A Dream Land *****

A Dream Land

Such a beautiful sound
Like in a dream, one wants,
to wake up never...
Reaching, the very depths of me...
As I sit in, this Island, paradise
Casting my eyes, over the far horizon
I see this land, enchanted by her nature, her beauty
A paradise island I see, in my dreams
A land unspoilt by man...
Achingly beautiful...
Leaving one's wondering
How can one ache, by the beauty before one's eyes
Reaching deeply into one's soul
A land of dreams enchantingly
Peacefulness abounds
Only the birdsong, breaking the silence
There's a stillness, in the air
Ambiguity, resides not, anywhere
Singing brooks, waters rippling, in a song,
In mesmerisation, leaving one
Bewitched!!
The silence, cutting right through, me
I can feel this ache wringing, in my heart
Emotional, rather spilling tears
By the beauty that I see!
How can one weep, when beauty abounds,
Revibrating through the air, those pipes
Reaching a crescendo
Thrills, sending shivers through me
Into the extremities, erupting
In the recesses of my mind, a paradise
In heaven or earth
Humanity, tuning into hell
As hell abounds as well!
One can weep in gladness, as in sorrow
Filling my heart with gladness, these pipes
Resounding, echoing through the air
Leaving me light, of heart...
Bringing me back a tomorrow
As they finally, dying in a whimper, of a whisper
Of one's last breath
No ambiguity!
Ambiguity resides not, there...

Peace Of Mind *****

Peace Of Mind

A cacophony
Waiting to explode from me
My brains!!
As busy as Piccadilly Circus
Or London city in a rush
Cannot move, my head won't let me
As if all, night, I've been on the tiles
Swinging from tree to tree
Imminently, an explosion will be
It won't let go of me!
Shun me!
Why should he shun me
Waterfalls, a torrent flowing, river 
Zigzagging, to the sea
Am howling, like a banshee! 
The moon blue, won't let me
Tribulations, nothing less than, infernal
Plastering their likeness, before me
Like hyenas, laughing mocking, me
I'll plaster a smile, upon my visage
Into my heart, they cannot see
Within me, killing me!
To the sea, I should go down, maybe
Let the waves wash, over me
Cleanse, it may, my fu..ked, mind
From this agony!
Or, the illusion that I'll forever be 
Tormented, within me!
The Stellar, in my skies he'll always be
Reaching high, trying plucking he 
But always, just beyond me
Reach cannot the stars in his eyes
As he looks at me, mockingly
Awol, gone from me
Scintillating, glistening upon my skies
In silhouette, he'll pretend he sees, not me 
Deplorable the cacophony, always, will be
And I'll reach and pluck that star, that's he
And across my firmament, like a pebble
On the beach, I'll skim he
Beyond, my universe...
A chance there may be
Peace of mind will reign
Within me!!

A Link Missing !! *****

A Link Missing

Like that she-wolf, here lies I
Thinking of you...
I can hear, the beating of my heart
Boom, boom!
My thoughts, never far from, you
Missing you!
And, like that she-wolf,
crying her misery
Running, through my mind,
pictures of you...
Where did you get too, my lovely
Where did you get too?...
But here lies I, imagining that you
May, be thinking of me too!
My heart beating,
Waves echoing, through me
Whilst my heart beats, overtime!
Boom, boom...
And like that she-wolf,
Linking my heart, my mind,
I feel a link missing,
Broken!   
Impossible to mend,
Through my fingers, slipping
Yet here lies I, wishing!
Wishing!! What's the point of it all!
My heart fragmenting,
That jigsaw with a piece missing
Breaking up, my heart, dying a little,
Constricting...
Singing, a sad tune my mind...
But like, a she-wolf howling, her misery
Her reason for living!
She can not find, that link,
That's gone missing!!

Lost In The Wilderness... *****

Lost In The Wilderness

Good day, my world
Feeling blue
Heavy heart, tearing me apart
Sunrise simply, manna before my eyes
Lifting that gossamer, that's impeding me
From visualising you. at this moment in time
There's a weight upon my soul
If, my whole world, crashing down on me
I find I, cannot breathe
My heart sits tight, so tight against my, ribs
In sorrow, for those that I miss...
Feeling lost, in the wilderness
No one's there, no one sees or hears
My torment!
As if my whole being's crawling, in the excrement
My heart, my soul, into an abyss
This feeling of emptiness, extract, cannot
Transcending, into my life...
Unable to see this life, before me
Before, darkness sets in
Flowing like a river my tears
As if someone's ringing, my heart
Arrest, cannot the flow...
Sun shining, glistening in my skies
Why must, I feel hard done by
As if being, alone so alone in my, world
The birds are singing
The leaves are dancing, in the breeze
The washing set out to dry
Like bunting, swaying in the wind
Yet, my spirits, are dragging me, down
Low. so low...I can do nought about 
Music I must, put on
To extract from me, this feeling, of loneliness
Attacking, me at this precise moment
Must pull, myself together
And see!!
Whatever will be
Will be!!       

My Hero!! ******

MY HERO

In the quietness, of the night
When silence and peace, exudes through
Around my hometown, silently I walk,
When am feeling blue!
And where, I met Papa, coming from
His music practice...
In heavens name, what you're doing here
Isn't it time, you were at home
Silently I nodded, as I looked at him
I, won't belong!
With hands in pockets, I walked on
Looking neither, left nor right
Head bent with my, thoughts
Enjoying, the solitude of the night
Just me, me by myself...
The air fresh, on my face
A cool breeze, in the wind
Walking, down the street
The coolness, of the night, soothed
my troubled, mind...
With a spring in my step,
Calling me
As if! I heard Papa playing,
My favourite piece, of music
Picking up speed,
I walked, fast and faster
With the music, catch up I, could not
I was all of a flutter!
So, I took to my heels and, run
Ran and run, like lightning
I was running, in slow motion, it seemed
I could catch not up, with Papa!
Running around, the corner there, was he
Beneath the street lights, standing
Eliminating his features, in silhouette
A gossamer, like in a dream!
The air was thick, with the scent of the Eucalyptus,
Intermingling, with the pine;
The scent so heady,
I thought was I in a dream!
Papa, Papa I uttered, in a scream!
With, tears flowing, I walked on
With the light of the moon, for company
I knew, there would be, no Papa,
Awaiting round the corner for me!!
I miss He!!

Silence!! *****

SILENCE

I've seen, that lonesome man,
An unsureness, in his step...
Walks, rather slow!
Yah!
He's wrinkly, with sad rheumy eyes
Brought a tear to mine eyes...
But that twinkle behind, his eyes!
Lost all he owned, family possessions, all gone
As he rambles on, a faraway look,
Wondering! where are my, people
Where have they gone,
Have they forgotten me!
A quiver, upon his lips, a tear spilling
A longing, in his eyes, yearning
Looking, searching for what!
His people, his loved ones!
Those, that once were in his life...
But marching, on goes he...
The road is long and hard,
Stumbling here, tripping there
Muttering, cursing those that, put him there
Night falls, silence echoing, all around
So dark and cold, hugging himself to keep warm
Ah! misery, in solitude playing his pipes
Misery dripping from, his eyes!
That twinkle, gone from his, eyes
Abandoned!
But, hope in his heart!
Where, are you my, love!
Whimpering hopping, where have you gone?
Falling on his knees!
Just then the moon, in her full bloom
Beams down on, he!
Lighting his path...
Awe in his eyes, as he gazes blindingly
Beaming, down, smiling at, he
Warming, his heart, directing him
That lonesome door, calling him home
Opening the door, greeting
Where are you!
Falling on his knees...
Where are you, my love?
Silence, nought but silence!!

A Merman!! *****

A Merman!!

Sprawled out on my rock, the cheek of he!!
His eyes, deep dark as my oceans
Viscous, dark pools I see, in he
Lying there on my rock!
How dare he!!
My mind unquiet became
Gazing at me, those deep dark eyes
Oh dear Lord, his hair dark as the night
Silky, as his skin glistening, lustrously 
He's staring at me...
Look not at me thus, admonishing he 
His face, chiselled his nose just, a little curve
Lifting a little...
His lips red as ripe cherries...
On his lips bitting unconsciously
as if not sure of me... 
Ambiguity not present, on he
His arms strong, wide shoulders
His torso chiselled, I guess swimming made he
look like a god...
I was enthralled by he, looking right through him
He mesmerised me...
So sure of himself, no ambiguity about he
His face had that little, Je ne sais quoi 
Perfection I'd say...
How can one be as gorgeous as he
Think I could not, wanted not to think
In trouble, I'll always be
Best if I think not, an oddity!
Look at me not thus, still admonishing he
His eyes viscous deep dark pools
Emerging myself I'll be
How can you do this o me?
Then changeable to bright blue, bluest as
I've ever seen...
As blue as my skies and the oceans
Like a chameleon changing before me 
Enthralled was I by He!!
Amazing, with that smile, glistening he seemed to be
Bewitching me!!
Into the water, he takes me, confounded by he
The fluidity, of his moves, like a ballet dancer spinning
En-pointe he'd stand, it seemed to me, magnificently
His moves as pure elegance, as a dolphin...
His laughter like a siren penetrating
Like a madness bewitching me
Like a siren, his song pure, reaching a crescendo
Into your mind, a madness, penetrating me
In my mind's eyes, I still see he mocking
Gazing at me, as He slides into the sea
A merman!! Did I see!
Or an elusive illusion, as I lie by the waters, edge
lapping over me!
A warm summer breeze, whispering over me
Barking mad must be, as I leave looking back
Turquoise clear waters, there's was no sign, of he
My imagination I dare say, playing tricks on me
Or was I dreaming,
On my memory, embed he'll always be!!                 
  

Dancing with my iron... *****

Dancing With My Iron!!

Today can't get my favourite music
Out of my head
Had rather, a long stretch morning,
of ironing
Cannot do such, chores without
My favourite composers...
Know not how I managed to, but I did every little piece!
I started, with Beethoven and finished with Tchaikovski
With the electrifying, sounds of Beethoven
Needed, to get my teeth into, to get my blood going
Symphony No 5 Wow!!
Such powerful sounds!!
Sending ripples through my body, curling my blood
On a cloud was I as I sway in tune, conducting
My hair standing on end, a tear flowing...
Manically, I stood conducting, with my iron,
Burning my arm, painfully... 
Then Tchaikovski found his way, on my music deck
With the dulcet tones of Tchaikovski melodious sounds
So I started with Swan Lake, immediately firing my brain
Ironing the old boy's shirts, no ending
I was riding on a cloud, ironing on, skimming, effortlessly
In my mind, I was waltzing and swaying
The wondrous sounds of Tchaikovski...
By the time, the little swans came in, I was dancing,
with my iron...
Over those shirts gliding, effortlessly, on and on I ironed
Shirts bedding's, even nick nicks, everything else in between!
There was no stopping me, music engraved into me, a dopamine
By the time the Hungarian, dancers came in, I was swaying
Undulating on a cloud...
Each note an ecstasy, each beat, like the beating of my heart
As I stopped and stood to conduct, the Spanish dancers came in
And so I danced and conduct, in turn...
By now, my blood was on fire, as I dance and danced, with my iron
Then the Mazurka came in, I was lost, lost in time
I had these craze feelings exuding through me
Must say, tears spilling out...
The euphoria, the manic euphoria, within me dancing on
I smelled burning,  oh bugger!! Burning the old boy's shirt!
What the hell, he's plenty more, matters not...
And I danced ironed and danced, feeling full my heart
By the throbbing sounds, going through me...
As I recollected papa saying, darling feel, just feel the music
As he was instructing me: Now recollecting, I say!!
I do Papa, I really do...
It's as if my heart's bursting, even hurting
To the majestic sounds of Tchaikovsky...
Always, has this effect, on me!!
 

This Moment In Time...*****

This Moment In Time

At this moment in time,
Peace I cannot find, reason
I can see not, reason!
Not, a reasonable mind.
When sorrow resides, within me
Matters not, how hard I try
My mind reasons not...
To extract, myself from, the mire
of my thoughts...
Reason cannot with, reason...
The beast residing, within me
Growing, wilder and wild
In the uncertainty,
When am pleading, with my mind
Those once were in my life...
Now, locked within me a soul,
Crying out,
Please set me free!
Free from my mind, growing obsessively
In the mire of my thoughts crawling
To confide in all and sundry, I know not!
Good, it does me not
When this being, residing within me
Trying extracting myself, from me!
Why must I be me!?
This soul, leaving me, in darkness
Letting, not the light in
At all times wrestling, my unreasonable mind
That need's brightness, within
At this moment in time, when I open my mind
And see, desolation within
Can see beyond not,
This ugliness, starring at me
Those, that forever, will be a thorn on, my side
Piercing my heart, crucifying, me!
Feeling ambiguous...
A strength, possible I thought not
Every time, they cross my mind
With love not...
But loading comes to mind
At this, moment in time...

LOve's Lost *******

LOve's Lost

On the dunes, of all times
Once I heard, in a lullaby
I heard Mama, sing
Beneath a blue, blue sky
She sang, of love's lost
There were, tears streaming
from in eyes
Hugging herself thus,
Her, arms crossed in a hug
Shaking in sorrow, her shoulders
Lost in her thoughts, of tomorrow...
He said he'd meet, her there
As the moon rose in, the east
But the moon's at her, highest
There's no sign of him 
Sitting, waiting beneath, a half-lit sky
Upon, the dunes of all times
The moon in her full, bloom...
But he was, nowhere to be seen
Pacing up and down
Her patience wearing thin
She looked so desolate...
Hope in her heart, with every shadow
Praying obsessively
She hoped, that the next would be him
Fixing her vision, on the horizon far
Everything that moved
Lost, so lost in her mind
The illusions, of yesterdays dreams
As they danced, beneath the glistening moon
She could have swooned, at the sight of him
His laughing eyes
How she adored his laughing eyes
Deeply immersing, in her thoughts
You could see her smile
Crossing her visage, that secret smile
Exuding from within, lightness
Lost in the dunes of all, times
Seeing, in the vision of her mind, that kiss
Recollecting, the primitiveness, of it
Singing her lullaby, in her enchantment
Yearning, for her lost love
Pure her voice, agonisingly,
Reaching a crescendo
Like a nightingale, singing her song
of the night...
In the regions of my mind
Still, I can see her
TEars spilling, sighing
The saddest look in her eyes
Breaking her heart...
That on the dunes of all times
Hope's lost, love's lost!!

I Feel You...****

I Feel You

I feel you beneath my skin
I feel your mind touching mine
I can feel you kissing my eyes, my lips
I can feel your eyes upon me,
as you fall behind
I can hear you in your stride,
as you try catching up
I feel your hands reaching me,
Even though, we're miles apart
I feel your lips kissing mine
And over me, your hands whispering
one more time
Whispering my name, I feel your breath
On my visage
I feel your beating heart, against mine
I feel pulsating through your veins,
your blood,
In centigrade or Fahrenheit
Burning my mind
I feel the nearness of you,
at all times...
Urgently kissing your, lips
one more time...
Feeling, your breath intermingling,
with mine...
I feel you in the darkens of my nights
As you reach, to touch your mind,
I feel the incandescence, of your touch
Unfocusing, my mind
So tired, pleading, love me, do
Gazing into your, eyes
I do realise you're...
Playing games with mine
Exuding the laughter
I remember that last time
When our blood, intermingled
Our minds, burning embers
One more time!
     

Awakening *****

Awakening

Where ever will you be!
Darling...
Where are you?
For am drowning, in my own tears
An ocean, overflowing
Swimming against the tide, forever I'll be
This feeling of doom, cannot extract from
The depths of me
Am with you, wherever you are
Never far away, from my thoughts, my mind
You're embedded, within me,
All of you
Deeply set, as if carved in stone, memories of you
Drinking the essence of you
The very, spring where I was born
The first sip offered, me 
Like the nectar, of the gods
Feelings erupting, within me
You showed me, love, as it should be
Awakening the core of me...
Deeply set within me, feelings of exultation
The very first time, am living as one, should be
You're candy for my eyes
Cannot have enough of you...
Touching our minds, strobing lightening
I sense the essence of you,
Holding on for dear life
Without a chance of anchoring me
But you've been so far from me, control cannot
Outpourings, feelings from the depths, of me
Desolation, written all over me
Why am weeping, I know not
Extenuating circumstances deal, cannot
Why am I pouring my, heart
Sorrow deep set, within me
Trying extracting, this feeling, attacking me
Must wait I guess, for the sun to shine on me
Freeing me from, this hell am living
Taking hold of me!!

The Core Of Me *****

In the, very core of me
Lying here, in my naked body
I feel his eyes, burrowing through me
Waves, lapping over me
Surrounding, like a lover's arms, embracing me
And with the flow, goes I intrinsically
I hear calling, in my minds, mind
Recollecting, times past
When all the time, in the world, he had for me
The swell hitting me hard, chocking me
In the extremities of me, I cry for he
Come to me!
As in times past irrevocably
But his eyes blue, see cannot me
But the sea's calling to me
Come, and play with me!
Another wave washes, over me
To far distant lands, carrying me
Between rock pools, fathomless sea
Here goes I in my naked body
A gossamer, wrapping around, caressing me
Into the very depths, of me
And I cry out, the ecstasy, of the moment, loving me
This wondrous sea, all around me
Like a lover whispering, constantly
But whispering I hear not, my minds on he
Return I must, to where I lied
In my little corner of paradise, where I last saw he
Like a mermaid, on my rock lying
His eyes burrowing, into me     
As I lie in my naked body...
In my dreams, he's loving all of me
His eyes blue, electrifying, as I reached to kiss He
Standing, before me, believe could not
His eyes melting me...
His hair the colour of the burning, sun
Like an aura, surrounding he
I reached to touch his visage, imploringly
Stay, stay here beside, me
Kissing his mouth, knowingly
Riding upon a wave, my eyes so full of he
In to another dimension,
Before I hadn't been...
Grasping desperately, at nothingness
As I awake, from my revery, minds are,
funny things...   
Standing before me, calling me
Come on sleepy head, let's go
Says he, reaching to me...







        

Reason For Living *****

A Reason For Living 

How did we, come to be

At this, moment in time 

So involved,

So full of the other 

Our minds...

Help cannot from recalling 

How did all, go wrong    

So full of woe's, my mind 

Forgetting not, when life was beautiful

Tribulations, my life past, present, my mind 

But listen they'll not, the infernal cacophony, 

Of my thoughts...     

Too much, the obsessiveness, 

You belong to me! 

Euphoric my mind, cannot abide 

To my woe's listening, reliving

Tribulations within...  

Feeling good, between us, speaking my mind 

Holding back, judging me not, listening 

Should I have expressed, myself thus

Looking me in the eyes, you do me good

Quieting, this brain of mine, turmoil within   

Psychological games, playing 

Fuc...k, my brain,

The disdain coming my way, I feel   

Reaching a point of no return, emphatically 

An impetuous being, I've always been   

Suffice to say...

I say what I think, around the bush beating not 

But what I said needed saying 

Desist I'll not if in my heart, its real

Once you were kindness, personified 

When my soul struggling, within 

In turmoil, reliving my mind 

Reaching a point, 

Fragmenting I'll be 

Quietening my mind, your words 

like a balm...

Of you, cannot do without...  

Cooling the fires of this mind of mine 

Calming my soul,   

At times growing obsessively 

Like a primitive forest, growing wild

Behind that waterfall, giving life      

Crystal clear, gossamer, curtains 

Glistening in the sunshine

Behind these waterfalls, love was born 

Feeling the love, in my heart...

The euphoria within me, as you kiss me  

This need, hungrily I kiss, your lips

That smile! You knew how to play me!   

Making me, want you...

Ticking overtime my mind, reaching the heights 

Possible I thought not... 

This need!

Looking at me, those blue eyes,

Cool as my skies, and the oceans I see   

Cool waters, behind those waterfalls 

Reaching a point, the meaning, 

Of this life that, am living   

Kissing your lips, the hollow beneath, your chin 

Hunger from within the sighs!

Whispering over me, softly that touch 

Making me feel, with my mind...

A wantonness, a restless mind 

This need this feeling, to make love...

Reasoning, cannot suffice to say 

I'll reason not! 

The temptation is such 

Reaching a point of no return   

An intoxicated mind, impossible to reason 

Just reactions in our, primitiveness

Living in the moment.

For my soul, good he'll be

Lifting my spirits from, the mire of my, thoughts 

My troubled soul! 

But a lid I must keep, on my mind   

In my impetuousness, for me, good may not be 

But for my soul, a balm, 

An anodyne, to mine Anima...  

All I need is, call when in turmoil    

Cool waters, making life worth living  

To his wisdom, listening 

But I must keep a lid, on these feelings of mine 

Or riot they'll run, away with me   

In the reason for living!! 

                 

Before The Light Shone In *****

Before The Light Shone In

In the stillness of dawn
As one stands and stares
At the mirrored like, image glistening
The vision before my eyes, cannot surmise
The enchanting reflection that I see
As I point my camera lens, into the distance
The horizon far!
Whilst the mists whispering, sweet nothing
So attuned, my hearing
To the silence of the morn...
There's a symphony a chorus
Chirp chirping melodiously, the little birds
The little birds of our world, having their say!
The sounds of an early morn
Whisp, whispering away
Before the rising of the sun, came in
Where every little creature, stretches and yawns
Upon their world, silence descending
The magic, unfurling before our eyes
Unravellings wings, stretching, opening their eyes   
Upon their world, casting, a mesmerising light
Mists, unfolding like a gossamer, cloud rising
Transcending, into a most wondrous sight
Before our eyes   
That otherwise in darkness
Before, the light shone in!!

Mausoleums Of Old!! ****

Mausoleums Of Old

By Connie James.

In the mausoleums, of times past
I walk through...
Where they've planted their, dead,
It's true.
Stretching before me,
I see desolation.
Does anyone, hear can anyone see
Visualising before me abandoned do I see
The spirit of others pointing, at me
Accuse, me not for, I can't see
Those in times, forgotten
Don't accuse me...
Now, in death, I want not to see
You, pointing your finger at me!
I was there!
I was there, me only me!
Looking out for you,
Waiting for you to come through
I was there, championing you!
Encouraging you to breathe, through
You're breathing fast,
Much too fast, take it easy
Breath slowly Maman,
Doucement, Maman!!
But you took no, heed
I knew not you, were departing, from me.
That last drink I gave you
You were gasping, Maman!...
Just to wet your, lips your throat
But the wrong, person that was me
I could, comfort not thee
Had the words not fluently!
I was looking at you
As you slipped through my fingers
Taking your face between my hands, thus
Leaving, me alone, stupified too.
I knew not, you wouldn't come, back to me
As you uttered Jesus O' my God
Leaving me!
Leaving me! with tears spilling, agonisingly
From the very depths of me!
Why pick on me, Maman
Why choose me?...
I wasn't, the best person to be there, you see
You've forsaken me, Maman!!
You've abandoned me:

But Darling! *****

But Darling!

Just be a good, girl & go sleep
But darling, I can not sleep!
If I could make love, I know I'll sleep.
Can you sleep easily?
Oh, darling!
If you were there, why didn't you say hi!!
Darling!
This morning I tried, to make love
I know not how it happened, I had you on my mind
OMG, darling
With you on my mind, it was easy
I just wanted you, just you no good, pretending
I know not where the feeling, came from
Oh lord, darling!
It's been a while, since I've felt, thus
We were making love, it was, oh lord
It was, I had you know what!
For crying out loud, darling
I whispered oh, darling,
My god darling, am a bad person
But it felt so good, being bad
Standing together, we were touching, skin to skin
Looking into your eyes, I can not disguise
This need for you, my love
Reaching up to touch, your mind with mine
Scaling high my, need to kiss you
Your face against mine, like a dream
But I can feel your, heart beating like, a drum
Percussion, within my mind
Kissing your, lips your eyes contain, can not this feeling
It's so easy as I kiss, that hollow beneath, your chin
My mind my senses, overflowing like a stream
I shudder within.
Rippling through me my mind
As I softly bite your chin
In my chest somersaulting my heart beating like a drum
My mind foggy becomes
That gossamer impeding my mind my senses
And I!
Without any defences, your hands whispering over me
Whispering whispers my mind cloudy became
Hovering over me, hope I have not of anchoring myself
As you touch me tentatively ahh! An eruption escaping me
Fibrillation taking hold of me as you touch me!
My reason, escaping me, yet again
As I feel your skin against mine throbbing
Taking over from me!
Am lost am lost my mind as you kiss every inch of me
Escapism lost in time, begging you be mine!
Reaching a point of no return arching close so close
You won't let me be
Until am crying deliriously euphorically my mind
Reaching the heights I thought possible not
Let me be!!
Too much can not darling, please
An explosion within me my mind
Anchoring, myself to you one, more time
Into infinitum, travelling my mind
Leaving me, tears escaping, my eyes
Abandoned, I loved as if a tomorrow, there wouldn't be
In the regions of my mind will it ever be!
That illusive illusion dispersing from me
That you're only in the regions of my mind.
In the very extremities of me!!

Minimise, The Pain *****

Minimise, The Pain

What, can one do,
When one's, hurting!
How can, one minimise, the pain
How can one be crawling,
Through the mire,
Without, ever complaining
How can one arise, in the morning
With a smile, in one's eyes
And a skip in one's step...
How can I, stop these tears
Transcending, from my eyes
How can, one minimise the pain...
How can, one stop one's heart,
From, breaking
I never knew it could, be done
How can I, learn to do without him...
Something I've never done...
A brainstorm, a stormy night
I've lost him,
Without complaining
Inevitably, even, before then...
How, can one fall foul
My heart's, aching
Breaking!!
Knowing not, what one's done
How can, one minimise the pain!!
As I wake up in the morning
First and foremost, on my mind
As my tears start, dancing
Behind my eyes
In torrents, waterfalls,
Impossible to stop
Once the floodgates open's
There's nought to be done
How can, one minimise the pain!
So many tears, how can one, contain,
Control, cannot the uncontrollable
Exuding from one's heart,
Mustn't let it, bother me, this way
But, I mustn't complain...
Knowing not what, one's done
Fragmenting, into tinny pieces
My heart...
Whilst my throat's, constricting
Yet again!!

               By Connie James

From my world transcending flooding my heart...Drowning, in a river, of my tears

Eternal Winds... *****

Eternal Winds

Marvellous creature
Say's he, as he lies down, beside me
His hands, whispering over me
Sending shivers through, me
Overflowing, my senses...
But my mind's, on He.
He doesn't see me!
I guess am just, a pebble on the beach
Thrown up, by the sea, swooshing back and forth
A grain of sand crushed, over a millennium
That a pebble once used to be
A mere speck of dust, floating through eternal, winds
Beyond the clouds, dancing swaying, in the
Hemispheric winds...
Nothingness!!
I seem to be just another speck of dust
You can't see!!
But in the very depths of me, I cry look, at me!
Look at me, in the eyes and see...
This being, living breathing
Thinking only of you, this troubled mind
Treating me abhorrently, why punishing me!
But I guess it'll teach, me thinking, of you won't do
Yet on my mind, he seems to be, perpetually
Like a wound a cicatrize, that won't heal
Damn you!!
From my eyes waterfalls, are leaking
Flowing silently...
Behind these waterfalls hiding, so not anyone sees me
Within am fragmenting!
Into tinny little pieces, a mosaic you can't rebuild
Like that speck of dust...
That everyone knows its there, but can't see
Yesterday, by the sea, I did lie
Waves washing over me, thinking of he!
And my tears flowing, like a river, I wept quietly
My seas were, blue my skies
The gulls swaying with ease, on the thermal winds
Gazing watching, them dancing in the breeze
Wonder how gulls and the kestrels above me feel
As they dance and sway with ease
Is there any other purpose, in the way they think
I'd love to be a bird, flying through the skies, with ease
Thinking not, feeling, seeing nought
Troubling their minds not, caring not a jot
I'd love to be such a bird
Into infinitum...
Being carried by eternal, winds
Looking, back not at he!!
   
             

The Scent Of You *****

The Scent Of You

By Connie James

Each time I see you, within me

That hunger, for your words

That once was, so easy,
Now just an extension, of you but my words come,
Not easy, loving you.

Looking into your eyes, cannot disguise

Shades that otherwise, exist in my minds, eyes 

My thoughts of you

The applauding winds, whistling through

Applauding, you.

The nemesis of my being

My thoughts are with you 

Your lips ripe as cherries, you skin gold

Forget I cannot, not that kiss 

The days of old

Searching your lips, 
I could, scent the essence, of you

Touching your visage, with mine

You could hardly look at me

Yet you came, close so close

Scenting a river, in you...

Cascading, waterfalls

Clandestinely, beauty, that only you knew

Finding refuge, amongst those streets

The known roads the, alleyways

The flower sellers, where you bought those roses

Scented, heavenly!
The beaming moonlight, in between the shadows 

Soon I'll be holding you,

Missing you every day, of my days

Every night of my nights

Those little pains, of yesterday.

Whether I win or lose

My dreams were, only dreams,

Dreams of yesterday

In dew, my eyes tear feeling your, loss
Searching your lips, through my tears

Recollecting, words of yesteryear

Holding you close  
While taking roots, in my heart.

In my restless, world my city of old

I've loved you...

Having found you and lost, again

The poet residing, in my heart,

We journeyed through high seas

The Savannah's the valleys, oceans

You and I 
Me standing before you 
Loving, whispering breathing 

Inhaling the scent of you...

By Connie James

He's Great!! *****

He's great!

I imagine He, standing before me 

In my minds eyes...

Imaginings, going through my mind 

With laughter in his eyes, I see, 

He, gazing at me...

I love, nudging, up to he, kissing his eyes, 

Spontaneously...

Impetuous, that's me, it's there to see 

My actions, just reactions from me       

But Psychologically, he drives me spare 

Bear cannot, as he gazes at me, thus.

Disrobing me... 

Scaling high, 

That mountain I must climb 

Just to see, be with, he!    

Ahh! The eyes, like those flax blue fields 

Across from me, in the distance, 

I see a colourful sea of blue   

Intrinsically...

This inherent greatness, I see 

before me...

This obsessive obsession, within me 

That Galic air about, he!

The way he stands, the way he walks  

The redness of his long, hair 

That proud stance,

There's something about, he!   

Right in the eye's, he looks at you

Unflinchingly;

The attraction of he, connecting me 

He's always great, so says he  

Looking into his eyes, kissing his lips 

I'd be surprised at the reaction,

Missing a beat my heart...

Perpetually, that look in his eyes 

Wanting, leaving me, 

Burning my blood inexorably 

He's always great, you see, as you inquire, of he    

The mischievousness, there,

Looking, into his eyes

You can see how great he, can be 

But the greatness, of He, no one can see but me! 

A great mover is He, as we dance, cheek to cheek 

I can feel the greatness of He! 

O'dear Lord, I could kiss the innards, of He 

This feeling taking me, beyond infinity 

Wanting not dispersing, from me...

That twang oh his, as he holds me closer 

Whispering softly...Should we! 

My blood on fire, feeling, desire 

Beating my heart exceedingly, 

Like a drum, boom, boom, by the greatness of He

Unhurriedly, He knows how to play me!!    

Plucking, at the strings of, my heart 

Like a harp, inexorably...

Wrapping my arms around He

Bewitched, always leaving me,     

Holding, me loving, me 

Like, cornflowers his eyes, colour, of my skies  

And my ocean's across from me 

Mesmerising me, smiling knowingly,

Beguilingly, I see that the greatness of He 

It's there, for anyone to see   

How great He can be!!   

         

A Deja Vu!! *****

A Deja Vu!!

Wobarrow Bay keeps, a calling to me
In the Purbecks of Dorset
No other choice, for me,
For that's, where I want to be,
A Deja Vu!!
Wonder, why it keeps a calling, to me!
Just, a short walk, to the sea,
From Tyneham, Village to Wobarrow Bay
Only the schoolhouse and church, remains
Deserted since the war, with ruins galore
Was taken over, by the MOD in the last, war
An area where they practise, their war games
Even now, between Kimmeridge Bay,
Lulworth Cove and beyond
Access there won't be, on weekdays
You can hear their guns, cannon tanks
Being, carried by the wind
Revibrating, through the air boom, boom!
An idyllic place, Wobarrow will be always, to me!!
Unspoiled by humanity.
Just a few, souls venture that way
Only accessible by boat, or walking
And no sand, anywhere to be seen, glad to say
It's a vast area, the Jurrasic coast of, Dorset
Rugged, unspoilt and beautiful
So nice being away from the maddening crowds
Peace exudes, just, you & the birds, of prey
And the gulls hovering, over you
Breaking, the silence at times, the odd plane
A cruiser or two, the sailing boats, floating by
Ideal for the air, surfers gliding in the breeze
But today, I find myself yet, again
In Wobarrow, Bay, a few souls already, here
Most venture not far, from the near side, of the beach
Such a vision, before one's eyes
As I gaze across the bay, a few boats at anchor
Shimmering turquoise, aquamarine sea!
Ambling along the pebbles, not everyone's cup of tea
Much harder than, sand!
I love, hearing the pebbles crushing, beneath our feet
Good exercise for calves and tighs, keeping trim
Rather hard, going on a hot day,
But the sea breezes, thank God, for the sea breezes!
Finally, we reached our, chosen spot
Dump our rucksacks, and strip
Walking into those, glorious cool turquoise, waters
By the water's edge, I do lie
Waves lapping over me, the sounds mesmerising
With the incoming waves, the shingle rolling
Hitting, against the rocks, white waters
Lying there cooling down,
In a lazy way, taking the sun's
A summer cool breeze, whispering over, me
Feeling good, in my mind's mind I see he
Gazing at me, that look, penetrating me
Telling me, come and play, with me
Reaching for me!
As in a mirage, I see he, smile
His eyes, matching the oceans, the skies
And his hair like, the burning sun
Standing, like a god before, me
His torso, glistening like the rising of, the sun
I run to he, embracing he!
And with every once of me, I took he!
Everything, he had to give
Kissing every orifice, every sinew I touched
I touched his heart...
Pumping, fibrillating in his chest, his heart
Mine, heart escaping my mouth, unable to anchor me
Making love so lovely, the ocean whispering to me
The breeze, cooling me down!
I know not why, this effect he has on me
I cannot help, but he's like a god to me,
Commanding, me!! I love He!
In the extremities of my mind
He's embedded within me!!
 

Like A Poetry *****

Like a Poetry
Remember, cannot that first kiss
Not very memorable...
Or was I a wet fish, inexperienced, innocent
Or maybe I wasn't in love, enough
My chosen one he was not!
Just a boy falling for me
I knew, not how to kiss
His kisses excited, not me
Or maybe, lack of practice!
I know not...
Until you came along, sending shivers,
through my spine
Your voice, that Celtic twang
The look of you,
The Viking I've created, in my mind
Remember I can that first kiss
Leaving me wanting...
The madness, of that noonday
Beneath the sunshine
Intermingling with raindrops, at times
Shakingly, I closed my eyes
Holding on to you
My hands upon your shoulders
Steading me so...
The nearness of you,
Echoing through me a time
Your scent,
Playing havoc, with my senses
Your muskiness, your body so close to mine
Heightening, my senses
The scent of earthiness, oozing, through,
my mind;
My senses having no defences
When he's about at any time
Kissing you, that very first time
Too much the euphoria, within me
My imagination, running wild
On that noonday,
I gave myself to you, the very first time
Inebriated, by love or lust, matters not
I was lost in time,
Focussing not my, mind
You took hold of me
Whispering, touching, experiencing love
Kissin you hungrily,
Your lips touching mine
The feeling mesmerising, your eyes
It took every ounce of me,
not to touch, your mind...
Never knew I had such feelings
Making love that, very first time 
Dragging out of me,
This wantonness, inherently in my mind
Looking at you, with new eyes, finally
My Viking...
His hair wild, the colour of the burning sun
Oozing, through his veins,
Burning red;
The colour of his blood
I let him lay his hands, as no one had
ever before...
Euphorically my mind,
Embers burning my blood
His sweet nothings, incandescently
Burning a hole in my mind,
On fire, my blood!
As he said goodbye,
My tears flow, like a river
A turbulent river...
White waters, spuming at all times...
Now, sitting by the riverside
Very much, inside my mind...
The autumnal leaves cascading, down
Trees bare like my heart...
Above, a yellow canopy, like a mantle,
golden sunshine...
In the distance, I watch, he speeding along
Was I hallucinating!
I waited excitedly...
But I had nothing to give
Except, but, me!
Our first kiss
Like poetry!!