Tormenting Me!

A little prayer...

Lord!
I understand not me!!
I've sinned against Thee, it seems to me
For my sin's been too much jabbering
Too many words exuding from the depths of me
Not because I've killed or robbed anybody
Or spoken ill out of anyone
Or indeed, did a bad deed
Or even wishing ill of anyone...
Accursed I must be;
Those I care for always deserting me
Confounded I'll always be
If those that know me understand, not me
I've always been told that I talk too much
Too many questions I ask
Has always been such with me
It's not just, am a nosy Parker...
My curiosity will be the ruination of me
But it's a way of communicating
Those that interest me;
But lord if one asks questions not
How does one get to know anybody!
For I am an open book you see
Interested in everybody...
That's what makes me, me!!
But my sin exudes from within me
My curiosity to learn from those,
in my vicinity, a sin must it be!
You know Lord!
What's said to me stays with me
I spread not to all & sundry
Even as they fall out with me
Intrinsically it's guarded within me
You see Lord there's no one out there for me
To listen to my woe's my worries
Am so tired of being just me!
I know we live in a selfish world
A world of just me, me, society!
I like not this world I find myself in
Just me, depending on me;
But why should that surprise me!
Those that I care for will always desert me
Even when I cry a river I cry guardedly
Wanting not anyone to see my misery...
A sinner I must be Lord!
Maybe it's inherently in me;
I love to laugh joke be naughty
Have fun  & whoop hilariously
Let my hair down, just like anybody
Why have you deserted me O lord
Just like mama deserting me
Leaving me standing there weeping;
Why did she die on me!
Tormenting me!!
A sinner I really must be!!
A troubled me...

        Connie James...