Mortifying Me!! *****

Mortifying Me

Darling, in my cocoon, lies I
Without you by my side
Awaiting the touch that'll never come
Bitter tears I cry in mine loneliness
For you've been away cavorting with she!
kissing, loving her whilst I lie awake
Turmoil within me;
What's happened to you?
I want to know! drowning in my misery,
Your eyes blue being cast over she!
I hope she loves you better than me!
Insidious thoughts running through my mind
As I imagine you, loving her
Unsettling me;
A kind word a touch
That look reserved for me
Being cast upon she!!
I try so hard to ignore, but the onslaught
It's killing me...
And like a wounded animal
In mine cocoon,
I lie waiting life to expire from, me
Extract, I want not, that poison dart piercing
my heart, like a harpoon destroying me;
In my misery, I cry
Hoping she loves you better than me!!
Consuming my mind with every thought
That you and she!!
Infamy!!
A madness transcending through me
Furious that you and she
Robing me my reason
My very reason for living
And in mine cocoon lie's I
Like a wounded animal whimpering
And I, this primitive being residing within me
Wanting to think not that you and she
Hope she'll love you better than me!
This jealousy mortifying me!!

Where Did You Get Too! ******

Where Did You Get Too


Got up feeling my way out of my misery
Behind my eyes, a deluge exuding
From the depths of me!!
My pillow wet, my head-achingly
Went to, shower to cleanse my mind
My body;
And those hot jets hitting my skin
Behind those waterfalls stood I
Hollering away like a banshee, in my misery
I cried a waterfall recollecting when we
Cleansed each others body's
His hands over my skin titillatingly
And in his blue eyes, I'd see he
All over again smiling at me!
Fragmenting my mind, falling on, my knees
Grasping for he;
Behind that waterfall, I'd hide conspicuously
That no one could see me in my misery
Hiding from those that care for me!!
Such a mess do I look!
My bloodshot eyes looking back at me
Accusingly;
Evoking my tears silently
Like a river flowing stately to the sea
Where did you go to my lovely
Is there a reason, that you won't tell me!
How can one contain so many tears
Evoking like a spring rising from the depths of me
As if silently one's bleeding seeping slowly
The life out of me!
Where did you get to, my lovely
Where did you get to.?

     

In My Dreams *******

In My Dreams!!

The presence of you is all around me
In the air that I breathe the way I see you
The way I think and feel about  you
You're way up there on you're, pedestal
Superior looking at me!
That twinkle in your eyes I see laughing at me!!
In my dreams;
In your eye's I can see your soul.
Reaching, up to you, I like what I see
Kissing you with a hunger
From within the sighs,
Wanting you!
Lying beside's you and sleep I cannot
Tossing and turning reaching to you
Aware that, sleep cannot reach me,
Shivers sending, through me your touch
Electrifying me!
Wonder why he does this to me!!
It's twenty past three, sleeping I should be
But eluding me, in a slumber my mind
My mind turns, reaching you
Wanting to feel,
The very depths of you
My body trembling in the extremities
Believe, I cannot you can do this to me!
Like a feline cat prowling, I'll  be
In the recesses of my mind,
In a wave of, feelings;
In unison moving, with you;
Every move, reaching a point of no return
On a wave swaying euphorically
The ecstasy, my mind belongs not to me
Like a river, tears flowing, silently;
Behind that waterfall
Getting closer, unfocused my mind becomes
The effect on me, in the recesses
The very extremities of me!
Looking into your eyes, I see
Deep Pools inviting me
And like a lost soul goes,
I feet first jumping!
Into the very depths, that's you
Control cannot the uncontrollable
Following you, my eyes will be
No, never enough;
Hunger from within, the sighs...

             

Bird Of The Night ****

Bird Of The Night

Darling...
Awaiting, words from you
So lonely!
But like a bird of the night
She sings desultory
Why won't he come to she
Through his images, he speaks
To her like a child
Telling a story an imaginary story
It's not hard to see that read
is an impossibility!
Through images speaking to her!!
And she sits feeling her way
With each image passing on to her;
And like a child, she cries
In her convoluted mind,
Touching his image, in her mind's eyes
But her eyes hungry will be
To see the image of him,
In all his glory standing before she!
Worshipping he from afar, his eyes dark
as a stormy, velvety night
And the darkest stormiest oceans, across from me
Turbulent and cross as he...
Would she, that bird of the night holler her misery
As he comes closer, kissing she
A tear spills from her eyes,
The floodgates exuding from the depths of she
A waterfall, she cried a river;
Control she could not the uncontrollable
Breaking up, fragmenting
Hanging on to the...
Anxiety exuding from she
Dying would she, be if sing in the night
She could not be!
A Nightingale;
That bird of the night, that was she
Kissing his lips, adoringly
Falling upon her knees weeping
In immense anguish, heart-rendering
Why, would she weep over, he fragmenting!
The image of he, she carried within she
Confounded she'd always be
Whilst, for his words she'll wait patiently
Behind his dark window sitting, as
She was fragmenting...
And she finds herself singing
Like that bird of the night
In desultory...

              By Connie James