Running Amok

 
   Running Amok

   My brain's, gone AWOL It's gone away from me
   Every time I try extolling, what's in my mind.
   Minds in turmoil.
   My love says not..not anything to me
   The ambiguity in me my, minds wrestling all the time
   With feelings within, feelings I can not hide.
   In my minds mind playing havoc with me
   These feelings I could hide not, feelings within me.
   And each time I try my feelings run wild, in the extreme
   Running amok...
   Running rampantly this wildness in me;
   In my mind the anguish within me, there's not, a lot I can do about.
   It's very well feeling, these feelings within me 
   If one knows not how to deal with them.. seriously
   In my heart, my mind my soul 
   This constriction, is nothing less than infernal
   Restricting me from freely thinking
   But in the extremity's of my minds, it's easy not
   Whether one's goes toward or not, an impasse
   Impeding one's very movement in the extremist
   The ambiguousness in me is such, understanding I do not
   Why, such feelings should I hide, or not.
   Whether I love or not, missing him such a lot 
   It's immaterial, they say.
   But when my skies are grey, I can understand not,
   The quagmire of my thoughts wrestling, within me
   But in a bright, bright day when the sun shines my way,
   Just enough to see me through
   Sitting on that forever beach, 
   Let my eyes be mesmerized
   The immensity,
   Stretching before one's very eyes
   The gloriousness I can see,
   When my world's, not grey.

   By Connie James.