Reason For Living *****

A Reason For Living 

How did we, come to be

At this, moment in time 

So involved,

So full of the other 

Our minds...

Help cannot from recalling 

How did all, go wrong    

So full of woe's, my mind 

Forgetting not, when life was beautiful

Tribulations, my life past, present, my mind 

But listen they'll not, the infernal cacophony, 

Of my thoughts...     

Too much, the obsessiveness, 

You belong to me! 

Euphoric my mind, cannot abide 

To my woe's listening, reliving

Tribulations within...  

Feeling good, between us, speaking my mind 

Holding back, judging me not, listening 

Should I have expressed, myself thus

Looking me in the eyes, you do me good

Quieting, this brain of mine, turmoil within   

Psychological games, playing 

Fuc...k, my brain,

The disdain coming my way, I feel   

Reaching a point of no return, emphatically 

An impetuous being, I've always been   

Suffice to say...

I say what I think, around the bush beating not 

But what I said needed saying 

Desist I'll not if in my heart, its real

Once you were kindness, personified 

When my soul struggling, within 

In turmoil, reliving my mind 

Reaching a point, 

Fragmenting I'll be 

Quietening my mind, your words 

like a balm...

Of you, cannot do without...  

Cooling the fires of this mind of mine 

Calming my soul,   

At times growing obsessively 

Like a primitive forest, growing wild

Behind that waterfall, giving life      

Crystal clear, gossamer, curtains 

Glistening in the sunshine

Behind these waterfalls, love was born 

Feeling the love, in my heart...

The euphoria within me, as you kiss me  

This need, hungrily I kiss, your lips

That smile! You knew how to play me!   

Making me, want you...

Ticking overtime my mind, reaching the heights 

Possible I thought not... 

This need!

Looking at me, those blue eyes,

Cool as my skies, and the oceans I see   

Cool waters, behind those waterfalls 

Reaching a point, the meaning, 

Of this life that, am living   

Kissing your lips, the hollow beneath, your chin 

Hunger from within the sighs!

Whispering over me, softly that touch 

Making me feel, with my mind...

A wantonness, a restless mind 

This need this feeling, to make love...

Reasoning, cannot suffice to say 

I'll reason not! 

The temptation is such 

Reaching a point of no return   

An intoxicated mind, impossible to reason 

Just reactions in our, primitiveness

Living in the moment.

For my soul, good he'll be

Lifting my spirits from, the mire of my, thoughts 

My troubled soul! 

But a lid I must keep, on my mind   

In my impetuousness, for me, good may not be 

But for my soul, a balm, 

An anodyne, to mine Anima...  

All I need is, call when in turmoil    

Cool waters, making life worth living  

To his wisdom, listening 

But I must keep a lid, on these feelings of mine 

Or riot they'll run, away with me   

In the reason for living!!