To Begin The Beginning

To Begin The Beginning

By Connie James.

At the dawning of dawn
The door opened as he walked in
Had to brace, myself against the morn's cool breeze 
Ahhh!
I closed my eyes inhaling the scent of him
Just couldn't believe he was standing before me
So magnificent so knowing so dangerous.
We stood facing the other, for what seemed an eternity
I stood smiling shyly, uncertain of what to do!
So I followed his lead...
I held my hand to touch the contours of his face
His much-desired face
To reach to feel, kiss to touch!
He stood there looking at me
With that devil may care, look
Insolently daring to touch me
With his eyes...
Daring me to explore...
So with uncertain hands, I explored
Every inch of him... 
Was mesmerised by this godlike man
Standing before me;
This mesmerising look, in his eyes
Hypnotising me! 
I felt myself awakening as from a deep sleep
Wanting to touch feel,
Wishing what I knew not...
But he knew how to play me, so sweet 
Waves of sensations cruising through me
Oh Lord I prayed let it not stop
It must not stop...
Yet I held back, for I knew
Had I not I'd be lost forever, forever lost
This awakening left me feeling so weak
Forever in my mind wanting to repeat
The sensations putting me through, wildest of wild...
Imploding my brain could not think.
Yet left me wanting what I wasn't sure.
My mind screaming, there must be more
There had to be more!
Of that, I was sure...
To repeat the experience terrified me
For I knew I wouldn't hold back
Innocent as I was
I had this wanting in me the sensations
Curiously wanting to repeat
Holding me back.
Left me wanting, more much more
Through the process not repeating
as if punishment me.
Go away, won't you!!
You're just tormenting me! 
Holding me close sensing my uncertainty
Seeing frustration, knowingly...
Just looking out for you, smiling said he
Worry not, it'll keep
It'll keep... 

You Belong To Me

You Belong To Me

By Connie James

In mine melancholy
I shall write my phrases
My verses of love...
Feeling your loss in my life
I compare thee to andromeda
The loveliest star to mine eyes
Out of reach to me beyond my firmament
To reach to touch the stars in your eyes
Glistening in my darkest of skies...
But you are as distant as the Sun the Moon
The planets all aligned before me
Might as well be Uranus Pluto and Jupiter too
And Neptune in his element
Watching you...
Confounded I'll be if I'll ever see you
Amongst those stars...
Missing you!
As I write my saddest phrases in my mind
It was written in the stars,
You belong to me!
But lost you'll ever be if
reach I cannot those stars 
Scintillating upon my skies
Like fairy lights dancing blinking,
in the distance...
My light love my god you were
O' my darling!
What chance had I!
Wherever you are wherever you'll be
In my heart embers will always be burning 
Extinguish will never be!
Opening my window, letting the night in
In my hands holding this flickering candle
Exuding the faintest of light
To just about see! 
As I write upon my mind in melancholy
My saddest verses killing me
In silhouette, I see you in my darkest hours
Searching you in the eyes of my mind
Blind will I ever be, if
Before the rising, of the Sun
Unfurling before my eyes like a bud
But then, will I see starlight glistening
Ascending your eyes
In the distance!

Reality Sucks

It's not a world of make-believe
Not a world full of giving full of love
Those that have expectations not
From their dreary day to day living;
Indeed it's a selfish world for those
That care or worry not...
For those that have nought
Nothing in their world...
One can say I love you still
Even though they agree not
Spewing falsehoods...
But if you love me
You'll have to love the whole of me!
Half measures won't do
In cuckoo land, I live not 
The world we live in
Cruel so cruel has become
Has always been so...
Don't you know!
Even though change we cannot
Things as we'd like to see...
The peoples of our world, live in love
And harmony...
In peace!
Fearing fear not...
For when our minds speak cannot
Without fear of retribution
Distrusting thy friend, brother
Our world's full of fear;
Those that have not
Peace of mind...
Peace in their world from their
day to day's living
Tribulations;
Their day's being lived in fear!
Misery!
The words I write welcomed not by all
That's true!
But my words come from the heart
And as soon as I start, simply cannot let go
I've never expected you too
Agree with me or not!
But it would be a sad world if my words were
Misconstrued...
I do not speak my words without thinking
They just flow!!
My nemesis cannot justify
The punishment, those peoples in our world
The have noughts
Indeed not!!