Crucifying Me ***

Crucifying Me

Why would you, crucify me,
My lovely!!
Missing you.
But why should I miss you
When you miss not me?
There's a fire in my heart, embers high...
Feeling not too well my lovely...
My body's giving up on me, I hurt within, me
I feel that...No!  let's not go there!
But why should you care, empathy not anywhere
My curiosity is such, had it been me
That delve would I be had-it been thee
There are tears in my heart
A deluge drowning me...
Swiming against the tide always will I be!
Falling into a chasm of mine own making
I know you care, not...
Yet silly fool am I!
Into your arms running at a click of your fingers;
Missing your eyes gazing at me!
That look, that sends me inexplicably barking mad!
I've tried and lost the plot when it comes down to you!
It takes every once of me
Not to call you in the night when am in need of you
When it's so dark and I can see not a silhouette
By the window...
Lying in my naked body, feigning sleep
My body cries out for you, love me do!
But it took all I possessed,
Not to crawl to you to love me,
Instead, am pretending, am sleeping
Lost in the labyrinths of my mind
Falling into a precipice and you're not anywhere
To stop me from falling into the chasms, of my mind;
A sadness runs through me,
I can bear not to see you flaunting, about with, she
But why should I care, it's not the skin of my nose
When she'll turn around and walks away from thee
I just hope she loves you better than me!
In the darkness of my nights reaching you
But you're not there my lovely your not there
Insidious thoughts, on my mind,
For a song is missing in my heart, not smiling
Out of my window, I see
A world that includes not me
It's as dark and lonesome as can be
A gossamer cloud impeding me...
There are tears falling from my skies
It doe's, not help me
From visualising you in the eyes of my mind
Are, as blind as can be
For I cannot see thee!!

                            By Connie James