To Begin The Biginning *****

To Begin The Beginning

At the first light, of dawn
The door opened, as he walked in
Bracing myself, from the morning,
cool breeze...Ahh!!
Closing my eyes, inhaling the scent of, he!
Just, couldn't believe, he was standing
right, there in my face!
Looking, so magnificent so knowing,
dangerous...
We stood, facing one another,
for what seemed, an eternity...
And I, smiling shyly stood before, he
uncertain, of what to do!
So I just followed, his lead...
I held my hand, to touch the contours
of that much-desired face...
To touch to feel, to want!!
He just stood, looking at me, with that devil,
may care look...
With this insolent look, daring me,
doing, absolutely nought!!
To explore, daring me, so with uncertain hands
I explored every inch of him!!
Was mesmerised, by this god, man, like
Standing before me, a devilish look, in his eyes
Hypnotising me!!
Awakening, I felt, as from a deep, sleep
Wanting to touch, wanting what, I knew not!!
But he knew, how to play me, intrinsically
The waves, the sensations cruising through, me
O'Lord I prayed, let it not stop...
Musn't stop, yet I held back!
For I knew, had I not I'd be lost forever...
Forever lost!
This awakening, had me feeling, frightened
Yet wanting to repeat, the experience...
Ecstatically...
Like dopamine imploding my mind, my senses
The sensations, he put me through, wild!!
Yet it left me wanting, what wasn't, sure...
Uncertainty, in my mind there must be more!   
There must be more of that I, was sure had to be!
To repeat the experience, terrified me
For I knew, I wouldn't, be holding back
I had this wanting, this need in me!!
Innocent as I was...
Wanting to feel the sensations, echoing through me
Holding me back, left me wanting more,
Through the process, going not as if, punishing me
Go away, you're just tormenting me!
Holding me close, sensing my uncertainty
The knowing, look in his eyes
Seeing frustration in me...
Just looking out for you, said he smiling
Worry, not my love, it'll keep!!