness
Of what I was what, I'll be
Confounding this soul residing within me
But honestly, what can you see?
Emptiness!
I'd love to feel your arms around me
Hugging me...
But what the hell, caught in a web
Can you see this empty shell
This turbulence...
Gazing into my eyes
Can you see an empty reflexion of me?

Is It Me!

     By Connie James...

                 
 Is It Me!
Says I ambiguously
Being bad is not compulsory
A little badness is good I hearsay
In track keeping one's mind
But I've never been really bad, in any way!
But you bring this wantonness
this need in me;
Being bad is not an option
Except in my mind...
Every time I look at you
I'd love to be good at a little badness
This compulsion, this need's inherent in me
Struggling day after day, trying! 
 An angel I want to be not!
So tired of being good, in every way;
But with just one glance at you,
for it all to fall through!
You stand proudly looking at me
Drinking the wonder of you, my eyes
Tempting me!
In my very extremities, cannot abide by
this waiting, to guide me through
It's there for all to see, this obsessiveness
Your words uncontrollably running through my mind 
Like fire in my blood!
Keeping me inline when I refuse to be
Never enough!
In my ambivalence, control cannot my mind
As I extol this need my love!
Echoing through the extremities of me
WHY HE!!
This heart of mine struggling to control
Irrevocably at times overflows...
This badness sufficing to say
This need to control me my world;
Between the darkness and the light lost
Am lost...
Just one look at you for it all to fall through
Lust resides in the mire of my thoughts
The way you look at me!
What chance!
What chance have I !!
Why must you look at me that way
This yearning that hurts, am lost!
Control cannot the uncontrollable, my mind
Or even reason with my heart...
When he pretends he sees not me
Screaming I yell ignore not me!
This passion residing within me,
My mind fragmenting...
Diamonds scintillating glistening in my eyes
Before darkness falls into the mire of my thoughts
As he sees me not!
Just like a dart wounding my heart
Enough to send me perpetually
into the recesses of my mind,
I'm asking why?
In the very extremities of me 
Why should I not be,
Just that little bad!
Is it you! Is it me?

Apollo's Demise...

Apollos demise
Leaving Ischia in the throws of hell
Breaking up.
What will she do, who'll shake her tree
Demented she'll be...
Defunct of conversation was he!
Interested not in what you had to say...
He gave nought away...
Maybe too busy loving all and sundry
Quite a rascal he turned out to be;
But there again who am I to say
I was just as bad as him!
His words were sweeter than honey
His little displays of affection, I loved
What can I say!!
A starved mind in the throes of ecstasy
Incandescent words coming my way
Playing along with, he!
Imperative it seemed one should fall for, he
Hard it was not, I must say!
It took every once, of me to fall not for, he
Every once I possessed every thought,
Ingrained within my mind...
A bad boy he'd be and I fell for he
Hook, line and sinker;
Sexually minded was he, never a hello
How do you do!
A sex machine perpetually, all the way
As one's playing along with he
Touch me kiss me!
Murmuring frantically setting fire to my blood
And in the between, murmurings
I love you, Ischia!
And Ischia loved him too!
But foremost in his mind loving's on the cards
Common! Said he f..k me!
His conversation skills were nil
Engaging his mind otherwise...
Going quiet on me, perk up!!
Wake up!
After all, all those honey's he had to sting   
To touch to kiss, what bliss;
Awaiting to be mesmerised by he
Apollo, a proper Don Juan, was he!!
This randy Greek god in a frantic, pollination spree   
Like a Bee, fluttering from flower to flower
Collecting much nectar insatiably...
Until he stings you, right, and proper, assiduously
In his exaltation, I love you, Ischia!
And Ischia in her defunct mind truly loved, he
A great lover was he, have you wriggling beneath
Or over, he!
Burning embers your blood...
Insatiable he!!
Apollo the love of her life
Was playing games with her!!   
Trying to see, what made him tick...
Spare went he, joke, just a joke shouted he
Omg joke! I love you, Ischia...
Grow up, Apollo!
Your brains in your pants...
There's much more to me than a mere, pock 
Although there was nought quick about, he!
Becoming uneasy, quietly apologising
Forget me Ischia, go
Just forget me;
But how could I forget him!
For he was embedded within, me!! 
In demise, out of my life went, he!

A mothers Grief!

            A Mothers Grief

            By Conne James

How can one move beyond losing one's son?
The stars the light in one's eyes
Glistening in the darkness of our firmament!
Our reason for living, getting up in the morning.
With the rising of the sun...
Gazing into their eyes as they smile filling one's heart,
with love...
How can one move beyond one's mind?
Shaking the sorrow taking hold of one's heart...
How can one possibly ever laugh again!
As he's missing, having departed from your life!
How can one look at the world in the eyes, and smile
For his the reason for our smile
When one's heart has died, 
Alongside his!
One's son lying there plugged to a machine
breathing for him...
And the realisation comes to you, as they say, it's over. 
The plug must be pulled...
Without a chance of returning, a life extinguished.
That had no chance of living! 
Beyond of no return, and you scream in agony.
As your son, lies there, lifeless.
With electrodes exuding from He! 
As if a madness entered your blood
You scream and scream, half-dementedly
Hugging yourself to yourself fragmenting!
A life cut short a much-beloved son,
a life half lived...
That space in your heart vacating ominously
Once held so much love and pride in your eyes 
Dormant lying in your mind's mind...
How can one go beyond the pain, constricting one's heart 
Your tears silently exuding waterfalls.
Swaying back and forth in your misery!
Where have you gone, my son?   
My world vacating, leaving me in a desultory,
Way beyond me!
Thine son woman! His time had come.
To live beyond his, years wasn't meant to be!
Exasperatingly she shouts, the cruelty!
O'God, you're a cruel God!!!
My son, my son, my world, my life!!
Taken away from me!
Jealous God, you'll be !!
Grief transcending through me constricting my heart 
Unending, mourning my soul, dying alongside, He 
The stars in his eyes dispersing from the light
dancing in his eyes;
Shadows in silhouette hanging around me
Freezing, my world and me!
Thine son woman!
Is transversing beyond eternity,
Swaying in the hemispheric winds...
Way beyond infinity!!   
Thine son will be!!

We're not all born to be great

Some are born with greatness
And some are trusted with fame, upon them
Our children, we think the greatest they'll ever be 
Wanting for them the best they can achieve
Unconditionally loving them
Right from wrong showing them...
I've just seen something that blows my mind
In how great some of us can be;
Here am not including me!
For am quite ordinary...
But I appreciate the greatness in others
It's inherently within them...
Showing not their greatness unless
It's trusted upon them;
Einstein, you need not be
So long you've got a brain, use it;
For Einsteins, we can not all be;
Imagine a world of Einstein's   
Rather dull would be!
Those that are great are few and far in between
Taking their greatness to the extreme
Their chests beating aren't I great!
And some struggle hiding away
Until one day speak they must;
Luther King was one such struggling through life
For humanity, fighting was he!
Be they yellow, red-black or white
Aren't we all human beings!
Do we bleed not, when cut,
Isn't our blood the same colour, red!
Do we not cry when in pain, when our hearts breaking
Frighten shitless, crying out our brains...
Assiduously, some have greatness trusted upon them
One's head can be turned,
All this greatness forced, upon one...
There again some abuse their greatness
Whether they're great or not...
Abusing their minions, causing them much pain;
Mao was such one;
And many others too many to name!!
Exuding their power over many...
Free speech, they had not.
Misery all around
For the man with the little red book, his peoples
Scared to breathe, brainwashing them;   
Lately, those fucktards forcing their will upon many
Those bastards leaders, nothing great about them
To paradise wanting to send them;
Influencing those without a brain,
A brain, of their own they possess not
Imbecility amongst them;
Far too quickly, they're brought round
to their way of thinking...
Destroying their world causing havoc amongst, many
Their brothers and sisters...
Are we not brothers underneath our skins!!
But the most significant thing we can possess, humility would be!       
To just live in peace, love and harmony...
Much easier wouldn't it be!
To just live and let live 
Wouldn't it be...

To just live & let's live, wouldn't it be!

Before its too late!

Flower of Paradise...

O' flower of paradise

By Connie James

Whispering sweet nothings
O' flower of paradise
As am unyielding on to you...
A gossamer covering one's mind
A brain that cannot think
A body refusing to yield...
O' flower of paradise, pure so true
I can scent the perfume of you!
But my mind refuses to see
While my defenceless senses
Accept will not the nearness of you
The air so full
The music intoxicating
And my brain lull's
To the initiating sounds as you
whisper on to me!
O' flower of paradise giveth on to me!
In my breast, my heartbeats
To the sounds of your beating heart...
Counting the beats my breath stops
O' flower of paradise
Love of my life discerningly so
Such moments so rare,
Your yellow petals so full of dew
Your scent's so heady
As I inhale the perfume of you
Like a bird of the night
Refusing to be lulled
Passion suffices not...
In the darkest of my skies
Of wine
We needed not intoxicated minds 
But eyes our lips hands
Exploring the sighs!

Apollo's Saga

Apollos Saga

You're a very mysterious, woman
An understatement, say you
But your illusion of me,
Far, far from me!
You want me to be naughty, shall I!
Hurting touching! 
Biting your lips drawing blood;
My thorns unfurling like a rosebud
in the sunshine...
Waiting for pollination to begin
Your lips brushing tentatively against mine;
 And in the wind, my petals tremble in the breeze
With the touch of your lips upon mine.
As the pollination begins,
Startled, opening my eyes;
The light of love dancing in your eyes;
Delving deeper;
Help cannot but cry your name
Apollo!
Euphorically cannot contain...
Tempting me your sun-kissed, lips
Feeling devilish oh my!
Loving, delving right up to, my eyes
Quietly Apollo becomes,
Wondering, what's the matter with me!
And the more distant he becomes
The more devilish, I become
Smiling seeing, astonishment in his eyes;
Are you serious!
Understanding not why I smile;
It's okay;
Feeling, love in my heart
Just one look at, he, am lost
I Am lost, lost my mind...
Understanding, not my mischievousness!
With Apollo, flirting lovingly;
In my primitiveness losing control
The more confused becomes he
The worst I've behaved in his eyes;
Losing control one more time...
He'll be the air I breathe the sun,
warming my skin...
The very spring where I was born
Taking thirsty sips from
The fountain where I drink;
In mine, wildest of times, in
My primitiveness showing love,
Oozing in my heart...
Nudging up close, kissing his eyes
His lips, whispering alright!
All over again uncontrollably, I'll be
Delving, into his mind, his eyes
Kissing touching until
Deliriously
Am crying Apollo!
Insatiably...
Kiss, kiss me!!

Kalimera... Winds Of Life

Winds Of Life


By Connie James

Kalimera Apollo...
Minds in turmoil after yesterday's talk
About love and such as
Your words have left me wanting,
the love you say it's mine.
Here I've never been to before, such a long time.
I've heard another being expressing words of love:
Sure others have tried, I guess after reading the words I write.
Thinking, I am free and easy!!
I send them off with a flea in their ear.
Can't say I blame them, after all, they know not me;
I know not why I write as I do,
I guess something must be missing in my life;
Wishing for the Moon the stars in their element to rescue me
Rather emotional, fragmenting! 
Oh, Apollo your, words left me feeling vulnerable.
I'm all over the place...
Sometimes we seem to look for none existent beings,
Thinking they exist not...
Until they come knocking at your door, expressing love:
I've never been here before oh, dear lord!!   
I can grapple not with the words and such.
Especially after the phrases, I write ambiguously.
The ambiguity of those words that I write fictionally
So much easier to write fictional words.
My imagination running wild.
Of thoughts on my minds unsatisfied
But saying such words, I know you want to hear
The reality of extolling such terms personally, not so easy
I have had not, lacking in experience
I know you may believe not it's not possible I hear you say
That I've only had one love in my life's entirety
Words come not easy even when I want to say
Kiss me, darling touch me, touch me!
Let your hands whisper over me slowly softly.
Making me feel am flying high like a kite in the sky;
Soaring way above the clouds my universe my dark firmament 
Dark pools, your mysterious eyes!
I want to feel your arms about me hold me tight caress me.
And I' do the same for thee, kissing your eyes your lips.
And extol what's in the regions of my mind in the very extremities of me.
My torment within the depths, the very core of me!
It takes every ounce of me, from holding you tight.
I need your words to inflame my mind;
My mind that otherwise would go quietly and die!
This morn to make love I tried, but, the words were missing.
I fought so hard, but the words weren't coming...
Was crying out love me, darling, won't you!
Ohh...Darling, won't you!
The frustration's such I could not reach the height's
I cried out your name yet again oh, Apollo!
My minds in a fog in the extremities waiting.
Crying out deflated...
That balm, an anodyne to mine anima
Quietens down my mind
Even when I reach cannot the heights
Flying high like that Phoenix gliding, 
Effortlessly on the thermal
Winds of life!!
   

Apollo 3

             

To Fall Or Not For He !!!
The Question That’ll Be!
Interesting Maybe!

For He Came To Me In A Tempest,
Hollering...
Love Exuded From, He!
Before Too Long, He Had Me Loving, He 
You Know Not Me!
But Persistently, His Words
Tasted Sweeter Than Honey
Burning Incandescently Through Me My Mind
His Touches His Kisses Intoxicating 
Burning In My Veins My Blood
Speaking Endearments Of Love
Leaving me!
With Frissons Running Down My Spine
My Brain Belonged Not To Me...
As He Touched Me Euphorically 
Taking My Breath, Away
Insatiable!!!
His breath Intermingling, With Mine
All At Sea, I Would Be!
He Touched Where He Shouldn't Have Touched
He Kissed My Breast Hungrily ;
Oh Dear Lord I-Found He Most Intoxicating
My Reason Belonged Not To Me
All Over Me Was He
Tempting, Tempting Me
He Would Be;
A Devil In Disguise Was He!
And I, In My Primitiveness I Loved All Of He
My Primal, Feelings Deserting, Not Me
Morning Noon And Night He Loved Me
And All Along Went I With, He!
But Rather Abrupt Could Be, Leaving Me
Hanging...
Hot And Cold Blowing All Over Me.
Never Knew If I Was Coming Or Going...
I Liked Not That In He!
Dropping Me, Picking Me Up Again
And Again As If A Game Would Be!
Around His Little Finger, He Had Me
Thought, He...
Having Me Screaming, With Each Touch, Kiss 
How Dare He!
Yet At His Sight, All Over Again He Had Me Wanting
That Animal Magnetism Exuding From, He!
And All Over Again I’d Forget How Badly He Treated Me
Punishing Me, For Whatever Reason.
Cutting Me!
Confounded I‘d Be...

Apollo 4 +++

               Apollo 4


I haven’t lived,
said she screaming to the winds,
I haven't lived!
What you mean, you glad?
How am I supposed to know
If there’s any difference between one or another
A fairy story hasn’t been;
I’ve had but one partner, in my life
I know not the difference
Words incandescently lacking in my life
Setting my blood on fire!
Oh, dear Lord!
Why must you have, set free
The beast in me!
This primitive being, taking hold of me had
These primal feelings am all at sea!
This obsessive obsession exuding from me
Of you, cannot have enough!
Just the sight of your name, making me;
Yearn for you, like a river running through me
Your hands cruising over me
Your words echoing through leaving me, unhinged
Looking for that screw, I’ve lost along the way
Since I first met you:
So ignorant, so ignorant am I!
Knowing not the ins and outs of loving
Under the sheets, the reality of life
I knew not or experienced such love
Omg!
I was dead within me trapped my soul
But you freed the animal that beast
Lying dormant within, freeing me
From that dead limbo, I was living
How can I now go through life
Knowing now that there’s so much more, to live for
You should have left me in the dead limbo I was living
Ignorance can be bliss, emotional!
How can I go on, knowing the reality-cannot have you!
Confounded I’ll be.
The words I write fictionally
My imagination running wild of thoughts unsatisfied, my mind
There must have been this need in me, life as I know it
How am I suppose to live my life, knowing now
That there’s much more of an experience one can live
One love One life, one life half lived;
Did I deserved not much more than this!
Careful for what we might wish, you might get it!!
Your incandescent words burning through my blood
Setting the fires rising flames high!
I fear it cannot have a good ending for me!
As you touch me kiss me like, dopamine to my mind
Awaking this primitive being, lying dormant within me!
For all eternity!
Touch me, darling kiss, kiss me!
Let me feel the fires in my blood
Consuming me!

APOLLO!! 2

                  APOLLO

In a storm, Apollo came to me
His, words like no other, uncommonly
Turning my head around!
Was caught in the momentum, of time 
And along with him went I!
Feeling, fire in my blood.
Embers burning.
In Centigrade or Fahrenheit.
Beneath my feet molten lava
Into his arms taking me.
Extolling I love you Ischia!
Oh! You don't know me, you know!
Nipping his ear just a little
But the idea I like, mind you!
Touch me kiss me says he, kiss, kiss me.
Of course, I obliged taking,
His breath away
The blood in my veins pulsating.
Reawakening me.
The tempest of all times
Seeing lust, not love in his eyes
Kissing every inch of, he.
Purring like she Panther,
Let loose on the green.
Like a primal animal growling
Feeling my need for, he.
Apollo oh Apollo, in-between times
Taken my reason away.
Casting into the winds.
But in his primitiveness
My blood running wild;
Apollo, say something, nice!
Please say something blow, my mind!
Ischia! Shut up I'm kissing you.
Wandering my mind taking my will away
My reasoning ...
No Apollo! Don't say anything, nice!
Oh, please do say something naughty, hovering over, he!
Ischia! I love you comon, f..ck me
Hiding my face my hair
He could not see my need for, he;
Devouring he!
Tingling all over at his touch, inhaling sharply.
Thousands of fairy bells tingling, through me
In a vice holding me down, flipping me.
Overtaking me a river, running through me...
In my ears my blood singing
Making me beg excruciatingly.
Please, Apollo, clawing at he
In the extremities of my mind
I could not anchor me.
As I cried one more time, Apollo!!
Release me from this madness, taking hold of me.
This madness in my blood's, killing me.
Holding, out on me!!
Punishing me for yesterday’s pranks!
Kissing me hard...
I've been searching, you all my, life.
In my ear growling he.
There was no returning for me
Imploding the fire in, my veins leaving me
Leaving me!
In hell alongside, he!

Apollo!! 5 +++

          Apollo...

The excitement too much to bear
Going from sigh to sigh
Opening my eyes
Much more than I can chew!
So green so ignorant, am I...
But beneath my skin, he'll be my nemesis
The intoxication,
Like  a madness cruising through me
my blood, abide I cannot;
Apollo cry, I, let me be!
Let my sanity return to me...
Even though letting you go, I cannot be
A drug so sweet in my blood
Ahh Ischia, Kiss me 
My reasoning deserting me...
And you know how to play me
Like a harp tuning my strings, filling my mind 
With such magical celestial sounds
Hypnotising me!
Robbing me of my reason...
Filling my mind with imaginings
Visions as I transverse,
The labyrinths of a drugged mind
Into a precipice falling
With nought to hold me
Stop me from falling, please
Save me...
But on a string dangling me,
like a poppet...
Making me dance, to your tune
The exhilaration is such as I undulate
To your music of the night
An intoxicating fragmenting mind,
As I kiss you with hunger, impossible I'd thought not
Kissing me as I've never been kissed before
Trembling in anticipation...
Screaming no Apollo no, please
Release me from my mind
From this illusion am living
Must be a dream as I tumble, down
with a sigh in the extreme!
All along the way bewitching me
Embedded beneath my skin, he'll be
Crying yet again, please!
Am scared of me my, feelings 
All over again, hypnotising me
As I look through, he
Mesmerisingly!!












  

 

Apollo's Resurrection

Apollo's Resurrection

Rising from the ashes
Turbulently imploding as if from a volcano
As if a deity he'll be!
He's my world my all my everything!
But of course, that's precisely what he'll be 
He might as well be, my god my life
my religion, how I adore, He
Apollo I whisper, what's to be,
At his alter I worship morn noon and night
Deeply ingrained within me
Holding, on to my heart's, his...
My body trembles beneath, his hands
Desire upon desire...
I kiss his mind!
Apollo lies close to me my body's in
the extremities...
Ischia says he, make love to me! 
His hands sent shivers down my spine
Nothing changes at least
He has the touch!
And I surrender, taking me to someplace
Before I haven't been;
Before me, vibrant colours
Hallucinating I may be
As I think with my body
My mind refuses to see, belongs to, he
not at all in sync with me...
Dragging this primitive being
Residing within me...
Apollo, come and love me like
All my yesterdays
When loving was our way;
Ischia! You belong to me!
Looking into his eyes I see a being
Way above me
For he is my god, I have no religion
the air that I breathe
The dreams that I dream
Wondering why am making love to he
And with, him I ride oceans high
Skimming the waves, along with me
Opium to my blood he'll be
Adrenalin high oh dear lord have pity on me
For I love, he!! ...
He's embedded deeply within me
Very innovative Apollo's outside,
The box, thinking ingeniously...
And along with he goes I, intrinsically
With every fibre of my body, I love He 
Ischia, Ischia Ischia calling me
Beneath my skin, you'll be
Go not away from me
I'll crawl and die a thousand deaths 
Ischia!
That Aura the light in his eyes
Too much to bear!
To lose, he!
I come alive at his touch, calling his name
Apollo, love me...
Ischia, Ischia gazing at me
That timber in his voice, so fetching
I loved him with all I had in me
It takes every ounce of me, not to walk away
To sleep to dream whispering softly in his ear
Go sleep, go sleep
Kissing his mind's eye!   
  
    

A Captive Bird

 Captive Bird

By Connie James

I am...
A captive bird
That swayed in the breeze
In mine golden cage swaying
Beneath my skies...
Stale the air that I breathe;
And his words, I dream!
Taking me far and wide
Being carried, in the wind
For am the wind beneath your sails
Unfurling for me
Skimming the waves like a dream
By my side
Gazing at me
Tormenting me as you do
Filling my heart...
A wondrous feeling;
Taking hold,
Getting you closer to me
To touch to kiss to feel;
The look in your eyes I see,
You cannot disguise the need
in your eyes...
What's happened to you!
Where did you get to?
Your phrases confounding me,
your words.
Your touches your kisses,
missing you.
Fluttering my heart like a trapped bird
That cannot fly!!
To be free take to the winds and fly
Swaying in the thermal winds,
You and I!
You are the winds beneath my sails
The air that I breathe the way I undulate
Beneath your skin,
The dreams I dreamed...
Running like a river through me
Carried away in the breeze;
His words filling me my senses
With longings, of love yearnings
Phrases that I want to hear
Touching kissing your lips, eyes
Conditioning my Mind, in ways possible,
I thought not...
But there again trapped like, a captivated bird
That fly cannot,
Peeking beyond the clouds, the skies;
The scent of, he inebriating me!
Like a fine wine;
His words filling my mind
With pink dreams...
To have to hold to touch to kiss
To be free!
Being carried beneath his wings;






                         

RESPECT NATURE

Respect nature

We must learn to respect nature
Trees are living breathing
Just like you and me!
They'll be here long after we depart
Wouldn't you agree?
Our oceans are being abused
F..ked up by humanity the life being choked up
cannot breathe our seas 
And the air that we breathe be spoilt by you and me
Our wild life's crying out for mercy
Killing for greed they'll be... 
It's imperative we keep the planet going,
For our families...
Yah yours and mine that'll be 
Cleansing of its impurities 
Removing toxins so that you and can breath
Just go out there and hug a tree
One can feel the vibes vibrating through you...
Oh what's to be a tree, reaching for the skies
And see what we cannot see...
Communicating amongst other trees
Warning of an invasion of us human beings
The destroyers of their world!
And they weep like you and me when their branches
They'll be cutting!
Am sure they laugh at our idiocy
In all our glory seeing us
As we run dance manically from tree to tree
Climbing amongst their branches  swinging, undulating
Catapulting through the air, oh ecstasy!!
Climbing higher into the canopy
Viewing beyond the horizon far, as far as we can see 
And beyond yonder, mesmerised you'll be!
The little creatures before me
Sway and dance on the thermal winds with easy
How I wish I was a bird flying from tree to tree
With such elegance swaying with ease...
Following my eyes those little creatures before me
So attuned my senses, imagining it was me!
A glorious feeling exuding through me
As it lands right beside me inquiring of me
What the hell are you doing sitting on my tree?
As I frown at he laughing, mil perdones am on my way!
Awfully sorry having disturbed thee! 
 

In the streets of my mind

Streets of My Mind

In the labyrinths of my mind
Searching through.
In a state of abandonment,
Freedom...
Inspiration seeking all around me
As I stand beyond yonder and stare
Threading carefully pathways,
Unfamiliar to me...
Lost in the streets of my mind
Confoundedly...
No apparent realisation...
Turbulent thoughts of you
Sipping through...
In my melancholy, threading walking
Stopping listening
Underfoot crunching fallen leaves
Jumping over fallen trees
Silently devouring the memories of you
Thoughts uncontrollable sensations
Irrepressible feelings, putting me through
I love you, inexorably ...
The abandonment of minds
Cruising from sigh to sigh
A drugged mind appearing,
Emotions, high... 

Apollo versus Ischia's...

Apollo Versus Ischia's

Ischia standing her ground,
As a fuse Apollo has, blown
Blowing his top,
Like a volcano erupting...
At the turn of things flummoxed was she
Some misdeed real or imagery...
Such anger, irate incandescent accusing me,
Confounding leaving me!
Oh, yah!
Joking that was the crux!
Of some joke, was I making
Joking he likes not much, too serious is he
Always joking!!...
And he berated admonishing me!
Ischia's soul hitting rock bottom
How dare he put the onus back on me!
Bad, crazy women!!
What do you want from me?
Your tirade left me anything but cold
I was seething within me,
Did I deserve any of it, no no siree!
The only misdeed I made was allowing you,
in loving me;
And with the flow, I got carried away,
The buck stays with you...
For I asked for nothing, you wouldn't let it be
Until I've fallen for you...
At all times bombarding me, your kisses
Turning my head around, I must say;
I liked the things you do, intoxicatingly!
But make no mistake, my fuse is just as short as yours!
I've asked for nought, just happened to fall for you...
Abusing me any, favours won't do you!
How could I have been so blind!
Humiliating me!
I gave all I had to give, I gave you me!
Okay! immature I may have been;
But this child within me keeping me,
from blowing a fuse...
I speak the truth I love to joke and laugh
And loving you;
Excuse me for having such fun!
A human being I'll be with needs wants desires,
just like you!
But I won't have you throwing a tantrum, just
Because I love to laugh joke...
My worlds as grey as it is!
I need laughter love raising my spirits high
Not a draconian greek god, keeping me down
Cause I smile!!...
Admonishing me for breathing!
Beyond my imagination, your lovemaking
Into a thousand, little pieces, breaking me
To reach for the unreachable
That'll teach me!!...
All your touches your kisses may not be enough
Losing my soul...
To the depths of hell dragging me...
it's not good for me!
I love you, Ischia say, you
But I need you to love me for me
Not some illusion of me...
Complicated am not, I'm just me! 
And I loved the places you took me
Never before experienced...
Beyond my imagination taking me,
The touches!!
Leaving me screaming, for more,
All the while whispering I love you Ischia,
loving me;
My soul deserting me setting my, blood on fire
Clawing at, some place to anchor me
What you've done, oh Apollo?
From my comfort zone, taking me making me, feel! 
How dare you making me feel!
Now back again in the depths of hell
Where you've deposited me
Fragmenting my soul and me! 






   









    

Apollo 1

Apollo’s, words,
Penetrating my mind.
Sparks running, through me.
My brain's on fire my blood.
His words a balm to me.
A repetition there won't be
No more fireworks,
Flames dying euphorically.
No more sparklers left, shows over
Family friends voyeurs,
From the sidelines viewing
Oh, what a night.
What a show!
His words excited me my mind
Yah, something to write about
A true god!
Setting me astray.
Had some of that elixir,
The nectar, the fire from the gods
Like a contented panther, had me.
Arching my back ecstatically.
Yah gods I’ll miss him.
My god my Neptune
Setting fire to my blood.
To repeat the experience rather foolish.
Wouldn't you say!
Fireworks, whispering dying with a sigh.
Deflated leaving me!
But the fire in my blood exuding through me.
In my veins pulsating.
Wasn't read to exit.
Common, time and time again repeating
Let’s do it...
Filling my me with unimaginable wanting’s
Yet again touching me.
Murmuring a long time waiting for you.  
Escape me you won’t do.
Extolling, touch me kiss me.
Fire exuding through me
The light in he’s eyes focusing on me
And lost was I, in the momentum of time.
I kissed his mind, his heartbeat.
Amplifying mine ...
Oh, dear lord, ve, lost the plot.
Embers burning my mind
Hanging on for dear life
I cried his name yet again...
Please!!!

Waiting For God!

Waiting for God

By Connie James


With deep rutted creases
Along, over time
Her eyes must have seen impressive sights
And her hands must have touched,
her lover's visage
Her lips must have kissed with a hunger
Impossible, she thought.
A hunger from within the sighs!!
And being kissed in return, with love
Having that human touch
Touching her heart
As she, hollered, in the ecstasy of her nights 
And her hair lustrous beautiful
Sweeping fingers through to touch...
Now a mere negative reflection of white
Instead of the gloriousness of long & black
Pensive sitting, wondering where the years have swept by
Left in memories of a time that's passed her by 
She must have loved with abandon,
in the days of her life.
Happiness from every orifice pouring
From the light in her eyes... 
As she danced through her nights
Exuding the laughter
Scintillating in her eyes...
Hysterically
She must have laughed until it hurt
holding, her sides hilariously.
And she must have cried in sorrow some of the time.
When life's disappointments crossed her path 
And surely, she must have wished to be happy.
That happiness would last a lifetime.
When she cried through the darkness of her nights
As love passed her by!
In sadness, tears flowing from her eyes.
Now with memories intact, you can see
Turning in her mind's eyes...
Where once in her lifetime life,
was well full of fun...
Now only memories exude from, her mind's mind.
Sitting in her own world
Indignity waiting for God
In a symphony
Still beautiful!