I haven't Lived

I haven't Lived

By Connie James 

I haven't lived!!

She screamed into the winds. 

I haven't lived.

You do you mean you're glad? 

Apollo!

How would I know!

The differences between one another.

A fairy story is that what you want?

I've known but one love in my life.

I know no different.

Incandescent words phrases lacking in my life. 

Setting my blood on fire.

Oh, dear lord Apollo.

What have you done, setting free 

The beast in me!  

This primitiveness taking hold of me!

Primal feelings am all at sea.

Exuding this obsessive obsession from me.

Cannot have enough.

The sight of your name's enough, making me yearn  

Just like a river running through me!  

The sight of you driving me cuckoo,
Hands cruising over me.

Looking for that screw, I've lost along the way.

So ignorant, so ignorant, I feel.
Apollo; 

Since meeting you

The ins and out's of love.   

The scent of love on my sheets, the reality.

Never experienced such love.

Omg! 

Dead was I, trapped by a silver thread, my soul 

Then comes you freeing the beast the animal

Lying dormant freeing me!

From the dead limbo, I was living, now 

How can I go through life?

Knowing there's so much more to live for! 

You should have left me in the dead limbo,
I was living. 

Ignorance can be bliss, emotionally

Confounded I'll be.

How can I go on, knowing I cannot possess you,

Again?     

My words I write functionally, my imagination 

Running wild

Of thoughts unsatisfied in my mind!    

In me, there must have been the need for life as I know it.

Now how am I suppose to live my life 

Knowing that there is much more of a life one can live. 

One life one love, one's life half lived! 

Did I not deserve much more than this?

Careful for what you wish for, you might get it! 

Your incandescent words, phrases burning my blood  

Flames high fire's so wild.  

I fear cannot have a good ending, Apollo! 

As you touch kiss me, my mind. 

Adrenalin oozing through my blood 

Awakening this primitive being, dormant within me.   

Touch me, darling kiss, kiss me  

Intermingle your breath with mine.

Let me feel the fires in my blood, consuming me  

For all eternity!!