Fires Still Burning

Darling!
Fires still burning in my, blood
That look in your eyes,
Incandescently, burning through me.
Marvellous, creature, says he
As I get up and brush my hair
Within you, fires still burning
Changed you have not!!
And I laugh gazing at, he...
For the decaying of me, he does not see.
Your still that girl, I first saw in that far away, land
Smiling shyly, just as you are now...
Just like an exotic flower, waiting to be picked
A bird of paradise, in the sunshine,
I fell for you then and there...
Now looking at you, you've lost not that elegance
I saw in you...
It's still there as you brush your hair
His eyes, following me every which way I moved,
That proud look in your eyes!!
The fires are still burning in his minds, eyes
Pulling me on to him...
I see not this mesmerisation he has of me!
Has been there from the start...
Yet I thought you mad, this obsessive hold on me
Fluttering butterflies, in my blood...
We had eyes for no other, coming back time after time
To mine island in the sun!
Making love with thine eyes...
Your camera lens spoke volumes, in my face
Wrapping me, on that staircase
Every angle of me you took, whispering,
Divine!
And you haven't lost that look, in your eyes
Fires burning all the while...
I feel your eyes, burrowing into me, as I moved
Yet at times I've doubted in, my mind
This love has lasted beyond time
For I had eyes not, for any other
Spoiling my chances of some other love.
Yet they won't let me be, chasing me!
Silly fools, go away let me pass...
For I have eyes for no other, but he!
Even today, at my sale of by date, they still do stare.
And I think bloody fools, making my life a misery,
With their looks...
But there are times, in my minds, mind
It seems I need, much more than I need...
Experiencing no other, was I missing something!!
Would love alone suffice, making me see
I need no other but he!!
A bed of roses has been not at, all times
For I, have a mind of my own...
Clashing at times, breathing fire like a dragon...
The devilishness in me...
But calming, down love has won, somehow
Yet I see the windows of my world looking, through me.
Am I missing something, unfaithful never been
Except at times my mind, wanting more than I need
For the fires, burning intrinsically...   
That elusive look, in his eyes
Simmering embers burning his blood, oh my!
The Stellar in my skies, you'll always be.
Making love triumphantly!...
Running through me my blood, the ecstasy
At that moment in time, escaping I wanted not
Consuming fires my mind my blood.
As he whispers yet again, you've changed not a bit... 
Thanking the lord, the decaying of me, he does not see
Even my tears extinguish cannot the fire,
As he eloquently brushes, his lips against mine
I cry out in the delirium of love
Burning embers consuming,
The fire in his eyes!!

In Your Eyes!!

In your eyes, I see that distant look
Gazing at this Autumnal vision
Of, impressive golds reds and rusts
And the silvers, slowly fluttering dancing
in the breeze...
Darling, look at me!
What do you see, you're so far from me
That far away look, back in your eyes
That look that tells me
That you may need, more than I can give
Or is it being whom I am...
Expecting too much from you
Much more, than your prepared to give 
Have I become too much for you!
Drinking the essence of you, my eyes
In my minds eyes, I see you
Caressing me...
Your eyes following me across the room
Beating like a drum my heart, boom, boom
Irrepressibly running away with me
Wishing you'd take hold of me, making me
feel real...
From across the street where I live
Just across the water from you
In my mind's mind, I see you so clearly
Through my window pane...
Even though these gossamer nets of my mind
Imped cannot me from visualising
The light in your eyes...
Ahh, darling!
Can you not see, me looking at you
The hunger in my eyes, in my very extremities
There I cannot go, you see...
I'd so love you to hold me.
I too can see, hunger in your eyes 
Nothing matters, nothing at all
Keeping your distance,
Me that adores you, feel you touch you
With my mind's mind, my heart...
In the darkness of my nights
I want you, need you to hold me
Telling me it's all right
As I whisper on to you...
Please, darling, do look at me
What do you see
Do you see me as I see you?
Or do you see me, as this infernal thing
In the eyes of your mind...
Misunderstanding me!
As I try reaching your mind
But, differently, your eyes are telling me
Wanting me, as much as I do you
But that won't do, I do know...
Just once darling just once
Would that do!
Would it be enough
Across from you, I stand to gaze
Lust in my blood, my mind
Or would it be love, I feel I know not!!
As we loved, in these Autumnal golden fields
With the leaves falling dancing in the wind
Just like any other being...
Exaltation reaching a crescendo
Euphorically...
Paramount in my mind
Absolutely nothing...
Above us a blanket of golden stars 
In the darkness of my firmament
Whispering, gazing into your eyes
My torment...
Knowing that in the recesses of my mind
Just for a moment!!

A Different me!!

       

O' poetry,
Poetry set me free
I owe you a different me!
I owe you my mind my heart my,
very soul...
And you owe me the kindness that,
you stole.
You owe me my loneliness,
my peace of mind.
My sleepless nights,
The silences, for your not there
But wandering the night, streets,
are calling as you're, roaming through
Sneaking quietly in the early morn...
At the clock, I glance surreptitiously
Coming home excitedly,
Reciting your words drunkenly
Phrases verses of poetry...
In my loneliness, longing for the touch
But, your perpetual drunkenness, sullenly!
I like you not this way!!
By the shore, I cried I cried in loneliness
In my ambiguousness, sorrow crucifying me
When I asked what happened to you?
You had no answer for me but said,
C'est la vie!
Instead, quoting a verse of poetry
In the darkness of my nights, searching you
With the approaching of a new dawn
The rising sun's imminent...
Over that mountain beyond the waterfall
Above the clouds peeking, through
Wearing its rays like a crown
Glistening little diamonds...
Trees are laden in dew, as the light seeps through
Frosted grasses glistening in the morning sun
Like dew tears forming behind my eyes,
kissing you!
Memories of times past...
So cold in the wet morning dew
That tinge of blue your lips hands, like ice
Running my hands over you just to warm you
Sitting forlornly along, the shore drunken 
Perpetually your drunkenness, your words
Such as Poetry!
O' Poetry, I owe you my world, my reason for living
My dying my freedom my life
Silently my tears are falling,
My secrets, in the depths of my heart
Residing within me I feel a stranger
Feeling so lonely, can you not see!!
O' Poetry!
I owe you the feeling of I, know not what
Of being born!
And my love of finding him, to lose again
O' Poetry !!
Poetry, I owe you,
A different me!!

Autumnal Times

Autumnal Times

Autumn's here to stay
Time to get out and play
Pointing my camera lens, every which way
Processing in my mind
The wonder before my eyes
Rustling through the autumnal, fallen leaves 
Dancing the Charleston making a game
Jumping and kicking,
Delving into ones, whispering mind 
Optimum richness, right up to your eyes
As one swims through those autumnal fallen leaves
Enriching my mind!!
The reds goldens the rusts
Snapping away each frame, as I meander through
Beneath my feet a carpet, mesmerisingly
That once in a wondrous canopy above
Proudly displaying in a vigour,
Sublime to my eyes!!
The awesomeness of summer in its gloriousness
Amongst its canopy, little birds chirping away 
In a symphony a chorus, in times of plenty
Gladdening my eyes once again...
I sigh in the very extremities of me, a sight
like no other... 
In autumn times forgotten...
Gazing whichever way you turn, magically enchanting
A chorus, a symphony, without refrain,
Melodiously singing in unison
Revibrating through the canopy  in the
evening cool breeze...
Keenly listening to their warbling sounds 
Attacking one's senses, a sight for sore eyes   
Magic abounds...
A case of sadness, of summer times, expiring
And I on a whim
Rustling through the autumnal, fallen leaves
Before winter times rushes in...

Alone!!

Alone!!


This morning my worlds pressing down on me!
There's a weight upon my heart
A gossamer over my eyes, wake I want not
Sorrow residing in my heart...
Loneliness, must I feel so alone
Those in my world understands not me 
What I am what I'll be
Turmoil residing within me!
Chastising my mind, for thinking not.
Spontaneity rules my world
Thinking not always...
But the ambivalence in me,
Living a day at the time, my way...
Care not always what I do or say!   
My nature's to love those in, my world
But if my phraseology fails by the wayside
In whatever I do or say!!
To speak my mind always my way
If those in my world care not to hear what I say
Best stay away!!
From a mind thinking not, always
At war, my mind and I what to do or say
My mind filters not my, thoughts in any way
Flowing through me, whether good or bad
Or indeed ugly...
The essence of me, why must I be me!
This being that knows not copes, cannot
Living from day to day...
Turbulence escaping, me my thoughts,
The very extremities of my mind... 
A being that does not sing and dance at all times
Sinking in the mire of my thoughts
When there's doubt in my mind...
Would rather, sing and dance at every change!!
Except, darkness stealing the light from my mind
Dispersing not that gossamer, impeding the light 
In the darkness, my mind
Alone!!

Rising Feelings ...

Rising Feelings

My eyes see, 

But cannot speak... 

Just, like that clap of thunder far away

Am a woman that walks alone, without experience 

of the world...

Might as well be a child, in all innocence;  

But a child kisses not your shadow, as they dance 

Hand in hand in the streets, interlocking hands

Dancing, as if we'd never let go... 

Why waste time sleeping, you'll be leaving 

in the morning,

And I'll be left weeping within the sorrow 

Immersing in the laughter, for the here and now 

For when you're gone...

I'll be left in the grips of the melancholy hereafter     

As I reach helplessly for that scintillating star.

With the feeling of emptiness, in my heart    

For when I kiss your eyes your lips, 

Downs to your fingertips...

For I know you'll be gone, far from me, from me!  

What will I do as midnight tolls away

And am reaching out to you, your not there!

I sleep awake sleep awake, in the thunder of the night    

My whole being trembling like, the trees in the forest 

As their leaves sway and dance, in the moonlight  

Leaving me all alone... 

As you've done without a thought in the world;

I shouldn't have said I loved you, 

Between that hill, that mountain high...  

Recollecting, refrain cannot from what was said 

The beaming moon, trailing you in mid light 

Has brought you, close so close

Whisperings, my mind...

To hold you, to feel to feel you, close to me

Hungry kisses brought us to an impasse...

The poetry that goes beyond, you and me!  

We have a hunger, our lips our eyes  

This thing between you and I 

Hurt feelings as you ignore me     

For am human, with feeling too

I can love-hate just, like you!! 

But as we clash, a turbulent mind

Touching your face your lips, with mine 

Feeling, love in my heart... 

As you came in from the storm,

Constricting my heart...

You are killing me my darling, 

With your poetry, your verses of love!! 

O'Lord!..

O' Lord
God turned the lights off
It'a dark as sin, my way,
Am I a terrible sinner
Living from my day to day,
To relieve darkness, from my
darkest days...
Naughty I can be when my, blues won't disperse away...
Setting on my mind, a dark gossamer cloud
The boredom I must lift,

a mind that wants to play...
Some word game, to keep my blues away...
It's gone as dark as sin
Haven't seen the sun in days
A distraction I must find
Otherwise, my mind will play havoc all-day
And it won't be a pretty day!!
I need brightens in my days, settling my mind
Casting light upon my eyes,
Lighting my path...
That otherwise will think, its winter times
When darkness permeates, my soul
Refusing to let light in,
My mind...
Struggling to see, lightness
Before darkness sets in...
If light cannot see, my soul tumbles down, on me...
I see, times changing beautifully
Enriching my mind an infusion of
Autumnal Colours...
Lifting that gossamer, impeding me, from seeing
A kaleidoscope, a vision
Cascading from their canopy's
Reds golds bronzes rust's, beneath my feet
Enriching a warm periphery vision, my eyes
A warm carpet of colour, feeling cosy within...
The awesomeness of an Autunamal, warm colours
In a transaction, a time for hibernation
Before winter rushes in...
Dispersing from me, that sad feeling
Some brights days hopefully
Keeping my blues away!!