Running Riot +++++

Running Riot

My brain's running riot,
It's hard controlling, my thoughts
echoing through me...
The imagery, fighting one's mind
Under control, keeping one's feelings, intact
Should I write, my thoughts my way
Into conflict, my words getting me
They that understand not me, my mind
Half measures won't do...
But my uncontrollable mind, control cannot
The visions within me...
Good bad, ugly or indifferent
The consequences I must live with...
Dear lord!
I've flipped, what I've said and do
Acting first, thinking not in, anyway
It's inconsequential, once voiced, relief!
Things that I've aspired, not slow in coming, forward
My friends, I drive insane,
With, my imagery my wants refrain, cannot from voicing... 
Uncontrollable, thoughts desires
One's mind, a brain, control cannot
Like a child, wanting this toy, no other will do
Setting one's mind, from the start,
Uncompromisingly...
I'll always try seeing, things as they are
Like a tunnel vision, not
Bumbling through life, indifferently
Argue cannot, or reason in any, way
The ambivalence, of being me
Leaving me dumbfounded, the consequence
of my acts...
Should I have acted, in any such way,
maybe not, no way!
Going from A to Z in my every day of my days
One day knocking at our door, imminently thegrim ripper, you'll have no say!
We think not what's to come our way, it's irrelevant.
But when my hearts full of love
For the one, that I love, should I love not!!
There won't be, un-contradictory thoughts nor irrational ways...
I've always been an impetuous being,
Spontaneous act first think later, my way
Spontaneity rules my life
Permissible or not has always been my way
But in the acts through my life, whatever I do or say
Love has always resided, in my heart...
Even those that see things, not my way
Love those that love me not...
Even as I loved with every, once I had, in me!
Not easy letting go, those that one, loves
The conspiracy, the fatality of a false, love
This obsessive love wanted, not in any way
The best about me, or maybe not
Little by little, love takes root, in my heart
Those in my life, day in day out
I'll always fight for those that, I love
Half measures, there won't be with my love
Unconditionally...   
There are no preconditions, with my love
Ask not why I love! I love just because
I love...
Come whatever may!!