Obsessive Obsession.

Oh my..the sky's are looking just like my soul
the rumblings that thunder just like the thunder in my heart
my soul's feeling anguished at this precise moment, not matter how I try propping myself  up
For he cares not what I feel within, for it's all or nothing it seems to me

I try and sleep when the night is through, and by morn am still thinking of you
I count on my fingers the difference in time between you and I.
if I wake up at eight it's twelve your way, your half through your day,
I never able to catch with you as your going further and further from me,                                                                                                                                                  
But today there's tears pouring from the sky and my eyes
That we're so far apart much further than before, what's changed why have you gone away from me
Am sitting here waiting for a word from you,  but you sit behind your window ignoring
Just ignoring me, but you're in my mind continuously,  like an obsessive obsession taking hold of me,

Once you said that you made me as I am, you can do whatever with me
Am in this predicament because of you, because you made me feel damn you
You should have left me in the limbo where I was, was much happier without this pain in my heart
Ignorance was bliss I knew not any better until you showed up turning my life inside out

Your right there, you made me the way I am now, I knew not such feelings existed I was dead within
or knew not any better.The highs and lows I've been through just because of you
never imagining that one could go so high, then crashing down so low
Why won't you answer me when I ask of you, my minds in turmoil never getting an answer

even when I do what you want me to do, writing words you want to hear, or what have you
but you ignore my words disdainfully, acknowledging not whether you liked it or not
playing havoc with my mind, playing naffing psychological games with me seeing if, you can break me.
you should have left me in the fog that was my world, with dead feelings that were within

but you made me use my mind, my imagination, running wild without frontiers what's so ever.. in my mind
I was in no man's land with my imaginings, but then it was getting too much for you
unable to control the feelings inside of me, just like a child wanting that toy, nothing else would do
oh, what was I to do, as I could not curtail those feelings so true, so pure or not

but I was this wild thing with love in my heart, I warned you I was growing uncontrollably
Trying to put the brakes rein me in, but you said you liked it that way,
Now I feel I must keep my distance from you, you're driving me bonkers with this need for your words
know not or care not to control these feelings inside of me, just like a teenager growing uncontrollably

I suppose never grew up not really if inside of me this need to hear that one's loved
time and time again pushing the frontiers more and more, leading her on..seeing what she'll do
so okay professor you've achieved your goal, she would follow you to the ends of the world
and more; but now we're at an impasse unable to continue, as things are now.

am always asking where are you, as you sit behind your window pane pretending you do not see
you were away such a long time, a long time from me, would like to know the reason "why."
I knew this would not last long, but it would last as long as it would, but now that the shit hits the fan
am left with the agony that you were just playing with me.

                                                  By Connie James