Ahh Misery!! *****

Ahh! Misery

My brains, gone awol
It's not connecting, with me
In turmoil, I'll be, tricks being played on me
As I extol what's on my mind
For he says nought not anything to me
Ahh, misery!!
Wrestling with my mind, in the uncertainty
Feelings at all times
Feeling, feelings I can not hide
Playing havoc with my mind
If only control I could these feelings
Able I've never been, to hide
Won't let me, my heart
This primitive, being residing within me
Raging wild rampaging in the extremities of me
There is nought I can about
How to escape me, I know not
If He above gave, me all these feelings
How can I move forward
Feelings upon, feelings
How to deal with so many feelings
On my sleeve wearing my heart...
An art I've achieved not...
In my heart the constriction, nothing but infernal
Restricting me from thinking
With my heart an impossibility
In the extremities of my mind, easy it'll never be
Retracing one's steps or moving on
At an impasse, I seem to be
Impossible seeing the light ahead
In, my extremities
My acts I comprehend, not in the recesses, of me
My mantra think later act, not first
The obsessiveness is such, understanding I do not
Hide, or not should I, these feelings
It's immaterial, whether I love or not
Missing him, such a lot
I wonder, but when he laughs, with me
Everything's ok, am smiling in my heart
But when my skies are grey, comprehend I do not
Wrestling, in the quagmire, of my thoughts
But on a bright, day when the sun shines, my way
Just enough to see me through, the day
Sitting, on my forever beach
Let my eyes be, mesmerised
By those scintillating, little stars
Glistening on the sea,
The immensity
Stretching before, my eyes
The gloriousness, before me, I see
When my, world's not grey!!