Love Once Lived ..

Hello, My World...
My world's not smiling on me...
A prisoner...It's holding me...In the things that I see,
Exaggerating not my mind, those that were with me
Once upon a time, happiness was the way
Sitting here feeling as miserable as sin
I guess feeling sorry for myself...
Flowing tears within my heart my soul
Like a curse, I must endure.
But it's so hard to think those that were with me
Casting that first stone, breaking me...
In the sight of my eyes, I see a world, not with me
But a, world so far apart from you and me
Those that were in my world,
Now forever gone, without a chance of returning to me!!
Dispersing not the illusion that they were family
Let the delusion disperse not.
My eyes can not see the light at the end of that tunnel
That darkness killing me...
Will there ever be lightness
In between my dark thoughts
My thoughts a dark aberration the light it can not see
Is it worth living in the darkness of my thoughts
In the darkness of my nights when I can sleep not!!
Thinking of those that justifiable or not
Have cast that first stone
Whether I spoke the truth or not.
Those in my world the truth they like not
But cowardly, cowering, without a thought.
An original thought they have not
Like sheep...blindingly following those they should not
Whether am right or not...
A free world its suppose to be, whether you like it or not...
So with me, they must do without,
A thorn on their sides I'll be...
Sad to think of them with love not...
My world they, broken up.
Let the Illusion disperse not
that love once lived...
Such a lot!

                                     Connie James...