Apollo 4 +++

               Apollo 4


I haven’t lived,
said she screaming to the winds,
I haven't lived!
What you mean, you glad?
How am I supposed to know
If there’s any difference between one or another
A fairy story hasn’t been;
I’ve had but one partner, in my life
I know not the difference
Words incandescently lacking in my life
Setting my blood on fire!
Oh, dear Lord!
Why must you have, set free
The beast in me!
This primitive being, taking hold of me had
These primal feelings am all at sea!
This obsessive obsession exuding from me
Of you, cannot have enough!
Just the sight of your name, making me;
Yearn for you, like a river running through me
Your hands cruising over me
Your words echoing through leaving me, unhinged
Looking for that screw, I’ve lost along the way
Since I first met you:
So ignorant, so ignorant am I!
Knowing not the ins and outs of loving
Under the sheets, the reality of life
I knew not or experienced such love
Omg!
I was dead within me trapped my soul
But you freed the animal that beast
Lying dormant within, freeing me
From that dead limbo, I was living
How can I now go through life
Knowing now that there’s so much more, to live for
You should have left me in the dead limbo I was living
Ignorance can be bliss, emotional!
How can I go on, knowing the reality-cannot have you!
Confounded I’ll be.
The words I write fictionally
My imagination running wild of thoughts unsatisfied, my mind
There must have been this need in me, life as I know it
How am I suppose to live my life, knowing now
That there’s much more of an experience one can live
One love One life, one life half lived;
Did I deserved not much more than this!
Careful for what we might wish, you might get it!!
Your incandescent words burning through my blood
Setting the fires rising flames high!
I fear it cannot have a good ending for me!
As you touch me kiss me like, dopamine to my mind
Awaking this primitive being, lying dormant within me!
For all eternity!
Touch me, darling kiss, kiss me!
Let me feel the fires in my blood
Consuming me!