Grasping For Sanity.

Oh please my darling go away let me be
For you can quench not this yearning this need in me
A can of worms you've opened can't you see.
My minds working overtime
Your bombarding me all of the time
With words, I know not the meaning of.
This exhilaration in me for I never thought
I had this wantonness this abandonment in me
From those seeds you've planted in my mind
Roots growing all of the time
Reaching deeply within me the longing, I can endure not
Please please shut your mouth for, am kissing you
How can I kiss your eyes your lips
When you keep talking infernal-ly
Struggling with these feeling inside of me
As you keep repeating, repeating words I know not
Inflaming my mind as I get turned on and on
Your sweet nothings are sweeter than honey
As am grasping for the meaning of this lunacy within me
Have to keep repeating all the time the meaning there off
It's playing havoc, in my mind
Please shut up for as demented as I am
Hearing such words burning a hole in my mind
Incandescently words I've never heard of
My face burning red hot the heat within.
It's there for you to see as I am grappling for sanity
My mind inflaming can explain not
This feeling inside of me for I was dead within
The freedom of such speech has left me weak so weak
As I can cope not with such feelings as this
My mind in a mire of lust knowing not how to deal with it
Your incandescent words burning in my mind
Questions questions you're asking all of the time
Questions am reluctantly or can answer not
Never knew anyone like you as you'd insistently
Questions pressing me as I reluctant to see
Please, drop it says I give over give me a break.
A break you wouldn't give not, everything you want to know
From what I feel what I think what I eat what I dream
Such a nosey beggar you are too much for me
I've never felt like this before as you turn me on & on
Lunacy set me free!
Hearing your voice, that first time was shocked tongue tied
You said you'd speak not, sending shivers down my spine
As I heard you talk making some excuse or not
That very first time lost for words was I
I fear good for me you're not, with a body thinking not
Reasoning not in one's mind when there's fever within one's blood
One reason can not when lovers speak..
Sending shivers down one's spine, lunacy comes to mind
My mind Burning somewhat grasping for a reason to be
Feeling your eyes incandescently on me..wanting
The ambivalence in me this wanting you've planted in my mind
I can see not the light between you and I
But the darkness within, the light struggling to feel not,
What am feeling my mind floating on cloud nine
The extremity's this wanting am feeling
It can have not a good ending
Grasping for sanity!

      Connie James.