Without Frontiers

Without frontiers
My darling, do not dim out the lights
I'd rather see you not in silhouette
Casting my eyes over you
Inhale, the scent of you
You're wonderful to look at!!...
Admiring, your physicality
standing there
Painting me with your eyes,
And with each brush stroke each touch
Making me feel like a queen!
Seeing, desire in your eyes, I melt within!!
Ne me quitty pas!
For you are all the constellations above me,
my moon my stars...
And all else in between my, universe and I...
It was written in the stars, that you and I were meant to be
But something tells me, in your ambiguity,
Thinking twice!
But for you, I must fight you've grown roots in my heart.
So full of you my mind, obsessively so.
But in my ambivalence, a jot I care not...
All or nothing must be, don't you see!
Look at me one more time, darling before you go
To embed the image of you deeply into my soul
To last the rest of my days in my world...
Pretend I cannot or understand what, you are to me
Inflaming my mind every word uttered by you
Carry on I cannot, with the thought that one day
You'll walk from me!
A soul in turmoil I'll be, know not why I adore you this way,
I just do!
You might as well ask the stars scintillating in my skies
Why they scintillate before my eyes...
And the moon in her element why she shines for me
Leaving me in this torment ambiguously...
Why do they shine I know not...
Would I be, like a dying star would I!!
Little by little extinguishing in the firmament I've built
Once so bright, now mostly in silhouette
A star dying puff!!
My darling, drinking the essence the wonder of you...
You are the spring where I was born,
My tears like rivulets feeding the roots in my heart...
Look at me my darling and smile, won't you
Leaving me with the illusion that you cared for me
Little by little voluntary reason, I cannot
You cannot reason with my heart
This obsessive obsession...
Without, barriers or frontiers
For there are no frontiers,
When it comes down to you!!

The Senses

The Senses

Ambiguous words burning my senses
Just like that kiss lightly brushing mine
But the hunger from your lips
Sending shivers down my spine
With each word burning, a hole in my mind...
That hungry look in your eyes, as I stand before you
The way you look at me, am mesmerised...
Reaching to touch your face...
I can see that devilish look in your eyes
As I reach to kiss your eyes the tip of your nose
Taking thirsty hungry, little sips I kissed your lips
Burning my mind!!
Kissing that hollow just below your throat
Your shoulders biceps to your fingertips...
Then back to that indentation below your throat...
Your excitement excruciating never knew I had this hold
Under my hands, you're mine...
O'my! travelling to each of your nips you, shudder
Looking at you, that grin in your eyes
Endorphins my blood my mind, soaring high...
Like a piano's ivory's feeling your ribs
I can feel the beating of your heart...
Kissing your belly, each hip, in turn, a slow grown,
satisfied!!
Carrying down my path, like a map...
The incandescence of your touch, playing with my mind...
You're the very air I breathe my heart, my soul. 
You are the spring where I was born and in turn
I am lost in your arms, kissing your knees legs,
I can feel your mind...
Reaching your feet, kissing each toe in turn
Enough you, contest!
In our blood, our mind's the fire's beyond return...
Nothing mattered, nothing at all...
Reaching out to me and I pretend not to see
So sure you became pulling at me!
That primitive look in your eyes, smilingly
And when lovers meet our minds we do speak ...
What you need from me and me from you
Making me scream!!
You can play me like a fine piano, at times allegro
others pianissimo...
Like the dulcet tones of Vivaldi
To the masterful Tchaikovsky...
Soaring high in ecstasy my mind and, I
Beyond Infinitum, goes I!! 

Just Missing You

Just Missing You!

Hello, my lovely!
Minds in turmoil when it should not be
There's a certain ambiguity about me!
A sadness taking control of me
I know not what's to be!!
Give up you never do and it's so like you
Caring for those like me, that live in ambiguity
When control I cannot, what comes spewing out
When sadness takes control, of this being residing in me 
I would love to be free, from this uncertainty
Taking hold of me!! 
Yet happiness inherently within me, as I
open my eyes and see,
An unparallel word stretching before me 
Crying out my heart in the ecstasy, by the beauty I see.
But I do hurt my lovely!! 
This ache I carry within me, know not why!
Control, I cannot this feeling taking hold of me
Yet I know, I know it shouldn't bother me...
Missing you my lovely!
Away, you've gone from me...     
When I need you, beside's me
Missing your arms around, hugging me
In my dreams, I see you
In the distant horizon, far from me     
In my mind's mind, I can see
Imaginings!!
Smiling down at me, kissing loving me 
How I miss your eyes, playing games with mine
Dancing mischievously...
Getting a reaction from me! 
How I love your exuberance, making me feel
Making me feel that am real!!
All the while laughing, at me with me
How I love to see laughter in your eyes
As you laugh uncontrollably
Missing you my lovely
Just missing you!!     

Stars In your Eyes

If there are stars in your eyes
Go not into the other side of midnight
A chance I have not to close my eyes
Raging against the darkness, of the dying light
In the eyes of their mind
Beyond midnight do not go
If there are stars in your eyes
Fighting against the darkness of all times
Wise men know not if the night is right
In the depths of their darkest minds
On their lips, forked words exist not
In the lightness of their minds
Brave men weeping, waving their last goodbyes
Frailty means needs not, saying
If their deeds were mindful at all times
Go not into the other side of midnight
If there are stars in your eyes.
On those golden fields dancing in the moonlight
Holding you close by!
Raging in the darkness, of the dying light
Dispersing from their eyes
Go into the other side of midnight
If there are stars in your eyes
Watching the rising of the sun, feral man
Sang and danced into the light so bright
Grieving they learned not, the lateness of their deeds
The stars dispersing from their eyes
You see by thread men hanging 
Blinded euphorically
Blasing embers of meteorites
Fire in their blood, their minds dancing gaily
Go not beyond the midnight hour
If the stars are in your eyes
Raging faith against the darkness of the night
When there's light in the dark, of their nights
Dying light imminently, from their eyes
Go not into the other side midnight...
If they're stars in your eyes. 

Eternal Breeze

Eternal Breeze

Marvellous creature...
Says he, lying down beside me
His hands softly over me
Sending frissons through me!
My senses overflowing.
But my mind's on he
He doesn't see me
Invisible, I'll be! 
I guess I'm just a pebble on the beach.
Thrown up by the sea back and forth whooshing
A grain of sand crushed over, millennium
That a pebble once used to be
A mere speck of dust flowing through, eternal breeze
Beyond the clouds dancing swaying in the
Hemispheric winds...
Nothingness, I seem to be just another speck of dust.
You can't, see!!
But my heart, cry's look, at me!
Look at me in the eyes and see
This being living breathing...
A troubled mind thinking only of thee
Why treat me abhorrently, punishing me!!
I guess it'll teach me thinking of you won't do
And yet perpetually on my mind, you seem to be
Like a wound, a cicatrize that won't heal!
Damn you!
Waterfalls flowing silently from the core of me
Behind those waterfalls hiding, so they can't see me.
Fragmenting within...
Into tiny little pieces a mosaic impossible to finish
That speck of dust that you know its there,
but can't see...
Yesterday by the sea, I did lie waves washing over me.
Thinking of He!
And my tears flow like a river, as I wept quietly.
My seas were blue, my skies.
The gulls swaying, in the thermal winds
Gazing, watching dancing in the breeze.
Wonder how gulls feel and the kestrels above me.
As they dance and sway with ease...
Is there any purpose in the way they think...
I'd love to be a bird flying through the sky, with ease.
Thinking not, feeling seeing nothing!
Troubling not one's mind, caring not a jot
I'd love to be such a bird. 
Being carried into Infinitum
By the eternal winds
Looking back not at He!!

Ambiguous Ways

Ambiguous Ways

If my eyes are the windows to my world
Then you're the one keeping me sane keeps me alive
Stopping me from combusting like a volcano...
Using my mind,
Seeing all the goings on around me...
I see your eyes following me, every which way I turn
Confounded am I, by your interest in me
Never knew, I had this curiosity that others would
Stand and stare, as if I were this extreme, je ne c'est quoi!
I've always wondered why they'd look at me
It's not as If I were a beauty, you see
Most times felt uncomfortable, by the stares
What vibes was I giving them, I'd ask my friend...
Do I look like a slapper in my, deportment!
I've never acted unseemingly, that wasn't in me
But I always loved to joke and laugh, just like anybody...
I've always been uncertain, of the way I looked
Quite ugly I thought, was I!
My neck too long, boobs I hardly had any
My feet too big, my butt...
Well, I liked not!!   
The whistling the comments, coming my way!
Really hated passing by a man, their stares...
The boy used to say, the power you have in you
With just one look one stare, so innocent you are
You could have had anybody!!
How was I suppose to know, I've loved but one man
I guess I was the innocent!
But if I were this beauty, no one ever let me know
If such a looker was I, for I never saw it myself
Quite ordinary thought I...
Why did they hate me!
I never understood beauty such as me, never saw myself
As anything but, this soul that would hide from all, and sundry
And my soul cried out please set me free
From the windows of my world, embarrassingly
Now I've passed my sell-by date, they still do stare at me!
Making eye contact as I pass by...
And there's me, starring ahead unflinchingly!!   
And the boy still says, your a beautiful woman
You could have had anybody!
But my soul cry's, please set me free, from the eyes of my world
Making my life a misery!!
Ambiguously turning away embarrassingly
Knowing not how to act, by the uncomfortable stares
Making me feel so unclean!!
If my eyes are the windows to my soul, then my nose it's, chimney
I've such an acute sense of smell, in my vicinity scenting the air
The scent all around you attacking one's senses
Leaving you senseless, as coming down to the scent of he!
The endorphins his pheromones...
You are lost in a world, intoxicatingly in the scent of, he!
Confoundedly...
The scent of the rain leaving that earthly smell
And the intoxicating flowers so heady the scent
Filling one's senses...
My ears I guess are the earphones of my world
The sounds of your baby's very first cry!
You're mesmerised by that little creature, making that protesting sound
As he came into the world...
And the crying never stops from the day one's born, till one dies
The sounds of laughter as one laughs and laughs again
That uncontrollable laughter, that hurts...
Some joke or other recounted yet again...
But the best sound to me is the sound of music
The music Papa instilled in me
It can make me laugh cry and whoop with ecstasy!
I have a piece of music for my every mood, whether am sad or glad.
Music has always been my salvation, from the highs to low's
A safety valve, from going over the edge...
Indeed, music feeds my soul!!
Setting my senses high, unimaginable sounds 
Lifting my spirits like high that condor, swaying on the thermal winds...
My lips my mouth at times in controversy
I say what I think it does not worry me...
I speak as I see, and try not to hurt anybody
My lips making the sounds as I kiss you
Your eyes your lips, down to your fingertips
As I whisper your name...
My voice accentuates my love for you...
I miss you when you're not there, it hurts my darling
It hurts when you ignore me!!
I need to hear those phrases, that only you can extol
Feeding my mind heart, imaginings!
That everlasting balm, making life bearable
For am starved with the need to hear you say, what if
What if my darling, what if I were to say
I love you!
The sense of touch at my fingertips and yours
Unimaginable, the senses navigating through you
As you touch me lightly almost like a breeze
The touch of the night silently, sending tremors through you
Whispering silently, your hands over me...
This sense as a butterfly depositing upon you,

from your head to your toes kissing you... One's mind working overtime...
The urgency of your touch sending shivers to my mind
The uncertainty the ecstasy in how to deal, with such feelings
Cruising through you...
As I touch you lightly ever so lightly,
With my lips my mind the whole of me
Crying out for release, one's mind...
Sweet surrender!!

Dancing Alone

Through my mirror glass, I see you
Starring at me!!
As I brush my long hair...
That look that tells me, how wrong can I be
Shining for me the light in your eyes...
Me that adores you with every ounce, in me.
I hate when you're away from me!
Missing your arms around me...
Running down my staircase 
Catching up with you...
The intensity of your gaze
My breath escaping from me
My heart bursting from my chest
Almost killing me...
My primal feelings
In my primitiveness, this wanting of you
Help I cannot.
This obsessive obsession
Missing you... 
My eyes are missing you
My arms, my body's craving for you
Hungrily kissing your lips
As you hold me close, to you 
It's never enough,
To be at one with you!
There's a wild side, inherently within you
The euphoric's blowing my mind can never be enough
On that gossamer cloud dancing, I'll always be
The moon in her full bloom, scintillating
Beaming at me...
Awestruck, lost in time dreaming
Your eyes blue, smiling as we're dancing
Inwardly, my highs, intermingling with my low's
Not at all in sync with me... 
All I need is to see a likeness of you
And am lost in time, my mind
In the essence of you...
Looking into your eyes blue
Making me feel!
Ahh darling, making me feel!
Into overdrive goe's I
When it comes down to you
Like an enchantment bewitching me
Making me feel real!!
There's, a madness running through me
In mine primitive mind I see you
Bewitchingly, I see you, see you!!
Shivers tingling my spine 
Awol I go irrevocably...
In my blood a madness so sweet
There goe's I helplessly
As I circle my arms around me
As am dancing alone
Fragmenting...

Poetry's In Your Blood

Poetry's In Your Blood

Poetry's in your blood as music's in mine
The touch of your face
Like a feather lightly touching mine
The look in your eyes tells me am not wrong
Gazing at you!
Hunger from our lips, taking tasty sips
There's only the moon to lighten our path
And a little rain to quench our thirst
The rain bothers us not
It's irrelevant as lovers meet
As we speak...
Fires in our blood!!...
Incandescently, burning our minds
As we cling...
Our gaze never leaving the other
Into our souls seeing!...
You are my sun my moon and the stars
You are the highest mountain that, I must climb
For without you, my darling there is no life
As I see you!...
See you in the eyes of my mind.
My eyes light at the sight of you
My face glistening like the sun,
An aura surrounding you...
When you're not there
Missing you!!
Searching you, mind in despair
Flying high like a kite, as I see you
a bird in the sky...
In the extremities of my mind
Caressing you...
Reaching you one more time
Poetry's in our blood
In the recesses of my mind 
Kissing you!!

Our Mother Earth

This is more of an essay
An epic kind of my mind turning
You're welcome to read if you care to...


                Our Mother Earth
The heartbeat of our world it's breath raspingly
As if counting our heart beats one two and three
Like a bellows, pumping oxygen, into our world
Puffing gently as she breathes, deeply so alive is she...
Our mother earth...
She's home can you not see, intoning for all to hear her voice
As she sings imploringly...
The Vibrations carrying far and wide
From the mountain highs the savannahs, the valleys down below
Her intonation rising beyond the sky's, far and wide
Where condors sway on the thermal winds...
Beyond our firmament swaying, dancing in the breeze
Her complexity, understand one cannot
As she moves from A to B
Upon her shoulders carrying her lot, so strong is she
Ambiguity cannot distract desert her world,
One could forget not her complexity...
Her diversity is there for all to see, as she watches you and me
If only we would open our eyes and see,
The awesome panorama surrounding thee...
Her beauty by far, can you not, see...
In the savannahs, going about their world, the beasts
In their minds resides not greed no ambiguity!
Taking their necessity's as they need, there's no greed
Enrichment, not on their minds, no siree!
The rainforests, once a sight to see, their density
A diversity of colour's
The richest's autumnal colours mesmerisingly
The profoundness of colour defunct intense colours
Cascading gently from their canopy's
The reds, the rusts the bronzes intermingling with the gold
Before your eyes the richest carpet, you've ever seen
Above their canopy, naked they'll be
Displaying before our eyes,
Proudly their beauty at our feet falling...
Waterfalls exuding from the depths of she, anguished tears
The densest gossamer clouds, such as the density
Impeding us from visualising her intensity
Leaking from her eyes tears of pain in sorrow
Her diversity is such, that in, a blink of an eye dispersing
Before you realise what's she's all about...
Nature abounds everywhere.
Before your eyes so attuned you become to the sounds,
Surrounding you, a symphony a chorus above the canopy's
From the birds to the chimpanzees, a right cacophony
As the swans the condors, the flamingos swaying on the breeze
And all those in between, all the little birds of our world
O'why can I not be a bird flying high,
Riding those thermal winds, why can not I!
In my imagination there goes I,
Swaying floating through those eternal winds of life
So attuned was I!
Swerving dancing in between a gossamer of clouds never ending
Beneath our oceans our wondrous seas...
Wales touching fins as if dancing the Danube
So attuned were they...
A kaleidoscope beneath our oceans
A diversity of colours one's mind overflowing
In intensity...
Way above the clouds the bluest of skies
Stars glistening like fairy lights, beyond our universe
And on the dawning, morn unfurling before me
The rising sun in its immensity rivers of gold viscus
Tumbling into the seas
Like an entity, bright like a diamond casting her eyes upon me
 A new day a new life a new hope a new meaning
A new beginning for you for me...
But our mother earth's hurting, destroying polluting nature's life
The greediness of our world, wanting to grasp
This greed wanting more than we need...
Destroying our forests murdering, wildlife satisfying their greed
Killing those awesome creatures for their tusks,
Not our medicines, their elusive aphrodisiacs come into it
Those awesome creatures living, breathing beating hearts 
Like yours and mine...
Hunting them down, murdering for profit
In our obtuseness, had the tables been turned, hunting us down,
Killing us slowly extracting our bones, crushing down
For that elusive magic potion, that kick up the pants
That aphrodisiac, or so they believe...
Why can't they just live and let live!
From robbing their coats, guarding us against the cold
Not what their about...
They're destroying our forests murdering raping, our world
Leaving desolation wherever they roam, a land scarred
Flagellation of the wild for their own gratification fighting dying for their greed...
Chemically poisoning our world, contaminating being plundered of its life...
Forcefully feeding those unfortunate creatures
Stuffing our faces greedily, an abhorrent sight
As if a tomorrow there wouldn't be!
The rainforests, the indigenous peoples to the animals
A land scarred, a world now extinct from fauna and foul lands
These so-called intelligent beings, killing destroying our world
Extracting, bleeding it dry, until there's nought to give 
Desolation all around you, wanting to rule our world
There'll be nought left to rule,
Accursed human beings hurt to say...
Eating our way into, extension, it sickens me to witness the greed!
The destruction, now naked our forests, being brought
down to their knees...
Those greedy cooperative bastards!!       
Leaving nought but destruction behind,
Desolation wherever they roamed!
Our world crying tears of blood, misery abounds
Our sea's our icecaps are melting down
Oceans flooding our lands...
Whether there's time enough, turning things around
Too late would you say?
Only God knows!!


 

Feline Cat

Feline Cat!
Waking up stretching high
Arching my back touching the sky
Tentatively his hands speaking
Feline slender cat,
Says He...
On the catwalk, you should have been
Miaw, as I nuzzled up to him!
Taking a nip from his lips
Running my nails down his spine
You could have had anybody!
His hands softly whispering, over me ...
Know not what He sees about me!
His look confounding me
Flummoxed am I!
From my early teens at me,
He looks thus.
I kissed his eyes...
Holding me in a vice,
I can't breathe!
From my head to my toes,
kissing, me...
At all times whispering...
What did I do to deserve, you
Meaningful or not I cared not
As he kisses me,
A tear spilling from my eyes
Setting my senses way up high...
Speaking to me his hands,
I know not, my mind overflowing...
If it's love or lust
I have awakened the beast in me
Whisperings into my, soul, was he
But, my minds been on him!
Desire, in the forefront of my mind
Moving in time, my body...
But reach I cannot the heights
As if punishing me,
On my mind perpetually
Reaching touching his mind, with mine
Abandonment lost in time...
Looking into my eyes taking hold of me
At that moment in time,
There was no returning for me
I called out his name euphorically
Arching my back reaching for he
That feline cat abandonly...
Digging my nails into He!
His eyes the colour of a stormy night
Looking through me...
I soared high like that Albatross
To hell and back taking me!!

Enough's Enough...

I knew that would be a reaction from you!!
Had no other choice...
As I saw your hi there,
A waterfall came pouring from, me
Here on this sofa he's, quizzically looking at me
Stand, I could not any longer...
You're, playing psychological games with me...
For a long time, you've been off hand
I knew not why!
All I knew was that I was hurting
Why am I hurting!
I've asked myself many a time
Et Tu darling!!
You know I've never ever, let a man get to me
In all my life...
I must have been touched, in the head
Going soft!
But somehow you got under my skin
Bad karma for me!
I've needed you as a friend,
But after all these years you started,
playing games with me...
Six-seven years or thereabout...
We've played a little game along the way
Seeing how far we could go...
Although I wasn't too good at those but
I quite liked those little games, making me feel alive
Feeling good!!
Was it so bad making me feel good?
But you must see that wasn't just me alone,
you were there too...
What did I do to fall by, the wayside?
Up to 2017 you still liked what I did, my words
But between spring and summertime, I've lost you!
At every attempt at communication, you ignored me
Whenever I asked are you ok!
Never an answer to my questions...
I was fragmenting, missing you!!
I knew we were beyond those little games
I minded not, I guess experience, not to be repeated...
But you brought out feelings, I knew not existed
Hating myself!
Bloody fool even now I'm weeping...
I knew not, one could shed so many tears!!
Now and then you'd, come back with your hi there!
Playing psychological games, with my mind!!
Never saying anything of consequence...
You probably thought let's see how far, you can
push me!!...
Psychologically I can take no more...
Enough's enough!
I really liked you, darling I had no illusions about you
You were just my friend, I loved talking to.
But in the end, the thought of talking to me became
Abhorrent to you!
But no worries, I guess nought I can do
Knowing not why!
You've forsaken me!!
Ciao!!

Where Are You, Moon

Where are you, Moon
You went awol don't, you know
I've searched you, near and far
Behind a gossamer veil hiding, were, you!
I stood around just, waiting for you
Settle could not, up and down
Searching...
You were nowhere to be seen...
Then I spied you chasing Venus
I saw you all aligned, Mercury and Mars
But that wasn't enough for you
You had to chase Uranus Jupiter and Pluto too!
Don't you know Moon!
There's an earthling, waiting for you
To beam your light upon her
Don't you know, you mesmerise her
Your beauty like no other
Your visage's sublime!
I've searched high and low
Right across my firmament
But there was no sign of you, Moon!
I knew you were there...
Behind, that ethereal gossamer veil
In readiness, I stood camera in hand
To record your first appearance...
But you were playing hard to get
Leaving me, with this imbalance
Starring up to my skies
They though me mad!...
But I saw you there fleetingly
With Venus besides you
With Mars in the vicinity smiling
Her indolent red smile,
Shamelessly.
Amazing this alignment
I saw with mine, own eyes
With the help from my binoculars
An amazing sight for sore eyes
But you my dear, my dearest Moon
In your full bloom...
Casting shadows upon my mind...
What a magnificent Moon says, I!
Now each time I see you
You hide beyond that gossamer cloud
Pretending you see not me!
You have always affected, my moods
Rather irrational I become and that's no joke
Excitedly I point you out to my children
Look at that beautiful Moon, in her full bloom
Come my baby's howl lets howl at the Moon!
And like a banshee I howled!!
Is this strange or not, am afraid I don't know
But the Moon has always,
Affected, me so!!

Like A Banshee

Like a Banshee...

Hollering was, she like a banshee
For in her mind, couldn't see He
He that was taking her sanity...
In her ambiguity, she cried
Whenever she thought of he
Peace of mind she had not
Her mind so full of, he...
He that reawakened her, from her dead living limbo
Spilling inside out feelings, a right cacophony
Whenever she thought of he.
Oh dear lord, his eyes so blue
The incandescence of his gaze, shining through 
Is he thinking of she, possibly!
She calls, his name yet again, in her mind
Becoming restless when he answers, not she
Sleep cannot, going over, he perpetually
Obsessively, she calls his name time and again.
His eyes the colour of her skies will be
The intensity, the immensity of, he!
His eyes watching over me
A balm he can be to me...
Calming her mind, her curious mind
Perpetually, wondering when will he
In her ambivalence, inherently
Hollering like a banshee...
In the regions of her mind, escape an impossibility
For her mind so full of he!
Disperse from her mind will he ever be,
In all ambiguity!!
Let there be light transcending
Into the very depths of me
For in darkness I cannot be!!
Let the light sip through, dispersing
Darkness from my mind
For in silhouette he cannot be...
For when the day's through still thinking

about, he...
At the going down of the sun
Hollering she must not be
Like a banshee!
Towards his skies, she stares
Or wherever he may be...
Let the light disperse not from her mind
Her imaginings, intoxicatingly
Stars in her eyes always will be
When it comes down to he!!
In the darkness of her nights
Letting light sip through
Just enough to see you
In the eyes of my, mind
Was he irrevocably...

The Dancing Girl

The Dancing Girl


Dancing wild by the firelight, was I
Losing myself uninhibited,
Dancing in the flames of life
Jumping higher and higher
Dancing manically, into a frenzy
As if a tomorrow, there wouldn't come!
Undulating to the sounds of those drums
Transcending through me, euphorically
In a trance my brain...
Into a frenzy that beat getting to me
In abandon, arms, reaching for the skies
Whilst jumping over the fire was I!
Echoing through me euphorically!
The applause, an opium to my brain
Jumping higher, without refrain
Drums beating euphorically, like a drug my blood
My senses with no defences, my mind,
In a trance...
For my life dancing indolently, for he
Undulating to those drums!
I danced like the wind, whispering, between the trees
Whispering in the breeze rustling, through fallen leaves
His eyes were on me, his interest in me
Indolently I smiled at, he as he chiselled away
His hammer chip chipping away
My undulating body my face, embedded
on that rock...
Engraving my soul, deep within me
A stonemason working tirelessly
This manic woman dancing, swaying erotically
For her tomorrows dancing indolently
Losing herself to the beat of those drums
Like a bird swaying on the thermal winds
Whilst he, tirelessly sculpted her form from that stone
So in love was he, as he watched her undulating
Immortalising on that stone the dancing girl
In times forgotten ...
The sculptor, the dancing girl in a trance
Their romance...
Ageless here she rests embedded on stone
Sculptured for all to see
She who danced abandonly erotically
By far his best sculpture of, she
With his very hands, every line every sinew
Etched with love
Her immortality, carved in stone
The dancing girl,
And her sculptor in love!!

Do You Pray!

Do you pray!
I was asked the other day
Noo!!
Not anymore I must say
An unbeliever I've become
An agnostic I'll be!
Since a mere child was I
I've become un-enamoured with religion
A load of hypocrites they'll be
Runs in my family, hypocrisy
So abhorrent to me!
And so a rebel I've become, listen not to anyone
I do my own thing... 
But I believe there must be an entity
Someone higher
Much higher than you or me
A supreme being maybe!
But I believe not those priests, those purists
Pure they'll not be
The evilness in some of them
Scary!! 
Then I was asked...
What would you like most in the world
Well, that's not too hard, say I
I'd wish peace amongst the peoples of our world
To live in love and harmony, stop killing one another
Greed amongst them inherently there'll be
But I do ache inside of me...
Perpetually!
Tears flowing silently
My throat constricting my breath
Breaking into a sob, my heart's fragmenting
Into a thousand little pieces   
In between tears, I tell he!     
What I'd like most in the world
Would be to have my family back aswe used to be!
And looking into his eyes, telling him
That I!
Assiduously I try not to
Let it disperse from me trying, trying!
Bursting from me, my heart breaking
Into thousands fragmenting pieces
My worlds breaking around me   
I care not I think not, I cannot bear
They've gone from me!
Cannot pass the time of day
Always in a hurry by the way 
Even though saying how great I was
Fleetingly passing the time of day,
Running...
His features popped into my mind disturbingly
Know not what scares he!
Feeling uneasy...
Achingly my tears falling within me
Sorry for myself I guess I'll be
What annoys me most, my feelings! 
How I miss Papa, on this epochal time of year
The Stellar in my skies he was
He had diamonds scintillating, in his eyes
For us...
His arms huge as a bear hugging us
The light of love dancing in his eyes,
Our hero he was...
Nothing's worth this misery I feel within me
I'd so love to be free
From form the bastards of our world
To just to be me!!   

It's An Illusion

Looking into my mirrored glass, I see
A life that's gone before me
Taking my life my youth
And everything I held dear.
As I look into my mirrored glass
There are tears escaping my eyes
A torrent, a deluge unstoppable waterfalls
Escaping the very core of me!
Perturbed my mind my heart exuding, the pain!
My love's desired not...
By a silken thread hanging my life,
Echoing through my thoughts,
I knew it'll last not...
His feelings mine feelings...
My mind my heart if so desired
Were his...
From dawn to the going down of the sun
In the evening...
My thoughts were his!
And every second in between...
The tribulations, my mind is enough
I know not why am feeling,
This ambiguity, in turmoil my mind
Why should I care, if he wants not to stay!
But, gazing into my two hands
It's too late, to hold he, against me
To have to hold his visage in my hands
Caressing mine, his eyes
Whilst I whisper his name!
Hanging by a thread my life, a life am free not
to live...
Is it worth living it?
Before my eyes, I see, he the way he looks
Through me, wanting...
You've become the light of my life
A life that cares not if, it's lived or not
It's immaterial, that life is for living
Desolation resides in the recesses of my mind
Looking into his eyes I see not, love
Starring, into my eyes...
Scattering my mind my heart!!
Beyond the stratosphere...
Getting up from mine cocoon
Opening the curtains wide I see, desolation
A grey world starring at me
A gossamer impeding me from seeing, light
In the darkness of my mind...
What's up with me!
I cannot see the stars in his eyes...
There goes another tear,
another star falling from my skies!
Disguising his feelings, looking at me
But as I touch his mind with mine
I know I cannot hold him kiss him
It's killing me!
Aching for the touch, the very core of me
Looking, into his heart, seeing ambiguity
In his obsessivity...
Cannot hold me his mind
In its entirety...
Letting go, much easier
Dissipating from my mind, this illusion
But if free I cannot be,
to live in this ambiguity, I cannot
In the regions of my mind, no!
It's an illusion!!