Rescu Me!!

RESCUE ME!!

Tears are falling from my skies
As if some soul's weeping in misery
Torrents escaping from their eyes
A turbulent river overflowing in agony
I can feel their misery!!
Hollering in the winds crying out to thee,
Come rescue me!
From the cacophony that I've created
This soul residing within me at odds with me
Searching something that's been eluding me
Something I've lost along the way
Family, sorrow deeply set within me
Retrieve can not it's an impossibility
But the love within me disperses not
Always will be, with me...
Too many questions from me!
Unanswered questions
Thoughts running through me...
Transcending from the depths of me
Understanding not what the hell matters with me
Why can I not, let go, of this hell
A masochist I must be
Am I alone in this, understanding, not our world
Belittling me!
This vendetta against me, & mine I can see!
As if they were better than me!!
How I hate this self-importance
This pretentious in some of us!!
For better, they're not then the rest of us
This hypocrisy!
kissing ass I'll never be!
The queen of queen bees!
Intolerant of others if kowtow not to their wishes
But a mind of mine own I possess
Have always & always will be
In control of mine own faculties
I follow no one a sheep, amongst sheep I'll never be
Am true to those that confide in me
Confidences stays within me
For am a fighter, fight for those that need me
So it's no good punishing me.
For on the side of righteous I'll always be
I know not any other way
True to myself I must be!!
Apologies my world
It seems there's this gossamer cloud
Impeding me from thinking clearly
What the f..k should I care
To hell with them
After all, that's where they've sent me!!
But am one hungry mind looking for lucidity
There's no returning for me!!

                       By Connie James