Restless Mind

Astonishingly our eyes transfixed on the other

For I would desist not, holding his stare

The ambiguity, looking into his eyes

For he staring at me,

His blue eyes the colour of my skies.

My heart flipping, somersaulting

As if jumping from my mouth..suffocating me

His hair flowing in the breeze curling about his eyes

His face like in a dream, soft his eyes

Kissing his lips..as he smiles

Standing beneath the bridge

Wonderment in his eyes.

Smilingly looking at me

A touch of sadness in his eyes

Loving that smile...

Reaching deeply in the recesses of my mind

Reminding me how much I loved him

Bringing peace to my mind seeing him

A restless mind,

Getting not anywhere.

At the traffic lights looking close at he

Halting for a moment freezing my mind

A furious cold wind blowing North East...

Whipping around, with a vengeance

But his smile!!

Bringing gladness to my eyes...

But he! was not him was not him!

Refraining not from my, memories

In the recesses of my mind...

A very close imitation was he.

Engraved on my mind's mind!

In the eyes of my mind...

By Connie James

My Little Paradise

Casting my eyes way
Beyond the horizon far, what do I see
My little corner of paradise stretching before me
Filling me with yearnings of what it used to be
Stretching before me I see an undulating sea
A calm ocean as calm as can be,
Not, a whisper of a breeze
But as still as a pond reflecting before me mirrored like
Rolling waves, like music to my ears hitting the shore
Like a symphony the shingle rasping sound
Mesmerising, mesmerising me
Whispering softly to me whooshing around ...
In my minds, mind, am in paradise
Just me!
The gulls & the sparrow hawks hovering motionlessly
Against the bluest of skies
Reaching to kiss me an ocean
Undulating indolently to reach me
Penetrating it's coldness shocking me
Seeping through me, as I yelp, surprisingly
Winding around me like a game...
Like a lover embracing me ...
Your minds not your own it belongs not to me...
As you give yourself to the feeling
Dancing indolently irrevocably, like a dopamine, infernally
To a point of feverishness
As in a dream offering myself arms opened wide
Stretching on that rock feeling, for a moment or two
A sun-kissed, breeze whispering over me
In my minds, mind I can see you leaning over me...
Before my eyes, indolently gazing at me
Stretched out on that rock as if a mermaid I'd be
Whispering Connie on he rocks!! Was He!
Would you like that to be?
Just you and me!!
I liked the vision of He...
His hair red, like the burning sun, above me
His eyes blue, the bluest eyes you'd ever see
Like the colour of my skies
Or a cornflower field
Dancing in the breeze smiling down at me...
His thoughts I could see running right through me
As I reached my hand to He
Lifting myself half way, gazing into his eyes
Touching his lips with mine adorable was He...
He came from the sea like Neptune god of the seas
Riding skimming through the waves reaching me
In confusion, my mind refused to see
Mesmerised by He that was me!
In his stance standing his ground assuredly
Impossible to say!
Or just my mind so full, of He, conjuring He
That he'd come to me!
The touch of his hands whispering over me...
Making me shudder in the extreme
His touch so sure, He knew how to play me
As He kissed me unhurriedly
Like a harp playing me!
Under his touch, I was his...
Into oblivion my mind unfocused became
I could see the lust within He
As he whispered to me,
Connie on the rocks as hot as can be!
Not even a whisper of a breeze between you and me
In our veins, our blood's boiling
To Centigrade or Fahrenheit all the same to me
Carrying me, to hell and back,
Carrying me into a chasm infinitely...

                     By Connie James

Glorious Day

Glorious Day

Yesterday went stomping across, country, far and wide
With a pack upon my back, camera by my side...
Trekking boots and sticks giving me wings to fly...
As I go up & down across country Craggs, wild valleys
With my heart jumping from my mouth...
I stop and stare the vision before my eyes lifting my spirits high...
At the beauty that I see,
And in my mind's mind am thinking what a fool I'll be...
If I see, He!
Go on I must, we always end up by the sea...
Might as well be in paradise there's not a soul to be seen...
Except in my mind's mind, I see Thee!
There's no hope for me...
Getting down to the beach around noonday...
Throwing my pack down removing my trekking boots
Wonderful fresh air, my feet can breathe!
Then I remove everything except that something,
to cover my modesty...
Then I run into the water, making me yelp
the shock upon my skin...
Then a great big wave knocks me off my pins...
Rather sore, with scratches on my thighs waves over me
As a none swimmer to panic trying not
Whilst the waves dispersed then crawling up the beach
I was soaked rather more than I was expected to be
I looked like a rat I'd imagine, my hair dripping about my shoulders!!!
And the old boy with his dratted camera recording my movements.
Never mind that I nearly drowned...
Not a pretty sight crawling out of the water, like a she-beast,
Emerging from the deepness of the seas wild eyes wild hair...
I could have murdered He...
Then on the way home clambering over balder's after balder's
Great big fallen, rocks from the cliffs above.
I truly felt that I was in no man's lands in the days of times past
When man first crossed the same paths before me!
Then I had to climb the very same cliff face,
That I swore I'd never do again...
Good lord!
You should have seen me!
Pack on my back trekking sticks to help me up...
& hurrah I did yet again...
I think I must be a commander on secret service...
Or just Connie's madness, much more like it...
Have a great day...

By the way, that's not me!
Just a mermaid, a siren emerging from the sea!
& you know what sirens do! Don't you?
They drive the sailors mad, with their singing...

By Connie James

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In Your Eyes

In your eyes
I can see it's time to depart
I can see that faraway look that tells me it won't be long
And the truth is in your eyes that I must lose you
My heart cry's at the thought of losing you
Whether I gain or lose it's written in the stars
That one day you'll walk from me!
Mustn't say that I love no way no how
But I want to shout from the hilltops
That mountain high
From across the river, that's as angry as you are
But I'll say I love you never no more!
But that's the nemesis in me like the devil in disguise
Or is it the poet that can not abide
The laughter within me the love...
I love you more than life!
But there again I think you know
That after winning you I must lose you
Like that obsessive obsession that I'll lose you
The sorrow within's nothing less than infernal
As if a poison dart has wounded my heart, killing me!
With the quest of a poet
That has taste love real or otherwise
From a lover now to that stranger that I've become
In your eyes, I can feel the fire
Still burning within us
As our bodies touches the sparkling minds
That's when you walk away ambiguity not anywhere
Leaving me!
In the storming night, the thunder beneath,
That mountain high
The waterfall nearby & I cried!
You're much more than my lover
You've grown roots in my heart deeply embedded
Am the one that needs you, wants you
Whether am a mystery known or unknown,
It's only me!
The unknown woman that must walk away
Through a different journey a different path
For am the woman that was born to lose you
But I loved you like no other
My lips can taste the scent of you
My mind my heart my senses
Has no defences;
When it comes down to you...
Je T'aime!

             By Connie James

In Your Eyes

In your eyes, I can see it's time to depart
I can see that faraway look that tells me it won't be long
And the truth is in your eyes that I must lose you
My heart cry's at the thought of losing you
Whether I gain or lose it's written in the stars
That one day you'll walk from me!
Mustn't say that I love no way no how
But I want to shout from the hilltops the mountain highs
From across the river, that's as angry as you are
But I'll say I love you never no more!
But that's the nemesis in me like the devil in disguise
Or is it the poet that can not abide
The laughter within me the love...
I love you more than life!
But there again I think you know
That after winning you I must lose you
Like that obsessive obsession that I'll lose you
The sorrow within's nothing less than infernal
As if a poison dart has wounded my heart, killing me!
With the quest of a poet
That has taste love real or otherwise
From a lover now to that stranger that I've become
In your eyes, I can feel the fire
Still burning within us
As our bodies touches the sparkling minds
That's when you walk away ambiguity not anywhere
Leaving me!
In the storming night, the thunder beneath, that mountain high
The waterfall nearby & I cried!
You're much more than my lover
You've grown roots in my heart deeply embedded
Am the one that needs you, wants you
Whether am a mystery known or unknown, it's only me!
The unknown woman that must walk away
Through a different journey a different path
For am the woman that was born to lose you
But I loved you like no other
My lips can taste the scent of you
My mind my heart my senses has no defences
When it comes down to you...
Je T'aime!

             By Connie James

It's Beyond Me

The eyes see only what we want
They can not speak
Like that thunder over the hills far away
Am a woman that walks alone
Without, experience of the world
Might as well be a child in all innocence
But a child does not kiss your shadowAs we dance hand in hand in the street
Interlocking our hands as if we never let go
Stay as we are now !
Why, waste time sleeping you'll be leaving in the morning
And I'll be left weeping
We'll share the agony the sorrow
Immersing in the laughter for the here and now
For when you've gone
I'll be in the grips of melancholy hereafter
As I reach helplessly for that star scintillating way above
With feeling's of emptiness forever in my heart
When I kiss your eyes your lips
Kissing your fingertips
For I know you'll be gone far from me
When midnight toll's away what will I do
When you're not there, as I reach out for you.
I sleep awake sleep awake in the thunder of the night
My whole being trembles like the trees in the forest
As they sway & dance in the moonlight breeze
Leaving me all alone!
As you've done without a thought in the world
I shouldn't have said that I loved you
In between that hill that mountain high
What was said between you and me!
The moon in her fullness trailing you
Has brought you close so close to me
To hold you to feel you in my arms
Feeling you close to me, ahh!
The hungry kisses
Brought us to an impasse
The poetry that goes between you & me
As we embrace we have hunger in our eyes
It's beyond me!
This thing between you & me
Hurt feelings as you ignore me
For am human with feelings too
I can love-hate just like you
But as we clash interlocking arms
Coming in from the storm
Touching your face kissing your eyes
Constricting my breathing...
Feeling love in my heart,
Your killing me my darling
With your verses of love

                    By Connie James