A Higher Plateau ====

It's rather invigorating
Yah!
One feels light, of mind high in spirit 
On top of my world standing
Way beyond imagination...
Casting my eyes far and wide
It's magnificence, spellbound leaving you
As if God cast a spell, on your little world
A world struggling to survive, the beastliness
Of those surrounding you...
Facing you, falsity in their masks   
Ripping your heart, till the last drop of blood
Sips through...
A heart they have not, noughts new!
Their miserable lives, so false towards you...
This is when I need my Purbecks of Dorset
Lifting my spirits a hundrefold, its true
On the very top of my world standing
Mesmerising view!
Words you have not.
Running through the emotion
Filling your heart,
Help you cannot, a silent tear spilling   
Emotionally in awe the beauty surrounding you
Far and wide casting your eyes
Beyond the horizon far...
Swaying in the wind grasses, a golden ocean
Undulating in the breeze...
Facing that mountain, up and down hills
Before exhaustion, spilling out of you.
The exertion your limbs, refusing to pull through
Your mind crying out
To the maximum forcing bleeding you
So hard to breathe, pausing admiring the view
In your mouth, your hearts jumping out of you     
Shaking legs the exertion dragging, you
One more step breaking through
Another breath, catching up with the rest of you
Reaching your goal, scanning far and wide the view
Collapsing on your knees, on top of your world
Your pulsating heart fighting, for oxygen
Slowing down for a moment or two...
One heart beating excessively, like a drum   
Boom, boom...
Ones mind the endorphins, lifting you
The ecstasy, the adrenalin pumping through
Gazing about you
Lifting your mood your spirits
To a higher plateau!!

Whispers In The Wind

In the vastness of our world
Why must one feel so alone, so lonely
But if I whisper long and slow
Will you hear me, my love
Will you hear, the whispers in the wind
That whistling sound...
Going round and round, that ghostly sound
It's me calling you, come to me don't you see!
But you my love, do not hear me
You do not answer me!
There's a fire, burning in my heart
Waiting, waiting for you to quench it
Yet I know, I know my love, you share this need
This obsession, driving me insane
Cannot eat or sleep, my love
You're beneath my skin...
In the distance I see you,
You're so young and beautiful, my love...
In the darkness of my nights, I yearn for you
But my head tells me, do not be foolish
But my heart, my heart's fragmenting
Shall I whisper, much louder, my love
I have not the strength, to whisper much louder
It makes no difference...
Ahh! On the horizon far I see you
Is it a mirage, or an illusion
Missing a beat my heart, this vision of you
You're so young and beautiful!
That, proud gait in your walk, your eyes
The way you stand, looking at me...
Please! Look not at me, that way
What chance have I, my love
If you look at me, that way
Your mesmerising eyes affects me
Bewitching me!!
My heart cry's for me, my love
How can I, let you go...
You must want me not, my love
It's not right wanting me, please!
I know, I've whispered in the winds,
Didn't think you heard me, my love
You're sending shivers, down my spine
Butterflies fluttering, in my blood
It's beyond me!
The sight of you, playing delicious havoc
With me, my love...
Begging, please let me go...
The intensity of this love's right beyond me
But it's not right to keep you, my love
Cling not to me, please!
I must let you go...
Although the fire, in my blood
Will keep burning for you
My love!!

Running Riot +++++

Running Riot

My brain's running riot,
It's hard controlling, my thoughts
echoing through me...
The imagery, fighting one's mind
Under control, keeping one's feelings, intact
Should I write, my thoughts my way
Into conflict, my words getting me
They that understand not me, my mind
Half measures won't do...
But my uncontrollable mind, control cannot
The visions within me...
Good bad, ugly or indifferent
The consequences I must live with...
Dear lord!
I've flipped, what I've said and do
Acting first, thinking not in, anyway
It's inconsequential, once voiced, relief!
Things that I've aspired, not slow in coming, forward
My friends, I drive insane,
With, my imagery my wants refrain, cannot from voicing... 
Uncontrollable, thoughts desires
One's mind, a brain, control cannot
Like a child, wanting this toy, no other will do
Setting one's mind, from the start,
Uncompromisingly...
I'll always try seeing, things as they are
Like a tunnel vision, not
Bumbling through life, indifferently
Argue cannot, or reason in any, way
The ambivalence, of being me
Leaving me dumbfounded, the consequence
of my acts...
Should I have acted, in any such way,
maybe not, no way!
Going from A to Z in my every day of my days
One day knocking at our door, imminently thegrim ripper, you'll have no say!
We think not what's to come our way, it's irrelevant.
But when my hearts full of love
For the one, that I love, should I love not!!
There won't be, un-contradictory thoughts nor irrational ways...
I've always been an impetuous being,
Spontaneous act first think later, my way
Spontaneity rules my life
Permissible or not has always been my way
But in the acts through my life, whatever I do or say
Love has always resided, in my heart...
Even those that see things, not my way
Love those that love me not...
Even as I loved with every, once I had, in me!
Not easy letting go, those that one, loves
The conspiracy, the fatality of a false, love
This obsessive love wanted, not in any way
The best about me, or maybe not
Little by little, love takes root, in my heart
Those in my life, day in day out
I'll always fight for those that, I love
Half measures, there won't be with my love
Unconditionally...   
There are no preconditions, with my love
Ask not why I love! I love just because
I love...
Come whatever may!! 

Your Phrases ++++++

Your Phrases

Darling, you're not responsible, for me
falling for you...
Just your eyes, the windows to your soul
Just your eyes darling, are guilty
For the way, I feel for you...
Yet you say you've done nought,
encouraging, me my feelings...
Always, so careful keeping that lid upon,
my feelings or your feelings...
Yet I knew not, I felt this way, for you 
Until you, admonishing me protestingly
Why, did I not realised, or know
Didn't see the danger, of falling for you.
But your eyes, a temptation to me!
Deeply into my soul, penetratingly
Darling! Just a look from you is enough
Making me, falling apart fragmenting
Your phrases your words, incandescently, 

burning embers looking, into your eyes. So far, far away you'll be!... 
In my dreams!!
Yah!
Confoundedly, I do dream of you
Your gaze, penetrating right through, me 
And in my minds, mind...Wow!
Your eyes challenging, what's happening to me.
Yet, I looked not at all for this...
Turbulence within me, my mind
Relax cannot sleep, an impossibility
Turmoil, within me!
But like a chameleon, your changing
Drastically, changing your colours, before me 
I miss when you're not there, reaching for me 
Misery residing in me, when you I cannot see, you
A straight answer, you never give me...
Over time, you've changed, no more good, nights
Evoking, freely from you...
No more gazing into your eyes, kissing you
When all I want, is holding you...
Feel your heart, beating against mine, and feel
Feel you touching, your mind with mine 
Uncontrolably, convulsions running, through me 
Into a frenzy, we've loved through the night
Thinking, not wanting nought...
Your phrases, euphorically
Always, be with me   

I Shall Exist +++++++++

I shall Exist...

Many Moons have gone by
As I sit, beneath the blue, blue sky   
In this silent world locked. as I watch the skies
Trapped within this bottle,
Watching life going by, whilst I exist, just 
Something wrong, there must be with me
leaving me in a quandary...
Making me feel!! 
Why! Did you make me feel!
Should have left me in that, bottle, that was my world
Feelings dead, within me...
Why must you, pull that cork, setting me free!
Free, from the dead feelings, inside of me!
Now spilling out these feelings...
What have you done?
Feeling good was optional to me! 
About my world going, no words from you
Just needed someone thought, I found one in you
You brought out feelings, I knew not existed
Was having fun, I must say silly me!
Pulling out sticks, ignoring me
A heart I possess and feeling too
Silly fool, my heart cries for me
Those that know me not, why
take umbrage, at what I do and say
Even at my sale by date, they still try
To catch my eye, catch me unaware's
By now! I should have known not to care
If the windows, of my world, cast a glance and stare 
looking, deeply into my soul, getting not anywhere
But you, my friend, gave me more than I've asked for...
Although, was having fun like never before!
You filled me my mind, with visions
Possible I thought not, foolish me!
Ignorance is not a must, my eyes wide open you see
Missing a beat my heart's, somersaulting...
Where does this leave me! a heart in sorrow
In my ambiguity, this foolishness
The slapper, you brought out in me
To this point, I know not how we came to be
Must have had this need in me
To cast my arms and fly, amongst the birds in the skies 
That Condor undulating, those thermal winds, of life...
Experiencing, a life you said was there for me
Life's for, living life's too short...
That life I've lived such a short, while
I knew madness, would be, but a hoot I gave, not
Enjoying too much, what can I say!
Now, must crawl back into my bottle, where I
should have been...
Like a genie, finishing my days, in desultory...
Your teasing, I'll miss such a lot
Et Tu!
I do exist!!             

   

A Merman!! ++++++

A Merman!

Sprawled on my rock, for all to see
His eyes were deep and dark, as my oceans
Viscous, dark pools, I see in he
Lying, on my rock, how dare he!!
Disturbing my mind!
Deep dark eyes, gazing at me...
Oh dear lord, his hair as dark as the night
His skin, silky glistening lustrously,
staring at me...
Look not at mt thus!! I admonish he
His face chiselled, his nose lifting a little
His lips red like ripe cherries...
Biting his lip unconsciously, as if he's not sure
Ambiguity not present in he...
His arms strong, his shoulders wide
chiselled, his torso...
He mesmerised me!
So sure of himself, no ambiguity about he...
His face had that little, Je ne sais quoi
Perfection, I'll say gorgeous!!
How can one be as gorgeous as he!
Think I could not, I didn't want to think
In trouble, I'll always be best, if I think not, an oddity
Look at me not thus!
Emerging myself I'll be, How can you!!
His eyes viscous, deep dark pools
Then changeable, darkest bluest I've ever seen
Blue as the night sky, deepest oceans fathom deep like
a chameleon, changing before me!...
Enthralled, was I by he!!
That smile, amazingly he seemed to be
bewitching, me!!
Am, taken into cool, aquamarine waters,
mesmerising, me his fluidity...
His move's like a ballet, spinning En-Pointe
Magnificently it seemed to me...
His move's like a Dolphin's, the purity, the elegance
His laughter, penetrating bewitching, me...
Like a Siren's song, penetrating reaching, a crescendo
A madness surging through me...
In the eyes of my mind, I still see he
Mocking, gazing at me.
As he slighters into the sea ...
A Merman!! Did I see! was I dreaming!
An illusion, lying by the water's edge lapping, over me...
A summer cool breeze, whispering, dreamily 
My imagination I dare say, barking mad!!
As I leave, glancing back, at the turquoise clear

waters, there's no sign of he...         
Embedded in my memory...
He'll always be!

Bright Like A Diamond +++++

Bright Like A Diamond

The sun's shining through my window
It's calling to me...
Bright, so bright as a diamond
I can hardly see!
So hard trying, lifting this gossamer,
from my mind...
Impeding me from visualising,
that golden, sphere glistening brightly
Light, before darkness set's in
Now, deeming hiding from me!
A cat and mouse game eluding, me...
Now you see, then you go away, from me...
Behind that cloud, hiding, obliterating, the light
from my eyes, I cannot disguise, you...
My head won't let me,
Calling, smiling at me, tempting me
The room's spinning on me, as if drunk I'd be
Yet he's looking at me winking, calling me
But my legs, won't hold me, such a bane you see
The room spinning on me!
But get up, I must crawl if I must be
The effort's such leaving, me weak collapsing
On my bed lying, the sun's talking to me
Get up you must be!
Hello. Mr sunshine, won't you help me,
from the way am feeling, today
It's way beyond me...
So nice greeting me!
My ass, I cannot move, from my bed this

emptiness;
Wait!! Wait, Mr sunshine for me
Truly, am trying can't you see...
Lifting my head from my pillow,

without draining me...

As if am, all at sea!

Bobbing on the waves, nauseously 

Lying down, best option, for me 

Until this feeling disperses, from me  

It's a beautiful day, gazing through my window 

Cumulous clouds, gliding dispersingly 

White, rippling waters, the sea across from me... 

The sun's not waiting, moving away from me   

A weakness feeling, shitless  you see

But of course, you do not see!! 

But get up I must, make an effort, won't you help,

Mr sunshine, still peeping at me, calling me 

Get your butt, from that bed come and dance with me...       

I'll try truly I will, Mr sunshine
If this gossamer disperses, from my mind
Impeding me from visualising
Your scintillating rays, rising my hands to the skies...
Worshipping, that golden sphere
Like an aura crowning me
Like a diamond...
Mesmerising me!!