With A Sigh *****

Last night all dressed up in our finery
my friend and I went to the ballet
A treat for my birthday
Had dinner a little wine some, champers
A good chat great company
We talked about everything, under the sun
About love life and everything else in between
So we popped the corks chin, chinning each other
Wishing me a happy birthday...
And with much excitement and merriment
We walked into the theatre find our seats and wait
A full house;
O' I so love the ballet, taking me into another dimension
Of life, of make-believe!
Finally lights out almost, as with a sigh
Reaching a crescendo, the music
Sending shivers down my spine, the first scene
Rather emotional, always the same feeling, my throat swells
Tears dancing behind my eyes
Tried so hard not to blubber, so full my heart
As it progressed I was there with them
Step by step I knew the sequence
Feeling every little change in the music
As they spun and pirouetted telling the story
And in my mind, I swayed and moved with them
Evoking in my mind my soul!
An enchantment;
The vision before me, every little step was taken
I was there with them, following from scene to scene
I knew with each change in the music
Telling the story of love and glory and sorrow intermingled
The movement in their bodies the fluidity
Every little nuance mesmerising!
Unfurling the story of a love unconditional
And the music whispering painfully echoing their love
The awesome sounds filling, my heart
Carrying me into heights, into infinity
A tear spilling from my eyes as they danced
And undulated, going from sigh to sigh
And with such wondrous sounds, the Mazurka came in
Words I have not to describe the feeling
Filling my mind my eyes as they moved as if on a cloud
In a dream; The jocker setting each scene, wonderful was he!
Introducing the Spanish, dancers with much merriment
As they danced and marked each step, such enjoyment
O' what a sound
Then the malevolent swan comes in spoiling the fun
Watching from afar;
Separating the young lovers with his majestic, movements
Then the little swans come in unison, as if in a cloud
the movement's as if in a whisper their, feathers trembling in the breeze
Malevolent swan, watching from afar, separating the young lovers
Choreographed so beautifully, the fluidity of their limbs
I wanted it not to end...
Finally, malevolent swan dying, love in his heart
Proudly, displayed her shoulder high, majestically
The battle he had lost, collapsing dying broken-hearted
Majestically, hard hitting the ground;
And all the while, wondrous sounds playing
As his last breath, escapes his body
With a sigh!!
And so choked was I!!

I kissed His Eyes *****

I kissed His Eyes

A vision ascending, my mind
I see a likeness of you
Standing from across the room;
Surreptitiously, casting glances at me
Does he know me, I ask myself
For I swear I've never, seen he;
All my, life I ask myself, what do they see, in me
Hiding from this side, of humanity
This other side of me;
Interesting and confounded, I'll always be
By this interest, in me;
And when I dance, I know not what, they see
Lifting my arms as I sway, indolently before they
Doing mine, own thing;
The music undulating, within me
In time to the beat, swaying hips my, body
Like a spinning wheel, spinning around
Giddiness taking hold, of me
As I feel his arms, steadying me
His eyes burrowing, into me
Were as dark, as the night,
The deepest pools, did I ever see
I look at, he mesmerised, bewitched
His smile, that Mona-Lisa, smile his lips
Taking hold of me, starting dancing
And I followed he...
Step by step hardly, moving
The contact between, our body's
as if we were, one
Not a chink of light, between us
O'dear Lord, as I looked, into his eyes
Embers burning, behind his eyes
The electricity, between us I could, feel
Strobbing, like a bolt of lightning
We were mere, strangers dancing into, the night
Yet our bodies fitted, so right
Moving to the sound, you want it darker
Turn off the lights...
His smile softening, my heart
As undulating we moved, through the night
The stars glistening, in the moonlight
I kissed his eyes...
Yah, I kissed his eyes!!

       

In The Distance *****

In, The Distance


You Belong to Me
In my melancholy,
I shall write my, phrases
My, words my verses of love,
Feeling your loss, in my life...
I compare thee, to Andromeda
The loveliest of stars, to mine eyes
Out of reach, to me beyond my, firmament
Reaching high, to touch the stars in, your eyes
Glistening, in my darkest of skies;
But you are as distant, as the sun the moon
The Planets all aligned, before me
Might as well be, Uranus Pluto & Jupiter too
And Neptune in his element,
Watching you!
Confounded, I'll be if I'll ever, see thee
Amongst those, stars
As I write my, saddest phrases in my mind
It was written in the stars,
You belong to me!
But lost to me will, you ever be?
If reach, I cannot those stars,
Scintillating upon, my skies!
Dancing, fairy lights blinking, in the distance
You were my, light my love my, god
Penetrating through, me your eyes
What chance have I!
O' my darling my, treasure my, life
Wherever, you are,
Embers will, be burning in my, heart
Extinguishing will never, be
Opening my window, letting the night in
And in my hands, holding this flickering, candle
Exuding the faintest, of light to just, about see
As I write upon, my mind in, melancholy...
In my darkest hours, I see you in silhouette
Searching you, in the eyes of my, mind
Blind will I ever be, if
Before the rising, of the sun
Unfurling, before my eyes, like a bud
And then will I, see starlight glistening
Ascending,  in your eyes
In the distance!

A Passion Sublime *****

      A Passion Sublime

Got up drew the curtains, wide
This grey wall facing me,
A thick gossamer cloud, impeding me
from seeing, you in my mind
Oh, my world, my mind my life,
hanging, by a thread,
in the darkness, of my nights
Rupturing, through my mind visions, of you
Looking, through me daring, me to be, me
Without, care or inhibitions, the fire in my blood
Extolling, my thoughts...
Gazing into your, eyes hypnotising, bewitchingly
And this primitive being, within me
Care will not, think cannot, but feel!
But feel with my, heart
In wanting, he a sin will be,
My brain telling, my heart
But in wanting, he with that fervour,
A passion impossible, I would have thought
As he wants, me too...
No better feeling, my mind my world, my universe
His kisses, manna from the gods
Intoxicating me, my blood like a drug
That everlasting, breeze in the recesses,
of my mind...
My uncontrollable, heart falling apart
And this primitiveness, in me
My world crashing, down on me
As if my earth, has trembled
Tumbling, from her axis
This turbulence;
Like, leaves dancing on a stormy, night
My world might just, as well
Fallen, around me
His absence from, my life!
Missing he, I'll be
Know not, why he affects me
That killer, look in his, eyes
A tear forlornly, escaping my, eyes
Feeding those roots, refusing to die,
in my heart;
That image of him deeply embedded, in my mind
Refuses to listen, to my heart
And my heart refuses, to listen to my mind
Not at all in sync, with me
But the vision of he, intoxicating my blood
Never having, enough...
Exuding through, me my mind
A passion sublime...

       

This Lunacy *****

This Lunacy

My treasure...
There's a sweet madness, running
through me
Whenever I think, of you
A hunger, within me
Your, hands running over me, softly
As if, caressing, those ivory keys
Softly, softly pianissimo;
Setting my senses beyond, imagination
Lunacy comes to mind...
Treasure of mine, my life my heart.
I've learned to kiss, from your lips your, mouth
Sending, me into a frenzy
Recognising the fire, exuding through me
Hanging, afraid of falling, into a chasm
An abyss, I've created of mine, own
Being lost, in the labyrinths, of my mind
Escaping, your lips, not
Permeating, burning embers,.
As I cruise, in ambiguity escape, cannot
Escaping not the imprisonment, of your arms
Dopamine, in my mind's mind...
How can one, live from day to day
And learn not, from a powerful, mind
Looking at me, burning embers my, fireside
Imprisoning me, my mind
Merely attached, by a thread
A silken thread!
Cruising through, the labyrinths of my, mind
An answer, I cannot find
Whilst my lips recollects, the fires
That you've taught, me that first time
Consuming, me my mind!!

Higher Than a Kite *****

HIGHER THAN A KITE

Touch me!
I implore you looking, into your eyes
Kiss me!
Looking, at me tormenting me,
Wanting me, making me want, you;
This need, in the depths of me
This fire, burning my soul my, mind
Every ounce in me, everything I had
This need, fragmenting my mind
Confounded I'll be;
But your aloofness, as distant as the stars
As cold as a glacier,
Glistening in the sunshine 
An impossibility reaching, those diamonds in, your eyes
You might as well be, out of reach, my world
In wanting you, in my turbulent mind
But then again my, need is stronger than, my mind
At a distance keeping me!
Too deeply, embedded
Growing roots, in my heart;
And my tears feeding these roots, taken in love
Once again, somersaulting my heart 
at the sight of you...
Worshipping, you from afar, I see! 
Dumfounded am I...
But when we connect, might as well be
an orchestra a symphony, a chorus...
Of violins in a frenzy...
Ecstatically, taking me higher
Euphorically!
Intoxication, burning embers, my blood
My heart imploding, my mind
The nearness of you, so close
Fathoms, deep dark distant, pools emerging
Finding, myself falling into the depths
of your eyes...
And am lost, lost for all times
Orchestrating, a symphony in my heart
In mine eyes, I hunger for you
But there's always, this gossamer
Impeding, me from seeing you as you are
This primitive being, residing in my heart
Carrying me higher, than a kite
Bringing me, down with a sigh!

             

      

Just For You! *****

Just For You

Yah!!
I felt I was dying within
Nothing left to, give
A sadness running, through me
Cause he's there not, for me!!
Each time I think of He
Running, through me a stab,
piercing my heart
And my tears silently, overflowing river...
My soul dragging, in the mire!!
Not an ounce of empathy, so cold were, you
I was dying, within me my, mind
Fragmenting, my heart...
The whole of my being, trembling
Oozing, my tears as if drowning, I'd be
Impossible!
In the eyes of my, mind I see your, eyes blue
And ran, my fingers through your,
long red hair
Sending shivers through me, your twinkling, eyes!
But how can one cry a river, an ocean
Chocking, the life out of me;
You're punishing, me for being me
Too outspoken, I see
Feeling forlorn, know not what to, say
You knew from, the start
A mind of my own, I possessed
I say what I think, you know it's my way
But you fleetingly, pass me by
Not a word for, me...
And when I do protest you ignore me;
Shunning me!!
Yet you know what, you are to me,
What you do to me!
Still, hanging around why?
Just, to witness my, unhappiness
To feel I want not, this misery
It hurts too much you, see
Yet I see you behind, your window
Watching ignoring, me!!
Stand, I cannot when you're angry, with me
Teaching me a lesson, punishing me.
But when I look into, your eyes blue
The colour of my, skies
And the oceans across, from me
Scintillating little stars
Casting by the sunlight in your, eyes!

     

To Please Me *****

Why should it be
two souls residing within me
Looking into my mirrored glass
I see two of me!
My right side coordinates not my left
Am a little askew
My face synchronises not with my left from my right
My ribs synchronises not my right
Under my ribs my heart going boom, boom
My left leg slightly longer than the right
I never knew this until my physiotherapist
Exclaims your left leg is longer than your right
Well, what can I say!
What do I do what do I say!!
Always feels right not in any way
I care not if my heart excepts not my way
Or what they do what they say...
I care not for any flattering ways
My brain says no, no way!!
But I love feeling with, my heart   
But excruciating pain coming my way
When I feel with my heart
My heart's breaking fragmenting in every way
Kissing the memory of you
In my mind's mind am struggling every day
Correlating easy is not the two
No, no way!!
These two beings residing within me
At times not at all in harmony
Not at all in sync with me
Struggling just to be me
Looking into my mirrored glass
The left not in sync with my right
Two beings are facing me! I see
But in my heart of hearts
I've only one heart within me
On mind!!
In disharmony the two sides of me
I've all these feelings within me
What's the use if I can't use these feeling just for me
To please me!
Why am I fighting my mind the very core of me
In harmony would love to be just me!
When my hearts crying out just let me be!
This being residing within me!!

               By Connie James