Peace of Mind!

Peace of Mind

My brains a cacophony waiting to explode
It's as busy as Picadilly circus
or London city in a rush
Can not move, my head won't let me
as if on the tiles I've been all night
swinging from tree to tree!
An explosion inherently within me
it won't let go of me;
Shun me!
Why he would shun me!
My tears torrents a flowing river
flowing down to the sea
Rushing through me
I want to scream like a banshee
The Moon in her element won't let me!
The disturbance nothing less than infernal
plastering their likeness before me
like hyenas laughing mocking me!
tormenting me!!
On my visage a smile I plaster
but in my heart, they cannot see
Within me killing me!
To the sea, I should go down maybe
let the waves wash over me
cleanse it may do my fu.ked up mind
from this agony.
Or an illusion that I'll always forever be
this being tormented within me!
Or contented should I be that he shuns me.
The stellar in my skies, my mind he'll always be
Reaching high & try plucking he
he's always just beyond me...
Reach I cannot the stars in his eyes
as he looks at me mockingly...
Gone away from me.
Yet there I see he!
Shining upon my skies his light scintillatingly
In silhouette, he'll be pretending he see's not me
my mind deplorable the cacophony will always be
That star that's he, I'll reach & pluck
& across my firmament, I'll skim he
beyond my universe...
If he, I see not scintillating upon my skies
a chance there might be that peace of mind
peace within me!

                    By Connie James