Feb 9Th

Feb 9th
Many moons ago on this day, I was born
On this paradise Island in the Sun
Oh what a gay day one would have thought
As Mama took me home, on that fated day
A pretty little thing I was not, so they said
Grandmama hissing...
Aren't you ashamed to bring that home...
As if two heads had, I!
A ray of sunshine she was not.
Know not what mama said or thought
She talked not a lot my mama harassed, was she
By the she-devil that Grandmama was!
My early years, many memories I have not!
Except, for my brother my playmate,
Papa was my world, my hero my everything...
Also, remember screaming having fallen over a kettle
of boiling water...
Not Mama fault I'd say...
Was burnt such a lot still, have the scare to this day!
Brought home to me, one must not leave a kettle
Where a child can reach!
Mama must have been out of her mind
Papa being home not but, at his music practice...
A stick insect was I thin, as a rake through my early years
Did she care for me, I know not...
Am I being a misery?
From the others differently, she treated me not
I guess her hands full must have been,   
Cannot remember she hugging me...
In between the years remember much not busy asa bee was she...
I guess I haven't made it easy.
I understood not why outsiders would say,
That she'd be the best of the lot...
Their meaning I knew not, Mama like-it not a lot 
Am I being unfair unkind, easy her life was not,
I know not!!
An ugly duckling was I or so thought I!
Thinking back, many moons ago growing up...
Confounded was I
My body I liked not, my bum my boobs, oh Lord
My neck giraffe-like, too long for my liking
My feet enormous thought I...
Why so ugly was I?
For I was made not to feel otherwise!
Self-conscious hating those outsiders stares,
I abhorred passing by men, they stared such a lot
Hissing hated it embarrassing, I understood not 
So innocent was I!
I knew not nought at all, I knew bugger all!! 
The bane of my life they were...
I knew not how to act, what to say
So I became detached from my feelings switching offmy mind... 
Following stalking me, I guess today you'd say
Their attention welcomed not in any way...
But I came through this lark of this growing up, stage
Unscathed I'd say, giving myself not to anyone
Mama would have skinned me alive!! 
No no Siree!
I was meant for the one from across the waters,
Loaded he came with cameras hanging from his neck...
In a blink of an eye, he'd recorded every angle of me
On his camera lens !!...
Mad I thought was he, didn't know what he saw in me!! 
Go away said I!!
But a seed he'd plant on my mind, so slowly germinating. 
Until one day a butterfly metamorphosing
from that chrysalis that was I...
Becoming aware that he'd show, time and time again
From his neck at all times cameras hanging...
Am here am I, many moons since an ugly duckling was I
Just one love!!... 
But there are times, I think I need more than I need
Experiencing not any other, missing something comes to mind!
Wondering if the blue-eyed, on my mind         
What can one say, when one thinks one needs
Much more than one needs...
He's embedded on my mind after, all many moons
Have gone by, I know not...   
I know bugger all!!   

Henry the Storm

Henry The Storm

By Connie James

Ohh, Henry!
You've done it again, losing your rag.
Temper, haven't I told you before
To curb your acts of violence...
I can see the destructive nature in you
Why must you act dastardly
When you can not get, your way
Blue in the face holding your breath
Ominously I'll know what's on its way.
Erupting like a volcano, you'll blow and blow.
A tornado, a whirlpool's imminent
Stop it, Henry, stop it!!
Just quietly go and play in the woods.
It'll do you good, you know!!
Just curb your ways!
But listen, Henry would not.
Standing, holding his breath.
His lungs about to burst...
Oh, dear Lord!
It's starting again...
He'll blow and blow with a vengeance!
Stop it, Henry, stop it!!
Can't you see the devastation before you?
Uprooting trees
And the rain Henry!
Why must you let it rain too
Won't just the wind do?
The vehicles on the highway
Why must you play,
Flipping them every which way
Scattering for all to see
The power of Henry!
You're a bad boy, Henry
you're a bad boy!!
Enough Henry, enough!!
We want to see not, roofs flying by.
Vehicle floating like toys!
And for that matter
Cows we want not to see
Flying through the air
Imagine!
If they'll decide to go
That'll teach you if it falls on you
But Henry heed he took not
Would listen not...
About to burst, red in the face was he!
The control he could not help this feeling.
Exuding through, he...
As he opens his bellows, blows and blows
Dastardly he'd blow...
His eyes blue cold as ice, in their intensity!!
That whirlwind like a funnel,
Tornados, imminently...
Must stop, must calm you.
Throwing my mantle over you
Holding you tight was all I could do
The sun's peeping through now, Henry!!
Look about you Henry, look about you
Your temperament will be the ruination of you
Abate, you must do...
Pay heed, not those that mock you
We know that you're, powerful
Abate, you must, that power
Within, you...

You Belong To Me

You Belong To Me!
In mine melancholy
I shall write my phrases
My words my verses, of love
Feeling your loss, in my life
I compare thee to Andromeda
The loveliest of stars, to mine eyes
Beyond my universe, out of reach
Reaching to touch the stars in your eyes
Glistening in mine darkest, of skies!
But you are, as distant as the Sun, the Moon
All aligned the planets before me
Might as well, be Uranus Pluto and Jupiter too
And Neptune in his element
Watching you! 
Confounded I'll be if I'll ever see, you
Amongst those stars!
As I write my saddest phrases, in my heart.
It was written in the stars
You belong to me!! 
But lost to me you'll ever be
If I cannot reach those stars, scintillating
Upon my skies...
Blinking in the distance, like fairy light's
Glistening...
You are my light my love my "God"
Penetrating through me your eyes
What chance have I!
O'my darling my life my love.
Wherever you are...
Embers will always be burning in my heart
Extinguish will never be, from me...
Opening my window, letting the night in
Holding in my hands this flickering candle
Exuding the faintest of light, to just about see
As I write upon my mind in melancholy...
In silhouette in the darkest of mine hours I see you
Searching you in the eyes of my mind
Blind will ever be!
If before the rising of the Sun
Unfurling before mine eyes, like a bud
And then will I see starlight glistening 
Ascending in your eyes
In the distance!!

Freedom !

Freedom's the key to happiness
When one's mind's free
To think to live to write
When all is in, harmony...
Free to feel, take to hold your face
In, mine hands...
To look into your eyes and dream !!
It's a killer!
O'dear lord looking into your eyes
Just like daggers piercing mine, heart
Sweetest of pains exuding through me
When with my hear I feel!!
But my mind won't let me, feel
With mine heart...
You're the air I breathe, the sun keeping me warm
And the rain that feeds the roots,
In, mine heart.
When it storms...
You are the breeze whispering over me
Keeping me cool when am flapping, in the heat
And you are the flames that keep me dancing,
Through my nights...
Kissing my mind my lips
Encapsulating me my thoughts, as I dream
If free one cannot be,
What's the point of this life
Living on the edge of a blade seems not right
If into a chasm must I fall, when dreaming
into the night...
Searching your arms to hold me close
Hold, on for dear life
As I kiss your lips your eyes in the labyrinths,
of my mind...
If in freedom I cannot live
What's the point,
Of this life!!

His Face!

"His face"
Is the only one I see
As I close my eyes
Feeling his breath upon my cheek
As he's nudging, up to me...
His touch sending shivers through me
Oh, dear Lord, it's killing me!!...
His eyes like laser beams,
Darkest of dark, striking through me
As my turbulent, undulating seas
From my slumber waking me,
From hell, with a promise of rollicking... 
His mouth devouring me
In the extremities of my mind,
Into a cavern I find myself falling
Into a labyrinth crawling
In the streets the labyrinths, of all times
Lost within me my mind...
He knows how to play me, like the strings
Of his guitar.
"Oh ecstasy", running his fingers down my spine
As if frets my vertebrae would be...
Making me purr euphorically...
Intoning in my ear his voice
All around vibrations, running through me
And am lost, as he touches me!!
Oh dear lord, I scream as he finally !!   
Losing all sense of reason, undulating under, he
To Nirvana and back taking me!
Easily my tears flowing,
Sustain, cannot this feeling, running through me...
Abandonally I cry as he!!
Touches his lips with mine, knowingly
Snapping my strings ping!
So long he plays me like, his guitar
Lovingly!
In, my ear singing...
A marvellous, creature you be...
Missing, he!

Words Phrases...

Words Phrases, Palavras Parole
Lines drawn across my pages
Writing words between the lines
Easy it's not at all times
Phrases words of love
Easily coming not to me
At empty blank pages starring
Empty spaces of my mind
At all words coming not easy...
On the tip of my tongue refusing to let me
Transfer into paper, an impossibility   
At this moment in time, mind in a fog
Won't let me!! 
In a foggy laden, morning dew
sitting thinking of you, as we were
The scents in the air, amongst the trees
Heavily laden in dew...
As I tiptoeing running to you.
Your love...
This much-needed manna
Descending upon this parched land
Rising up to the skies my face, refreshingly
Without refrain setting upon you... 
Ahh! Your eyes the colour of a stormy night
Turbulent just like you!
The darkest of velvety blues, like an ocean,
Undulating calling me tempting me, your eyes!
Embers burning, mesmerising me...
What a sight to see, caressing me !!
Whispering in the breeze, undulating before me
Cannot help but think of your, warm eyes
Penetrating me...
A touch just a slight touch, loving you
In between the lines struggling coming to me
Desiring, but words come not easily
An impediment within me!...
Casting my words with easy, desirable would be
If on the tip of my tongue, flowing with ease
But it's a right cacophony...
In the extremities of my mind
Whenever I think of thee...
Behind the drapes of my mind a waterfall,
insistently flowing...
In between the recesses losing myself, my reasoning
Trapped in between the lines the extremities of my mind
Wondering...
Searching that much-beloved face
That's ingrained on my mind
A face I cannot find not in the recesses of my mind
A face that's left me,
Or me that's left that face behind...
In the crowded streets still searching, I see you
in the eyes of my mind...
He that I adored the very core of me
My very last tear my last drop of blood...
But I know I know in my heart
That unattainable face I've searched,
that I've left behind... 
Lost in the recesses of my mind...
In between the lines writing, memories coming alive
He's the one that gave me life, my dreams
The one that embedded music in my heart...
None stopping my pen, as I go on dreaming
In the forefront of my mind...
Running away with my pen, words coming on easily 
Refrain will not, galloping away with me
Deeply embedded roots in my heart,
He was part of me!           
Losing along the way, never to be seen again
Ingrained in my mind words, always will be
Always does not come easy...
"Words"
Simple words, the easiest one can extol
I love you!
Papa... 

   

Reality Sucks

It's not a world of make-believe
Full of giving full, of love
For those without expectations from their day to day living...
It's a selfish world that cares not worries not
For those that in their world have nought.
One can say I love still, even though they agree not
Spewing falsehoods...
But if you love me, you'll have to love the whole of me
Half measures won't do!
Even in my contradictory ways, my thinking 
The same as you I'm not, my mind I do speak
Whether you'll approve or not...
I cuckoo land I live not, the world we live in
Has become cruel so cruel
Nought changes since, times immemorial...
Even though change we cannot
Turn around as we'd like too! 
The power of one, just won't do
We need to gather such a lot, of beings
Caring for those that have nought...
Is it an illusion, to expect, that the peoples
of our world, to live in peace in harmony     
Fearing fear not...
For if our minds we cannot speak
We've lost the plot...
Fearing fear helps not, change our world
Without fear of distrust of retribution.
For the neighbour the brother, the friend!
Our worlds full of fear, those that have not
Peace of mind is a must...
The tribulations living their days in fear, misery 
Knowing not whom to trust...
The words I write not welcome by all its true
But my words come from the heart
As soon as I start simply, cannot let go
Whether its agreeable or not
Quite frankly I've never expected you too
But it would be a sad world if my words were misconstrued
I speak my words, not in malice without thinking
My trouble seems I think too much
My thoughts just flow!
For in my nemesis does not justify, the punishment 
Of the peoples of our world, the have noughts
Indeed I do not !!