In Times of Spring...

Good Night My World...
Sleep tight sweet dreams 
And on the rising of the sun 
Let your eyes gaze at your skies 
May it bring brightness into your heart
Wonderment into your eyes 
As you gaze far and wide beyond the horizon far 
Unfurling before your eyes
Miraculously
The wondrous rising sun
Playing games within the vision of your eyes
In this times of spring...
Mesmerisingly...
My worlds feeling blue, 
Each time I think of you, wondering...
In my world you were it's true, once, upon a time
Nowhere to be seen now each time I look at you...
Taking away my breath as I gazed at you
With wonder in my eyes...
Surmise I could not but in my eyes,  
It was in times of spring time;
Your eyes took mine...
A wandering
In the spring time of my nights, looking into your eyes
There was darkness within...
Within my mind, my eyes my soul;
In silhouette, I'll be as you care not to look at me
With love in your eyes, that once upon a time
There was love In times of spring...time
Love lived in my heart, but you ripped it apart
As spring burst upon us as I opened my eyes
New life bursting within, 
In the memories of my mind my eyes
In the times of springtime were the larks would sing
Taking their first sip in the morning dew...Spring
Sweet nothings we'd whisper in times of spring time
Where all was new, just before summer time
When once love lived...

              By Connie James 

All That I Have

All That I Have

In my cupped hands
I hold the rising of the sun
Here, take it it's yours
With each rising unfurling before my eyes
Remaining within the magic
I give it on to you;
My mind my lips are yours
& all that I am & all that I have
It's yours
As I reach up to the skies
Gathering those scintillating stars
In the darkness of my firmament
They are yours;
& as I look into your blue, blue eyes
I see lightness within
I see love in your eyes as I reach up & touch
Your lips with mine!
They are yours
In all that, I want or will ever desire
It's yours;
Looking into your eyes grasping the moment
Cupping in my hands at this very moment
The sun the moon & the stars are yours:
Touching your mind with mine
All my desires all my yearnings
Are yours;
My mind my lips my heart
It's yours if so desired
Casting her magic the blue moon above
In her half lit sky
Casting her magic upon my mind
As I reach to touch your face with mine
In silhouette in the darkness of my nights
Looking deeply into your eyes
My mind's yours my thoughts my everything
In between the darkness & the light
My mind unfocused becomes
That gossamer dispersing from my mind
For all that I am & all that I have;
It's yours;
Your whispering touch
Playing havoc with my mind
Euphorically unruly my mind at times can be
The incandescence of your touch
Sending shivers through my mind
That otherwise...
Would be scaling that mountain high
In readiness to fly
Like that condor swaying in the thermal winds
& as I look into your eyes
All that I have & all that I am
It's yours

                  By Connie James

Brain Of Mine ***

Brain of mine

Why won't you just shut up
O brain of mine!
Quit with all your thinking
For I'll end up in trouble & strife
With the crap that's on your mind
Why must you always:
This infernal, yabbering
They need not know what your thinking;
Enough's enough;
Just shut up & let me be alone with me;
Why!
Must you go on infernally
Why can't you just let me be;
Just quiet down O brain of mine, let me be!
But you never listen to me!
Damn you
Driving me & those in the vicinity
Around the bend;
Question every little thing why must you?
Can't you see you're killing me!
Then you hit back at me
Accusing me of ambiguity
Questions you must ask you telling me;
Question after question I'll never change you see
O brain of mine just let me be alone
Alone with me;
But my aloneness is driving me you say accusingly;
What the hell!
Go away & let me be:
The ambivalence in me I know not what's to be
Am tired of jumping feet first, without thinking
It's killing me!
There's an ache within me, deep the very core of me;
What, its done to me breaking me!
Fragmenting into thousand's of little pieces
Leaving me ambiguously don't you see;
Trying so hard not, to be like
This being residing within me
Driving me into oblivion I'll be;
No such luck you see;
It won't let me be my brain
Within me the cacophony.
Like a brass band playing infernally;
That worm in your ear repeatedly reciting for me
Pissing me off those, eventually in my bad books will be
Why must I be so high & mighty within my mind;
Repeating repeatedly! Go away!
O brain of mine quieten down, just let me be;
But with the fairy's in fairyland, I want not to be
But kicking butt, you see its inherently within me
The uncertainty;
A hopeless case kicking butt I'll be;
No it's not for me...
Here we go again you see, how hopeless it's for me;
So just shut up & let me be.
An impossibility!

  By Connie James

My Mind & Me ****

My mind & me

A new Adonis on the bloke
He's as hot as he can only be
His eyes deep dark pools inviting me!
But ambiguity's within me;
Should I be delving into his dark
Mesmerising pools as he gazes at me
Turbulence within me;
Mesmerised I look into his eyes
Are, as deep as can be
Like the depths of my mind intrinsically!
Dark pools oozing;
That animal magnetism from the depths, of he
You can feel this forbidding, look from he
O my! My mind & me!
My minds telling me;
But my mind to my heart listens not
O infamy!
It's as stubborn as me
Following rules not, not me irrevocably
He has the world at his feet our Adonis you see
The world's worshipping he
Am just one of those that finds him inexplicably
Oozing from every orifice of his...
Sexuality inherently within, he!
On his pedestal, we've moved, him for all to see
He's a God a Zeus linked intrinsically
He's seen such as this, unfathomably
Being me;
Can not make head or tail off he
But at his beck & call, we'll always, be adoringly
Seeing what today's will bring, we'll see
Dominating like a king he'll always be
That hard stare from he
On his pedestal we have he
Visually our eyes following he
Like a maestro conducting a symphony;
Touching each one of us
His baton demanding obedience, following
Progressively playing us like a harp
The strings our hearts playing, like violins the cellos
The strings of our hearts breaking ping! snapping;
Standing there conducting our eyes upon he
His body moving shedding electricity
So attuned we've become to He!
But a rebel I am always have been
Looking at him defiantly;
Doing their own thing my ivory's & I
My piano & I!
Alarmingly to a crescendo rising to an allegro evoking
Regressing to a piano pianissimo
Decreasingly as he looks at me sternly
Bringing me back into orchestra's fold
Echoing through my minds, mind a warning;
He won't stand me playing games with he
Like a battle between me & he
Looking into his eyes wishing that he
Would look deep into my mind
& see, what his pheromones doing to me
My mind fighting my heart always will be
As my eyes setting upon he
Dreaming like a fool,
I guess the world's full of fools such as me
His eyes I could kiss his lips sensually
O dear lord you're killing me!
As I try touching his mind with mine
Alarmingly his hands I can feel whispering over me
My minds screaming out
Oh please let it be!
Fibrillating my heart ecstatically
Looking deeply into his eyes I see
The wonder of he!
Does he ever see me as I see he;
Oh dear lord have pity on me!
For irrevocably I'll burn in the fires of hell
Incapable of obeying me my heart,
My blood's on fire my mind's inherently
Wonder if he knows how his world sees, he
Protectively of, he, we can be
Wonder how he does, all those bleeding hearts
Falling for, he...I think he can not see!
As He lifts his baton high strikingly
Into a crescendo our minds
Our hearts will always be
Increasingly...

                   By Connie James

Am Only Human

Am only human after all;

That's just the crux, we're only human
We all have minds hearts feelings desires;
Being broken our hearts
& perhaps it's just one of those things
That maybe, we think we need more than we need
Echoing through my mind that song
We're only human after all:
We're all creatures with needs desires
But do we need all we want or think we want!
Desires!
Do we really need what we think we need
Echoing through me at this precise moment
The agony of that song my throat constricting
Why must we blame others for our inadequacies
When full of sorrow our hearts;
Without a chance a of returning our yesterdays gone
Such a wreck I am to think
That a song can leave me in a state of despair
Of mourning;
A screw lose there must be within me
Hate to feel!
I want not to feel it hurts;
As if my insides are turning inside out
An emotional being residing within me
Leaving me at the gates of hell, emotionally
Fighting my heart, my mind
Telling me!
You need not feel:
Emotions from yesterday
When love came out to play
When we were fanciful & free
Without a care in the world, that was me!
But why!
Are the floodgates flowing through me
Like a turbulent river finding its way to the sea
Without warning a chance overwhelming me
Feel the music papa used to say to me;
Now in cuckoo land I find  myself
Knowing not how to switch off these feelings
Forever within me; ruling me.
Feeling more than I need to be;
But I guess am only human
After all:

             By Connie James

Alone With My Mind

Alone My Mind & Me

Words palabras paroles phrases
In the forefront of my mind
Escaping me at all times
In my vicinity leaving those barking mad
The excessivness of my words
Words controlled or uncontrolled
Palabras phrases many more words
Parola escaping my mind
Why should this be!
I know not:
Escaping from me, a clue I have not;
Inherently within me, my minds, mind
Words phrases paroles will always be with me
Expressing myself I guess a habit of mine
No one will ever listen to me;
If those around me communicate not
Unless confrontation-ally, sick of it I'll be;
In sync not at all with me, my mind
An impediment on their minds must be
Can not just be me!!
So barking mad goes I talking to myself
Through text!
Demented forever I'll be if extol my words I can not;
In my minds, mind!
To the winds casting my words
Palabras paroles of love
Inherently my words residing within me,
Spilling from me at all times
On top of my world my words & me!
Gazing about me words comes to mind
The beauty surrounding me!
As I open my arms wide
Shouting to the winds far & wide
Words within words my mind.
Seeing his gaze upon me
Looking deeply into my mind
Penetrating the extremities of my mind & me
His gaze;
Looking into his eyes
Feeling uneasy in my minds, mind;
But my words just flows
Hard to hold back the raging within my mind.
Why must I!
Extol my words to the winds far & wide
They care not what's residing within me
Except my words flowing escaping me
Control can not my words at all times
Within me sorrow tightening my heart
Me myself my mind;
Correlating the two's an impossibility
In sync, not my mind my heart
Fighting my heart my mind possibly;
A bane to me, this being residing within
Control can not at all times
It just seems to run away with me
Hence excessively like a river pouring from me words
Flowing from the extremities of my mind
Unstoppable they flow hurriedly
Like tears flowing from my eyes
Blowing in the wind carried in the breeze
In the recesses of my mind
My words the death of me will be!
But as I see him about inexorably
Into a frenzy goes I my mind
Oh lord;
Express I can not this feeling within me!
He disturbs me, my mind
There must go not irrevocably
What point would it be!
The ecstasy!!
Quieten down O brain of mine;
& just let me be alone;
With my mind:  

             By Connie James...











  

Inside My Mind

Inside My Mind

Darling!
You're inside my mind.
The very depths of me at all times;
Just like an ocean's ebullience
Flowing through me swaying me
Here goes I once more with the flow.
Your eyes fathoms deep to my minds, mind
The intensity of your gaze
Penetrating me
Right through me!
Deep dark pools like molasses adhering to my mind
As I float on cloud nine
Emotionally breaking spilling from me,
As I try reaching your mind with mine
That deep penetrating gaze playing havoc with mine
An easy task it's not at all times
Floating in the recesses of my mind;
I'd so love to touch your mind with mine your heart
I want to touch all of you with mine eyes
Like a whisper
Whispering softly a mere whisper of a touch;
Kissing your eyes your lips
Touching your mind with mine
Burning intensely like embers of meteorites, my blood
My arms achingly holding you close to me
That hug, that touch exuding right through me
At all times my blood my mind
Your words incandescently burning a hole in my mind
Control can not the fire my blood;
It's intensity burning me, a fire so wild
In the extremities of my mind
Euphorically I!
Running to you one more time
This fire burning as I touch yours with mine
Into a thousand pieces exploding
Fragmentation in my mind as I listen
To the beating of your heart;
Fluttering fibrillating my mind
Like that constant ache in my heart
Like a mosaic falling apart fragmented in my mind
A gossamer impeding me from thinking with my mind
Correlating not always with my heart's, thinking for me
As I try touching yours with mine
There's this fire incandescent in the recesses of me
I see your lights, shining in the extremities of my mind
& like a whisper kissing your mind with mine
Am all at sea, when you pay, heed not to me
Struggling my feelings my mind
Fighting with me at all times
Ominous I'll be thinking; should I be!
This obsession of mine;
But that's the crux, you see!
But I'll always have the music,
Floating through my mind as I listen,
The very depths of me penetrating deeply
Soothing my mind;
  
                   By Connie James










     

Lord!

Lord

My friend's in need of thee
Won't you please Lord
Keep an eye over he
So no harm comes not to he!
He's doing his very best
To sort things you see
Won't you O Lord
Cast your eyes over, he!
He's such a beautiful heart
Helping those that need he
Those that live in ambiguity
I ask not much for me O Lord
Can one love one's friend too much
I know not O Lord
But my friend's in need of thee!!

Connie James

Before The Light Shone In...

Before The Light Shone In

In the stillness of a new dawn
As one stands & stares
At the mirrored image scintillating before my eyes;
I can not surmise the enchanting reflection I see
As I point my camera lens into the far distance
Into the horizon far;
Whilst the mistiness of a new dawn
Whispering sweetings
Just above the waters rising like a cloud
In the misty morning dew
Standing by mystified screwing up my eyes
I thought I saw a hummingbird
Above a misty cloudy, sky hovering by
Following pointing my lens as it takes off & flys
Just above my morning misty skies
My hearing so attuned to the silence of the morn
There's a symphony a chorus hanging like a cloud in the air
In tune with their surrounding chirping melodiously
Like a land of the enchanted mesmerisingly
In unison singing in chorus
Announcing the start of a new day
All the little birds
The little birds of our world
Reawakening to a bright new day
Soundings of the early morning, whispering away
Before the rising sun rushes in
Bursting in a blink of an eye        
Like golden little diamonds scintillating in the sky
Every little creature stretching up yawning
A golden silence descending upon their world
Unravelling wings stretching out opening eyes
Stretching their wings in readiness to fly into another day
Unfurling before their very eyes the magic
Magically casting its mesmerising light, upon their world
Rising mists unfolding gossamer-like a cloud
Dispersing mesmerising light
Lifting before our very eyes
That otherwise in darkness
Before the light shone in;

              By Connie James

Words Comes Not Easy!

Words Come Not Easy

Lines drawn across my pad
Not as easy as could be
Writing words between the lines
Words phrases of love
Easily coming not to me
Starring at me pages empty blank pages
Empty pages of my mid
Words coming not easy at all;
Wondering; Will that ever come to me!
On the tip of my tongue refusing letting me!
Transfer within my mind an impossibility
At this moment, in a fog my mind will ever be.
In a laden morning foggy dew
Sitting think of you, as we were
Amongst, the clouds the scent's in the air
Laden heavily with dew
As I tiptoe run to on you
Descending from our heavens
This much needed manna
Upon this parched land it's true;
Raising up to the skies my face
Without refrain this rain setting upon you
Ahh! Your eyes blue so blue
Like cornflowers the colour the blueness so true
Mesmerising me, that blue field right below me!
Such a sight to see;
A sea undulating in the breeze like an ocean so blue!
Like the colour of your eyes so deep blue;
Caressing each flower as I walk through
Undulating before me, whispering in the breeze
Can help not but think of you;
Thoughts warmly on my mind
As I touch each flower lovingly
In between these lines struggling to come to me
Desired or not, words come's not easily
An impediment upon my mind
Much more desirable, casting my words with easy
For they not always come easy
But as I sit, & write words flowing with ease
Flowing through the recesses of my mind
Like that water fall behind the drapes of my mind
Between the recesses finding myself lost
Trapped between the lines in the extremities of my mind
Wondering!
But my heart cry's for the land's where I was born
Images dispersing from the regions
The very core of me
A land of plenty I can see in my minds eyes
Searching for that much beloved face
That's ingrained on my mind
A face I can find not in the extremities
In the recesses of my mind
That face that's left me!
Or me that's left that face behind
Not dispersing from my mind.
Still searching that face, in the crowded streets
I see you not in my minds eyes
He that I adored to the very core of me
To my last drop of blood, my very last tear;
But I know I know in my mind
That I search a face that's attainable not
In the depths of my heart I know I'll find not
A face I've left behind
Lost in the recesses of my mind
Unattainable!!
Writing in between the lines my memory coming alive
He's the one that gave me life gave me my dreams
The one that engraved music in my hear
As I go on dreaming my pen none stop
My words easily coming to the forefront of my mind
Running away with me my pen
Galloping away with me my thoughts won't stop  
Taking roots in my heart embedded deeply
Forever on my mind within me
He was part of me
Whether I've lost him or not, words coming not easy
Ingrained on my mind words always will be
Always does not come easy...Words
Simple words
Words like I love you;
Papa:  

By Connie James

 

   

    

Once I Return

Once I return

Sitting here all alone
Wondering where it all went wrong
Chasing your roots without a care in the world
Without a word uttered from you
Am left here thinking what did I do...
Like the stranger at the bus stop
The beggar woman in the rain
The words I've been writing, just for you
Without a word from you; here we go
Even the posters on the wall reminds me of you
The steamy tea so welcoming by you
The bookshop, you're so fond of
Even that little girl with her paper boat
I can visualise me as a child but with a kite
Letting it rip in the air;
Can still hear it ripping through the air
The young boy along the footpath running
As the rain came without any warning soaked through
That flowering magnolia tree so beautiful
Hanging its branches as in a prayer!
Touching the ground laden heavily like tears
The road you knew so well refrain, not
Forget can, not doesn't stop you;
Your roots are calling to you equivocally
& just like you,
Hearing you can not the whispering-s in the wind;
At the book shop where we all stop,
Just to listen,
To the verses of poetry spoken by those
Spoken by all in the vicinity
Deeply ingrained in their souls their mentality
We're all enthralled by those verses of love
Meaning, not anything at all whatever they say;
This city of joy art literature the poetry.
This life of writing that can not make a writer
Or indeed a poet of me
Softly I whisper your name in my mind
You went away without a goodbye
Everything, we shared after all
Giving you shelter giving you my love
Once I return my love
Once I return!

By Connie James

Taken My Breath Away

Taken My Breath Away

That first time I saw you
You took my breath away
All I had in, me every ounce of my being
As I saw you breaking in laughter
That light in your eyes
It took all my willpower all I had within me
Not to fall for you irrevocably;
& then as I looked into your soul
It took all my strength every little ounce of me
My fibrillating heart as I took you in my arms
Finally making love all the while finally
It took all of me!
The very core of me loving you
The fullness of my heart;
At the sight of you, I could kiss you
Kiss your eyes your lips
In the darkness, of my nights
It takes all of me to hold you tight
Out of a dream;
Seeing you in silhouette
As on that first time, you took my breath away
Was I dreaming !!  
In the lightness of my days come what may
To the darkest of my nights
It takes every ounce of me
Not to call you in the night
When I need you to hold me tight
& in my, minds mind flutterings
Like the beating of my heart;
As I hear you call my name in the middle of the night
It takes the whole of me!
Even if you do not feel the same!
As I whisper on to you at any time of the night
Your smiling eyes telling me it's alright
& it takes all of me!
When I hear you call my name
As you kiss me holding me tight loving me!
It's alright; Ahh darling,    
He takes me to hell into infinity & back
Unfocused fibrillating my heart my blood
It takes all of me, my love
Ahh darling, what chance have I
Seeing the light in your eyes, what chance have I
What chance!
Looking at, me thus, the light of love in your eyes
Please look not at me that way!
For lost, I'll always be!
Every ounce of me!
Lost within my mind
Just a look, a touch, believe I can not
The plight I find myself
As am holding you against my heart      
Like that bird of the night
That nightingale rendering her song
Right through the night
In such a plight am I!

By Connie James