Air Of Madness

Madness is in the air surrounding all around me
That madness that drives one implicitly on
Without rhyme or reason,
Searching that un-forgetful image
Deeply rooted in one's mind
Whether it'll be real or imaginary,
That obsessive need searching deeply
Into the recesses of one's mind
Not just the shadows but the truth residing
Attaching deep into one's soul...
What one visionary sees, or believes one sees...
That vision, one's been searching such a long time.
Crossing that unforgetful road
Deeply rooted in the regions of my mind
Stepping upon that portal of all times
Where once love lived in the extremity's, of my mind
Standing, there tears welling up but refusing to shed
Remembering, forgetting not how good it used to be
Just then, the moon in her full bloom
Hidden behind her gossamer veil,
Casting her magic upon his visage so clear in my mind
Shining on that unattainable beloved face,
That's ingrained forever in one's mind
But yet again is it real, or just imaginary
But caring one does not
As one finds oneself uttering words,
In ones constricted throat
I love you...

                      By Connie James 

Beneath The Silvery Moon

Believe I could not it was you standing there
Just holding my stare
Was mesmerized by you,
Every few passes kept glancing back at you
You said not a word, just staring my way
I was sure in my minds mind it was you, yet
It seemed to me you were avoiding me
Waiting for me to go on by!
Within me, I had this feeling it stayed with me for some time!
Could not get you out of my mind...
I could believe not that you passed by without uttering a hi!
Can bear not as you pass by without a phrase a word uttered
So hard to entertain, difficult to frame
Words running through my mind
From a stranger phrases much easier to obtain
At the alley, I saw you as you came through
Rustling the autumn fallen leaves
And in the misty fog, you looked blue
Through those magnificent grand door's you exited through
Shivering looking at me so cold, winter penetrating you
That cold winters day the darkness seeping through
The evening setting sun casting it's shadow on you
You looked to me as I haven't seen before
So dapper so debonair..
And I looking for a reason to get closer to you
But I needed no reason, just an excuse a reason
Just to touch you
Beneath the silvery moon
In the silence of the night, the winds came out to play
And I held you close to me thus
Tonight I held my hand cupping your head,
Standing close as we begun to dance, moving slowly as one
Those intricate steps the new craze, all round.
I held you tight as we shimmered about the room, just you & me
But as the music take's hold our minds in a fog,
As we dance and danced without a thought in the world
Our minds so attuned to the music, no time to whisper and say
After such a long time, we're drifting away
With memories of what I never said, nor will say
Giving me not a chance to say...Please stay.
Towards the river we'd walk, like many times before
Where we'd spend the night, by the lantern light the fort so far away
Something else on my mind, before you go away
Just sit beside me so I can see you your face, inhale the scent of you
Touch you again and again, for when your away from me
I shall exist not completely nor happily without you
In the night of my nights, I'd often recall, that night of all nights
When we were fancy, free, there will never be such a night
That night when we made poetry...

                       By Connie James 

Beneath The Silvery Moon

Believe I could not it was you standing there
Just holding my stare
Was mesmerized by you,
Every few passes kept glancing back at you
You said not a word, just staring my way
I was sure in my minds mind it was you, yet
It seemed to me you were avoiding me
Waiting for me to go on by!
Within me, I had this feeling it stayed with me for some time!
Could not get you out of my mind...
I could believe not that you passed by without uttering a hi!
Can bear not as you pass by without a phrase a word uttered
So hard to entertain, difficult to frame
Words running through my mind
From a stranger phrases much easier to obtain
At the alley, I saw you as you came through
Rustling the autumn fallen leaves
And in the misty fog, you looked blue
Through those magnificent grand door's you exited through
Shivering looking at me so cold, winter penetrating you
That cold winters day the darkness seeping through
The evening setting sun casting it's shadow on you
You looked to me as I haven't seen before
So dapper so debonair..
And I looking for a reason to get closer to you
But I needed no reason, just an excuse a reason
Just to touch you
Beneath the silvery moon
In the silence of the night, the winds came out to play
And I held you close to me thus
Tonight I held my hand cupping your head,
Standing close as we begun to dance, moving slowly as one
Those intricate steps the new craze, all round.
I held you tight as we shimmered about the room, just you & I
But as the music take's hold our minds in a fog,
As we dance and danced without a thought in the world
Our minds so attuned to the music, no time to whisper and say
After such a long time, we're drifting away
With memories of what I never said, nor will say
Giving me not a chance to say...
Please stay!
Towards the river we'd walk, like many times before
Where we'd spend the night,
By the light of the moon & the lantern light swinging in the breeze
Something else on my mind, before you go away
Just sit beside me so I can see you your face, inhale the scent of you
Touch you again and again, for when your away from me
I shall exist not completely nor happily without you
In the night of my nights, I'd often recall, that night of all nights
When we were fancy, free, there will never be such a night
That night when we made poetry...

                       By Connie James 

Look at Me!

Look at Me!

Look at me won't you look, at me!
Can you see not the love light in my eyes?
Each time I see you into overdrive I go,
I become this thing control cannot my mind
Each time I see you gazing at me the way you do
Having no defences as you smile looking at me
Ecstasy within me, as you touch me with your eyes
The correlation between you & me Ahh!
Believe I cannot the euphoria within me
My eyes wanting you begging you
Won't you love me like yesterday
When, love was our way!
At arm's length, you keep me
When I so want you to love to me!
Into the vision of my eyes, you came to me gloriously
Just to be gone in a blink of an eye,
Dispersing before me!!
Crying out, no!!
Stay & love me like yesterday!
Flittingly always in a hurry you see
Within me, my tears flowing like a river
Dispersing to the sea & you're not there to carry me.  
In the recesses of my mind am screaming    
Why must he!
Why must he have this effect on me?
Control cannot this river within me
Angry wild destroying carrying all in front of me
Uprooting from my heart roots
That I attended so carefully deeply within
That touch I remember
Touching me sending me into a frenzy
Your eyes burning wild
Bu this wildness this primitiveness in me
Control I cannot forever irrevocably on my mind
This thing between you & me
Must be inherently within me
An aberration cannot be
On top of my world, I'll always be
As I look across the pond at he
As you're whispering endearments of love
Control can not these feelings
My primitive feelings, of love or lust!
I know not! no, never before experienced
Obey me my mind will not
Somersaulting my heart, at the sight of you...
Am all at sea as I gaze at he
Somersaulting my heart skipping from me
His blue eyes gazing at me intently
Disperse from me this feeling will not
Matters not how hard I try...
Making love his eyes euphorically sending me
Into a chasm, falling the differences between you & me
Dispersing through the precipice's of my minds mind  
Touching me, before darkness set's in  
Once again whispering this being within me.  
But this primitiveness in me
Unfurling my hair's for all to see
Help I cannot I can not help
This raw primitiveness
Inherently in me

                          By Connie James

Time Stood Still

If only time, stood still when am with you
But in a blink of an eye,
Time passes through my love!
It's impossible to say whether time
Has flown by for you & me
But time seems to fly by when am with you.
At the lake, side you stand feet deep
Water lapping at your feet
Going blue your feet with the cold
But you noticed none of it.
Beneath the Aravalli, the winds hissing through
The air cascading through the hills,
As am hugging you.
Fleetingly kissing your lips I tried its true
But from across the street retreating shadows
Leaving me feeling uneasy
Hiding behind the Autumn, dewy trees
Nakedly in the wind.
The desire to touch you to have you close to me
To make you mine completely an impossibility I feel
Across the bay sails unfurled a sailing boat floating by
Once again wishing I was stepping upon those foreign shores
The Palace across the way,
The silvery moon I could swoon, as I set eyes on you
Breathing inhaling the very essence of you
Beneath the Aravalli the lights twinkling, across the away
The forts forgotten beyond an age, times passed not easy to say
My pages I've written with you in mind
But the words come not easy to me.
But the legacy of knowing you loving you as I do.
Leaving me sad at times, that frozen look, on your face
The meals we've shared in our struggling through our days
The scented room with those roses of old
Where we once again would be making love
Searching you the scent of you I remember so well
But answers I have none whether be they grey or white
Am just like the stranger passing through the night
My words come not easy in the lateness of the night
Touching you feeling you in the darkness of my nights
Loving you!
The shimmering reflections by the lakeside I see
Clearly, I can see the image of he
In times past real time unfazed times
Existing in my mind
I can finally write
Tonight my best-est lines...
For you!

 By Connie James...

Connie James – 5 star

Kimmeridge Bay...The Jurassic Coast
I've been coming to Kimmeridge It seems forever, for at least forty odd years
I never get tired of the place... We usually trek from the top most before you get to the village right down to the shore...As you stand on the cliff side, to the right there are oil fields the oil donkeys pumping up and down I guess extracting the oil, that's looking west...If you chose to go west you'll come upon, Worbarrow Bay such a lovely bay with the village, Tyneham village that's been taken over by the MOD during the war...Now it's a complete wreck nothing left apart from the church and the school...But if you, chose to stay around Kimmeridge, you won't be bored...You can spend a few hours, simply relaxing picnicking...Looking for fossils, I've photographed so many fossils, as you walk along the beach, going, East I have seen dinosaurs imprints kind of three claws Must say this was a few years ago...No matter how much, I search haven't been able to find it since
There's quite a bit of landslide's in the area rocks falling all the time...Bellow the rock face great big, boulders that, has fallen over time from the cliffs above ...So easy to walk along stepping from rock to rock. like crazy paving all sorts of shapes and sizes and as you go along the waters edge crystal clear waters...Limpets adhered firmly to the rocks and winkles & crabs galore...
It's so nice after a long trek on a hot day to just disrobe and lie on one of those flat rocks taking the sun Bliss! Then going to the waters edge cooling yourself down,
I used to clamber over those rocks whilst pregnant with both my boys...
Such a beautiful and calm place...For everyone.
My own boys loved fishing for crabs dangling a line on to the rock pools...
using ham from their sandwiches or the odd limpet or two!
Now your not allowed to pick limpets, as too many people's abusing picking them to eat...
Kimmeridge hasn't changed much over the years, Its still very wild and beautiful
One can imagine feral man people of yore going along foraging hollering to one another, as they stepped from stone to stone...
ttttttttt5tIt's such a mesmerising coastline...as I stand camera in hand photographing
Ammonites, scattered everywhere the strata on the rock face...the wildlife the plants...nature abounds everywhere. Its an an-spoilt coastline from Swanage right over to Lyme Regis...It's a truly awesome place to be...
Now I bet your sorry, asking me to tell you all about Kimmeridge...
Apologies Folk I do go on & on & on !!!


Connie James ...:-)

Blinding Me!

You've gone away from me
Feeling your loss so keenly.
Lying here thinking of you,
You that gives me reason to live
Insidious thoughts running through me
Surrendered my life momentarily
Can-not, breathe can not think can not sleep
Your roots growing deeply within me
But see you, I can not darling
The longings that I have for you
Your like that fountain I drink from,      
That very spring where I was born;
Seeing you, being with you;
Me, that needs you as I do, passionately
An unbelievable passion that primitiveness in me
You bring out that neanderthal in me
Seeing you across from me
Running wild my thoughts insidiously
In my primitiveness, I feel you; I feel you within me
Your eyes deep blue pools
Like that ocean before me, gazing at me
The hunger within me for you
Like a hurricane passing through,
Causing havoc within my mind
The nearness of you I feel you closer to me
In the darkness of my night's I want you, loving me!
I need you to hold me tight
Love me true as I would you
But darling you're so far
So far from me!
Lying here on my rock
With the ocean's white water's crashing through
Lulling me into peacefulness swaying in a dream;
But my mind won't let go of you
Fleetingly from dream to dream:
That little cove where we made out, hungrily;
As if we were Adam & Eve it's true...
Much too busy our hands; Exploring
Overflowing my mind with love for you
Or was it lust? In my restfulness, for you
You came from the sea gazing at me;
My eyes blinded from, the brightness exhuming from you
Scintillating upon the waters, casting little stars
My eyes so full of you, as you,
Slithered up to me as in a dream!
In your stance, you were smiling that gossamer behind you.
Missing you my lovely, don't you know
The very core of me!
Your roots I can feel growing through me
As I hold you, close so close;
Loving me,
But darling you are so far away from me!
Unfocused my mind can be.
Insidious thoughts running through me,
Like fire so wild!
Wild like my heart constricting me;
Quenching not me!
Into that gossamer, you go
Sliding just the way you came to me
A misty gossamer erupting from the sea's
Ocean's wild, in your eyes I could see, the opportunity;
If you were Neptune & I Venus, what would life be?
Or a mermaid, a siren roaming through the sea,s  
On this rock, I lie all the while waiting for He
But the brightness from, the sun's
Impeding that gossamer, from my eyes
Blinding me:

                      By Connie James...