A mothers Grief!

            A Mothers Grief

            By Conne James

How can one move beyond losing one's son?
The stars the light in one's eyes
Glistening in the darkness of our firmament!
Our reason for living, getting up in the morning.
With the rising of the sun...
Gazing into their eyes as they smile filling one's heart,
with love...
How can one move beyond one's mind?
Shaking the sorrow taking hold of one's heart...
How can one possibly ever laugh again!
As he's missing, having departed from your life!
How can one look at the world in the eyes, and smile
For his the reason for our smile
When one's heart has died, 
Alongside his!
One's son lying there plugged to a machine
breathing for him...
And the realisation comes to you, as they say, it's over. 
The plug must be pulled...
Without a chance of returning, a life extinguished.
That had no chance of living! 
Beyond of no return, and you scream in agony.
As your son, lies there, lifeless.
With electrodes exuding from He! 
As if a madness entered your blood
You scream and scream, half-dementedly
Hugging yourself to yourself fragmenting!
A life cut short a much-beloved son,
a life half lived...
That space in your heart vacating ominously
Once held so much love and pride in your eyes 
Dormant lying in your mind's mind...
How can one go beyond the pain, constricting one's heart 
Your tears silently exuding waterfalls.
Swaying back and forth in your misery!
Where have you gone, my son?   
My world vacating, leaving me in a desultory,
Way beyond me!
Thine son woman! His time had come.
To live beyond his, years wasn't meant to be!
Exasperatingly she shouts, the cruelty!
O'God, you're a cruel God!!!
My son, my son, my world, my life!!
Taken away from me!
Jealous God, you'll be !!
Grief transcending through me constricting my heart 
Unending, mourning my soul, dying alongside, He 
The stars in his eyes dispersing from the light
dancing in his eyes;
Shadows in silhouette hanging around me
Freezing, my world and me!
Thine son woman!
Is transversing beyond eternity,
Swaying in the hemispheric winds...
Way beyond infinity!!   
Thine son will be!!