To Please Me *****

Why should it be
two souls residing within me
Looking into my mirrored glass
I see two of me!
My right side coordinates not my left
Am a little askew
My face synchronises not with my left from my right
My ribs synchronises not my right
Under my ribs my heart going boom, boom
My left leg slightly longer than the right
I never knew this until my physiotherapist
Exclaims your left leg is longer than your right
Well, what can I say!
What do I do what do I say!!
Always feels right not in any way
I care not if my heart excepts not my way
Or what they do what they say...
I care not for any flattering ways
My brain says no, no way!!
But I love feeling with, my heart   
But excruciating pain coming my way
When I feel with my heart
My heart's breaking fragmenting in every way
Kissing the memory of you
In my mind's mind am struggling every day
Correlating easy is not the two
No, no way!!
These two beings residing within me
At times not at all in harmony
Not at all in sync with me
Struggling just to be me
Looking into my mirrored glass
The left not in sync with my right
Two beings are facing me! I see
But in my heart of hearts
I've only one heart within me
On mind!!
In disharmony the two sides of me
I've all these feelings within me
What's the use if I can't use these feeling just for me
To please me!
Why am I fighting my mind the very core of me
In harmony would love to be just me!
When my hearts crying out just let me be!
This being residing within me!!

               By Connie James