I Need A Hug *****

I Need A Hug

Oh dear lord I feel, better not
My head like a volcano, waiting to blow
The windows to my soul,
looking back at me, in misery
It seems it burst, a blood vessel
And my eyes have sprung, a leak
Flowing waterfalls, rivulets down, the street
The Rothweiler bark, hurting all over
Feeling sorry for myself, I guess!
I NEED A HUG!!
Now, waterfalls are really, flowing
Rather cleansing, it may be
Such, a mess do I look
There, will be no dancing tonight, for me
Dancing the old year away,
Toasting, the new year in
Where are you!
Wherever, you'll be I bite not
Waterfalls, rushing from me
There'll be no dancing, for me!
Maybe shall I weep, myself into wellness
Put my steel heels, on kicking ass for all, to see
That a weakling, Connie won't be
As I strut my stuff, across the room
Might just work am, sick of feeling, unwell
But my head, won't let me swimming against, the tide
I fear, each time I cough my head throbs
my chest pulling apart...
What started, with a Rothweiler, bark now,
Mewling like a kitten, avoiding, coughing...
What a mess to be in, not at all like me!
Letting the side down, such as this, giving in!!
NO!!
Giving in I shall not, I shall see the new, year in
With a glass of champers, in my hand
Singing Auld Lang Syne,
Even with my croaky throat, I shall sing
Wishing, my nearest and dearest, a very
Happy New Year...
I shall put my glad, rags on even if dancing, I won't be
I shall put my tiara, on and dance, the new year in
There's me hopping!!

Ready For Christmas

Ready For Christmas

I've spent the day getting the house ready for Christmas
I've cleaned dusted vacuumed polished every orifice
Ready to hang the decorations making more Christamssy
I've set the tree, hang on the lights and pretty baubles

I've, hang pretty natural natures garlands on the walls
The old boy extols go not over the top, really there's no need
He's such a Neanderthal spoiling the enjoyment
Go live in a cave if you want not Christmas

I just ignored him & went on my own sweet way
So I dressed all the decks ready for Christmas
Have to make a cake or two and some mince pies
He's really not that much of a Neanderthal

He likes his cakes and a mince pie or two
And if I don't watch he'll eat the blooming lot
There will be mulled wine he likes the way I do
With orange rind cinnamon sticks & star anise 

Then I'll add a touch of Port and Rum too
Then a touch of Drambuie, that's nice says he
And if he doesn't watch it'll blow his socks off too
Always have the music on whilst working

Vivaldi's playing the four seasons on and on
And Beethoven 5Th symphony wow!
Some powerful sound lifting me high putting me down
By the time Christmases is upon us I'll be cockeyed

In need, I know not what...
A rest I guess would be good
So welcome my friends
Yah life's good...

               By Connie James

Winds Of Life *****

Winds Of Life

Good Morning My World !!
Minds In Turmoil After Last Night Talk
About Love And Such Like
My Mind Can Grapple Not With The Words And Such
Especially, After The Words That I Write Ambiguously
The Ambiguity Of Those Words That I Write Fictionally
It's Much Easier To Write Words Fictionally
My Imagination Running Wild.
With Thoughts On My Minds Unsatisfied.
But Saying Such Words That I Know You Want To Hear
The Reality Of Extolling Such Words Personally... Not So Easy.
I Have, Had Not Lacking In Experience.
I Know You Believe Not It's Not Possibly I Hear You Say
That I've Only Had One Love In My Life's Entirety
Words Come not Easy, Even When I Want To Say
Kiss Me My Love Touch Me Touch Me!
Let Your Hands Whisper, Over Me Slowly Softly
Making Me Feel Am Flying High Like A Kite In The Sky
Soaring Way Above The Clouds Beyond, My Universe
My Blue Firmament, Like Your Eyes Blue So Blue
I Want To Feel Your Arms About Me Hold Me Tight Caress Me
And I'd Do The Same For Thee..I'd Love To Kiss Your Eyes Your Lips
And Extol What's In The Regions Of My Mind In The Extremities Of Me
Within, The Depths The Very Core Of Me, My Torment
It Takes Every Ounce Of Me!! To Hold You Tight
I Need Your, Words To Inflame My mind
My Mind That Otherwise Will Go And Die Quietly
This Morn Make love I Tried But The Words Were Missing
Matters Not How Hard I Tried.
Your Words Weren't Coming.
I Was Crying Out For You, Love Me Darling Won't You
Ohh...Darling Won't You!
The Frustration Was Such That I Could Reach Not The Height's
As I Cried Out You Name Yet Again, In My Minds Mind.
My Minds In A Fog In The Extremity's, Waiting.
My Minds Crying Out Deflated.
That Balm That Quietens Down My Mind
Even When I Reach Not The Height's
Flying High Like That Condor Gliding
Effortlessly On The Thermal
Winds Of Life!! 

                

Do you prey! *****

Do you prey!

I was asked the other, day
No!!
Not anymore, I must say
An unbeliever I've, become
An agnostic, I'll be
Since, a mere teenager, I was
I've become, un-enamoured with, religion
A load of hypocrites, they'll be
Runs, in my family, hypocrisy
So, abhorred by me!
And so, a rebel I've become, I listen not to anyone,
I do my own thing...
But I believe there, must be an entity
Someone higher,
Much higher, than you and me
A supreme, being maybe...
But I believe, not in those priests, those purists,
Sure, they'll never be
The evilness in some, of them
Scary!!
Then I was, asked
What would, you like most in the world?
Well, that's not too hard says I
I'd wish peace, amongst the peoples, of our world
To live in love and harmony, stop killing one, another
Inherently, greedy amongst them will be...
But I do ache, inside of me!
Infernally!!
Tears flowing, silently
My throat, constricting my breath
Breaking, into a cry my heart, fragmenting
Into a thousand little pieces!!...
In between tears, I tell he
What, I'd like most, in the world
Would be, to have my family, back
As we used to be!
And looking into his eyes, telling him!! That I!
Assiduously, I try not to...
Let it disperse, from me trying, trying!
Bursting, from me, my heartbreaking
Into thousands, of fragmenting pieces
My worlds, breaking around, me
I care not, I think not, I can not bear,
They've gone, from me
The time of day, cannot pass, 
In a hurry always, by the way
Even, though saying how great, I was
Fleetingly passing, the time of day with, a hi!!
Running...
Into, my mind, his features popped, disturbingly 
Know, not what scares he!
Feeling, uneasy...
Within me, my tears falling, achingly
Sorry for myself, I guess I'll be
What annoys me most, my feelings
How I miss papa on this epochal, time of year
The Stellar in my skies, he was
For us!
He had scintillating, diamonds in his, eyes
His arms huge, bear-like, hugging us
That smile the light, of love in his eyes,
Our hero he was...
Nothing's worth, this misery I feel within, me
I'd love to be free...
Free, from those bastards, of our world
To be just me!!

                 

Wings Of A Dove

The Youthfulness I feel within my heart
Believe cannot floating high
Beyond my universe, on a cloud was, I
& when the music takes hold
the euphoria within me,
Being carried on the wings of love
Spinning around the room just he and I
Wondrous sounds, filling my mind
As the music fills in, lifting me high
Unexplainable feeling...
As if bursting my heart lighte of, mind
As if in Nirvana was I
Swaying on the wings of a dove
Just he and I!

To Hell & Back *****

To Hell And Back

Waking up stretching, high
Arching my back, touching the sky
His hands I feel, over me...
Feline slender cat...
On the catwalk, you should have been
Miaw as I nuzzled up to him,
Taking a nip from his lips
Running my nails, down his spine
His hands, caressing me,
You could have, had anybody!
His hands softly whispering, over me
Know not what he sees, about me
This look, confounding me...
Flummoxed, am I from my early, teens
At me, he looked thus...
I kissed his eyes,
In a vice holding, me, can't breathe
From, my head to my toes, kissing me
At all times, whispering...
What did I, do to deserve you!
Meaningful, or not I cared, not...
A tear spills, from my eyes, as he kisses me
Setting my senses, way up high
Speaking to me his, hands
Overwhelming, me my mind, I know not
If its love or lust, for I was awakened, within
His, hands whispering,
But my, mind's been on him...
In the forefront, of my mind's desire...
Moving in time, my body
But reach, I cannot the heights,
As if punishing me, on my mind, was he
Reaching to touch, his mind with, mine
Abandonment, in me, lost in time
Looking, into his eyes taking, hold of me!
At, that moment in time, no returning for, me
Euphorically, I called out his, name
Arching, my back the feline, cat within me
Digging my nails, into, he...
His eyes the colour, of a stormy night,
Looking, through me
I soared, high like that, albatross
To, hell and back taking, me!!

                   

The Core Of Me *****

In, the very core of me!
I see feel his eyes burrowing into me

Lying here in my naked body 

waves lapping over me 

like a lover's arms surrounding embracing me

& with the flow goes I intrinsically 

Calling on to me I hear in my memory, of times past 

When all the time, in the world he had for me

The swell hitting me hard choking me 

In my mind's mind, I cry for, he to come to me! 

As in times past irrevocably...

But his eyes blue see cannot me! 

As a tear sadly escapes me 

But the sea calling, calling to me come & play with me

another wave washes over me. 

Carrying me too far distant lands, in between rock pools 

Fathomless sea & here goes I in my naked body 

being caressed by this gossamer wrapping around me 

before carrying into the depths of me!

& I cry out the ecstasy of the moment, loving me.

This wondrous sea all around me 

Like a lover's constantly whispering 

Whispering to me! 

But whisperings I hear not my minds, on He

Return I must go to where I lied 

In my little corner of paradise where I last saw He 

Lying on my rock like a mermaid his eyes 

burrowing into me as I lay in my, naked body

In my dreams he's loving me, all of me! 

His eyes blue electrifying me, as I reach out kissing He 

Believe I could not that he was standing before me   

His eyes melting me 

his hair the colour of the burning sun, 

like an aura surrounding He. 

I reached to touch his visage imploringly 

stay, stay here beside me 

kissing his heart knowingly!

Riding, upon a wave my eyes so full of He.

I was being carried into another dimension, 

before, I hadn't been

grasping desperately at nothingness.

As I awake from my revery, minds are funny things! 

Standing before me calling me 

come on sleepy head lets go says he 

Reaching down to me!        

                  By Connie James

Bright Like A Diamond 0000

Bright like a diamond !!

The sun's shining through my window
Its a calling to me
So bright as a diamond, I can hardly see
So hard lifting this gossamer from my eyes
Impeding my vision, at times not so easy
That golden sphere bright as a diamond in my skies
Now deeming hiding from me
In a cat & mouse game
Now you see me then you don't
Hiding, behind that cloud
Obliterating the sight of my eyes
It's rays calling to me...
But my head won't let me as if drunk
I'd be the room spinning on me,
its rays are, looking in on me
Winking calling to me
But my legs won't hold me such a bane to me
Trying moving my room spins on me
But get up I must, crawl if I must be
The effort is such leaving me weak
Sitting on my bed suns talking to me
Get up you must be!
Hello Mr sunshine won't you help me
From the way am feeling today
Emptiness within me
So nice you came peeping through my window
Greeting me
But my ass I cannot move from my bed you see!
Is this what's to come to me
This emptiness within me
Wait!
Wait for me Mr sunshine for am trying don't you see
Lifting my head from my pillow without draining me
As if being all at sea
Bobbing on the waves nauseously
Lying down the best option for me till this
feeling leaves me...
It's a beautiful day as I gaze out of my window
Some great cumulous clouds
Rippling like seahorses on the sea
The sun's not waiting for me
Such an effort holding this pen
This weakness I feel it's such a bane don't you see
But of course, you do not see
But get up I must make an effort
Mr sunshine still peeping at me
calling, a calling me
Get your butt from that bed come and dance with me
Thanks, Mr sunshine I'll try truly I will
If this gossamer leaves my mind
Impeding not the vision from my eyes
Worshipping your, scintillating rays
Rising my hands to the skies
Worshipping that golden sphere wearing
It's rays like a crown
Mesmerising me!!

           By Connie James










    

My Little Paradise 0000

My Little Paradise

It's truly a little paradise
Unspoiled by humanity...
Protected by the National Trust
The Jurrasic coast of Dorset
Where one comes across fossils galore
Have been trekking these hills cliffs nearly all my life
Far from the maddening crowds Thomas Hardy county
The Purbecks Of Dorset
Peace abounds, not many ventures that far
Not using our cars but our feet as we walk into the distance
But a few of us still trek far and wide climbing rock faces
Up and down mountains seems to me
Standing on top of our world far and wide you see...
As you struggled to climb the most awesome scenery before me
Catching up with my breath and me
From my mouth threatening to jump my heart
Inhaling deeply filling my lungs the purest of air
Letting it disperse slowly, in a whisper
Getting on our way vast golden grasses as high as you are
Descending to sea level almost as if a savannah you were
Swimming through long marsh grasses chest high
As if I were Eve wondering around paradise
You're faced, with this beautiful cove
Blue waters blue skies, bringing me to mind his eyes
Mocking me laughingly O'dear Lord I kissed his eyes
And his hair the colour of the burning sun
Playing havoc with my mind as if it wasn't enough
The light dancing in his eyes
Emotional was I!
And as I lay there in my naked body by the shoreline
The wash, washing over me I was in paradise...
With the birds swaying in the thermal winds I spied
He walking over me with that look
That told me that He was not, immune to me
Raising my hands to he smilingly
What a wonderful creature you are in my minds eyes
Picking me, throwing me on to the coming waves
Coughing and spluttering as if in a game thought he
I was a drowned rat & he laughing hilariously
Saying come on let's go...
I never get tired or bored of my Purbecks of Dorset
Always something new to see and discover
With always my camera attached to my hips
Just me my camera the gulls and the birds of prey
And...Yah!! Musn't forget the old boy!!