It Used To Be... *****

It Used To Be

Cannot reach your mind
Darling;
There's this gossamer impeding me
From seeing you in my mind's eyes
Even the moon, in her full bloom
Hidden, behind the trees;
That awesome, vision reminds me of thee
But you've been, silent quite sometime
And I cannot reach, your mind
The silence's killing, me
Why, would it be,
You're, punishing me!!
But for what punishing, me!
Understanding not,
Ambiguity, taking hold, of me
How can one weep, so many tears
Like a river spilling, from me
Abandoning me!!
I'd love to know, the reason
Maybe just tired, of me!
Tired of you, I'll never be
My reason, for living through, my days
The sun shines not my way;
So dark in my heart, achingly...
Yet I see, your cold blue, eyes looking at me!
They've become cold so cold!
Like those icebergs, you're photographing
Hardening your heart what can I say!!
In the darkness of my nights missing you
You've turned, off the lights, in your eyes
Matters not how hard I try!
I cannot reach, the stars in your, eyes
But behind your windows I see you!!
Tormenting me!!
In my bones, I can feel your reaction to me
It's so hard to imagine, you thinking of me
Unfavourably...
I've become not, the apple of your eyes
Or maybe a thorn, on your side...
But, I imagine, you still kissing my, eyes
my lips eagerly complying
Making, love on those, fields of green
In our primitiveness, what a scream!
Now we have, nought to say
Never thought it would come, the day
That we'd pass, the other without, a say
In my heart tears, choking the breath, from me
But in my mind's eye's I still see he!
As he used to be;
Laughter in his eyes kisses, for me
And a cheery hi,
It used to be!!