In My Dreams

In our subconscious dreams obsessively will be
As we search for that one consciously
With the torments of hell in the obsession
That person, that's only in our dreams.
Perfectly or otherwise after all its just a dream!
But the anguish in one's hearts painfully
In my dreams the euphoria, of he being there for me
The dream that I've dreamed confusingly
The one that teaches me to feel to see to love within me
See what he sees through the eyes of he, that surrounds me  
See what he sees as he goes searching for me
And in my dreams dream my heart skipping a beat
Standing there seeing him, seeing him waiting for me
That smile that fills my heart with ecstasy,
Please let it be let it be.
In my dreams, there's someone looking for me.
As I search him obsessively in every face I see
And my heart flipping as I caught him looking at me
In mortification dying in my heart, it's no he
In my dreams,
I look into his eyes and say look at me look at me...  
Been waiting such a long time searching, searching for Thee
Your blindness,
Every time you look right through me, you do not see.
Look at me look at me.
In my dreams reaching out for you..your not there
I can see that far away look in your eyes, you do not see me.
You're searching some other obsessively.
If you'd really looked at me.
In your blindness,
You see not me standing there before Thee
In your obsessiveness, going from town to town city to city
Across the water in your ambiguity,
Searching the unattainable love of your dreams.
When I've been waiting patiently, for Thee
In my dreams as only dreams can be,
Reaching touching  your face ambiguously,
You're not, therefore,  me.
My tears spilling out, my hearts crying you see,
For the one, I see in my dreams,
You're not there your not there...
But the ambivalence in me,
The yearning I have for thee
They're just dreams they're just dreams...
Dreams they'll ever be.

                                       By Connie James