Let Me Live, My Way *****

Let Me Live My Way 

Got up this morning, showered washed 

Blow dried my hair...

Smelling good looking good, even if I say so

myself... 

Know what do I do with my time!!    

Housework, I abhor 

Washing cleaning ironing, what a drag 

My minds screaming, let me out!

Let me live my way...

The way I feel the way I want

OMG!! 

My brains, gone awol I cannot think! 

But if my brain think cannot 

What will become of me!

My world I need, 

To keep me sane keep me safe 

Keeping me from combusting, exploding like

a volcano... 

This is the first day, of all my days to come

Every day encircling me, my world and me   

Every hour every minute every second! 

I fear it's gone...

Much needed stimulation, my mind 

Every day of my life, the little things I do

Struggling every moment, trying to be true 

Taking the piss not...

Am my own person, right? 

I too have want's, wishes desires   

My uncontrollable mind, 

Control cannot, those desires 

Knowing not if to quit or not...

Aberrations!! 

I can see controlling me,

But controlled, I won't be never have been 

nor will ever be...

Am me!!       

The only one controlling my future, you see

Be it right or not for me...

With my time somewhat, I must do

Knuckle down and get on with my editing

Otherwise, run with me, my mind!! 

Not a good thing no, no Siree! 

Have a good day my world...
You, you and me!!   

His Face *****

His face
Ahh, Harry
You want no other.
This is Harry's face
The only face he has, says he!
It's a great face, full of strength,
Mischievious smile...
Many a maiden's heart he's won.
Gazing into his eyes
But that's the face of Harry's
Has launched a thousand ships
Travelling far and wide
Across the oceans the sea's
Arriving in faraway lands
With the beating of drums...
The much-maligned pillaging,
Vikings...
But a heart of gold had he.
With roving eyes
Accessing his paradise
His beauties he came to see.
Hollering just like Harry
Wherever he lands
In a heartbeat...
His face oozing pride
At his beauties by his side...
All of a flutter
His smiling eyes had you.
There's something about, he!
The way he moves the way he,
gazes at you,
The way he stands his ground
His beauties running to him
Caressing his eyes a smile
Bewitchingly!!
Well here stands Harry
With the only face that, he has
Casting his eyes blue,
Beyond yonder...
All he could see was his
His beauties standing by his side
As they gazed at, he...
With pride in their eyes
The pirate boy, the Viking of old
The longest red hair
The bluest of blue eyes
Casting his eyes over his beauties
Such a thrill...
It was no surprise, as they gaze into his eyes
Rampaging Vikings like a storm
In paradise...
Through distant lands, with gust in their eyes
All over the bay, chasing he tirelessly
Harry's birds, their little flocks
With the reddest of hair
And the bluest of eyes!!
   

Get Out Of My Head! ****

Get Out Of My Head 


Darling!
Get out of my head!
For you're embedded in my mind
You do come, to mind when making love
Ahh, darling this longing for you
Always, always so very detached from me;
And yet I can feel your eyes following me
Penetrating gazing, ruling me!
Darling, you can rule me through the week
Softly, softly pianissimo!
Admonishing me for sitting, writing thinking of you
Admonishing me for feeling!
Seeing you!!
Don't ever tell me what to feel see or think!
Darling thinking of you!
Here sit's I, across the water from you
In the freshness of a morning dew
Before the sun opens his eyes
The gloriousness o a new day
Across from me, I see you in your element
Stretching, elongating your body, to the skies
Whilst, sending messages to, your mind
Can you feel not my darling
My eyes following your every move
Worshipping the essence of you
I can hear church bells pealing
Sitting amongst the trees in my wooden cabin
Feeling like Jane waiting for my, primitive Tarzan
The birds are singing,
In a glorious symphony, lifting my spirits high
As I try flying with them from tree to tree
In my mind's mind...
Darling so lonely with, me myself!
But there's still the bells ring elevating me
And being admonished by he;
How I should see, feel or think
As out of his reach I soar higher into infinity
All I can see is your eyes following me
And he shouting at me!
There are rules to follow!!
Fuck the rules say's I, a sheep, I'ver never been
or will ever be!
I've got my own mind to do see and think
As I please...
But darling trying shutting out the cacophony
With my senses interfering...
Darling can you feel not my breath
As I whisper close to your ear...
What am thinking what I'd like to do
Cupping over your eyes my, hands behind you
Kissing your neck, as I travel down your spine
Kiss each and every vertebra
A fantasy, as I feel your every sinew
Looking into your eyes
Penetrating through me an infusion,
Reawakening me, the adrenalin
Intoxicating my blood
Into a point of no return, carrying me
Concentrate, cannot, minds all over the shop
Sitting here like a bird in a gage
Whispering, wind's all around me
Swaying in the breeze, dancing undulating;
The sweetest of sounds a flute, someone's playing
Raising my hair, that sound!
Casting my gaze beyond yonder I see nought
But a fluttering of birds panicking, between the trees
Perching, on that skeletal tree, in front of me
Squawking infernally...
Darling where will you be!
Thinking of you...

                   

Ahh Misery!! *****

Ahh! Misery

My brains, gone awol
It's not connecting, with me
In turmoil, I'll be, tricks being played on me
As I extol what's on my mind
For he says nought not anything to me
Ahh, misery!!
Wrestling with my mind, in the uncertainty
Feelings at all times
Feeling, feelings I can not hide
Playing havoc with my mind
If only control I could these feelings
Able I've never been, to hide
Won't let me, my heart
This primitive, being residing within me
Raging wild rampaging in the extremities of me
There is nought I can about
How to escape me, I know not
If He above gave, me all these feelings
How can I move forward
Feelings upon, feelings
How to deal with so many feelings
On my sleeve wearing my heart...
An art I've achieved not...
In my heart the constriction, nothing but infernal
Restricting me from thinking
With my heart an impossibility
In the extremities of my mind, easy it'll never be
Retracing one's steps or moving on
At an impasse, I seem to be
Impossible seeing the light ahead
In, my extremities
My acts I comprehend, not in the recesses, of me
My mantra think later act, not first
The obsessiveness is such, understanding I do not
Hide, or not should I, these feelings
It's immaterial, whether I love or not
Missing him, such a lot
I wonder, but when he laughs, with me
Everything's ok, am smiling in my heart
But when my skies are grey, comprehend I do not
Wrestling, in the quagmire, of my thoughts
But on a bright, day when the sun shines, my way
Just enough to see me through, the day
Sitting, on my forever beach
Let my eyes be, mesmerised
By those scintillating, little stars
Glistening on the sea,
The immensity
Stretching before, my eyes
The gloriousness, before me, I see
When my, world's not grey!!

Oh, Infamy!! *****

Oh, Infamy!!

This empty canvas staring back at me
Fill I must from my memories
Your eyes!
Deep dark blue pools drowning me
Just a look from you, weak at the knees I'll go
Inhaling the scent of me
I can see pleasure, in your eyes
You'll know that's, me!
Your mouth sending shivers down my spine
Pleasuring, me...
With each kiss an agony;
That warm feeling exuding, through me
Evoking such, memories...
Echoing, through me a passion, sublime
As you touch me, insistently...
Ahh, darling from me you've been, away
Such a long time!
Now I must paint, you from the recesses, of my mind
Will never cease, my memories of you
Each brush stroke, echoing through me
Each memory, exuding from the very depths, of me
Tears are falling from, my skies
Mine eyes weep, oh misery!
The memory, of your hands, softly caressing, me
Whilst your, mouth sending thrills, through me
And I protest incandescently...
Through, the process of delirium, arriving
Yet I guess, upon this empty, canvas I must record
Echoing a time so wild, in my mind...
A time, when we'd laughed, sang and danced.
Your dancing eye's, oh dear Lord!
Your dancing eyes...
Whilst I've inhaled the scent, of you
Intoxication, taking hold, of me 
Into a journey of no return, invokingly
To hell, on the wings of desire
Intoxicating my brain, deliriously
Impeding me from thinking, clearly,
Blind my eyes, would be
On the wings of a phoenix, swaying
Carrying me to close, to the sun
As Icarus before me!
As I disrobe sensations, overwhelming me!
Grappling someplace, to anchor me.
As if a dopamine, entered my blood
The effect you have, on me
You're eyes penetrating, taking hold of me
Oh, ecstasy!!
But a thorn I think I've become;
Meek I never was, nor will I ever be;
I know, my mind and I like, what I see before me!
Oh, infamy!!
Your eyes, tempting,
They'll be the ruination, of me
As I dive deep into your soul, drowning me
For you, this will be
You've always believed, in me.
But why do you make me, bleed!
This canvas before me,
Will, I ever fill irrevocably
If I start at the, strongest of points
My love for thee!!