Beyond Me...

Good day my world!
Don't feel so good this morning
Completely s..tless
My energy drained from me
As if a weight is grounding me
Feeling blue!
Know not what to do
My minds refusing to see beyond me
With the floodgates flowing
It's an impossibility
To visualise before me;
Out of my window, I see greyness
A dark world!
Dragging my spirits low
I can not think I can not  feel
Except this feeling of foreboding
Must put my light on & see
If this feeling disperses from me
For my world's as grey as can be
This gossamer refusing to let me see
The light beyond me
Feeling weak as can be;
Even the little birds aren't singing
Do they know something I do not know
Will my world fall from its axis!
Will there be destruction all around
Must lift this gossamer from my mind
Must go out there and kick butt
Helping me my minds not
To extract the silhouette-ness from my mind
In the semi, darkness can not live!!
O mind of mine set me free
From this darkness within me!!
For the light, I can not see
Beyond, beyond me!
Behind my eyes, exuding from me
Waterfalls flowing silently
Is this me!
Or this other being residing within me
Just go away & let me be!!
Alone with me
Me myself & me!!
Mil perdones my world
For my misery!!

Connie James...