Alone!!

Alone!!


This morning my worlds pressing down on me!
There's a weight upon my heart
A gossamer over my eyes, wake I want not
Sorrow residing in my heart...
Loneliness, must I feel so alone
Those in my world understands not me 
What I am what I'll be
Turmoil residing within me!
Chastising my mind, for thinking not.
Spontaneity rules my world
Thinking not always...
But the ambivalence in me,
Living a day at the time, my way...
Care not always what I do or say!   
My nature's to love those in, my world
But if my phraseology fails by the wayside
In whatever I do or say!!
To speak my mind always my way
If those in my world care not to hear what I say
Best stay away!!
From a mind thinking not, always
At war, my mind and I what to do or say
My mind filters not my, thoughts in any way
Flowing through me, whether good or bad
Or indeed ugly...
The essence of me, why must I be me!
This being that knows not copes, cannot
Living from day to day...
Turbulence escaping, me my thoughts,
The very extremities of my mind... 
A being that does not sing and dance at all times
Sinking in the mire of my thoughts
When there's doubt in my mind...
Would rather, sing and dance at every change!!
Except, darkness stealing the light from my mind
Dispersing not that gossamer, impeding the light 
In the darkness, my mind
Alone!!