Reach The Unreachable.

Reach The Unreachable

Good Morning My World!!
This morning my skies are grey..
Impeding me from visualising, what's in my mind
My mind in tatters, most of the time leaving me yearning
For the times of old..
The perpetualness of my being understands not,
Understands not me.
The impetuousness of me..leaving me frayed in tatters
My ambiguous mind, in trouble most times
Leaving me to cry out.
Yet I cry when I can reach not
A conclusion the way my minds work, I understand not 
The ambivalence in me, why should I be me!
This being searching for a reason for living..
When my mind cry's out..
My soul care's not, what I feel within me!
But why should I live in the perpetual emotions
That goes from day to day living,
If one can share not the beauty I see at times,
When I open my eyes, rising up to the skies
Visualising the sun the moon the stars
Imaginings.. 
Why I can't reach, not and touch
Reach for the unreachable..
Matters not how hard I try,
As I reach and reach high, the distance unimaginable
The constriction in my heart at times
Tightens the breath from me, finding I can not breathe
When I think I need more than I need !!
Love and all things in between...
I need not much in my life..
But those that I love
With a passion within.
Bewitching me, or not,
The inexorable explanation suffices not
The reasoning within..
Understanding not, my reasoning,
Whether he cares or not for me
At an impasse,
I find myself, trying understanding
Why am I, as I am..
This being that lives inside of me
Leaving me ambiguously.
Wrestling with my feelings
My feelings that at times
Grows obsessively, in the obsessive, obsession for living
Experiencing.. love, and life.
And everything else in between!

By Connie James