Clocks Forward

I like It not when the clocks goes forward
Had a bad night anyway
Could sleep not, the boy was breathing away
How can he breathe whilst I can not sleep
It's not on, can you hear me say.
 Now I've lost half of my day
Luncheon will be late, I hear me say
But who gives a monkey's I do not in any way
Luncheon can not be rushed
But what the hell, make it dinner instead...Yah!
This morn my world is grey,
I feel not like moving anyway
A gale it's blowing it's as miserable as sin.
The wind's whistling, whispering ghostly sound
Hissing whispering, around my ears
The gulls floating riding the thermal winds
Like a glider, gracefully as they spin on their wings
Well, my friends must go..
And play with the pots and pans in the kitchen
A very good day to you all
Ciao for now; 

                 Connie James

Consuming Me!

CONSUMING ME

Darling!
Can you feel me!
Am all around you;
Can you feel me in your mind,
Ahh, darling!
Touch me!  Like yesterday;
Like all my yesterday's you're on my mind
Darling!
This need's consuming me.
Can you not feel my breath whispering over you!
The urgency in me as I look at you
Am glad no one sees but you
Yesterday you loved me this way!
Like a volcano erupting from me my mind
Your eyes like meteorites
Burning embers on my mind's mind
As we ran on those fields of green
Beneath a cloudless sky
You were mine & mine alone
As we descended to the shore just beneath
My fields of green
Coming upon a vision before our eyes
Heaven came to mind
A little paradise of our own
Stretching before us that forever beach
Running tumbling down much hilarity;
Making out on the ground loving me;
The surfing waves white waters spuming
The ebullience carrying you along surfing waves
On terra firma was I waiting for you
Love exuding through every pore of my being
The beauty of you playing tricks on me;
As I visualised you the essence that's you
Catching up with you, my little paradise beach
Just you & I undulating surfing before me
From my feet knocking me
Could breathe not surf over me!
You came running lifting me up holding me tight
As I coughed & splattered out my heart;
Kissing your eyes your lips
Taking hold of me
Desperation deep set within, me
Then & there you loved me like yesterday
All my yesterday's you loved me!
Darling! look at me;
I imagine you looking at me
From behind your window pane
Monitoring me from afar;
My words are meant for you
But you care not reading my words
Incandescent my thoughts of you;
& as I see you standing before me, in your superiority
Wondering!
Not as impetuous as me by far!
Just reactions within me, reasoning I can not be.
As I reach high touching your mind with mine
Love looking into your eyes
Falling into the depths so deep it seems
& I! kissing your eyes your lips
That hollow beneath your chin I feel you shiver within
Your eyes burning embers of meteorites
Just fallen from my sky's burning me my mind
Am lost in my own paradise;
As the surf washes over us one more time
Am holding on for dear life;
Laughter erupting from you,
So nice seeing you laugh the light in your eyes
Like hard dark diamonds scintillating
From my darkest sky's
Beyond my universe you & I!
Lust or love carrying me within my eyes
Beyond infinity just you & me!!

       By Connie James...

Changes in me...

CHANGES IN ME 
Looking at those photos!!
Will I be like that says I emotionally!
Like not the changes in me
As I look in my mirrored glass & see...
The changes in me!!
There's a stranger looking back ta me...
With my fingers, I touch the reflection on my glass
I see no lines deeply embedded within me!!
But the vision that I see it's not me!!
But some other being looking sadly back at me...
Am not accepting awfully well the changes in me...
Twinkling mischievous eyes looking back at me...
Daring me to kick butt you see...
The smile still real to me
Smiling from ear to ear bravely for all to see...
Head erectly smiling at those that greet me...
I see the light in their eyes smiling back at me...
But I like not the changes in me!!
I look not like me!!
As I look into my mirrored glass a tear falling silently...
What have they done with me?
ET, Tu says I accusingly
Irrevocably abandoning me!
But I'll always kick butt you see at those that misunderstand me...
Those photos left a big impression on me...
But that smile still twinkling in my eyes as I look & see...
That inherently love lives within me...    

                 By Connie James...

Are You Real!

Are You Real!

Underneath my quilt am hibernating
For I want not to move it's cold;
Lying here pen & paper in hand
Out of my window
As I gaze at the horizon far
Across the water from me
Where are you!
Wherever will you be
Are you real;
A figment, of my imagination
A phantom playing, tricks with me my mind
Yet here I lie thinking of you
Running away with me my thoughts my mind.
Standing on top of my world
Gazing far & wide
Imagining beyond that mountain high
That valley that hill on top of my world
Whispering in the breeze the wind
Between the trees, my words whispering
Undulating before me dancing in the breeze
Rustling amongst the leaves whispering
Across the valleys,
I see indolently before me
Dancing in the breeze my words
Reaching to you carried in the wind
Jumping skipping, hollering your name
Echoing in the wind
Throwing back at me with disdain
Words I want to hear
Listening to me not wrestling refusing
Carrying my words to you;
Echoing, through me fragmenting
Laughing at me assiduously
Conversing with the wind I try
When you not near
But it refuses to hear what's on my mind
Standing my ground looking all around, me
Looking forlornly within, me
I want not to see he laughing at me
Fragmented
Broken into a thousand pieces my mind
Like a jigsaw that piece always missing
Lost in the recesses of my mind
Carried in the extremities of me
Higher must I climb for that elusive piece!
Missing in my minds, mind;
Across the way, I see he rushing on to me
On top of my world joining me, will he!
Stretching my arms reaching, He
He's smiling at me!
Standing my ground running I must not be
He must come to me
That's the crux, does he want me!
Musn't be carried away impulsively
That's inherently within me
Must wait & see,
Whatever will be will be;

                   By Connie James...

Beyond Return...

Beyond Return...

Reaching beyond the clouds   

Tears are falling from my skies 

Behind that gossamer of my mind 

Searching the light in your eyes

In the recesses of my mind...
Perpetually seeking you, would you!  

Imaginings;
Wondering if the lights in your eyes 

Welcoming me into your arms 

But you stand there in your stance 

Unmovingly;

That forbidding look starring at me

But as I look into your eyes 

Hard like diamonds in my darkest skies

Beyond my firmament 

& I with tears in mine eyes 

Reach cannot the stars in your eyes

At any moment;

Bear cannot, to look at you 

As you look at me forbiddingly

Like King Canute ominously   

Procrastinating at every moment 

Knocking me down
From high up on your pedestal  

But I'll always rise again, defiantly  

Looking at me his eyes

Steadfast unflinchingly;

I can see the truth in his eyes 

Gazing at me slapping me!

I knew then & there I wasn't wrong 

The intensity in his eyes 

Burning like meteorites 

Skimming, across my darkest skies  

As tears silently escaping me 

The intensity of his stare 

There was fire in his blood 

My blood burning my mind 

Flames climbing high

His arms about me, murmuring

Whispering softly

What are you doing to me! 

Bewitching me; 

As I kissed every inch of he 

It took all of me 

Every ounce I possessed within me 

But the scent of He much stronger than me

As I kissed him hungrily

Drinking from that spring that was he
That very spring where I was born  

Overflowing my mind my blood  

There's no returning for, me

Beyond return his words unfailingly  

Burning my mind incandescently 

Way beyond me; 

His touch fervently in a frenzy my mind 

As he whispers to me phrases burning wild 

Understood not at any time 

There was fire in my blood 

But it took every ounce of me

Not to fly high, fire in my blood 

Beyond the extremities of my mind 

As I look into his eyes fever burning wild
His veins his blood; 

Touching our minds irrevocably

An explosion within us 

As I kissed his eyes his lips his mind:     

  

               By Connie James 

   

    

Will it Suffice

Will it Suffice

Contain can not my words
They're all around me
Flowing through my mind;
Refrain can not they just flow,
Inexorably.
Like an unstoppable waterfall
From the recesses of my mind dispersing:
Like a river flowing through me
It's inherently within me;
Containing my words an impossibility will be
Casting into to winds my thoughts
Whispering, swaying in the breeze;
Those in my vicinity
Bear can, not my constant jabbering
From me running inexplicably
Escaping from the extremities of  me
Constantly my thoughts
Killing me;
At war with me conversely
Running wild my imagination;
Help I can not, exasperatingly my thoughts
In perpetual motion as I think of you
Through me running like a primitive being
Reasoning, not my mind just reactions within, me
As you stand before me
Gloriously before my eyes,        
Rippling through me your gaze penetrating
Into overdrive goes I my mind
The essence of you confounding me
How can you look at me so forbiddingly
Punishing me intrinsically
Extract can not this feeling within me;
& I, in my eyes the essence of you
Longing to touch your face that slight touch
Just a whisper of a kiss
Upon your eyes your lips
Would it suffice!
As I look into your, minds mind
The sublimity of you abide can not
Darkest pools in my nights of nights, your eyes
Sending shivers right through mine
Getting closer all of the time;
In the extremities of me, it's not hard to see
The effect you have on me
Like a clock marking time on my mind
But the rebel in me a jot I give not
When you reside within my mind
Like whispering winds in the recesses
Driving me wild
The thought of you has me in a frenzy
Like a dopamine ecstatically
A balm quieting my mind
Fibrillation through me my mind
Fathom can not,
Help I can not but,
Caress your eyes with mine
For am lost in a world of feelings
As I touch your soul
The splendour sublime:

By Connie James

But Darling!

But Darling!

Just be a good girl & go sleep
But darling, I can not sleep!
If I could make love I know I could sleep.
Can you sleep easily,
Oh, darling!
If you were there why didn't you say hi!!
Darling!
This morning I tried to make love
I know not how it happened I had you on my mind
OMG, darling
With you on my mind, it was easy
I just wanted you, just you no good pretending
I know not where the feeling came from
Oh lord, darling!
It's been a while since I've felt such as this
We were making love, it was, oh lord
It was, I had you know what!
For crying out loud darling
I whispered oh, darling,
My god darling am a bad person
But it felt so good being bad
Standing together we are touching skin to skin
Looking into your eyes I can not disguise
This need for you, my love
Reaching up to touch your mind with mine
Scaling high my, need to kiss you
Your face against mine like a dream
But I can feel your heart beating like a drum
Percussion within my mind
Kissing your lips your eyes contain can not this feeling
It's so easy as I kiss that hollow below your chin
My mind my senses overflowing like a stream
I shudder within me,
Rippling through me my mind
As I softly bite your chin
In my chest somersaulting my heart beating like a drum
My mind foggy becomes
That gossamer impeding my mind my senses
And I!
Without any defences, your hands whispering over me
Whispering whispers my mind cloudy became
Hovering over me, hope I have not of anchoring myself
As you touch me tentatively ahh! An eruption escaping me
Fibrillation taking hold of me as you touch me!
My reason yet again, escaping me
As I feel your skin against mine throbbing
Taking over from me!
Am lost am lost my, mind as you kiss every, inch of me
Escapism lost in time, begging you be mine!
Reaching a point of no return arching close so close
You won't let me be
Until am crying deliriously euphorically my mind
Reaching the heights I thought possible not
Let me be!!
Too much darling, please
An explosion within me my mind
Anchoring myself to you one more time
Coming through the infinitum,  mind crashing
Crying out, lifting that gossamer from my mind
Leaving me sated tears escaping my eyes
Abandoned I loved as if a tomorrow there wouldn't be
In the regions of my mind will it ever be!
That illusive illusion dispersing from me
That you're only in the regions of my mind.
In the very extremities of me!!

               By Connie James

"SAD" Seasonal Affective Disorder

Please do not dismiss this...
Read on, there's a reason for it;
I can't be the only person that suffers from this
At least one of my FB friends I know suffers
Something similar
Here is the photographs of what it looks like...


Good morning my world
All & sundry
As I draw wide my curtains
Faced before me
Oh, dear lord am faced with this greyness
Hitting me right in the eyes
For it's as grey as can be
My spirits hitting a low
Right down to the soles of my feet
Dragging me into a mire of despair
Into the dregs of hell forever be
As your constantly weeping no reason at all
Grey days are a bane to me!
A gossamer fog in your mind pressing you down
This ache
Right there in the middle of your chest
Tightening your throat constricting
The very breath from you; You weep & cry out
As if the whole world hates you;
Right now I've tears flowing like a river
Control I can not this feeling within me
I could cry an ocean or two
Almost unbearable this ache
That I just want to hide Hibernate
Like that animal, I've become
Switch off completely;
For when darkness hits my world
These ghastly grey days
My mind hits rock bottom
On the grey days of my days
There's a term for it
I've known quite some time

It's called "SAD" Seasonal Affective, Disorder

But knowing what's it called helped me none
All I knew was that it was dying inside
Killing me my mind my heart in sorrow
But for what I knew not!
On days such as these hating those around me
Like a bear with a sore head forever I'll be
Just leave me, let me be I'd say hollering!
But it seems there's a light at the end
Of a very long tunnel; For this disorder
Harry a friend of mine put me on to it
For he recognised my symptoms, in my writing I guess,
Crawling through the gates of hell
Connie why don't you try this lamp it might help you
Says he!
It's this special lamp that emitting a very bright light
It doesn't hurt your eyes;
It just lifts that gossamer fog from you mind
It's amazing you can feel it happening
lifting from you mind
& that abominable ache in middle of your chest
Your heart diminishing;
Sitting here writing this, my lamps on
I feel so much more human...
That wild bear with a sore head dispersing from me!
It might not help everyone
Depending in, whatever condition you may have
But it seems to be helping me;
Right now my skies are grey
& I was feeling as miserable as sin
I switch my lamp on
Feeling much more like a human being:

Connie James

That Old Pirate...

Wow!!
That'll blow one's mind
A whole month!
Being battered by that swell
Oceans deep so cruel
Out of one's mind, we'd be going
Before too long
Pounding against those infernal walls
Without refrain
You'd be climbing up the walls
Again & again
But in the lull of a calm sea
There'll be no better place to be
Gazing across the horizon far
You can see the sun moon & stars
Shining in his eyes
Before that swell returns again
Like king Canute temperamentally he'll be
Racing oceans wild
After all who is he
But that old pirate of the seas...

Connie James

Silent Prayer

Silent Prayer

Lord, Jan in need of thee
Won't you please Lord
Keep an eye over she
So no harm comes to her
Take care of Jan just for a change
Take care of she.
I know Lord you must be tired
Of us earthlings bothering you
But she's scared, Lord
& she's cared for many unselfishly
In her profession those that lived in ambiguity
Those she cared for unconditionally;
Won't you O Lord
Cast your eyes over Jan
In pain, no one deserves to be
Lord I know we're all sinners!
But Lord keep an eye over she
Of course, I know Jan not
But am sure that you do;
Keep an eye over, her for her family!!
I ask not much for me O Lord
Can one love one's friend's too much
I know not Lord!
But Jan's in need of thee!!

 

Beyond Me...

Good day my world!
Don't feel so good this morning
Completely s..tless
My energy drained from me
As if a weight is grounding me
Feeling blue!
Know not what to do
My minds refusing to see beyond me
With the floodgates flowing
It's an impossibility
To visualise before me;
Out of my window, I see greyness
A dark world!
Dragging my spirits low
I can not think I can not  feel
Except this feeling of foreboding
Must put my light on & see
If this feeling disperses from me
For my world's as grey as can be
This gossamer refusing to let me see
The light beyond me
Feeling weak as can be;
Even the little birds aren't singing
Do they know something I do not know
Will my world fall from its axis!
Will there be destruction all around
Must lift this gossamer from my mind
Must go out there and kick butt
Helping me my minds not
To extract the silhouette-ness from my mind
In the semi, darkness can not live!!
O mind of mine set me free
From this darkness within me!!
For the light, I can not see
Beyond, beyond me!
Behind my eyes, exuding from me
Waterfalls flowing silently
Is this me!
Or this other being residing within me
Just go away & let me be!!
Alone with me
Me myself & me!!
Mil perdones my world
For my misery!!

Connie James...

Love has no reason

Love Has no Reason

We must never be afraid to love
Love rules our hearts our minds
That little word called love
Setting us alight
Fire in our blood our minds
Dreams in our hearts
Tearing us apart
& the love light in our eyes
Fighting our minds mind
What resides in our hearts
& the look in their eyes
Can not disguise
The intensity of that love
Robbing us of our self-esteem
Our pride's none existent
As we gaze into their eyes
& see love not but lies
Their's no reasoning with love
Fighting every day of our lives
As tears flows from our eyes
LOve has no reason;

By Connie James...

The Mausoleums of Old

Mausoleums Of  Old

In the mausoleums of times past
I walk through
Where they've planted their dead it true
Stretching before me I see desolation within me
Does anyone hear does anyone see
Visualising before me
Abandoned do I see
The spirit of others pointing at me!
Accuse me not for I can't see
Those, it times forgotten
Don't accuse me!!
Now In death, I want not to see
You pointing your finger at me!
I was there,
I was there, me only me!
I was there don't you see
I was there looking out for you
Waiting for you to come through
I was there championing you
Encouraging you to breathe through
Your breathing fast,
Much too, fast you see
Much too fast take it easy
Breath slowly Mama
Doucement Mama
But you took no heed
I knew not you were departing from me!
That last drink I gave you
You were gasping Mama!
Just to wet your lips your throat
But the wrong person that was me
I could not comfort thee
Had the words not fluently
As you slipped through my fingers
I was looking at you
Leaving me alone stupefied too
I knew not you wouldn't come back to me
As you uttered O Jesus, O my God
Leaving me!
Leaving me; As tears spilt out
From the very core of me!
Why pick on me Mama?
Why pick on me!
I wasn't the best person to be there you see
You've forsaken, me Mama!
You've forsaken me:

By Connie James

Grasping For Sanity

GRASPING FOR SANITY

Oh please go away let me be!
For you can quench not this need in me
A can of worms you've open can't you see
Working over time my mind
At all times bombarding me
Words I know not the meaning of
Cheekily saying do you need explaining
This exhilaration within me for I never thought
I had this wantonness this abandonment in me    
From those seeds you've planted on, my mind
Roots are growing all of the time
Reaching within me this longing
Endure, I can not
Won't you shut up for am kissing you
How can I kiss your eyes your lips
When you keep talking, infernally
Struggling within me these raw feeling
As you keep repeating, words I know not of
Inflaming me my mind as I get turned on & on
Your sweet nothings are sweeter than honey
As am grasping for the meaning this lunacy within me
Repeating at all times the meaning there, of
It's playing havoc on my mind
Won't you please shut up for as demented as I am
Hearing such words burning a hole, on my mind
Incandescent words I've never heard of
Burning red my face fire within;
It's there for you to see as I grappling for sensibility
Can not explain inflaming my mind
New feelings within me for I was dead within me
The freedom of such speech has left me weak so weak
Cope can not with such feelings
My minds in a mire of lust, know not how to deal with
Your incandescent words burning my mind
Questions upon questions at all times
Questions am reluctant or can not answer
Never known anyone like you as you insisting
Pressing me as I reluctant to see
Drop it give over, give me a break, please!
But a break you wouldn't give me!
Wanting to know everything about me
From what I feel what I think what I eat what I dream
Too much for me such a nosey beggar you are!
I've never felt like this before as you turn me on & on
Lunacy set me free
That first time as I heard your voice tongue tied was I
Sending shivers down my spine
I fear good for me your not with a body thinking not
When there's fever within reasoning not one's mind
One can reason not when there's fever in one's blood
With shivers down your spine lunacy comes to mind
Burning one's mind grasping for a reason not;
I feel your eyes on me incandescently wanting
This wanting the ambivalence in me!
Those seeds you've planted on, my mind
I can not see the light between you & me
But the darkness within the light as I struggle not to feel
In the recesses of my mind
The extremities this wanting in me
It can have not a good ending
Grasping for sanity:  

By Connie James















     

Words Come Not Easy...

Words Come Not Easy

Amongst the words and letters written between the lines
Those, lines I've been staring at such a long time
The words wouldn't come
they were on the tip of my tongue
So hard transferring to paper
& write between the lines what's on my mind
The scents in the air it's amongst the clouds
The scent of rain-laden heavily within the clouds
With this much-needed rain
As it descends upon a parched land
Settling upon your lips without refrain 
Glistening rain;
The blueness of your eyes deeply within
Like the colours of the cornflowers
Just down the field below me.
A wonderful sight to see
As I walk through a sea of blue,
Just like the colour of your eyes, so blue
As I caress each flower pretending it's you
Warm thoughts forming on, my mind
Struggling between those much-desired lines
Those, casting they're words with easy
As they sit & write words flowing easily
Wherever one's at its neither here nor there
I love where I am but my heart cry's
For the place where I was born.
Searching every face in the crowds
Searching for you in every man I see!
Still searching for that face
That could be He.
Who could he be?
He could be everyone or anyone
That's right.
He's the one in my dreams
That has become part of me!
Each thought each dream
Whether am awake or asleep
He's there within me roots growing deeply
He Is forever within me
Whether I've lost him or not
Words I can forget not words
Words ingrained on my mind
Words simple words can't do without him
Words like I love him...

                   By Connie James

Turbulent Waters

Turbulent Waters

First time I saw you
My heart missed a beat
Turbulent waters within me
As I sat with my cup of tea
In the recesses of my mind, I see;
If a kiss isn't just a kiss
Afraid I don't know
But if a kiss isn't just a kiss!
In awful, trouble, I'll be
Residing within me it's there to see
If a kiss isn't simply just a kiss;
From the depths of me
Ringing out of me
Every once that's in me;
I recall!
That kiss that wasn't simply a kiss
In the recesses of my mind
Euphorically I!
I recall the abandonment of that kiss
To my cost,
In the extremities of me
To the very core of me,
I cried out your name once again
I recall;
In my, minds mind I see you
Gazing at me that stare
Confounding me!
As you stare at me unflinchingly
Right through me...
Unfocused my mind becomes
Feelings like this primitive being
I felt that river flowing
Within me;
Turbulent waters running through me  
In my abandoned mind
Extricate me from me
Reason I could not
In the extremities of me
For I've wept a river
Inconsolably;
You're in my mind growing roots
The very core of me
My heart cries a river
Within me!!
Immersing myself
Into those dark pool's that's your eyes
I can not surmise this need in me
As I think of you irrevocably
In my primitive mind, of minds
Wondrous pictures do I see
As you stand there before me
Reaching out to you on tip toes I go
Lifting my eyes my lips kissing you
But if a kiss isn't just simply a kiss
Extinguishable my blood I don't know
Burning my fingers
The fire in my blood gazing at you
Refrain can not
For you're under the very skin of me...
I can see in the very depths of you
Mesmerising bewitching me
Playing dangerously
Confounded I'll be
If I'll ever know what you mean to me!!
But you've grown roots within me:
Ringing through me that song
That a kiss ain't just a kiss
What can it be!

                 By Connie James

 











 

Whispers In The Wind

Whispers in the wind

In the vastness of our world
Why?
Should we feel so alone so lonely within!
Yet I know your there but you can't see hear me
But if I whisper long and slow
Will you hear me, my love
Will your hear the whispers in the wind
That whistling sound
Going round & round, that ghostly sound;
It's me calling you, to come to me
Don't you see!
That's me calling you
But you my love do not hear me
You do not answer me!
There's a fire burning in my heart
Am waiting, for you, my love to quench it
Yet I know, I know my love you share not this need
This obsession that's driving me insane;
Can not eat or sleep my love
You're beneath my skin!
In the distance I see you,
You're so young & beautiful
Much, to young for me!
My love
In the darkness of my nights I yearn for you, my love;
My head tells me do not be foolish, but my heart!
My heart's breaking.
Should I whisper much louder my love;
I have not the strength to whisper much louder;
It makes no difference.
On the far horizon, I see you
Is it an illusion!
The vision of you, my heart missing a beat
You're so young & beautiful!
That proud gait in your walk;
The way you stand looking at me!
Please!
Do not look at me that way!
What chance have I my love
If you look at me that way!
Your mesmerising eyes affects me
Bewitching me!
My heart cries for me my love
How can I let you go!
But I must let you go; can't you see!
You must not want me, my love
It's not right to want me, please let me go
I know I've whispered in the winds my love
Didn't think you heard me,
Now here you are, what do I do now;
I've never felt so alive my love
You bringing shivers to my spine as if
Butterfly's fluttering within, me
It's beyond me;
The sight of you playing delicious havoc,
Within me my love!
Am pleading, let go of me!
The intensity of this love is right beyond me
But, it's not right to keep you, my love
Please do not cling to me!
I must let you go...
Although the fire in my blood
Will keep burning for you
My love!!

  By Connie James

All Of You!

All Of You

By the riverside, I lie
With the moon's gravity anchoring, me
The moon blue in her fulness
Shedding her light upon you upon me
The stars in the skies
In their element,
Playing with my senses;
Whilst you could sense a river, in me!
My lips still burning from that kiss
In my veins my blood's boiling;
My senses overwhelming me
Holding on to you as in a vice,
All of you;
Right there by the riverside
You sensing a river in me
As we made love one more time
Extricate, could not myself from you
My senses having no defenses,
My body yearning for you;
As my fingers doing the talking
Exploring every inch of you
In the darkness of my nights,
Am reaching out for, you
My whole being aching in the need;
As I kiss every pore of you
Whispering over you!
In the darkness of my nights
Before dawns shone through;
In the morning misty dew;
Can you feel not my darling
My breath upon you;
It's been such a long time, my lovely
Don't you know!
As I find myself writing manically
Euphorically
Before death takes a hold of me!
Into infinity....

           By Connie James

Marking Time!

Marking Time

Good morning my world
Does anyone else hate that ticking sound
Of a clock, like a bomb waiting to go off
The old boy just bought one of those
Ghastly tick-toking clocks
How I hate that tick-toking sound
Banished it must be to the depths of the drawer
Marking time!
Playing with my mind my senses that sound
Driving me spare that tick-toking!
In the darkness of my nights
When sleep eludes me, unable to sleep.
& playing games with my mind
Words stretching before me,
In the darkness of my nights
When sleep I cannot I stretch over to him.
When sleep eludes me!
In a perpetual motion my nights
On this night of nights
Rigorously keeping time:
Please stop time in your tracks won't you
Your driving me spare with your tick-toking
For he'll be gone in the morning
Before dawn's rushes in
Leaving me in despair
We have nothing but this one night
To experience our love together
Just this one time;
But your tick-toking
Reminding me that in time
Inconsolable sorrow within me my mind
Won't you contain time in your tracks
On this night of nights between now
& infinity let time stand still!
On this perpetual, night of nights
For he'll be gone forever in the morning
Before dawn rushes in
Your driving me spare with your tick-toking
Won't you, contain time in your hands;
For he's the light the stellar in my skies
From me, he'll be gone & I'll die;
Life without him is impossible will be
Banished must be your infernal sound
Or he'll be gone forever;
For he's the stellar, scintillating
In the darkness of my skies
Before the rising sun rushes in
Reaching for that star
Scintillating in my darkest firmament
If in your hands contain, you can not time
On such a night as this.
I'll know I'll die:

                     By Connie James