Fires Still Burning

Darling!
Fires still burning in my, blood
That look in your eyes,
Incandescently, burning through me.
Marvellous, creature, says he
As I get up and brush my hair
Within you, fires still burning
Changed you have not!!
And I laugh gazing at, he...
For the decaying of me, he does not see.
Your still that girl, I first saw in that far away, land
Smiling shyly, just as you are now...
Just like an exotic flower, waiting to be picked
A bird of paradise, in the sunshine,
I fell for you then and there...
Now looking at you, you've lost not that elegance
I saw in you...
It's still there as you brush your hair
His eyes, following me every which way I moved,
That proud look in your eyes!!
The fires are still burning in his minds, eyes
Pulling me on to him...
I see not this mesmerisation he has of me!
Has been there from the start...
Yet I thought you mad, this obsessive hold on me
Fluttering butterflies, in my blood...
We had eyes for no other, coming back time after time
To mine island in the sun!
Making love with thine eyes...
Your camera lens spoke volumes, in my face
Wrapping me, on that staircase
Every angle of me you took, whispering,
Divine!
And you haven't lost that look, in your eyes
Fires burning all the while...
I feel your eyes, burrowing into me, as I moved
Yet at times I've doubted in, my mind
This love has lasted beyond time
For I had eyes not, for any other
Spoiling my chances of some other love.
Yet they won't let me be, chasing me!
Silly fools, go away let me pass...
For I have eyes for no other, but he!
Even today, at my sale of by date, they still do stare.
And I think bloody fools, making my life a misery,
With their looks...
But there are times, in my minds, mind
It seems I need, much more than I need...
Experiencing no other, was I missing something!!
Would love alone suffice, making me see
I need no other but he!!
A bed of roses has been not at, all times
For I, have a mind of my own...
Clashing at times, breathing fire like a dragon...
The devilishness in me...
But calming, down love has won, somehow
Yet I see the windows of my world looking, through me.
Am I missing something, unfaithful never been
Except at times my mind, wanting more than I need
For the fires, burning intrinsically...   
That elusive look, in his eyes
Simmering embers burning his blood, oh my!
The Stellar in my skies, you'll always be.
Making love triumphantly!...
Running through me my blood, the ecstasy
At that moment in time, escaping I wanted not
Consuming fires my mind my blood.
As he whispers yet again, you've changed not a bit... 
Thanking the lord, the decaying of me, he does not see
Even my tears extinguish cannot the fire,
As he eloquently brushes, his lips against mine
I cry out in the delirium of love
Burning embers consuming,
The fire in his eyes!!

In Your Eyes!!

In your eyes, I see that distant look
Gazing at this Autumnal vision
Of, impressive golds reds and rusts
And the silvers, slowly fluttering dancing
in the breeze...
Darling, look at me!
What do you see, you're so far from me
That far away look, back in your eyes
That look that tells me
That you may need, more than I can give
Or is it being whom I am...
Expecting too much from you
Much more, than your prepared to give 
Have I become too much for you!
Drinking the essence of you, my eyes
In my minds eyes, I see you
Caressing me...
Your eyes following me across the room
Beating like a drum my heart, boom, boom
Irrepressibly running away with me
Wishing you'd take hold of me, making me
feel real...
From across the street where I live
Just across the water from you
In my mind's mind, I see you so clearly
Through my window pane...
Even though these gossamer nets of my mind
Imped cannot me from visualising
The light in your eyes...
Ahh, darling!
Can you not see, me looking at you
The hunger in my eyes, in my very extremities
There I cannot go, you see...
I'd so love you to hold me.
I too can see, hunger in your eyes 
Nothing matters, nothing at all
Keeping your distance,
Me that adores you, feel you touch you
With my mind's mind, my heart...
In the darkness of my nights
I want you, need you to hold me
Telling me it's all right
As I whisper on to you...
Please, darling, do look at me
What do you see
Do you see me as I see you?
Or do you see me, as this infernal thing
In the eyes of your mind...
Misunderstanding me!
As I try reaching your mind
But, differently, your eyes are telling me
Wanting me, as much as I do you
But that won't do, I do know...
Just once darling just once
Would that do!
Would it be enough
Across from you, I stand to gaze
Lust in my blood, my mind
Or would it be love, I feel I know not!!
As we loved, in these Autumnal golden fields
With the leaves falling dancing in the wind
Just like any other being...
Exaltation reaching a crescendo
Euphorically...
Paramount in my mind
Absolutely nothing...
Above us a blanket of golden stars 
In the darkness of my firmament
Whispering, gazing into your eyes
My torment...
Knowing that in the recesses of my mind
Just for a moment!!

A Different me!!

       

O' poetry,
Poetry set me free
I owe you a different me!
I owe you my mind my heart my,
very soul...
And you owe me the kindness that,
you stole.
You owe me my loneliness,
my peace of mind.
My sleepless nights,
The silences, for your not there
But wandering the night, streets,
are calling as you're, roaming through
Sneaking quietly in the early morn...
At the clock, I glance surreptitiously
Coming home excitedly,
Reciting your words drunkenly
Phrases verses of poetry...
In my loneliness, longing for the touch
But, your perpetual drunkenness, sullenly!
I like you not this way!!
By the shore, I cried I cried in loneliness
In my ambiguousness, sorrow crucifying me
When I asked what happened to you?
You had no answer for me but said,
C'est la vie!
Instead, quoting a verse of poetry
In the darkness of my nights, searching you
With the approaching of a new dawn
The rising sun's imminent...
Over that mountain beyond the waterfall
Above the clouds peeking, through
Wearing its rays like a crown
Glistening little diamonds...
Trees are laden in dew, as the light seeps through
Frosted grasses glistening in the morning sun
Like dew tears forming behind my eyes,
kissing you!
Memories of times past...
So cold in the wet morning dew
That tinge of blue your lips hands, like ice
Running my hands over you just to warm you
Sitting forlornly along, the shore drunken 
Perpetually your drunkenness, your words
Such as Poetry!
O' Poetry, I owe you my world, my reason for living
My dying my freedom my life
Silently my tears are falling,
My secrets, in the depths of my heart
Residing within me I feel a stranger
Feeling so lonely, can you not see!!
O' Poetry!
I owe you the feeling of I, know not what
Of being born!
And my love of finding him, to lose again
O' Poetry !!
Poetry, I owe you,
A different me!!

Autumnal Times

Autumnal Times

Autumn's here to stay
Time to get out and play
Pointing my camera lens, every which way
Processing in my mind
The wonder before my eyes
Rustling through the autumnal, fallen leaves 
Dancing the Charleston making a game
Jumping and kicking,
Delving into ones, whispering mind 
Optimum richness, right up to your eyes
As one swims through those autumnal fallen leaves
Enriching my mind!!
The reds goldens the rusts
Snapping away each frame, as I meander through
Beneath my feet a carpet, mesmerisingly
That once in a wondrous canopy above
Proudly displaying in a vigour,
Sublime to my eyes!!
The awesomeness of summer in its gloriousness
Amongst its canopy, little birds chirping away 
In a symphony a chorus, in times of plenty
Gladdening my eyes once again...
I sigh in the very extremities of me, a sight
like no other... 
In autumn times forgotten...
Gazing whichever way you turn, magically enchanting
A chorus, a symphony, without refrain,
Melodiously singing in unison
Revibrating through the canopy  in the
evening cool breeze...
Keenly listening to their warbling sounds 
Attacking one's senses, a sight for sore eyes   
Magic abounds...
A case of sadness, of summer times, expiring
And I on a whim
Rustling through the autumnal, fallen leaves
Before winter times rushes in...

Alone!!

Alone!!


This morning my worlds pressing down on me!
There's a weight upon my heart
A gossamer over my eyes, wake I want not
Sorrow residing in my heart...
Loneliness, must I feel so alone
Those in my world understands not me 
What I am what I'll be
Turmoil residing within me!
Chastising my mind, for thinking not.
Spontaneity rules my world
Thinking not always...
But the ambivalence in me,
Living a day at the time, my way...
Care not always what I do or say!   
My nature's to love those in, my world
But if my phraseology fails by the wayside
In whatever I do or say!!
To speak my mind always my way
If those in my world care not to hear what I say
Best stay away!!
From a mind thinking not, always
At war, my mind and I what to do or say
My mind filters not my, thoughts in any way
Flowing through me, whether good or bad
Or indeed ugly...
The essence of me, why must I be me!
This being that knows not copes, cannot
Living from day to day...
Turbulence escaping, me my thoughts,
The very extremities of my mind... 
A being that does not sing and dance at all times
Sinking in the mire of my thoughts
When there's doubt in my mind...
Would rather, sing and dance at every change!!
Except, darkness stealing the light from my mind
Dispersing not that gossamer, impeding the light 
In the darkness, my mind
Alone!!

Rising Feelings ...

Rising Feelings

My eyes see, 

But cannot speak... 

Just, like that clap of thunder far away

Am a woman that walks alone, without experience 

of the world...

Might as well be a child, in all innocence;  

But a child kisses not your shadow, as they dance 

Hand in hand in the streets, interlocking hands

Dancing, as if we'd never let go... 

Why waste time sleeping, you'll be leaving 

in the morning,

And I'll be left weeping within the sorrow 

Immersing in the laughter, for the here and now 

For when you're gone...

I'll be left in the grips of the melancholy hereafter     

As I reach helplessly for that scintillating star.

With the feeling of emptiness, in my heart    

For when I kiss your eyes your lips, 

Downs to your fingertips...

For I know you'll be gone, far from me, from me!  

What will I do as midnight tolls away

And am reaching out to you, your not there!

I sleep awake sleep awake, in the thunder of the night    

My whole being trembling like, the trees in the forest 

As their leaves sway and dance, in the moonlight  

Leaving me all alone... 

As you've done without a thought in the world;

I shouldn't have said I loved you, 

Between that hill, that mountain high...  

Recollecting, refrain cannot from what was said 

The beaming moon, trailing you in mid light 

Has brought you, close so close

Whisperings, my mind...

To hold you, to feel to feel you, close to me

Hungry kisses brought us to an impasse...

The poetry that goes beyond, you and me!  

We have a hunger, our lips our eyes  

This thing between you and I 

Hurt feelings as you ignore me     

For am human, with feeling too

I can love-hate just, like you!! 

But as we clash, a turbulent mind

Touching your face your lips, with mine 

Feeling, love in my heart... 

As you came in from the storm,

Constricting my heart...

You are killing me my darling, 

With your poetry, your verses of love!! 

O'Lord!..

O' Lord
God turned the lights off
It'a dark as sin, my way,
Am I a terrible sinner
Living from my day to day,
To relieve darkness, from my
darkest days...
Naughty I can be when my, blues won't disperse away...
Setting on my mind, a dark gossamer cloud
The boredom I must lift,

a mind that wants to play...
Some word game, to keep my blues away...
It's gone as dark as sin
Haven't seen the sun in days
A distraction I must find
Otherwise, my mind will play havoc all-day
And it won't be a pretty day!!
I need brightens in my days, settling my mind
Casting light upon my eyes,
Lighting my path...
That otherwise will think, its winter times
When darkness permeates, my soul
Refusing to let light in,
My mind...
Struggling to see, lightness
Before darkness sets in...
If light cannot see, my soul tumbles down, on me...
I see, times changing beautifully
Enriching my mind an infusion of
Autumnal Colours...
Lifting that gossamer, impeding me, from seeing
A kaleidoscope, a vision
Cascading from their canopy's
Reds golds bronzes rust's, beneath my feet
Enriching a warm periphery vision, my eyes
A warm carpet of colour, feeling cosy within...
The awesomeness of an Autunamal, warm colours
In a transaction, a time for hibernation
Before winter rushes in...
Dispersing from me, that sad feeling
Some brights days hopefully
Keeping my blues away!!

Be Still My Heart

Be still my heart!

Lie still my silent, heart
Lie still.
Whilst am bleeding...
My worlds changed my, dreams...
Fragmenting...
Lie still my wounded heart,
Lie still...
Between spring and summertime
For a moment in time
In a beat of a heart
I've lost you...
Lie still, won't you lie still!
For there's nought I can do
In a mere whisper
In the blink of an eye!
I've lost you...
Be still be calm my silent heart
Arrest, your step won't you
Turn around,
For there's nought, here for you.
Be silent mind, of mine,
Be silent my heart
Whilst my tears flow
Beneath my rib cage,
I hear your rhythm...
Boom boom...
Lie still quieten down,
my beating heart...
Each time, I lay eyes upon, he
all over again giving me, shivers
Embers high burning my blood.
Calm down my, beating heart...
Be silent heart, of mine;
Won't, you be silent !!

Autumnal blues...

Darling Donde Estas!
Underground, have you been hibernating?
There's no sign anywhere of you!
Yet I know you're there...
Lying quietly in your misery,
On these Autumnal times...
This epochal season the times in between
Autumn and winter...
Like you, I too suffer from this, seasonal blues
This feeling of wretchedness...
Delepidating it can be, I do empathise
You know I do!!...
But darling beyond yonder, I see you
Riding your stallion, as if flying in the wind
I can sense, unquietness in your mind
As you ride that poor beast, into oblivion
So dapper, almost like a madness
In your blood...
Like a shadow swiftly flying me by
only hooves resounding,
Like a thunderbolt...
Escaping what I know, not...
But why run from me, darling?
You're ingrained in the recesses of my mind
You bring shivers to my spine...
And each time, I lay eyes upon you
I know I've lost the plot...
I've this hunger, this yearning oh my, darling!
If only you knew, what's in the regions of my mind
Nudging up to you, tempting you
kissing your mind...
You know, that hollow just below your chin
I run my tongue, then up to your lips
Taking little nips...
Your eyes dark pools inviting me,
I'll jump right in, feet first
Emerging, from those deep cool waters
Then jumping in again...
Following my every move, your eyes
Winking at me...
Then and there I knew,
I knew you wanted me as I did you.
Whispering in your ear, what shall we do!
Shall we lie beneath those palms
And make whoopie...
It takes every once of me, holding back
an impossibility...
The need was much stronger than me
Control could not the longing...
As I rose above you, I could feel your trembling
I kissed every inch of you
Convulsing, my mind my body...
Grasping for anchorage, falling into a chasm
of mine, own making ...
In the labyrinths, of my mind
I cried out your name, time and again
In the extremities of my mind, lost for all times
I took all you had to give...
Keeping the Autumnal blues, at bay
I kissed your mind your heart...
Tu Cuerpo, Siempre!!

Behind Your Dark Window!!

Behind Your Dark Window

Why do you hide, my love
Behind your darken window
Yet I know you're there my love
But you hide, hide from me!!
Do you recall not, what we were
When we were so in love   
Feromones wild, endorphins high
Or an illusion, my love
The obsessiveness, the need for the other
Our whole beings, obsessed
With the idea of being in love 
We had eyes for no other
Now you hide, behind your darken window
Pretending, you do not see!
And my mind's screams out for you
To hold me tight...
Yet my love you hide behind your darken window
Hiding from me!!
The ecstasy, of your nearness,
Drives me wild, this need for you!
But I must say my love,
You're so far from me, the way I feel for you
My primitive mind, this yearning!
You care, not my love
This longing!
This yearning I feel for you
Yet you hide, behind your darken window
Whilst am fragmenting!!
Do you remember my love, as we run around
Teasing!
Teasing one another, laughing like no other
The eloquence of your words
Drove me spare...
Burning in my mind, no other could share
The meaning of such, words leaving a deep sensation 
Within me! 
But you hide, behind your dark window
Ignoring me!
Yet once upon a time, we were so busy exploring
Exploring one another
Oblivious of all surrounding me
The words, the sweet, words tumbling from our lips
A hunger!...
Quenching our thirst, an impossibility
My mind so full of you...
But my love, you seem to have forgotten
As you hide behind your window...
Why are you my, love punishing me!
Is there a reason my love
Or you just don't love me!
By your words mesmerised, as
I must say silly me...
But one questions not, words of love
When one's young, foolish and free!!

Sayonara!!

He came to me, almost as in a mirage
From far distant lands...
Suddenly, standing before me was he!!
His hair floating in the breeze
For my eyes manna, he'll be
Looking through, to my soul his eyes
Adoring He!!
I see he, in the extremities of my mind
Burning intrinsically through me, my blood
My mind so full of He!
In the visions of my mind, embedded within me
How I adore, He!
In distant shores Japanese seas, I see He...
Konnichi-wa my lovely,
Standing before He daring he, to look at me
Looking into his eyes, drinking the essence of he
His hair the colour of the burning sun
His eyes O'dear Lord are killing me!!
The colour of my skies and the flax fields
In the distance, I can see...
I compare, He to my God, I adore He!!
Letting my hands run through his hair
Kissing the top of his, nose
So appealing I find He!
Ripe as cherries his lips drinking
the essence, of He...
Intoxicatingly!!
Removing his shirt, so well toned his body
I can feel his every sinew!!...
Smiling, knowing the effect, he has on me
Such a beautiful body...
Ahh! He knew!
He knew, the effect, playing me like a harp
My unruly mind inside, out in tatters
Help I cannot the effect
Barmy I'll be!!
Walking in his shadow, not me
But right there beside he
Atsui desu says, I
For I was burning embers as I kissed, he
Right there on deck...
A weakness overwhelming, me
Focussing an impossibility
All emotions running through me
Lost in time, rupturing my mind
Delirium euphorically...
Always lost I'll be, the effect he has, on me!
O-Yasumi Nasai...
Sayonara...

Te, Extrano

Te, Extrano!!

I compare thee to this wondrous sea
Knocking me off my feet, capriciously
Cool waters wading through
Caressing me assiduously
Instantaneously evoking from me
Into a frenzy, erupting that feeling irrevocably
Cannot abide this hopeless waiting,
Looking at me!
Te Extrano, Te Extano!!
Staying away from me...
Ecoching my tears, silently flowing
That Siren, I'll be dementedly
At the oceans, bottom hollering 
Calling to thee!!
In between the sands and rock pools
Are, as deep as my soul
At times as calm as can be, loving me!
Lulling me into to a sense of security...
Then turbulent, angry wild like Neptune
Bashing against the rocks, punishing me...
And I, that Siren recounting, secrets past singing
Echoing right through the seas...
But by the light of the moon, sailing by me
This wondrous sea, the dreamy night's,

darkness in your eyes... 

Sailing away...And I like that demented Siren,
Singing in the moonlight
Breaking her, heart as you sail by 
Yet here like a mermaid on this rock, I lie
Bathing by the light of the moon,
I could have swooned at the sight of you.
Opening my eyes, there you were gazing at me
That vision, before me wondering was it he!
Halfway rising myself, casting my eyes
The undulating waves swaying
Ebulliently, taking me...
Believe could not, that he stood by me 
Te Extrano, Te Extrano
Can't you see!
But my seas listens not to me, as I shout silently!
Te Extrano!!
Sailing by hearing not me!
Not a word to say, gazing my way!
Crying for a word uttered...
A smile missing from your eyes,
And like a Siren hollering my misery...
Yet you're looking back at me!
The light in your eyes, glistening...
You cannot disguise, it's there in your eyes;
No words to share, waiting silently...
And by the light of the moon, in her full bloom
Waiting, assiduously...
Hollering like a banshee, in mine misery!
A Siren singing delusionally!!
Calling for her lover, to come to she...
Demented she'll always be;
He cares not if she'll be singing, or not
Her loves lost, as he sails her by
Like Sirens singing in the moonlight
Am I!! 
Te Extrano!!

A Tiny Acorn ----

             A Tiny Acorn

Evolving in the extremities, of my mind
A tiny acorn...
Taking root, my words my thoughts
Into a sapling evolving, from a tiny seed
Reaching into the depths of my mind
Evoking a passion sublime!!
From the very core of me...
A tree, from a tiny acorn, evolving
Magnificently...
Interconnecting, our minds
Jumbled up in a fog, my thoughts...
Troublesome my thoughts my, words will be
Not easy to define, in the recesses
Once it's taken root...
Capricious my words won't be
Exuding from the depths,
Echoing within me, my words!!
Grow up!
Won't you, your not a child,
speaking the truth!!...
Why upset the apple cart, must you!
Fighting, my mind...
To speak not the truthed!
A pain in the ass, I must be!
Refusing to embroider my, words carefully
F..k them! am tired of those curtailing me,
My words, but my words are me!
All my life, I've been instructed, don't say this that
or the other...
But as an adult now, I'll say what the hell I please
Why would he give me a brain
If I'm not allowed to use it!!
Why mustn't I cast my, words to the winds
Carrying me far and wide...
My thoughts and me!
Extolling from the depths,  my soul
In the extremities of me!
How does one, control one's thoughts
An, art I've learned not...
Filtering my words, impossible!
From that tiny acorn, growing uncontrollably
In the very recesses, of me...
My words are just me,
Infamy!
Extending my, arms just like that, acorn tree
Far and wide, taking hold of me...
But my words I must extol not
It seems it's not seemingly...
They must hear not my, mind my thoughts, of he!!
From that little acorn, so troublesome to me
To all and sundry, I must extol not verses...
But I want to shout, from the top of my world
From that mountain high!
Down the valleys, to the savannah's wide
Caressing me, in the western winds,
my words
Beyond my universe and me!!

Let Me Live My Way

Let Me Live My Way 

Got up this morning, showered washed 

Blow dried my hair...

Smelling good looking good, even if I say so

myself... 

Know what do I do with my time!!    

Housework, I abhor 

Washing cleaning ironing, what a drag 

My minds screaming, let me out!

Let me live my way...

The way I feel the way I want

OMG!! 

My brains, gone awol I cannot think! 

But if my brain think cannot 

What will become of me!

My world I need, 

To keep me sane keep me safe 

Keeping me from combusting, exploding like

a volcano... 

This is the first day, of all my days to come

Every day encircling me, my world and me   

Every hour every minute every second! 

I fear it's gone...

Much needed stimulation, my mind 

Every day of my life, the little things I do

Struggling every moment, trying to be true 

Taking the piss not...

Am my own person, right? 

I too have want's, wishes desires   

My uncontrollable mind, 

Control cannot, those desires 

Knowing not if to quit or not...

Aberrations!! 

I can see controlling me,

But controlled, I won't be never have been 

nor will ever be...

Am me!!       

The only one controlling my future, you see

Be it right or not for me...

With my time somewhat, I must do

Knuckle down and get on with my editing

Otherwise, run with me, my mind!! 

Not a good thing no, no Siree! 

Have a good day my world...
You, you and me!!   

Yory!

     

I have no feelings for you except, as a friend
Yes, I do care for you but romantic feelings, no!
Please be straight with me, what made you think so
Have I given you cause to believe that I do?
I do love my friends all of them, but not romantically
That's all I've got left, my friends...
Not a huge amount just a few I can talk to
Once you told me with all the thousands of peoples
On your list, you talk with just a few...
Same here I've no hoards of people, just a few...
For I don't need that many. they're not real friends really!!
Am forever deleting those applying for friendship...
I don't need that kind of friendship...Corrupted!
But am sorry if I gave you a reason, to think otherwise
Or perhaps it's the way I write.......................
You know it's much easier to write fiction than reality...
It's true you know!!
I have been using you as my muse
Do you object terribly me doing so...
I've asked this same question some time ago
Yory! It upsets me you're thinking so low of me
I know not what to say, except you're distancing yourself from me!
Why I'd like to know!
Yory! I've not much experience with men as such
One man Yory one man I've had...
Wish I had been a tart like a lot of them out there!!
You may believe it not, but it's the God's truth
That's why I need you as my muse to write...
You know writers often have these muses,
Does it sound offensive to you?
& what I write is make-believe, that's what I do!
Without my muse, I cannot pour all these bent up feelings
That goes through me, is this wrong?
You've made me feel as if I've done something unsavoury
& why put all the onus on me!!
This last one I wrote your phrases,
That's just fiction, Yory!! all of it, not real!
Everything I write is fiction, make-believe!
Except for the ones I write about my family sending me to hell & back...
Now it seems am losing my friend, cause am using my imagination
Most people seem to think that what I write is real!!
If they only, knew that I've only had, one man in my lifetime...
Am not a maneater Yory!!! wish I was!
Am damned if I do & damned if I don't
Ok, Yory...Walk away, you don't have to be my friend,
or even like what I do
It's obvious that you don't...
By the way, in all the things you've told me,
have I ever given you reason, not to trust me!
Let me know if I let the side down...
Take care have, a great life...
& pull that plug on me if you must...
Balls in your court...Ciao Connie...
I know you hate, all this writing, this will be the last time
Shan't bother you again...       

Fires Still Burning

Fires Still Burning

Darling!!
The fire's burning still in my blood
that look in your eyes
Burning incandescently through me!
What a marvellous creature,
As I get up and brush my hair
Fires still burning within you!
Change you have not...
And I laugh gazing at, he.
The decaying of me he does, not see
Your still that girl I first saw in that far away land
Your shy smile, just as your smiling now...
Just like a flower an exotic flower waiting to be picked
A bird of paradise in the sunshine...
I fell for you there and then...
Now, looking at you you've lost not, that elegance
I saw in you, it's still there as you brush your hair
His eyes following me every which way I moved...
That proud look in your eyes!
The fires still burning in his minds, eyes
as he pulls me on to he...
I see not, this mesmerisation he has of me
Has been there from the start...
Yet I thought you mad, this obsession this hold on me.
But love resided, in mine heart fluttering butterflies,
We had eyes for no other...
Coming back time after time
To my island in the sun
Making love with your eyes...
Your camera lens spoke volumes in my face...
Wrapping me on that staircase
Every angle of me you've recorded whispering
Devine!
And you haven't lost that look in your eyes
Fires burning all the while...
As you made love with, your eyes.
I feel your eyes burrowing into me as I move
from A to B...
Yet at times I've doubted in my mind
This love has lasted such a long time.
For I had eyes not, for any other.
Spoiling my chances of, some other love
But the fires were burning, wild within me
There was no chance, for any other love
Yet they won't let me be, chasing me...
Silly fools go away let pass
For, I have eyes for no other, but he!
Even today they do stare, even at my sale by date...
It's not as if I were a beauty, you see
Thinking bloody fools, making my life miserable
But there are times in my minds, mind
I seem to think I need much, more than I need
Having, experienced no other, was I missing something!
Would love alone suffice, making me see
That I need no other but he!
A bed of roses has been not at, all times
For I have a mind of my own
Clashing at times breathing fire, like a dragon...
The devilishness in me!
Calming down he seemed to think...
That love has won somehow...
Yet I see others looking through me
Am I missing, something, unfaithful I've never been
Except at times in my mind, wanting more than I need
For the fires are burning inexorably...
Burning in his eyes,  that elusive look
Simmering embers, O'my!!
Your the Stellar in my eyes as he reaches me
As we make love, intrinsically.
The ecstasy running through me my body
As in a vice, he takes me
At that moment in time escape, I want not
Consuming the fires my mind...
As he whispers yet again you've changed, not a bit
But the decaying of me he seems not to see
A tear flowing silently from mine eyes
With such intensity loving me...
Even my tears extinguish cannot the fire,s between us
As he eloquently brushes from mine eyes
I cry out in the delirium of love
Embers burning his eyes
The fires still burning!
In our eyes!

Other Side Of Midnight

Other Side Of Midnight

May I borrow your whispers
From the other side of midnight
When we're alone together,
no one else in sight...
I'd whisper in the morning
And I'll whisper in the moonlight
And I'll whisper softly in your ear
As I say goodnight...
Darling, could we, should we!
Smilingly looking at me, why not!!
So beneath those palm trees
We'd whisper through the night
You were leaving in the morning
leaving me,
To sit think and write words, of yesterday
That at the time seemed alright
The happiness we shared,
Forgetting not those little pains
In a blink, of an eye happiness dies
Ambiguity in my mind,
Recollecting, a tomorrow that'll never come
When all forgotten
I've entertained happiness
But there are, still those little pains 
And on the darkness of mine nights
I'd whisper to the moon, in her full bloom
Words half-uttered between us
Love's love borrowed or otherwise
Touching in the night
Sending shivers down my spine
Many, many words between us
Reminding us
That on the other side of midnight
Love existed in our hearts 
Regret our words, why should I
Like a opium to my mind
Cannot disguise the wonder between us
For you're all I need, you do realise
For as I kiss your lips your eyes
And the hunger in between the sighs
Once in our lives
Love liveth within us!! 

There's A Cavern In MY Soul =====

There's a cavern in my soul
Awaiting to swallow me
It's as deep as my oceans
Cracking up I think I'll be
Much too emotional it hurts
Within me...
It's an impossibility
When I cannot see thee
Much too far
It's well beyond me
But I try I really try, to care not
If he goes or stays
But in my heart of hearts
I won't let it be
Echoing through my mind
Reason's telling me, let it be
But how can I let it be
For I adore, he!
Day and night on my mind he'll be
And in the darkness of my nights,
when sleep eludes me
Wanting he hugging me
He's the reason I breathe sleep eat
And drink the essence of he
In my dreams, he'll be...
The Absurdity!
In how I live the days of my days
On my mind, intrinsically he'll be...
But there's this cavern waiting for me
To trip and swallow me
Logically it won't be   
Fall I must not for he...
Too late, oh dear lord too late it'll be
For his embedded within me!!

Just One Day...

Just One Day

Just one day in my life, just one day
I'd love to be loved, like no other
In any other way.
Someone there for me, love me
unconditionally

No matter not what I do or say...

Someone to hold me tight, even if I
push you away...

Hold me grounded in every way  

To share my love my life even in spite
of my ways... 

The ambiguity in, what I'll say 

As I'm spewing out when am hurt 

When you walk away...

Without a word, in any way   

The silence's a killer, every day 

Screaming why you care, not

I don't know, you wouldn't say...

Yesterday! 

So many, many yesterdays 

You'd take me by the hand and say 

You are my love my life, the Stellar in my skies 

You've sparkling diamonds in your, eyes 

Filling my heart, when you laugh

In, an inexplicable way...   

Why do I love you, in this way

This obsessive obsession in every way...   

A body that'll think not in any, way 

Reasoning not...

You cannot reason in any way! 

An uncoordinated, mind stubbornly they'll say 

To love you not in any way...

Conspiring with others, my love you'll say 

Je t'aime...

In my ambiguity, I look away
But who's to say
I must love you not in any way!! 

Extinguishable my love is not, in any way! 

My heart's weeping every day of my days     

In a world, we live I understand not in any way 

With, those that care's not, they'll say

Love him not in any way...  

The obtuseness, sometimes in me
When I extol my love uncontrollably
It's there for everyone to see,
When it comes to you, in every way
They'll say just let it be, let it be!
The constriction, in my heart, is such
Departing from me, without a say
Ominously,
I'll think you love me not, in any way...
Yesterday, why must I think of yesterday's
We'd sing and dance at every chance
And made love in every way...
Now the stormy winds took all away
And we've left ambiguous in what to think what to say...
And a brain refusing to say, no more
Je t'aime, Je t'aime...  

       

He Gives Me Shivers

Each time I look at, he!!
He gives me shivers
nonchalantly, looking at me
That stare penetrating through me
Looking at me, forbiddingly
But underneath his skin, he's on fire
His fibrillating heart...
Pumping through his veins, his blood
As I nudge up to him,
With fever in mine, eyes!
I tried to walk away
Was as miserable, as sin...
As I see, he standing before me
A thought came to mind,
where did he spring from!
A mystery to me!
I saw him not approaching!!
There stood he looking at me...
That look, I was a fragmenting
I felt the floodgates open,
Silently, my heart was weeping,
Damn him!
For he still gives me shivers...
I looked upon his visage, inside I cry
The pull's sot strong, The attraction
like a magnetic field
Hating myself, for falling yet again
Leaving me bewildered...
It's killing me,
every time my eyes set upon, he!
And all over again, giving me shivers!
As I kiss every inch of, he!
His touch setting fire my blood,
Exhilaration...
Losing my mind my reason...
Reasoning, cannot as into my cocoon
Snuggling up to me
Marvellous creature!!
It takes every once of me,
not to fall for, he, all over again!
Oh dear lord, why!!
Has he this effect on me!
His eyes the colour, of my skies
Escaping, he, I cannot be...
Yah!!
He gives me shivers!!

   Connie James

You Made Me Feel

As you go swimming,
I lie down to take the sun
As a summer sun-kissed breeze  

Whispering over me...
It felt so good, I saw you in my mind
Who else could it be, hovering over me!  

Your sun-kissed lips...
Those featherlight touches
Depositing upon me...
In dreamland was I as the kissing started
Looking at you with wonder in mine, eyes
It was no surprise, as I clung on to you
As if a tomorrow there wouldn't be
Insistently begging, make love to me!
Kissing your lips your eyes
The hunger from within the sighs!!
I've been starved of love such a long time
Until you, with your phrases of love
Your verses of poetry
Filling my mind, my heart
With feelings, I knew not existed
Feelings that hurt feelings,
Causing havoc in my life... 
That until then seemed okay, ignorance's bliss
The tears, the silent tears flowing as I sit hurting
Waiting for the hurt to dissipate, till then misery...
At times transcending into a mire of lust
Inexplicably sluttish, till then existed not
So green was I!
But your words penetrating my mind
Becoming unsatisfied, with life as I knew it...
You made me feel with my mind my heart
As the whispering began, I became this thing
With you perpetually on my mind...
What chance had I as you gazed at me,
that stare!
Beguiling, hypnotising me
And I pretend not to see...
The obsession, this obsessiveness
Waiting for your words obsessively
In my mind, I didn't have peace of mind
Oh, what was I to do, as I lie in the sun
In the summer cool breeze,
whispering over me
You made me feel,
Extraordinary...     

Flying Sparks!

Revibrating, through me my brain,
My body...
Euphorically, the ecstasy
Every moment I'm with you...
Igniting sparks, between us
oh, ecstasy!
There's this something about you
Gazing from across the room
You're so intent on, she!
To every word, listening as if the gospel,

If it were a profanity!
The excitement in her eyes, it's there to see
Laughing with her casting, glances at me
Just a game you're playing,
Intolerable to me!
Making me feel less than real...
But I too can play games don't, you see
Up and down gazing striping, he
A flush comes to my face, as I imagine he,
Kissing me...
And my hands whispering all over, he!
He's hot,  his voice embers, burning incandescently
As I imagine he, pretending he'll be you
Caressing his face, glancing your way
Tweaking his nose, kissing he!!
Caring not, whether you'll see me!
Why do you do this to me?
Feeling a warmth erupting through me
Looking at you...
There's this thing about you!
Understand I do not, this primitiveness in me
Looking into your eyes,
Sparks flying, between you and I
Dumfounded I'll be if I understand me!
This ache following me, it hurts don't you see
Slowly killing me!!
And from the very depths of me
tears flowing silently!!
Torrents waterfalls, exuding from within me
Wonder why would it be!
Kiss me, darling,
Like, yesterday...
When on my portals, you came to be
Like a tornado, devouring me...
Butterfly's fluttering within me, as I raise
My eyes to thee!!
Dear Lord your gaze penetrating me, f...kd up I'll be
As you kissed me I knew not the ramifications for me
Cared I'd not, this hunger euphorically...
The colour of my skies, looking into your eyes
I see the wonder of thee, has never left me!
Confounded I'll be why...
Would I feel, I need more than I need
Spying he making, eyes at she!
Fragmenting my heart, irrevocably...
Yet I know you're only, getting to me
Seeing, sparks exiting your eyes,
Penetrating me!
There's something about thee
Bewitching confounding me!
Across the water, gazing at me
My soul mate, would he be!
I love playing mind games, intrinsically
A little badness there'll be in me
Playing games with he!
Making me feel that am living
That am real!!

Nothing matters

In my soul demons lived, not
In the days of old,
Just dreams!
Expectations high!!
But as we dreamed, in the days of old
Nothing mattered, nothing at all
Dreams liveth, in my heart
We had stars scintillating
and diamonds in our eyes...
And the moon beaming across our skies
In the darkness of our nights
With love in our hearts...
Whispering, verses phrases of love
Nothing mattered nothing at all
Bumbling through life, still chasing love
But as we gaze into their eyes,
And see love not but, lies!
As they promise you the moon and the stars
In the scheme of life love alone won't do
Still, nothing matters nothing at all...
Expectations high or not...
Those that with, our brains do f..k...
Gathering those stars in my firmament
Even the moon in her half-light casting
Shadows, in the darkness of my nights
In silhouette, I'll be, as I look into your eyes
Searching, the stars for a moment
But nothing matters nothing at all
O'stars transcending from my skies, disperse
you cannot be from mine, eyes...
That once, diamonds scintillated in my skies...
In the darkness of my nights irrevocably, I see
Running across the meadows, of green
Shadowed fluctuating, like in a dream...
O'shadows in my ambivalence,
Won't you leave me chasing my dreams!
Expectations high not...
Matters not if, I have ever dreamed
Nothing matters nothing at all!

Missing You =====

My mind's so full of you darling
Missing you!
I can't even write to you
Insidious thoughts on my mind
I can see you not, you're away from me
And my heart cries thinking of you
Oh, darling, I do miss you
I miss you with my mind my heart
My body cries out for you...
In my mind, I see you love me
Making love to me!
I see you smiling, your blue eyes
You cannot disguise as I look at you
Mesmerising me bewitching me
A touch, just a slight touch
Making me wanting you...
Bear cannot you, staying away from me
In my heart, I cry what about me!!
Me that caresses you, wishing you only you
Numb irrevocably my mind, by the nearness of you
My eyes light's up at the sight of you 
And my heart skipping a beat
My eyes so full of you...
Yet you do not my darling, care as I do for you
Sitting here, gazing at the horizon far
Stars scintillating like diamonds, in the bluest of seas
Casting on by the glistening sunlight
And the palm trees swaying in the breeze
Against the bluest of skies, like your eyes!
Ahh! Darling, I do love you!!
Across the horizon, a cruising ship skims by
Staring at that monstrosity, of the seas
From distant lands, bringing those peoples gazing
With wonder in their eyes
At this island paradise so close to my heart
But my minds never so far from you!!
Darling, wishing, just wishing that you could see
Me sitting here, writing thinking of you
Won't you come to me!
I!! Needing you as I do help cannot
Recollecting, when we loved beneath thosepalm trees...
Am praying obsessively...
Won't you come, my darling won't you
There's only an ocean between us
An ocean between you and me, control cannot
The whisperings!
Wadding through cool waters, I can see
The clearness a bottomless sea
Electrifying waters blue so, blue
Help cannot compare to you
The ebullience lifting me swaying
Upon a wave or two...
Darling so terribly lonely, without you
Looking closely I see
In the rock pools the odd crab or two
Mesmerising watching them
Darling, I miss you!!

Wash My Mind Of He!! =====

Darling, last night
I washed not my, mind of you!!
I couldn't darling, truly couldn't...
Wash you away, from my memory!!
So turned on was I!
Oh, dear lord what a mess to be!!
Cannot do without, he
But lord, can't get him out of my mind
He's within me!!
Beneath my skin, he'll always be!!
He makes me laugh, feel good
He makes me cry and whoop in ecstasy...
And he makes me fly, on the wings of a Phoenix
Oh, ecstasy!
On my skin his breath, his eyes upon me
His hands whispering over me!!
Evoking like a dream, echoing through me
Am all of a flutter, as his boat floats in
As I set eyes upon he...
Nonchalantly, looking at me!
It's enough to get my blood, churning
The glint in his eyes...
How could I have washed my, mind of he!
Would be lost what he means, to me
Within me embedded, he'll always be...
Go sleep he tells me!!
So turned on, to sleep without he,
An impossibility!
Like a harp playing me
The ecstasy ringing through me
How could I wash my mind of thee!
Words of yesterday echoing, through my mind
High as a kite, making me
Like dopamine in my blood...
Your eyes bewitching me...
Blue as my oceans and my skies above me
And the gulls screeching infernally,
Impossible...
How can I wash my mind of thee
Zombie-like without, sleep
Like a madness running through me
I'll be blown if I can sleep,
Or wash my mind of he!!

Free Spirit ====

I soar like a bird in the sky
A free spirit am I,
I abhor censorship
Censorship's not for me
For I am free, free free
All my life I've been told
How to act, how to talk how to think
But my God gave me a brain
So I guess it's ok if I use it
Even now I get told
Don't say this that or the other
But as I'm not ten anymore
I'll do say what I feel and think
But keeping others in mind
I'll try to hurt not anybody...
I've always been, this turbulent being
There's no pretending with me,
Having a mind on mine own
Can't they see! I know my mind! 
And woe betide anyone
Telling me how to act, how to think and feel...
I never act improperly, am not the type
But I do love to joke and laugh
Whooping in merriment, like everybody...
Those that really know me
Know what am like...
For am a terrible joker, the emphasis
on the terrible, I'll say...
But being me, not everyone's cup of tea
This cheeky beggar, residing within me 
This mind, that in conflict at times will be
My mind reasons not, with me...
Me dear friends try not to contain me
For I'm whom I am,
Don't you agree!!

         

Crowning Gloriously

My brains, need's, a seeing to
Had a very rough night, sleep could!
Tossing and turning all night, wondering
what did I do!!
Antagonising he, maybe!
Six thirty get up made a cup of tea
Then showered wash my hair, ignite life into me
Making me feel good!!
No chance, I still feel, out of sorts miserable
My worlds raining on me, choking the
life out of me
The floodgates, uncontrollably...
Old boys, gone cycling leaving me to my misery
Ants in his pants he must have, a good day, it's not !!
And here sits I writing,
words, dancing before my eyes
Tears flowing a turbulent river,
Undulating to the sea...
Oh dear Lord why, must he do this to me!!
I see he behind his window, looking at me
I know he's there...
The light twinkling behind, he!
Such a long time, a conversation had we,
so hungry for words!!
Blasted tears drowning me...
Feeling that ache within me, hurt feeling!     
Music's on Bach, drowning me in my misery,
floodgates uncontrollably...
Suns coming out, my Acer's wearing a red hat,
so fetching to see...
Above a canopy of red, scattered below
Crowning atop gloriously...
That's how I see, he!!
All in his glory standing before me!!
Incandescently, running my eyes over, he!
Whispering such a beauty, as I towel myself dry
Who the hell is she I asked, he!!
Three guesses say he, to me!
Put your glasses on says I confoundedly,
As I sit to blow dry my hair, he sees not
the decaying of me!
As another tear escaping me...
Blue skies appearing up top, to his eyes,
comparingly...
Dark deep pools in the night of my nights
Like a chameleon, changeling...
Never so sure of he!!
Birds are singing a chorus a symphony,
lifting my spirits hi maybe...

Suns, gone away,
I need a cup of tea!!
Have a good day my friends,
wherever you'll be!