Do You Pray!

Do you pray!
I was asked the other day
Noo!!
Not anymore I must say
An unbeliever I've become
An agnostic I'll be!
Since a mere child was I
I've become un-enamoured with religion
A load of hypocrites they'll be
Runs in my family, hypocrisy
So abhorrent to me!
And so a rebel I've become, listen not to anyone
I do my own thing... 
But I believe there must be an entity
Someone higher
Much higher than you or me
A supreme being maybe!
But I believe not those priests, those purists
Pure they'll not be
The evilness in some of them
Scary!! 
Then I was asked...
What would you like most in the world
Well, that's not too hard, say I
I'd wish peace amongst the peoples of our world
To live in love and harmony, stop killing one another
Greed amongst them inherently there'll be
But I do ache inside of me...
Perpetually!
Tears flowing silently
My throat constricting my breath
Breaking into a sob, my heart's fragmenting
Into a thousand little pieces   
In between tears, I tell he!     
What I'd like most in the world
Would be to have my family back aswe used to be!
And looking into his eyes, telling him
That I!
Assiduously I try not to
Let it disperse from me trying, trying!
Bursting from me, my heart breaking
Into thousands fragmenting pieces
My worlds breaking around me   
I care not I think not, I cannot bear
They've gone from me!
Cannot pass the time of day
Always in a hurry by the way 
Even though saying how great I was
Fleetingly passing the time of day,
Running...
His features popped into my mind disturbingly
Know not what scares he!
Feeling uneasy...
Achingly my tears falling within me
Sorry for myself I guess I'll be
What annoys me most, my feelings! 
How I miss Papa, on this epochal time of year
The Stellar in my skies he was
He had diamonds scintillating, in his eyes
For us...
His arms huge as a bear hugging us
The light of love dancing in his eyes,
Our hero he was...
Nothing's worth this misery I feel within me
I'd so love to be free
From form the bastards of our world
To just to be me!!