Am Only Human

Am only human after all;

That's just the crux, we're only human
We all have minds hearts feelings desires;
Being broken our hearts
& perhaps it's just one of those things
That maybe, we think we need more than we need
Echoing through my mind that song
We're only human after all:
We're all creatures with needs desires
But do we need all we want or think we want!
Desires!
Do we really need what we think we need
Echoing through me at this precise moment
The agony of that song my throat constricting
Why must we blame others for our inadequacies
When full of sorrow our hearts;
Without a chance a of returning our yesterdays gone
Such a wreck I am to think
That a song can leave me in a state of despair
Of mourning;
A screw lose there must be within me
Hate to feel!
I want not to feel it hurts;
As if my insides are turning inside out
An emotional being residing within me
Leaving me at the gates of hell, emotionally
Fighting my heart, my mind
Telling me!
You need not feel:
Emotions from yesterday
When love came out to play
When we were fanciful & free
Without a care in the world, that was me!
But why!
Are the floodgates flowing through me
Like a turbulent river finding its way to the sea
Without warning a chance overwhelming me
Feel the music papa used to say to me;
Now in cuckoo land I find  myself
Knowing not how to switch off these feelings
Forever within me; ruling me.
Feeling more than I need to be;
But I guess am only human
After all:

             By Connie James