Et Tu My Heart.!

         Et Tu My Heart 
 
It's a beautiful day there's brightness in my skies
  Is enough to light my spirits sky high, you'd think..
  But the constriction in my heart won't let me
  Open my eyes, cause it's raining in my heart
  For a start, I know not why taking this hold
  Tears cascading like a streaming brook
  In my mind like a story in my book,
  Letting me not seeing beyond the horizon far
  Whilst my mind regressing not or moving forward
  But the brightness in my skies you can not disguise
  The emptiness within, my soul.
  I wonder why my eyes do cry I want not living with it
  Must do somewhat to relieve my mind
  To stop these tears flowing from within.
  I know not why!
  It takes this hold of my mind my soul
  Whenever one looks you can see not the turmoil
  The turbulence within me
  But the ambiguity in my mind listens not
  To the pain in my heart
  Whenever I start thinking of him.
  My skies are blue, just like his eyes so true
  Sparkling little blue diamonds when he laughs
  But the ambivalence in me sees not he's heart
  When I start feeling with my heart..
  My mind in the clouds, in extremis
  Like this I want to feel not, it hurts too much
  Whilst my tears like a river flows stopping can not
  To halt the flow..once the flood gates overflowing
  But my skies are bright the sun's warm the birds are singing
  But I feel not singing in my heart, darkness within
  But the lightness outside, reaching not my heart
  Heaviness setting deeply within me.
  But it's bright outside I should feel not
  Sadness in my heart..                                                                                                                                 Sadness within. 
  Et Tu My heart.!

                           By Connie James.