Even!! I'll Never Be

Good Morning My World!
Cuz...Vacated my world, she liked not my words
Inferring there's something wrong with me.
Mad I must be! "crazy"!!
But when the going gets tough, the tough gets going 
Can't say am surprised it's happened all through my life
She's a bloody nuisance you see!
Control no one can me, controlled I'll not be.
But agreeing we do not, in everything one says...
It's a free world, supposedly!
What can I say, if speech can be free not what's the point anyway
My God gave a brain, I guess its ok to use it...
If a brain I had, not I'd think not that would suit those
Hiding delusionally, just in case just in case just in case!
Madness comes our way...
Those proclaiming me a bloody nuisance...
How dare she!  Extol what's on her mind!
In hot water all the time she is...F..k them
If my mind can be free not,
Life's won't be worth living...
I hide not behind a façade that everything is groovy!
Groovy everything's not, those blood of my blood
My own existence, not worth living
The truth I'll speak out, come hell or high water
Like papa use to say, do the right thing always.
A child's memories count not for nothing,
A rebel they'd call me!
Having a mind of my own, for my own freedom
To exist in my little corner of my world!
But a rebel I'd rather be than those cowardly pretending,
Banal words they'll extol but doing bugger all
When things they like not, it changes nothing at all.
To give in would be far easier I guess, to just go with the flow...
Putting up with the s..t they'd throw at you.
But that wouldn't be me...
For I, throwing back at them I'll always will, be
Anger exuding within me,
I could crush a grape what's his name used to say...Larry
Funny thing that coming to mind...I'd say.
Forsaken I'll always will, be by those, agreeing not always,
The way they see things.
Ohh Lord, such a lot of hard work coming my way,
With this bloody book of mine.
Hell will freeze for all time...
With me in it, in the flames of hell, I'll forever be
With my rebel-ness...
Anger residing within me...
Even...I'll never be, too many of them
Against me!

Connie James...