Peace of Mind!

Peace of Mind

My brains a cacophony waiting to explode
It's as busy as Picadilly circus
or London city in a rush
Can not move, my head won't let me
as if on the tiles I've been all night
swinging from tree to tree!
An explosion inherently within me
it won't let go of me;
Shun me!
Why he would shun me!
My tears torrents a flowing river
flowing down to the sea
Rushing through me
I want to scream like a banshee
The Moon in her element won't let me!
The disturbance nothing less than infernal
plastering their likeness before me
like hyenas laughing mocking me!
tormenting me!!
On my visage a smile I plaster
but in my heart, they cannot see
Within me killing me!
To the sea, I should go down maybe
let the waves wash over me
cleanse it may do my fu.ked up mind
from this agony.
Or an illusion that I'll always forever be
this being tormented within me!
Or contented should I be that he shuns me.
The stellar in my skies, my mind he'll always be
Reaching high & try plucking he
he's always just beyond me...
Reach I cannot the stars in his eyes
as he looks at me mockingly...
Gone away from me.
Yet there I see he!
Shining upon my skies his light scintillatingly
In silhouette, he'll be pretending he see's not me
my mind deplorable the cacophony will always be
That star that's he, I'll reach & pluck
& across my firmament, I'll skim he
beyond my universe...
If he, I see not scintillating upon my skies
a chance there might be that peace of mind
peace within me!

                    By Connie James

A Merman!!

            A Merman!!

Sprawled out on my rock for all to see
His eyes liquidy, dark pools I see in He
Lying there on my rock, how dare he!!
Unquiet my mind became,
deep dark eyes gazing at me.

Oh dear Lord his hair as silky as can be 

shining lustrously; 

His staring at me!

Look not at me thus I admonish him... 

His face chiselled his nose just a little on the snub side 

his lips red like ripe cherries 

Biting on his lip unconsciously as if not sure of me 

Ambiguity not present in He 

His arms strong his shoulders wide 

his torso chiselled as if in the gym he'd been 

I was enthralled by him I looked right through him

He mesmerised me!
He was so sure of himself there was no ambiguity about he

his face had that little, Je ne sais quoi!! 

Perfection I'd say. 

How can one be as gorgeous as He! 

I could think not I didn't want to think for

am always in trouble when I think...   

Look at me not thus! 

His eyes deep pools dark viscous

Emerging myself I'll be, how can you do this to me! 

Then changeable to a bright blue dark that you've ever seen!

As blue as my skies & the oceans before me 

enthralled was I by He!

Amazing how with that smile scintillating he seems to be

Bewitching me! 

Into the water, he takes me, am mesmerised by He

The fluidity of his moves like a ballet dancer spinning 

EnPoint he'd stand it seemed to me magnificently
his moves are pure elegant like a Dolphins
His laughter his smile penetrating bewitching me
Like a siren his song pure, reaching a crescendo
penetrating into your mind like a madness within me!
In my mind's eye's I still see He mocking gazing at me
As He slides into the sea...
A Merman! Did I see!!
Or an elusive illusion as I lie by the water's edge lapping over me
A warm summer cool breeze whispering over me
Barking mad I must be as I leave, looking back
Turquoise crystal clear waters, there's no sign of He
My imagination I dare say playing tricks on me
On my memory, embed he'll always be...

      By Connie James... 

   

     

               

The Core of Me

The Core Of Me

In, the very core of me!
I see feel his eyes burrowing through me

Lying here in my naked body 

waves lapping over me 

like a lover's arms surrounding embracing me

& with the flow goes I intrinsically 

Calling on to me I hear in my memory, of times past 

When all the time, in the world he had for me

The swell hitting me hard choking me 

In my mind's mind, I cry for, he to come to me! 

As in times past irrevocably...

But his eyes blue see cannot me! 

As a tear sadly escapes me 

But the sea calling, calling to me come & play with me

another wave washes over me. 

Carrying me too far distant lands, in between rock pools 

Fathomless sea & here goes I in my naked body 

being caressed by this gossamer wrapping around me 

before carrying into the depths of me!

& I cry out the ecstasy of the moment, loving me.

This wondrous sea all around me 

Like a lover's constantly whispering 

Whispering to me! 

But whisperings I hear not my minds, on He

Return I must go to where I lied 

In my little corner of paradise where I last saw He 

Lying on my rock like a mermaid his eyes 

burrowing into me as I lay in my, naked body

In my dreams he's loving me, all of me! 

His eyes blue electrifying me, as I reach out kissing He 

Believe I could not that he was standing before me   

His eyes melting me 

his hair the colour of the burning sun, 

like an aura surrounding He. 

I reached to touch his visage imploringly 

stay, stay here beside me 

kissing his heart knowingly!

Riding, upon a wave my eyes so full of He.

I was being carried into another dimension, 

before, I hadn't been

grasping desperately at nothingness.

As I awake from my revery, minds are funny things! 

Standing before me calling me 

come on sleepy head lets go says he 

Reaching down to me!        

                  By Connie James 

        

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

         

                         HAPPY BIRTHDAY DIVASH

Hello, my lovely!!
Eulogies there won't be
Except to wish you a great day...
Wishing you a very happy birthday &
May the breeze whisper over you
Make your heart's sing when the day's through
May the Gods smile upon you be with you
& bring laughter into your eyes love into your heart
& may the Moon come to restore you
Shining her light upon you in the extremities of you
Restoring you to, a strength impossible you'd thought  
& may you walk gently through the days of your life, light in step
Letting the sunshine upon you warm you embrace you.
& may you gently step on to the streets in the recesses of your mind
Letting the illusion disperse not from your heart
& may your worries, be many miles away...
All In all, have a great birthday  

                     Connie James

Eternal Breeze

Marvellous creature...

Says he, as he lies down beside me

His, hands softly over me!

Sending shivers through me!

My senses overflowing...

But my minds on he

He doesn't see me!

I guess, am just a pebble on the beach.

Thrown up by the sea whooshing back & forth

A grain of sand crushed over Millennium.

That, a pebble once used to be

A mere speck of dust floating through the eternal, breeze

Beyond, the clouds dancing swaying in the

Hemispheric winds!

Nothingness, I seem to be just another speck of dust. 

You can't see it!!

But within me, I cry look, at me!

Look at me in the eyes & see

That being living breathing!

A troubled mind thinking only of thee

Why treat me abhorrently, punishing me

But I guess it'll teach, me thinking, of you won't do!

& yet on my mind perpetually he seems to be

Like, a wound a cicatrize that won't heal

Damn you!

From my eyes, waterfalls 
Escaping silently.

Hiding, behind those waterfalls so no one can see

Within me am fragmenting.

Into, tiny little pieces, like that speck of dust

That, everyone, knows it’s there, but can't see

Yesterday by the sea, I did lie, waves washing over me.

Thinking of, he!!

& my tears flow like a river as I wept quietly

My, seas, were blue my skies.

The gulls swaying in the thermal winds

Gazing watching them dancing in the breeze

Wonder how gulls feel & the kestrels above me

As they dance & sway, with ease

Is there any other purpose in the way they think!

I'd love to be a bird flying through the sky with ease.

Thinking, not feeling seeing nothing!!

Troubling not one's mind, caring not a jot.

I would love to be such a bird!

Into, Infinitum carried by eternal winds

Looking, back not at he!!

 By Connie James 

 

Loving He!!

LOVING HE!!

Gazing at you in all your glory,
pleasuring my eyes
Reaching slowly my minds at one
So beautiful you are!!
Standing aware what you're doing to me
In  the extremities of me am crying
Take me beyond the clouds
the stratosphere, the universe, into infinity!
Reaching out kissing every inch of he
Your eyes playing games with mine I do realise
As you look deep into, mine eyes
& into an amoeba, I become blindly feeling my way
into his game of love, that you play.
Like tentacles your roots
residence in the depths of my heart;
& I fall apart within seconds my mind
Like a diluvium all over again
I cry out in the recesses of my mind
I knew that he'd come again, one more time
& my foolish heart starts all over again
The delirium of his touch infecting my mind
Help I cannot but follow this river
inherently within me, drowning within his touch,
I can never see He!! for what he'll be...
Like that black Phoenix taking me high
into my hemisphere goes I
Bringing me down with a whisper of a sigh
Ecstatically I gaze at He, for I knew
that in the extremities of me my mind
he'd take his love away from me
as if non-existent I'll be.
Suddenly an empty canvas staring at me
Still, like that amoeba feeling my way, blindly!
Struggling all over again...
Bear cannot to, start again, to fill that canvas
before me!
Loving He!!

            By Connie James


 

Paradise Land!!

Today is lovely I bright coming up roses
It has stopped raining...
I must go back to a time when in paradise.
My little Island in the sun!
The miraculous rising of the sun right there before my eyes
In my little paradise land.
The dawning of a new day in the early morning dew
Facing east once again on my knees as in a prayer
kneeling before that altar facing me
Waiting for the show to begin
New dawn! is dawning on me
Casting my hands towards the sky's
As it swiftly appears almost as with a sigh
Like a star-bursting right before my eyes
Scattering little diamonds on the shore
Best show on earth you'll ever see!
Leaving me in awe mesmerised
Unfurling before me
The gloriousness of the rising sun
Standing high flowing through my mind
my thoughts blowing in the breeze
As I throw my hands outstretched as if in a dream
trying to touch that scintillating star
Cascading her light like a river of gold
Viscuous molten reddish-golden river
In a blink of an eye ascending the heavens
It's warmth upon my skin my face
Brightness blinding me shutting my eyes
Drinking from that spring,
that spring where I was born many moons gone by
one more time in the lands of my Papa
Whispering to that bursting star before me
My chest fills my throat constricting, I miss, he!
Tears spilling from my eyes
It's hard to surmise this feeling within me
Brought on by that star bursting
Scintillating little diamonds
Pleasing my eyes

                      By Connie James...

Yory!

Yory!

Yory, Darling!!

I sense turmoil unhappiness within you.

You've changed you see in the things you do

I can see into your mind

You’re at odds with yourself...

Your mojo!!

Must not lose your mojo whatever you do!!

That's what keeps you going your life through 

Every day of your days

Yet I feel uneasiness within you

Fighting, whatever I know, not!!

The blues, we must keep our blues at bay.

Foraging forward each & every day

But I fear it's much more than the blues

The darkness in your mind, disperse it will away 

I know not what really am talking about I know!!

But share can you not what's troubling you

Is Sandy ok!! Once you could tell me

What was on your mind, worrying you!

I know that help I could not

But sometimes it helps to unburden our minds

Someone, to listen to...

But if you trust me not, keep it to yourself

Divulge I'd never do whatever is entrusted to me

But what can Sandy do if they're after you

A united front for all to see might help...

But you know Yory

Your harem won't stand for any nonsense

When it comes down to you

They love as you are.

Whatever you say display & do

You've killed no one, have you!!

We want our Yory where he should be
With a wave of his batons conducting us 

Full, of fun with lead in his pen challenging us

Our, minds attuned our eyes our hearts in awe of you!

In, you must never give!

That's what keeps your going you mind active alive ticking...

Otherwise what would be the point to go on, breathing?

Just to curl up & die!! No, no Siree!!

Kick butt we must every day of our days

So just our blues keep away;

So, my Sheik, your harem awaits you

With bated breath

& with that twinkle in your eyes 
making us sigh...