You've Forsaken Me!!

The mausoleums of times past I walk through
Where they lay their dead it's true
Stretching before me I see desolation within me
Does anyone hear, does anyone see!
Visualising before me
Abandoned do I see the spirit of others pointing at me
Accuse, me not
For I can't see those in times forgotten
Don't accuse me!
Now! in death I want not to see
You pointing your finger at me!
I was there, I was there me! only me!
I was there can't you see!
Looking out for you I was there
Waiting for you to come through
I was there championing you
Encouraging you to breathe trough
You're breathing fast much too fast you see
Much too fast breathe slowly take it easy
Breathe slowly Mama!
Doucement, Mama
But you took heed not!
I knew not, you were departing from me!
That last drink that I gave you
You were gasping Mama!
Just to wet your lips, your throat somehow
But the wrong person that was me!
I could not comfort Thee
Had the words not fluently
As you slipped through my fingers
As I was intently looking at you
Touching your face just so!
Leaving me alone numb stupefied too
I knew not that you wouldn't come back to me
As you uttered Ahh, Jesus oh my God
Leaving me! Leaving me!
As tears spilt out
You left me standing there alone
So alone!
Rooted to the spot, whilst they worked on you.
But blame you I could not, leaving me, rooted to the spot
It was your time I guess it's true
27 years later am still mourning for you
Why, pick on me, Mama! Why pick on me?
I wasn't the best person to be there you see
You've forsaken me
Mama!
We gave you a send off a beautiful, send off
With all our love
With your grandchildren playing a tune on their guitars
With Mark, playing on the piano a dream of love Brahms lullaby
Paying our respects to the last...
But you've forsaken me, Mama!
You've forsaken me!

                        By Connie James