Et Tu My Heart

ET TU MY HEART

The sun's shining it's a beautiful day
My skies are as bright as a new penny
It's enough to lift my spirits high, you'd say!
But the oppressiveness within me won't let me
Because it's raining in my heart!
Why it's taking this hold on me, I know not
Like a streaming brook, my tears cascading
Can't cope, like a story in my book
Beyond the horizon, I can not see
Moving forward or regress cannot be
Whilst am at odds with this mind of mine.
But you can not disguise the brightness in my skies
The emptiness of a gossamer within my mind
Wonder why do I weep, want not living with it
To relieve my mind I must try, not thinking of him
Stopping these tears flowing from within
I know not why!
It's taking this hold on me my mind my heart
Whenever you look wherever you are
Turmoil, turbulence within me
This ambiguity in me reasons not with me
When I start thinking of him with my heart
My skies are blue just like his eyes so true
Sparkling little diamonds when he laughs
But the ambivalence in me, cannot see his heart
When I start feeling with my heart
In the extremist, my minds in the clouds regress cannot
It hurts too much, want to feel not this way
My tears flowing like a river, arrest cannot
Once the floodgates open hard to halt the flow
But my skies are bright the sun's warm
The birds are singing
But singing I feel not in my heart
Darkness Within!
Brightness reaching not my heart
Heaviness setting deeply within, me
But it's bright outside should I feel
A sadness in my heart!
Et Tu, my heart!!

              By Connie James