Brain Of Mine ***

Brain of mine

Why won't you just shut up
O brain of mine!
Quit with all your thinking
For I'll end up in trouble & strife
With the crap that's on your mind
Why must you always:
This infernal, yabbering
They need not know what your thinking;
Enough's enough;
Just shut up & let me be alone with me;
Why!
Must you go on infernally
Why can't you just let me be;
Just quiet down O brain of mine, let me be!
But you never listen to me!
Damn you
Driving me & those in the vicinity
Around the bend;
Question every little thing why must you?
Can't you see you're killing me!
Then you hit back at me
Accusing me of ambiguity
Questions you must ask you telling me;
Question after question I'll never change you see
O brain of mine just let me be alone
Alone with me;
But my aloneness is driving me you say accusingly;
What the hell!
Go away & let me be:
The ambivalence in me I know not what's to be
Am tired of jumping feet first, without thinking
It's killing me!
There's an ache within me, deep the very core of me;
What, its done to me breaking me!
Fragmenting into thousand's of little pieces
Leaving me ambiguously don't you see;
Trying so hard not, to be like
This being residing within me
Driving me into oblivion I'll be;
No such luck you see;
It won't let me be my brain
Within me the cacophony.
Like a brass band playing infernally;
That worm in your ear repeatedly reciting for me
Pissing me off those, eventually in my bad books will be
Why must I be so high & mighty within my mind;
Repeating repeatedly! Go away!
O brain of mine quieten down, just let me be;
But with the fairy's in fairyland, I want not to be
But kicking butt, you see its inherently within me
The uncertainty;
A hopeless case kicking butt I'll be;
No it's not for me...
Here we go again you see, how hopeless it's for me;
So just shut up & let me be.
An impossibility!

  By Connie James