I Can Smile...

Then suddenly it disperses before me
That golden light that brought light into my eyes
Making me feel like a queen
Now leaving me with darkness within...
Oh, darkness dissipate from me
I want to feel not what am feeling at this precise moment.
I want not tears flowing from my eyes
Need no waterfalls to hide behind it!
I want to feel lightness sparkling within
Lifting that gossamer from my eyes
Now in the times of springtime wanting to live
One moment was feeling the sun's shining in my heart
Only to be left with this infernal feeling at this moment in time
Sadness, I want to feel not,
When the stars disperse from my eyes,
This dragging feeling
With the sun's dissipating from me
I want to crawl hibernating hiding from the world
That leaves me in turmoil psychologically...
Hurrah!!
The suns came back to me my prayer it must have seen
Lifting from me that feeling the greyness from within...
Leaving me with lightness in my mind my heart
That gossamer dispersing from my mind
Now in times of spring
I can smile...

                          By Connie James