Love Reasons Not

Love Reasons Not

That little word called love
Love rules our hearts our minds.
Setting us alight:
Fire in our mind's our blood;
Dreams in our heart tearing us apart
& the love light in our eyes
Fighting with our minds mind;
Locked in our hearts the look in their eyes
Can not disguise the intensity of that love
Our pride non-existent robbing our self-esteem
As we look into their eyes we see not love but lies;
Reasoning you can not with love
Love has no reasoning
Every moment every hour of your days
You are consumed by this destructive love
It reasons not with your mind;
Matter not what they say!
Consumed by this love or not
It's here to stay embedded in you mind
What can one say!
Abhorrently may it be in their, minds eyes
As they see you falling apart before their eyes
Imperative its not they'll say
To love you this way
But this consuming love's like a worm in your blood
As he looks at me in that special way
Sending me rocketing high all the way
With a look a touch;
Setting fire to my blood; boiling;
This primitive being residing within me
Even as the fire runs wild burning me
Enough it's not as far I can see
That your killing me my love
With your phrases of love
Inherently within me!
A fire running through my blood euphorically
They say your not good for me
But you've grown roots in my heart
It's there for all to see
The fire you've started burning in my blood
Intentionally!
& like a fool in my strained mind went all along
Incandescently your words burning within me
My blood irrevocably;
Even if he's killing me with his verses of poetry
It's like a balm to me! My young love!
Throwing myself at He!
This passion running through me my blood
He's so beautiful you see;
He'll be the death of me, this passion I have for He.
His eye blue getting to me!
I'll be lost without He:
For terrified was I in loving he!
The fire in my blood much stronger than me
He takes me high then crashing down I'll be
Like a spinning wheel beneath me
Delusion-ally

              By Connie James

Cocoon's Bare!

Cocoons Bare

My cocoons so cold without you
To keep me warm!
A nest's bare;
Reaching out snuggling to you
Theirs an emptiness there
Just like you
To go away without a word uttered;
Yesterday there was love
Now nothing but emptiness facing me
Cause you not there to keep me warm;
Keeping me from going out of my mind.
Hope she suited you better than me!
But better than me she won't love you;
But am so cold your arms not about me;
Keeping me warm;
My tears flowing like rivulets
Filling an ocean
Tasting my tears flowing silently
Salty just like an ocean;
Hitting the shore passing me by
Always with you, in the days of old was I!
Appreciated I think not
As I did everything with you, in mind;
I just hope she loves you better than me!
Withholding your love when I need you
Driving me spare out of my mind
When I needed you to love me
As I did you!
Now all I've got is an empty cocoon
& it's cold so cold without you;
I just hope she loves you better than me!
As I feel the space, the other side of me
No love for me; It's cold so cold;
But my dreams won't fade away
As I taste my tears from yesterday
As we ran together euphorically
Amongst the dunes of Dorset;
Hollering high!
Real laughter in our bellies
Love in our eyes
Catching up with me
The ecstasy in your eyes;
Throwing me down on the fields of green
Loving me underneath a blue sky.
On top of our world just you & I;
Playing games with my mind deliciously
As you photographed every angle of me!
Excitedly;
My cocoon is bare without you there
But I hope she loves you better than me!
Regressing not euphorically to me!
Taking from me your love;
Reprehensibly a cocoon's bare
Where are you, my love
Though you were there!!

                 By Connie James

Closer To You

Closer To You

If I said you had a beautiful mind
Would you hold it against mine
Would you let me hold you
Close to my heart
As we dance & sway to
The music of the night;
Feeling your body closer to mine
As we sway all through the night
I can feel your breath upon my hair
That slight whisper of a breeze
Flickering my hair
As if dancing on a cloud we'd be
Like all my yesterdays
That breeze;
Was I in a dream making me smile
Reaching up kissing your eyes, your lips
Your eyes smiling softly looking at me
Making me feel in Nirvana I'll be!
Memories, yesterday's memories;
Making me smile laugh cry at the same time
Carrying this little ache within me
It's not easy to always smile
When tears rolling from my eyes
Like rolling stones
Falling from my mountain high
But I do try remembering yesterday's
So many many yesterday's as they were;
As I softly kiss your lips your mouth
All the while holding you tight, my arms
Getting you closer
Your arms strongly circling me
As in a vice, I'll be
Making me blush, looking into your eyes
If you could see what's on my mind
Dancing into the music of the night
I can not abide this feeling tearing me apart
As if you be departing from me;
That ache settling heavily upon me.
Until the floods gates opening
There's no choice for me as they flow irrevocably
But I still have the music of the night
To entertain me, just you & I;
The ecstasy having you close to me
Euphorically my mind
Endorphins releasing all the while
As I touch your mind with mine
Carrying with me all the while
Like a wave swelling overflowing
In my, minds mind
Erotic dreams come's to mind
You & I lying side by side
Beneath, a cloudless sky's the stars above
Counting countless stars
In the blue velvety darkness
& that falling star across my firmament
It's as if dancing to the music of night
The Richter scales, high imploding
Your pheromones & mine!!  

                  By Connie James









  

I Die a Little;

I die a little
Each time he goes away, I die a little;
Everytime time he ignores me, I die a little
& my heart breaks a little
Every time he goes without a goodbye
But my heart aches a little
Without him, I know I'll die, a little
As I think about him, much more than a little
My heart refrain can not, but cry's a littleI
& my eyes weeps more than a little
As my tears flows silently,
When I see him gadding about without me;
He takes the piss out of me, a little
For granted he takes me all the time
Much more than a little:
Frankly, am quite sick of it a little    
Why can't he just get on his bike, & ride
Ride out of my life just, a little
I've had enough, much more than a little
I'd love a little praise just a little
Using me more, than just a little
All of the time;
Advantage taking more than a little
Expecting me all the time
Be there more than just a little,
Commenting in how he does, a little
He's rather selfish more than a little
Saying naught to me at any time.
Comment on those others more than a little
Living me high & dry much more than a little
Every time he goes I die;
Expecting me there more than a little
With a smile upon my visage
But my heart always dies a little
Every time he goes without a goodbye;
My heart my throat constricting more than a little
I' die a little
Each time he goes, saying not goodbye
So why in the hell do I cry much
More than a little
Every time he goes I can help not
But cry:

          By Connie James

An Impossibility *****

An impossibility

Where have you been, all my life
I've asked of you:
Across the horizon, you said smilingly
Beyond my hemisphere, there you were
Can believe not you'd, be just beyond
My, horizon far...
So blind of me that, I couldn't see
blind as I could be...
Even though you, were right there, facing me
I recognized the feeling not, within me
Before me, you stood looking
In my mind's eyes I, couldn't see
I was crazy, I was as crazy, as can be
Now gazing into your, eyes
Deepest blue, like my seas
And my hemisphere above me
And your hair, the colour of the sun
The red'est of reds, one can see
As I nuzzle up, to you
Running my, fingers through your, hair
Believe can not,
How you slipped through, my fingers;
Leaving me!
The possibility, that you know, how I feel
Just a glance from, you
Leaving me wishing, for the moon
In your stance,
Nonchalantly, standing looking, at me
That look, in your eyes
I cannot disguise, this feeling, within me
Like a bolt, of lightning
Shooting, through me as you, touch me
Sparking, setting my blood, embers high
The intensity, burning me...
I could read your mind, looking upon you
Wishing, on that star scurrying,
Scintillating across, my firmament
I could touch your heart, your lips:
An impossibility!!
My hands as busy as a bee fleetingly
Kissing your eyes your, lips a little game we play
Just to pass the time, away
But as I look into your eyes
Feeling, all was in hand, making me feel!
Into overdrive, goes I
That image, bewitching me!
Ahh, darling,
Making me feel!
As if a madness, running through me
Into my mind, unexpectedly...
Hopelessly; what you, do to me
In the very extremities, leaving me!
Bewitched...

             



   

Thinking Of You

Thinking of You

Darling!
Thinking of you;
Sun's shining it's a blue sky
Waters crystal clear in my mind;
The birds are singing
Not a whisper of a breeze in the air
Yet here I sit when I should be out there
But this being within me won't let me anywhere
Darling!!
Thinking of you, sleep can not
Waking in the hour's of dawn, so full of dew
Opening my curtains just a chink
Just enough to see through
The darkness facing me leaving me feeling blue
Got up went down made myself a cup of tea
Then jumped back into my cocoon quilt covers over me
Darling! Thinking of you
As I get up & shower missing your hands
Whispering over me
Such a long time darling I've felt you wanting me
So expertly sensually;
Your eyes never leaving me playing a game with me!
I can feel now as I soap myself
I can feel as you used to do;
My neck I can feel you kissing me:
As your hands whisper over me
Within my mind exclaiming!
The titillation of you as you used to I can see
Your hands! Just that touch
The slight roughness making me feel; So alive.
My mind soaring high like a dopamine
As they do the talking;
Stretching high extending myself my hands
Trying holding anchoring me
But you wouldn't let me
Tormenting me insistingly
Until am crying out my mind irrevocably
Clawing holding for life rendering me:
The essence of you;
Setting me flying higher than a kite
Then releasing me as I come crashing down
Euphorically;
Wonder why my tears spills in moments of ecstasy
Unfocused mind, that gossamer dispersing from me;
This exuberant feeling within me
In you eye's I see love or lust I care not
Call it whatever you may
Your eyes blue like my deep blue seas
& the blue firmament above me
As I reach high to touch your mind with mine
Immersing myself escaping not,
The imminence of you;
You might as well be my god my king my religion it's true
As I search your lips just that touch so you know;
Under my skin you are, my mind my soul
In turmoil's, am I my mind.
As I see you not, in my minds mind!
That gossamer impeding me
From visualising the smile in your eyes
I came crashing down, the floodgates flowing, my eyes
My soul dragging in the mire of my thoughts
Until lucidity returns to me
That gossamer dispersing from my mind:
In seeing you:
         
                By Connie James

Quiet mind of mine *****

Quiet Mind of Mine

Why do I bother, with such
In my thoughts,
Cause, help me they can not
Residing, within me, like a madness
Trying escaping, from me
For they're part, of this madness
Between, me, my thoughts;
Convoluted, become
Is it, me! Or is it my, thoughts
I, cannot abide,
This being, residing within me
My thoughts...
But if my thoughts, aren't me
Who's residing, within me my, thoughts
Hard, to differentiate
The streets of my, mind my thoughts,
When he, wants me not
So hard, catching him, in between;
The alleyways, of my mind
Touching his mind, with mine
Reaching out to, me
In my mind's, mind he'll be:
Struggling, fighting this being
Residing, within me
Going, there at any, time do not;
So hard thinking, not of he
In the recesses of my mind, resides he
Deeply rooted in my, heart
Within me, I ache!
This sorrow, won't leave me
In the recesses, of my mind
Tears escaping, flowing
From, the extremities of me
Like a turbulent river, breaking over me
In the depths of his, mind;
Great, he thinks me!
Knowing, not how to react
When I so need, his words
Quieting my, mind
Platitudes I need, not
Escaping, my troubled mind
Not even in the recesses, of me
Fighting a battle, lost;
This other being, residing
Within me, my mind, echoing,
Shut up please, let me be;
But it's, an impossibility
Working overtime, my mind
In the very, depths of me,
I can feel him, not in the recesses, of my mind
In the extremities, I need he
To hug me, just, hug me for me
In the circumference, of his arms
I feel safe, quiet within, he
Much, I need not just, a word a touch
Like a balm quieting, my mind
A smile in the extremities of me
As I touch his, mind with mine...

         

Lonely Nights

Lonely Nights 

The night the lonely nights, the touches
The touches you put me through
As I held on to you!
Reciting you verses of love...
And the moon at half light the stars above us
Just enough to see through
Your features in silhouette, softly upon you
The moon at half light gazing at you
The rain like tears kissing you
Immersing in the fragrance
In the extremities of my mind
Heightening my senses one more time
The potency of this primitive earth forgotten
It's scent it's earthly scent, that you experience
In the regions the extremities of your mind...
Come along walk with me through my city
Just you and I skimming through...
Looking at the wonder in your eyes
Resist could not, but kiss you
In the darkness of our nights we were lost
Storming in our blood awakening us
Our breath, that kiss
Intoxicating our minds...
Whispering, our sleepless nights,
Loving awaited us
Those petals of roses you've scattered
Frayed senseless, intoxicating
Lying down, closing my eyes
Seeing you looking out into the night!
That distant look
A far away look in your eyes
The sweetest music in the darkness of night
Dreams born in the recesses of my mind.
In the far distances, the horizon far
The light in your eyes as I gazed at you
Making love, my eyes with you
Searching ourselves with all the pain & the laughter
Were you & and I!
                    By Connie James...

My Senses

It heightens my senses this vision before my eyes

unparalleled beauty trapped within my mind,

Drinking this beauty I see before me
This Ireland, that's truly beautiful.

Te Extrano *****

Te, Extrano!
I compare thee to this, wondrous sea !!
Knocking me from, my feet capriciously
Cool, waters as I wade through
Caressing me, assiduously
Almost instantaneously evoking from me!
That feeling irrevocably erupting into a frenzy
I can not abide, this hopeless waiting!
Looking at me!
Te, Extrano, Te Extrano!
Staying away from me;
Evoking my tears flowing like a river
Demented I'll be, like that Siren
At the oceans bottom hollering
Calling out to Thee!!
In between the sands & the rock pools
Are, as deep as my soul
At times as calm, as can be, loving me!
Lulling me into a sense of security
Then turbulent, wild angry like Neptune
Bashing, against the rocks, punishing me
And the Siren, in me recounting, singing secrets past
By the light, of the moon as you, sail me by
This wondrous, sea the dreamy nights
You roam sailing by!
& I like a demented, Siren singing in, the moonlight
Breaking my heart, as you sail by
Like a mermaid, on this rock, here I lie!
Bathing by the light, of the moon
Where I could have, swoon by your sight
Opening my eyes, there you stood looking, at me
& I wonder, was it, he!
Halfway propping myself, casting my eyes
The swaying waves,
Ebulliently, passing me by
Silently, dispersing my tears, my eyes
Believing, not that he stood, thereby me;
Te, Extrano, Te Extrano, can't you see!
But my seas listen, not to me as I shout, silently.
Te Extrano!!
As you sail by hearing, not me!
Looking not my way, not a word to say
For a word uttered, crying!
A smile, missing from your, eyes you can not disguise;
& like that Siren, hollering, my misery
Yet, look back at me, you'd be!
The light in your, eyes
You can not disguise, it's there in your, eyes;
Waiting, silently no words to share
& by the light, of the moon in her full, bloom
Waiting assiduously,
Hollering like a banshee, in my misery
Like that siren, singing
Singing delusionally
Calling for her lover, to come to she
But demented she'll always be;
For he cares not, whether she'll be singing or not
Her loves lost, as he sailed her by
Sirens singing, by the moonlight
Am I!!
Te, Extrano!!

     

Through our eyes

Through our eye's

We witness the best and the worst of human nature.
But I rather see the beauty before me as I glance and see
Those that love me unconditionally...
Seeing the love in their eyes when am at times am hurting
Looking beyond my sky's the enormity as I see beyond you and me.
This universe that one comprehend can not it's beyond me.
In my ambiguity, I do stare, & see clouds formation above me
This enchantment, as I see mesmerized by my firmament.
The moon, in the in her velvety midnight's blue sky,
Playing havoc with my mind.
Inexplicably affecting my moods, my mind my senses!
Like a banshee, I'll be struggling with my defense's
 The moon up above certainly has a pull on my senses
 Believe I can not mesmerisingly
This enchantment running through me
At this precise moment, gladness exuding within me
Disperse this feeling can not illusiveness within me my mind
Right there before my eyes she appears in her enchantment
Filling my heart with love,
Scintillating above my sky's my stars,
 My universe!
 But as I gaze and see right there before me
Nature, that's intended for you and me.
Looking at the trees dancing in the breeze
Whispering night winds!
 Enchantingly vibrant colours of the rainbow
Filling me with wonder, my mind my eyes with gladness.
From the grass to the trees the flowers
& the bees as they go on pollinating...
Displaying before our eyes every day of our lives
Opened wide our eyes as we go about our world
Nature, naturally as we see, gazing before me
The mountain highs reaching for the sky's
Those Condors flying riding those thermal winds.
Standing there mesmerized unparalleled beauty,
I can feel tears forming behind my eyes.
Like rivers below the mountains the valley's
Savannah's wild blows your mind so wild!
The animals wander by majestically wondering why!
Filling my mind my eyes this enchantment
Such contentment as I sigh!
Constricting my heart, this ache by its beauty
As I walk on from the savannah's to the mountains highs
Filling our eyes...
God's work in all it's magnificence...
By Connie James

He loves me...

I've, waken up to a glorious day 
Beautiful sky blue as his eyes 
Not a whisper of a breeze in the air 
It's a sharp cold day my way,
Not freezing you see 
That crystal clear sparkle
Good enough to run wild
Amongst my Purbeck's of Dorset
Far from the maddening crowds, beautiful.!!
In a good mood rather I am feeling swell
My young, love loves me
Oh my wouldn't you like to know,
But it's just between him and me
Going from day to day filling my way
With the wonder of it all
My heart's feeling full at this precise moment
But I know it'll come crashing down around my ears.
I'll enjoy whilst it'll last no other choice you see
But I know that my love loves me.
it's there in his gestures in the language the use's
Turning me on with each word leaving his lips
Oh, my!
He's driving me spare wanting me there every moment
My heart's all of a flutter when he's around
But with a mind reasoning not
A body thinking not, past the time for thinking
You wouldn't think one could feel so deeply
Having such feelings
Soaring beyond infinity one's mind
Because my love loves me...
He loves me for whom I am
Not like what others think I should be
Am a person becoming alive
Rather than in limbo where I use to be.
Believe can not the ecstasy within me
He drove me to hell and back
Then back again.
Mind soaring grasping for sanity
Lucidity was fading away from me
As I cried out his name time and again
But he won't let me free
From the chains, attached securely to me
Not that I'd run, taking all he had for me
Whilst my love needs me I'll stay.
Confounded wouldn't you say!!
As I wake up to face another day.
Still smiling, all the way.
By Connie James

It's Pouring Down Again

It's pouring down again, oh what will we do
We'll end up with swimming pools or like a ducks web feet
Or fungus growing between our toes
It simply won't give up as the wind blows & blows
O Lord, it's pouring down again, Lord don't you know
We've had enough rain to float the QE2
Why can't you fix that jet stream where its meant to be!
so it rains now and again like it uses to be
O Lord, it's pouring down again don't you know
Why can't you direct some of this to those who really need it,
Places are crying out for some of this wet stuff
Really we don't want to be greedy,
O Lord, let me explain there are places out there
In the vastness of our world, crying out for rain
Really we mustn't be greedy their land's parched & cracking up
For lack of the wet stuff, there also crying O Lord
To plant and grow their seeds in a land that's so full of dust
Whilst ours is being drowned dragging in the mud
Lord why don't you set, that jet stream where its ought to be
Why must it be all or nothing or are you sleeping on the job Lord!
O Lord, it's pouring down again
Or have you given up, on us blooming lot,
We must scatter our seeds, the land that gives our bread
We need the sun to make it grow with the sweat, from our brow
Won't you please pull that plug to let the water go
To where it's most, need at this precise moment, Lord!
Like tears falling from our sky's someone's that's in torment
So please, please won't you put a sock in it.
Yes, Lord our world so full of pain I can feel some of it...
So let's cry for a little sunshine but not too much of it.
We can share the sun & the rain around this wonderful globe
So Lord won't you fix that jet stream that's gone AWOL!
O Lord, it's pouring again, it seems it'll never stop.
It's causing such misery and sadness all around our lot
They're all begging for the rain to stop.
Our farmers are in a pickle but then again so are we all
If their seeds they can't scatter our daily bread won't grow
Or are you punishing us O Lord, for the badness of our world,
But its always been the same Lord since time's, immemorial
Humans are an infallible lot, don't you know
So has there been a fault, my Lord in your design
When you created the man you've created a wondrous world, my Lord,
But when it came down to humans you failed miserably,
& that's including me, harping, on O Lord, but that's me!!
it's pouring again, can't you see, am supposed to believe in you
O Lord to a certain extent I do, the beauty of our world
Couldn't be made by man alone, a Supreme Being
There must be orchestrating our world,
Dear Lord as your sitting there with your massive batons
Don't forget to orchestrate, O Lord some of this rain away
And please install that jet stream, O Lord
Before its too late.

                       By Connie James 

Reaching to me

           Reaching to me

Raising up to the skies my eyes
What do I see!
I see the rising sun's rays
Reaching out to me!
As I stand mesmerised
Letting it take hold of me
It's warmth penetrating me
As I throw my arms wide to the skies
Worshiping its rays as in a prayer
In supplication
Infusing my mind by its beauty
Beautiful as can be
Suffused my mind by the reality
Embracing me
Unfocused my mind becomes
Prolonging, the intensity
Touching his mind with mine
As I stare adoringly its rays taking hold of me
On my knees I find myself
Praying that he would be, loving me
The intensity the rising sun
It's rays all around me
Extending my arms
Almost touching a river in me
Golden stars exuding from me
Like a molten golden river
Cascading into the sea
Rising, high & higher
My fingertips burning as I
Extending my arms to he
As I standing arms akimbo
Feeling its glorious touch upon me
As I lift my face, higher kissing me
In Nirvana, I'll be,
But back to reality getting away from me!
In my memory wrapping arms around he
His warmth exuding right through me
My mind levitating as high as can be
Almost opium, like
Like a drug to me euphorically
Sending thrills through my spine
Every time, I looked at he
Holding my stare would he irrevocably be.
But he!
Wants me not as I am changing me!
A more pliable me!
But a mind of my own I possess inherently within me
It has survived my mind and me!
But I so want he to love me, for me!
No other reason intrinsically
On a pedestal, I need not, to be
Crying out looking at he
Love me!...Just for me
Adoring you as I do,
In a mystical way not, no way
But an earthling like me  
Has needs just like anybody in my primitiveness
My primitive mind wanting to climb that mountain high
With you by my side
Euphorically my mind in a frenzy
As you touch me periodically...

          By Connie James

The scent of you

The Scent of you

Each time I see you
Hungering for your words
That once so easy, now just an
extension of you...
But your words come not easy
Struggling thinking of you...
Looking into your eyes, cannot disguise
Shades perpetually on my mind
The shady streets, my thoughts of you 
Turbulent, winds whistling through
My nemesis my thoughts forever with you
Your red lips your skin like the golden sun
The softness of your eyes
The days of old...
I can scent the essence of you
Reaching your lips, touching you 
You could hardly look at me
Yet you came close so close
Scenting a river in you...
Waters cascading the waterfalls, their beauty 
Clandestinely, that only you knew 
The unknown roads the alleyways
The flower sellers the scented roses 
Smelled heavenly...
The moon in her half-light, casting shadows uponyou...And my hands whispering over you!
I've missed you, every second every moment
of my days...
Every hour, every night of my nights
yesterday's little pains...
Win or lose...
My dreams were only dreams
Dreams of yesterday... 
Like the first-morning dew
Tears dancing behind my eyes, our loss
Through my tears reaching your lips
Searching words from yesteryear 
Holding you for life so, dear
All the while taking root, in my heart
In my restless world, my city of old
I've loved you...
Having found you, to lose again 
A poetry in my heart, of hearts
Through high seas, we've journeyed, ocean wild 
In the savannah's the valleys
And I standing before you
Whispering, crying breathing
Inhaling the scent of you!! 

The Reason I Survive

With the first light of dawn's rising's sun
To the end od day's, downing of the sun
He's the reason I survive, from morning till night
And then in reverse from night till dawn again
Enduring between us the silences, I can not
Far apart our thoughts
Gazing at him at first light of the night
His face handsomely his features, relaxed
Sleeping the sleep of the innocent,
As he sleeps now!
His hair tussled, curling about his forehead
Brushing aside from his eyes, was I.
His lips, his eyes deep blue oceans like
Asking myself why!
Who's He?
Who's this man taking my peace my mind my reason
My sanity!!
The only reason I survive hour after, hour, day to day
The turbulence within me!
After, all he's just a man
That I've dreamed in the darkest of my nights,
My mind so full of he
Taking my reasoning my mind.
Thinking can not incapable of thinking
One's mind euphorically
 It's him I desire at all times obsessively
This illusion, I carry within me
The fascination within as I write time
Fascinatingly the elusive illusion inherently in me
As I look into his eyes and see darkness within He
Perpetually lit by the moon at half light
Strangely gazing at me...
Trying to extricate, myself from this prison am in.
Between the light and the darkness my mind
Ambiguously, lightness within.
Ominously the silence awating, me
Covered in a gossamer, fog dawn's lightness seeping in
Dewy mistiness in my minds mind,
Understand I can not otherwise the look in your eyes ...
A mystical light crossing my dreams of the night
Understanding, not my mind mesmerised by he
The only thought, first and foremost
He came to mind irrevocably
The only reason I survive, irretrievably my mind
Extricate myself I can not
From thinking of He!

By Connie James...

Grasping For a Reason

Grasping for a reason grounding myself to the realms of reality
In the freshness of youthfulness am not
But I still need to love and be loved in return    
To be loved like no other mind's lost in the mire of my thoughts... 
Waiting to reach the heights grasping for sanity the abandonment of mind's
Grasping for sensations lost between now and ecstasy 
One's mind's mind, body can endure not the sensations taking one, into oblivion
Grappling, with a body thinking not, the sensations doing the talking
Visionary cope can not your words impaling me deeply  
Leaving me in the mire in the regions of my mind
Of my thoughts your words your words!
Are never realized except on my mind unsatisfied
As I scream out for no real satisfaction coming my way, I realize
So why only imaginary my love why don't you kiss, kiss me.
As I claw out and scream your name deeply from the regions of my mind
Screaming out for you but you my love care not do you  
Leaving me in the mire of my thoughts pure, not so pure
Like that very first time we clashed like titans our minds
Our blood on fire with desire this wanting in us
Inextinguishable fire permeating our beings
Transcending into to a mire of lust
Why my love don't you kiss me anymore
I remember everything that's been set in the regions of my mind
My heart my soul, now like a shriveled being I cry out
Why don't you kiss, kiss me like before
Punishing me and I transcending transcending
Into immorality in my mind don't you see
This can not be just one sided
Something in return you got to give something in return
Remember when we first saw each other
That camera in my face all of the time
You're still doing it my love photographing every angle candidly
of me saying your a beautiful woman still
As I cringe laying there that camera focusing on me
Now like a beached whale, not a pretty sight to see
Please please go away take that camera with you
For my body's not what it used to be!
Your Still beautiful far, far from most says he
So why my love don't you kiss, kiss me
Don't move says he for am looking at you.
That expression in him.
So what's one to do!! 

                   Connie James

With These Hands

With these hands, I've scratched a living
From morning till night
With these hands, I've held my baby tight
As He cried out in the night
Comforting him alright...
With these hands I held you close held you tight
Over you softly these hands have whispered
As I kissed you in the darkness of the night
These hands has touched your visage
Touched your mind your heart
Softly whispering away into the night
These hands have wiped away your tears
As you cried in the darkness of the night
Holding on for life so dear
These hands have held you close to my heart
Even though you brushed them aside
But with these hands, I've touched
I've touched your heart your soul your mind
I've touched your mind with mine
Right through the night as we held tight
In a vice, holding me whispering, through the night
Escaping not the imprisonment of your vice
With these hands, I've made you cry out
In the darkness of your night
This sense at my fingertips as I touched
& kissed your lips your eyes
As I said good night sleep tight
And this sense upon your lips as I brushed
Yours with mine!
Gazing into your eyes
With these hands, I held your visage
As I touched your mind with mine!

             By Connie James...

In My Cocoon

In my cocoon,

Warm as a bug I curl beneath my quilt
In my cocoon thinking of you!
Our nights of love
Your eyes dark pools oceans, deep blue...
& I, being lost in your waters so deep
Emerging myself into those waters
In the delirium of love, my mind
Irrevocably...
Waking up beside's me a much-needed cup of tea
That glorious first sip reviving me
Was as parched as can be...
In your eyes as you stood looking at me
That look I know so well
Oceans deep comes to mind so blue
In the sighs of the night
My mind so full of you
Feeling he holding me tight
& falling into a precipice was I
Escaping not my mind I knew it would be
Solely made by me
As you whisper,
Let's ride into the stars beyond our universe
Pluck a planet or two
With the Moon, Mars & Venues side by side
Uranus & Pluto, too
That gossamer lifting from my eyes
I see a universe beyond me
With he, beside's me
Riding those thermal winds
Beyond a chasmic, eternity
Into a chasm am falling
& he hanging on to me
His eyes shining encouragingly
As if there was only me
In his world mesmerising-ly!
Through my world,
Up down across through my hemisphere
I've searched by far
I knew that in the horizon he'd be
Someday for me
But climbing that mountain high
Was way beyond me
Just to be or not at one with he
Fluttering, my heart at the sight of he
Irrevocably,
Convoluted my mind would become
With the nearness of he
The scent of he
Reaching out for me
Resist I can not
In his embrace enfolding me
Taking me into realms of reality...
Releasing, me!
Into eternity...

                By Connie James