Where Will You Be

   By Connie James 

Darling get out of my head 

Embedded in my mind, you'll forever be.
When making love, coming to mind.

This longing for you's an aberration.

So detached from me at all times.

Yet I feel your eyes following me. 

Penetrating, ruling me. 

All through the week, you can rule me.

Softly, softly pianissimo! 

Admonishing me, he'll be, for 

Thinking of you.
For feeling loving you! 

Don't ever tell me what to feel, see or think.

Darling, thinking of you!  

Here sit I, across the water from you 

In the freshness of the morning in dew.
Before the sun opens, he's eyes. 
To the gloriousness of a new day...  

In your element, I see you across from me. 

Stretching up to the skies. 

A sight for tired eyes.
Can you not feel my darling messaging 

Via your mind.

Worshipping the essence of you. 

I can hear bells pealing in the distance.

In my wooden cabin sitting amongst the trees 

Feeling like Jane waiting for my primitive Tarzan. 
To swing by.

The birds are singing. 

In a glorious symphony lifting my spirits high.

As I try flying from tree to tree

In my mind's mind.  

So lonely darling with me and me!

But still, the bells are ringing elevating me.

And continually being admonished by, he 
In how I should see, feel or think.

Soaring out of his reach, into infinity.
All I see are your eyes following me.

And he shouting at me! 
That there are rules to follow!

F..k the rules say I, a sheep I've never been
Nor will ever be!

A mind of my own I possess to do see and think. 

As I please.

But darling trying shutting out the cacophony.
Interfering with my senses.

Darling, can you feel not my breath 

As I whisper in your ear, what I'd like to do! 

Standing behind you cupping your eyes...

Cruising down your spine  

Kiss each and every vertebra, slowly.

This fantasy feeling your every sinew... 

Looking into your eyes, 

Through, me penetrating an infusion 
Reawakening me.

The adrenalin intoxicating entering my blood 

Into a point of no return,  

Minds all over the shop concentrate cannot. 

Like a bird in a golden cage fluttering 

Whispering winds undulating in the breeze

The sound of a flute rising in the air. 

The sweetest of sounds.

Casting my gaze beyond yonder, I see nought.

Except for fluttering birds panicking between the trees 

Perching right in front of me that skeletal tree   
Squawking infernally...
Darling where will you be.

Thinking of thee.  

    

Just One Day

          Just One Day 

       By Connie James

Just one day in my life 
Just one day.
I'd love to be loved like no other 
In any other way. 
To be loved unconditionally 
Matters not what they'll do or say
Holding me close, even If I push you away
To share my life despite my ways!!

What I spew out when I'm hurt
when you walk away!
The silence's a killer, what can I say!

Yesterdays!
So many many yesterdays 
When you'd take me by the hand and say.
You are my love my life the Stellar in my skies.
You've sparkling diamonds in your eyes.
Filling my heart when you smile  
Inexplicably in a wonderful way. 

Loving you matters not.
Whether to love you, they have no say.
Shivers running through me. 
Fighting all the way.

It's my life, I'll play it my way.
Stubbornly, they'll say;
To love you not in any way.

Conspiringly you'll say, my love 
I love you!   
In my ambiguity, I turn and look away
Extinguishable my love's not
In any way;
The world we live in understanding not
No way!  

But some days my obtuseness   
It's there for all to see.
When extolling my love, uncontrollably 
When it comes down to you, in every way 
Let it be, let it be they'll say. 
The silence's killing me.
Ominously you'll love me not in any way!

Yesterday!
Why must I think of yesterdays! 
When we'd sing and dance at every chance 
And make love in every way.
The stormy winds now have taken it all away. 
We've left ambiguously in what to think or say.
But I refuse to say no more's 
I Love You...

He's Great

      

Edited version 

  By Connie Jame

He's Great

Standing before me I imagine, he 
In the eyes Of my mind 

Ahh! Imaginings;
      Echoing through me my mind, a time 
When he stood, gazing at me
Much laughter in his eyes.

I love nudging up to him spontaneously.
Kissing his eyes!
      It's there to see my impetuosity. 
Jut reactions from me! 

He drives me spare, psychologically;  
Disrobing me! 
Cannot bear he gazing at me thus.

Scaling I'll be that mountain high.
Just to see to be with, he! 
Ahh! His eyes like those flax blue fields 
       In the distance;
I see a colourful sea of blue, twinkling. 

Mischievously bewitching me.
        His greatness I see it's inherently within, He.
Carrying within me this obsession;
That Galic air about, He   
        His proud stance, the way he walks
Like a Peacock in the distance.

         The redness of his hair;    
There is something about He 
What flummoxes me; 
Looking at me right in the eyes! 
       Unflinchingly; 
The attraction, connecting me.

        He's always great when you enquire of He.
Looking into his eyes, mmm Kissing his lips!
       Surprised I'll be at the reaction of He...

Missing a beat my heart.   
That perpetual look in his eyes
         Leaving me wondering;

Inexorably there's a fire burning my blood.
Always great He seems to be;
Mischieviousness, looking into his eyes  
You can see how great he can be!

           But the greatness of he no one can see but me!

A great mover He'll be dancing cheek to cheek. 
           I can feel the greatness of He;
O' dear Lord! 
I could kiss the very core of He.

         Taking me beyond reality, thus feeling...
Disperse must not from me!
Holding closer that twang of his.
Softly whispering, shall we?  

         Feeling desire, my blood's on fire!
My heart beating, like a drum excessively.  
Boom, boom! By the greatness of He;

He knows how to play me, unhurriedly. 
Like a harp plucking at the strings of my heart
         Inexorably;
Wrapping my arms around him 
Bewitched, always living me.  

       His eyes the colour of my skies 
And the cornflower fields across the way... 
Swaying in the breeze, an ocean of blue;  
           knowing smiling, mesmerising beguilingly...  

   

I Am She!

I Am She!

By Connie James

I am she
That captive bird in my golden cage
swaying in the breeze
Stale the air that I breath choaking life
Beneath my blue skies
Taking me far and wide being
Carried in the wind.
I'm the wind beneath his sails and
Of his words, I dream
Skimming the waves ecstatically
Tormenting me
Filling my heart, with wondrous yearnings.
To touch to kiss, to feel!
You cannot disguise the look in your eyes.
What's happening with you,
Where did you get to?
Your phrases confounding me your words
Having me begging.
Painting me with your eyes assiduously
Like a trapped bird that cannot fly
Fluttering my heart.
Missing your arms enfolding me.
In the ambiguity of being free
Taking to my wings and fly
Into the thermal winds.
You're the winds beneath my sails
The air I breathe
And the way I undulate
Beneath my skin.
The dreams I've dreamed,
Rivers rippling through me
Carried away, tempestuously by the breeze.
His words filling my senses
With longings of yesteryear,
Phrases I want to hear yearnings of love 
To touch to kiss your lips
Conditioning my Mind, in ways possible
I thought not.
But there again finding myself a captivated
Bird, unable to fly.
Beyond the clouds peeking the skies
The scent of, he inebriating me
Like a fine wine
His words filling my Mind
With pink dreams
To have to hold, touch to kiss
To be free!
To fly!

Temptation's Too Much

Temptation's Too Much
     
   By Connie James


I've only this flickering candlelight
To just about see
There's a certain warmth exuding from it
As I sit by the opened window
Letting the night in
As I write ambiguous words
That I know not the meaning of
Those meaningless words, written on the wall
Mirrored  like reflections
Secret dreams.
Deep into my psyche dreams
That gives you that warm feeling all over
Dreams that you want to wake up never
As the wind blows through my window
Bringing me back from my reverie.
Touching my pen to my lips
The lips that call out your name
The pitta patter of the rain
Upon my window pane.
Bringing me back to reality
Of thoughts flowing through my mind.
What if, what if it was he!
Playing with words on my mind
Dreaming unconsciously, of he
Of the stars the Moon in her full bloom
Right above me.
As I reach and touch, touch uncertainly
Your mind with mine, possibly.
That glorious vision before my eyes
I've created in my poetry...
The temptation's too much
Our madness that sheer madness
The craziness that magic between you and me
Finding my pen starting uttering
My eloquently ambiguously
Unintelligent kind of poetry
Like a rebirth
Transcending through me.

Apollo's In Town

Apollo's in town 

Needing these vibrant colours
Of mine Madeiran flowers
To feed my mind my soul
Even if my skies are weeping
Tears from heaven.
My heart's constricting, this ache within me.
Apollo's been in town, chasing all and sundry.
A new Adonis on the block he'll be.
Fascinated leaving me
Real I thought he'd be.
Confounded I'll be.
Wanting to escape, take to my wings and fly
Like a bird in my cerulean sky.
Looking back not at, he!
To lift this gossamer from my mind.
That otherwise, taking me beyond this greyness
Into Infinitum!
Bear cannot think I must not.
Imaginings crossing my mind, mustn't go near he
Unworthy of me was he...
Only one thing on his mind, convoluted leaving me
Coiled...
While speaking endearments of love
On your back, screaming ecstatically.
Euphorically, touch, kiss me says he...
Loving the exhilaration of his touch
Intoxicated leaving me.
Inebriating my blood in my veins, imploding. 
Awaiting, their lies most unconvincing.
Uttering endearments of love...
I've been waiting for you all my life, extollingly.
Just a way to getting you in the sac, unfortunately.
Like a bloody fool went I along with he
With each sensation feeling excruciatingly 
Up to their expectation coming not.
If Panther like you'll growl not, scratchingly
From a great height, dropping you...
The cuckoo leaving the nest.
What's it all about...
Sokin  Ukabat!       

But Darling

But Darling!

By Connie James

Be a good girl and go to sleep
But Darling I cannot sleep
I if we could make love I know I'll sleep
You can sleep easily?
Oh, darling! 
This morning making love I tried
I had you on my mind knew not how it happened
OMG! Darling.
So easy, with you on my mind.
I wanted you just you, no good pretending!
I know not where the feeling exuded from
Darling, it's been a while since I've felt such euphoria.
Making love, oh Lord!
It was, I had you know what!
For crying out loud, love me whispering
Oh, darling love, me...
My god darling, a bad person I'll be
But it felt so good, being bad.
Together, touching skin to skin
I can't disguise looking into your eyes 
This feeling for you.
My need to kiss you scaling high
Your face softly against mine.
I feel your heart beating like a drum
Kissing your lips hungrily.
My tongue pocking that hollow below you chin
Playfully.
My senses overflowing like a stream
My mind shuddering
Softly bitting your chin...
My heart escaping my chest
Beating like a drum.
And I!
Without defences,
Whispering over me your hands
Touching me tentatively.
Ahh!
Eruptions escaping me frissons running through me
Taking hold of me my fibrillating heart
As you touch me sensually.
My reason, escaping me
Your skin pulsating against mine.
Ahh! Taking over from me 
Kissing every little inch of me, losing my mind
Just be mine, escapism lost in time.
Reaching a point of no return arching close
Until I'm crying euphorically.
Achieving the heights possible I thought not
Screaming please darling, please.
Into the Infinitum of my mind transcending
Lifting that gossamer from my eyes
Sated teras escaping me
I loved abandonly as is a tomorrow there wouldn't be
That elusive illusion dispersing finally
That you're only in the regions of my mind
Disillusioned must I be!